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Old 01-03-2018, 11:13 PM   #126
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Re: Sacrificing it all for the love of the game

Wednesday

Played a session today. The session went pretty badly, though. Overall had a great feeling about how I played. Managed to make d2 in small $55 winter series with sth around top 15 stack which should be a good position to start a day 2. Other than that it was a ****show. Could not make a stack anywhere but marked a lot of hands so at least I got that going for me, which is nice

Lately I have a tooooooon of impulses / ideas to get better and creative and it just makes playing more fun. It's never ending cycle. Whenever you play you always find a few hands => you analyse them => you play again and you find another ones and you start testing stuff. so much fun

I think I am going to fire tomorrow and take a day off in Friday but I am going to re-evaluate that from series/"majors" perspective before doing so. Tomorrow 215 psko will be great so I will play with very high probability.

had roasted potatoes for dinner. They were great, the crispy skin was the highlight for sure

Quote of the day: "When you choose conditions which suit your mindset, you are free. When you choose a mindset which suits your conditions, you are settling."

In love with old Nas. third verse is something else. His flow in conjuction with that level of vocabulary and whole beat just makes it an ode

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Old 01-04-2018, 09:19 PM   #127
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Re: Sacrificing it all for the love of the game

Thursday

Had a group coaching with Graffy before firing. I did not feel ready to grind and it was already time to fire so I just got a fast 5min meditation and started regging. It did not go well today. d2 of 55 did not go well too but that's just how things are sometimes

Towards the end part of the grind I really wanted to turn off everything and do something else. It was one of those days where I pushed myself to play and I went little over the line. But that's great because I have identified certain moods/feelings/signals when it is good to not push it. That's how you turn a negative situation into positive, boys! take notes^^

If I have a "bad" day like this there is only one thing that can salvage that. Yeah, you guessed it (not), it's food I eat almost same things everyday and for some reason it always improves my mood no matter how good the mood is already. Especially bacon and eggs with buckwheat. I don't know if it's the process of making or consuming, but my brain is completely hooked on it and it feels so good lol

Now imagine that experience and amplify it via watching Action Bronson with his friend Clovis in the action. I don't even feel bad anymore. All the bad things that may have happened today? Erased. How easy.

Tomorrow I will not do anything poker related. I am giving myself a ban for 24hrs. No hands, no pio, no FTs, nothing. I can read a book, go to the gym, welness, whatever. Let's see how that works out

Quote of the day: "If it's easy it doesn't mean it's wrong. If it's hard there is no guarantee it's right."

There ya go with the 3rd part of Bronson and his friend Clovis. They are something else. I would not say that watching people eat good food and drink good wine could make me so happy but it just did

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Old 01-05-2018, 11:07 PM   #128
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Re: Sacrificing it all for the love of the game

Friday

crushed gym, gone to welness, enjoyed a great post workout meal. I have to say though that today's workout was very mentally challenging and I think I needed that more than ever. It was hard but the mental strength I acquire from the gym is just something else. If everybody would at least get a chance to dip their feet in my pool of confidence after my workout they would go fight freaking zombies with god damn rubber bands

Read a bunch of pages off the book. Got pleasant surprise from a friend in our small Discord channel. He posted his hand history of his 2k winter series run so I just gone through it and probably posted like 30 hands or something similar. It took me a lot of hours but these are the moments where you just do what you love and time flies past you don't even know how fast. Actually it was around 4 hours lol

3-day grind starts tomorrow. Winter series in terms of 500+ buy-ins is over for me so gg. Overall happy with the series, managed to cash my 1k thrill, got lucky with the swap. Hopefully next Winamax and Party series will continue to be good. There is some sort of new ACR schedule for Saturdays so let's see how it goes LFG

Quote of the day: "societal approval is an invisible force, crushing the greatness out of everyone who succumbs to it"

one of the best verses RA spit. ever^^. 2:15 is the time RA steals the whole track

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Old 01-06-2018, 09:07 PM   #129
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Re: Sacrificing it all for the love of the game

Saturday

Today was meh. No runs, no nothing. Just me regging all mtts available . Regged around 42 mtts today. Have the last Markovitsus on Winamax so I have already made sure to make bankroll update and decided to write the blog so I can save a little bit of time and maybe read a few pages before it's not too late unless I make it deep lol

I think I should actually switch to my phone Winamax app and go eat as I speak^^

made porridge for mom. highlight of the day; not even close

Quote of the day: "Life is so easy. There is no pressure forcing you to be fit or intelligent. The state of western world reflects this"

found this and many more gems by luck. I remember at some point I was trying to dig them but I was not lucky. Today they just appeared and made my day way better.

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Old 01-09-2018, 12:27 AM   #130
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Re: Sacrificing it all for the love of the game

Sunday & Monday

wanted to make an update about Sunday and Monday, how it went, what runs I made etc but I am not in a positive state of mind at this moment and I don't want to talk negative so maybe more luck in wednesday^^

I have been working for such a long time to create my own bubble. I have lived in it, I have enjoyed every moment of it. I was used to it and accepted it as my way of being. But today one person burst it. And I am unsure if I should be pissed or actually thankful for that fact. I don't remember a day when I had to go through so many negative emotions. Have I been holding it up for all this time?

I was ready to bring pen and paper and go through it. analyse it and find a root of why has it happened. But I fear what I can find. Will try to get a good sleep, meditate and go at it with clear mind tomorrow^^

Quote of the day: "If the person you were a couple of years ago does not make you cringe, you have not grown."




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Old 01-11-2018, 07:48 PM   #131
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Re: Sacrificing it all for the love of the game

Tuesday - Thursday

Not much happening. Just me putting a workout in, welness and one session. Managed to make day 2 of €100 wina series and €300 wina series but I bubbled €100 one and €300 did not go well too. I basically busted both of them in < 40 mins but that's not the end of the world

Last few days I took off a pedal from the floor. Relaxed a little bit more, got a little lazy which is simply seen in me updating this blog on non-daily basis

Today I have managed to go over 2 days of marked hands, Monday and Wednesday hands are ready for tomorrow. I am not sure if I will play, I may. I would like to try to fit in a workout before session and see how I feel. If it's doable, what needs to be done in order to get a gym session and poker session in a single day.

In order to that I will have to go to sleep sooner which should be achievable given I was welnessing today. So for tomorrow no excuses, it's going to be a tough day following sat-mon grind too so 4days of grind maybe in a row..

quote of the day: " Most people are sleep walkers totally controlled by their external area. They walk through the day hoping nothing goes "wrong". But what if you removed the fear of shiet going wrong?"

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Old 01-13-2018, 10:19 AM   #132
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Re: Sacrificing it all for the love of the game

Friday

Did not play nor gone to the gym. It was very unlike me but I have woke up quite late and was unable to go to gym before possible session. Did not play because I wanted to make sure that I do my out of table work which I did. 2 days worth of marked hands + 2 FTs. I have 4 more FTs to do but now the deficit will not be as big. Honestly, I think I could have done 2 more FTs but I watched stream of my friend from stable.

The more I have been listening to music the more I acknowledged that it creates/amplifies certain emotions in me. I have been dropping some 4-8bars freestyles for fun and it was actually making me happy so I am going to create my own Book of rhymes

For the past week I have learnt a lot about myself. How I percieve relationships, what I (don't) want in relationship, etc. Good stuff. Learning everyday

Lately I have felt like I was overeating on breakfast and porridge did not taste as good as before. Decided to cut 1/3 of oats and kept spices/honey the same. Way better

In regards to today and the next few days I have 3-day grind ahead of me. Let's make some good runs and have fun because that's what's it all about.

The more I am learning about mtts the more I acknowledege the fact that hs dream is prolly dead for near future. It would be very irresponsible in my situation to just yolo it..But maybe crushing high stakes was not my goal from the start..Good old pen and paper action will have to happen in order to find out.

Quote of the day: "I have such high standards for the people I surround myself with because I want us all to win. It really does make me sad when they don't wanna grow themselves."

I don't know whatsup with me and this old Nas shiet. He's just so good


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Old 01-13-2018, 10:53 PM   #133
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Re: Sacrificing it all for the love of the game

Saturday

Today was pretty poor. Managed to get somewhat deep in BB215 but on semiFT AK<JJ for heaps. At least managed to get a lot of bounties which is essential in these 25/75 pp/bounty pskos. Outside of that it was pretty bad

Honestly, I think I have kind of grown cold emotionally. There is too much stuff going on that can distract you from your to-do list (see how I did not use "goals"?). The way you run, the people in your life, your environment. So many distractions.

I have been actually kind of enjoying this process. I am enjoying it more than when I had "success" because when I had "success" I got greedy sometimes. Some days I was maybe not as hungry. Maybe a bit too comfortable. Honestly, life without pressure and not getting greater everyday bores the hell out of me. Did not happen as many times as it may sound like but I remember those days vividly. I thought that since I put so much time into the game I have a privilege to have good results. I don't want to consider myself ever being that person again. That's not who I am. Atm not doing very good results-wise, a lot of not good things happening lately, etc. Just me waking up everyday and challenging the next day with the mindset of crushing it. There are a lot of moments when I feel like giving up. But that's the moment when I know I have to push myself. Because I know that there is only one thing that matters and it is greatness. Since there is so much room to be greater than yesterday there should be no excuses to getting greater.

LET'S GET ****ING GREAT

Quote of the day: "You lack confidence because you have avoided everything that made you feel unconfident your whole life. Missed every chance to improve."






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Old 01-14-2018, 10:35 PM   #134
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Re: Sacrificing it all for the love of the game

Sunday

Another bricked Sunday in the office. got like top50 bigger109 and some itm in bigger55. Other than that pretty meh^^ Onto the next one.


Made a decision that I am going to call grandma and for 2 days in a row I did not. Tomorrow I am not allowed to fire a session without taking that one off the checklist

Was supposed to have 1on1 tmrw with Sam but he just made a good stack in some sunday 2 day mtt (Are we even surprised?) so good luck to him tomorrow and let's crush

Quote of the day: "The truth does not hold a grudge, nor does it single anyone out. It merely is. Our feelings about it are irrelevant."

Joey is the ****. Enjoyed him starring in Mr. Robot. I like the dude


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Old 01-15-2018, 11:24 PM   #135
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Re: Sacrificing it all for the love of the game

Monday

just another day in the office. Comps are great, a lot of action everywhere. With series being split rather than clumped into 2 weeks across all sites makes all your daily schedules on other sites better. Smh I wanted to take a day off here and there but in reality you just can't lol. Have to keep the pedal to the floor. Keep delivering. Keep grinding

somewhat frustrating day today. Manage to perform great in my higher buy-ins, though. Cashed BB215, 215 6-max and €300 Wina series. No runs though but it is good feeling to perform well in my high buy-ins. It gives me confidence to get through this slump.

Plan for tomorrow is to take a day-off...in other words...Attend Romeo's group coaching, gym, potentional welness and analyse last few days and work on marked hands. There is a lot of creative stuff waiting to be discovered but I just can't fit it in 24 hours. Have to be more efficient!

Tomorrow I will create the pio study group, finally. I have too much content ready to be analysed. I just can't let the dust settle. Just have to keep busy. So much work has to be done

Quote of the day: "There is a time for self-acceptance, & being kind to yourself. But at a higher level, if you desire superlative results. BE ****ING RUTHLESS"

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