Wednesday

Played a session today. The session went pretty badly, though. Overall had a great feeling about how I played. Managed to make d2 in small $55 winter series with sth around top 15 stack which should be a good position to start a day 2. Other than that it was a ****show. Could not make a stack anywhere but marked a lot of hands so at least I got that going for me, which is nice

Lately I have a tooooooon of impulses / ideas to get better and creative and it just makes playing more fun. It's never ending cycle. Whenever you play you always find a few hands => you analyse them => you play again and you find another ones and you start testing stuff. so much fun

I think I am going to fire tomorrow and take a day off in Friday but I am going to re-evaluate that from series/"majors" perspective before doing so. Tomorrow 215 psko will be great so I will play with very high probability.

had roasted potatoes for dinner. They were great, the crispy skin was the highlight for sure

Quote of the day: "When you choose conditions which suit your mindset, you are free. When you choose a mindset which suits your conditions, you are settling."

In love with old Nas. third verse is something else. His flow in conjuction with that level of vocabulary and whole beat just makes it an ode

Thursday

Had a group coaching with Graffy before firing. I did not feel ready to grind and it was already time to fire so I just got a fast 5min meditation and started regging. It did not go well today. d2 of 55 did not go well too but that's just how things are sometimes

Towards the end part of the grind I really wanted to turn off everything and do something else. It was one of those days where I pushed myself to play and I went little over the line. But that's great because I have identified certain moods/feelings/signals when it is good to not push it. That's how you turn a negative situation into positive, boys! take notes^^

If I have a "bad" day like this there is only one thing that can salvage that. Yeah, you guessed it (not), it's food I eat almost same things everyday and for some reason it always improves my mood no matter how good the mood is already. Especially bacon and eggs with buckwheat. I don't know if it's the process of making or consuming, but my brain is completely hooked on it and it feels so good lol

Now imagine that experience and amplify it via watching Action Bronson with his friend Clovis in the action. I don't even feel bad anymore. All the bad things that may have happened today? Erased. How easy.

Tomorrow I will not do anything poker related. I am giving myself a ban for 24hrs. No hands, no pio, no FTs, nothing. I can read a book, go to the gym, welness, whatever. Let's see how that works out

Quote of the day: "If it's easy it doesn't mean it's wrong. If it's hard there is no guarantee it's right."

There ya go with the 3rd part of Bronson and his friend Clovis. They are something else. I would not say that watching people eat good food and drink good wine could make me so happy but it just did

Friday

crushed gym, gone to welness, enjoyed a great post workout meal. I have to say though that today's workout was very mentally challenging and I think I needed that more than ever. It was hard but the mental strength I acquire from the gym is just something else. If everybody would at least get a chance to dip their feet in my pool of confidence after my workout they would go fight freaking zombies with god damn rubber bands

Read a bunch of pages off the book. Got pleasant surprise from a friend in our small Discord channel. He posted his hand history of his 2k winter series run so I just gone through it and probably posted like 30 hands or something similar. It took me a lot of hours but these are the moments where you just do what you love and time flies past you don't even know how fast. Actually it was around 4 hours lol

3-day grind starts tomorrow. Winter series in terms of 500+ buy-ins is over for me so gg. Overall happy with the series, managed to cash my 1k thrill, got lucky with the swap. Hopefully next Winamax and Party series will continue to be good. There is some sort of new ACR schedule for Saturdays so let's see how it goes LFG

Quote of the day: "societal approval is an invisible force, crushing the greatness out of everyone who succumbs to it"

one of the best verses RA spit. ever^^. 2:15 is the time RA steals the whole track

Saturday

Today was meh. No runs, no nothing. Just me regging all mtts available . Regged around 42 mtts today. Have the last Markovitsus on Winamax so I have already made sure to make bankroll update and decided to write the blog so I can save a little bit of time and maybe read a few pages before it's not too late unless I make it deep lol

I think I should actually switch to my phone Winamax app and go eat as I speak^^

made porridge for mom. highlight of the day; not even close

Quote of the day: "Life is so easy. There is no pressure forcing you to be fit or intelligent. The state of western world reflects this"

found this and many more gems by luck. I remember at some point I was trying to dig them but I was not lucky. Today they just appeared and made my day way better.

Sunday & Monday

wanted to make an update about Sunday and Monday, how it went, what runs I made etc but I am not in a positive state of mind at this moment and I don't want to talk negative so maybe more luck in wednesday^^

I have been working for such a long time to create my own bubble. I have lived in it, I have enjoyed every moment of it. I was used to it and accepted it as my way of being. But today one person burst it. And I am unsure if I should be pissed or actually thankful for that fact. I don't remember a day when I had to go through so many negative emotions. Have I been holding it up for all this time?

I was ready to bring pen and paper and go through it. analyse it and find a root of why has it happened. But I fear what I can find. Will try to get a good sleep, meditate and go at it with clear mind tomorrow^^

Quote of the day: "If the person you were a couple of years ago does not make you cringe, you have not grown."

Tuesday - Thursday

Not much happening. Just me putting a workout in, welness and one session. Managed to make day 2 of €100 wina series and €300 wina series but I bubbled €100 one and €300 did not go well too. I basically busted both of them in < 40 mins but that's not the end of the world

Last few days I took off a pedal from the floor. Relaxed a little bit more, got a little lazy which is simply seen in me updating this blog on non-daily basis

Today I have managed to go over 2 days of marked hands, Monday and Wednesday hands are ready for tomorrow. I am not sure if I will play, I may. I would like to try to fit in a workout before session and see how I feel. If it's doable, what needs to be done in order to get a gym session and poker session in a single day.

In order to that I will have to go to sleep sooner which should be achievable given I was welnessing today. So for tomorrow no excuses, it's going to be a tough day following sat-mon grind too so 4days of grind maybe in a row..

quote of the day: " Most people are sleep walkers totally controlled by their external area. They walk through the day hoping nothing goes "wrong". But what if you removed the fear of shiet going wrong?"

Friday

Did not play nor gone to the gym. It was very unlike me but I have woke up quite late and was unable to go to gym before possible session. Did not play because I wanted to make sure that I do my out of table work which I did. 2 days worth of marked hands + 2 FTs. I have 4 more FTs to do but now the deficit will not be as big. Honestly, I think I could have done 2 more FTs but I watched stream of my friend from stable.

The more I have been listening to music the more I acknowledged that it creates/amplifies certain emotions in me. I have been dropping some 4-8bars freestyles for fun and it was actually making me happy so I am going to create my own Book of rhymes

For the past week I have learnt a lot about myself. How I percieve relationships, what I (don't) want in relationship, etc. Good stuff. Learning everyday

Lately I have felt like I was overeating on breakfast and porridge did not taste as good as before. Decided to cut 1/3 of oats and kept spices/honey the same. Way better

In regards to today and the next few days I have 3-day grind ahead of me. Let's make some good runs and have fun because that's what's it all about.

The more I am learning about mtts the more I acknowledege the fact that hs dream is prolly dead for near future. It would be very irresponsible in my situation to just yolo it..But maybe crushing high stakes was not my goal from the start..Good old pen and paper action will have to happen in order to find out.

Quote of the day: "I have such high standards for the people I surround myself with because I want us all to win. It really does make me sad when they don't wanna grow themselves."

I don't know whatsup with me and this old Nas shiet. He's just so good

Saturday

Today was pretty poor. Managed to get somewhat deep in BB215 but on semiFT AK<JJ for heaps. At least managed to get a lot of bounties which is essential in these 25/75 pp/bounty pskos. Outside of that it was pretty bad

Honestly, I think I have kind of grown cold emotionally. There is too much stuff going on that can distract you from your to-do list (see how I did not use "goals"?). The way you run, the people in your life, your environment. So many distractions.

I have been actually kind of enjoying this process. I am enjoying it more than when I had "success" because when I had "success" I got greedy sometimes. Some days I was maybe not as hungry. Maybe a bit too comfortable. Honestly, life without pressure and not getting greater everyday bores the hell out of me. Did not happen as many times as it may sound like but I remember those days vividly. I thought that since I put so much time into the game I have a privilege to have good results. I don't want to consider myself ever being that person again. That's not who I am. Atm not doing very good results-wise, a lot of not good things happening lately, etc. Just me waking up everyday and challenging the next day with the mindset of crushing it. There are a lot of moments when I feel like giving up. But that's the moment when I know I have to push myself. Because I know that there is only one thing that matters and it is greatness. Since there is so much room to be greater than yesterday there should be no excuses to getting greater.

LET'S GET ****ING GREAT

Quote of the day: "You lack confidence because you have avoided everything that made you feel unconfident your whole life. Missed every chance to improve."

Sunday

Another bricked Sunday in the office. got like top50 bigger109 and some itm in bigger55. Other than that pretty meh^^ Onto the next one.


Made a decision that I am going to call grandma and for 2 days in a row I did not. Tomorrow I am not allowed to fire a session without taking that one off the checklist

Was supposed to have 1on1 tmrw with Sam but he just made a good stack in some sunday 2 day mtt (Are we even surprised?) so good luck to him tomorrow and let's crush

Quote of the day: "The truth does not hold a grudge, nor does it single anyone out. It merely is. Our feelings about it are irrelevant."

Joey is the ****. Enjoyed him starring in Mr. Robot. I like the dude

Monday

just another day in the office. Comps are great, a lot of action everywhere. With series being split rather than clumped into 2 weeks across all sites makes all your daily schedules on other sites better. Smh I wanted to take a day off here and there but in reality you just can't lol. Have to keep the pedal to the floor. Keep delivering. Keep grinding

somewhat frustrating day today. Manage to perform great in my higher buy-ins, though. Cashed BB215, 215 6-max and €300 Wina series. No runs though but it is good feeling to perform well in my high buy-ins. It gives me confidence to get through this slump.

Plan for tomorrow is to take a day-off...in other words...Attend Romeo's group coaching, gym, potentional welness and analyse last few days and work on marked hands. There is a lot of creative stuff waiting to be discovered but I just can't fit it in 24 hours. Have to be more efficient!

Tomorrow I will create the pio study group, finally. I have too much content ready to be analysed. I just can't let the dust settle. Just have to keep busy. So much work has to be done

Quote of the day: "There is a time for self-acceptance, & being kind to yourself. But at a higher level, if you desire superlative results. BE ****ING RUTHLESS"

Tuesday & Wednesday

crushed gym. crushed welness. did not crush studying. with the change in regards to amount of oats in my porridge i did not have enough carbs in my body to get through workout. have to keep that in mind for tomorrow

Played today. Stars have gone to ****. With only 1 mtt on my hands I have decided to go get a nice dinner at restaurant close to my place. Got myself some crostini and burger with gorgonzola. Came home at 8:30 and late regged everything. Really good day, unfortunately no runs, no nothing..But had a lot of fun nonetheless. Happy that I did not gave up on the grinding after I came home

Plan for tomorrow is gym, welness, marked hands and video of coachings that I have missed in tuesday. LFG

quote of the day: "The biggest cause of failure is quitting when it gets a little difficult. Not bad habits. Not lack of goals. Just straight up weakness and the inability to suffer."

Thursday & Friday

In thursday I had a complete day off. Did not do anything poker-wise. At best I have posted some of my marked hands to my mentor. Outside of that I have just crushed gym, enjoyed welness and some titties. There were a lot of them that day. I have to make sure I come back in tuesday to see if there is some player pool tendency or I was just simply running hot

Today I have made sure that I would work my ass off. Started the day with going through marked hands from Monday session. Continued with Romeo's group coaching in regards to postflop strats. Then Pads' 5hr stream and topped it with the marked hands from Wednesday session. Overall pretty good day in the office, I would say.

Plan for next days is simple. Grind Sat-Mon and checkout the PowerFest schedule and see if I have to adjust my weekly schedule and play more than 4d/week or nah. We have a promotion here so it depends..Maybe I will say *** it and decide to win it for our team

Quote of the day: "The more ambitious and competitive you are, the more you will *** yourself up to win"

New EVidence is out soon! Remember his concert on main stage of Hip Hop Kemp few years ago vividly. I knew all the lyrics. Cats & Dogs. Wanted him to sign the album but I somehow lost it lol.

Saturday-Monday

Not much has happened. Just me grinding trying to beat variance. So far I am getting my ass kicked bigly. I will have to come up with more regular habits that keep me happy, especially on days when I grind. When I don't grind it's not so hard since I get busy real easy. But on the days that I play I should be looking for more long-term solutions than porn. Especially in these unfortunate spots where you don't quit your sessions with smile on your face it's not easy. The book/crypto stuff has been making me kind of happy since I have been learning a lot of stuff that is aplicable in the future and is a useful skill to have.

So yeah, will probably work on developing my reading habit. I will either resume reading Ed's book or start reading Jordan Peterson's book. Peterson has been in one interview on British TV station and he has completely crushed the interviewer with arguments in polarising topic. He kept his cool like a real G. I enjoyed every second of that 30minute interview and I would like to support such movement + I will learn a lot of useful stuff so it's WIN WIN

Have had 1on1 with Sam. It was great. My session not so much but I have learnt over the years to get the best out of positive things that my action can influence so in the end it was not so bad. I have to say that positive events are quite outnumbered by the negative ones but I can't afford to give up. If my mind does not give up I can ALWAYS keep on going. It got me so far that this is just another obstacle on my way to greatness. When I beat it I will look at it and acquire more mental power as I always do with my victories.

Recieved some words of encouragement from Sam. Means probably more than you can imagine.




Plan for tomorrow is simple. Crush gym, get a nice dinner, welness, do my best in d2 in Winamax ME and analyse as much as I possibly can. There's always time to get better. LFG

quote of the day: "One of the surest signs of an immature mind is the belief that self restraint means less freedom, rather than more, in life"

TDE is crushing it lately

Tuesday

Tuesday was a sick day. Had kind of a slow start to a day but when I got moving it got better. It is mind boggling how can simple thing as momentum in your life make you do more work if you start your day well

Crushed gym. Got 3x @50kg strict press PR yday which was not a goal but it's nice to see the progress. I was quite time pressured by the time I left gym to go to restaurant, welness and then get home before 9pm to play day2 of Wina ME. Had to make a call to restaurant that I want to reserve a table for me and I want to order my pork ribs so I can save time and make sure that I manage to do everything I have to in this day. That one in-game adjustment has managed to save it. If I would not do that I would not get to do my regular welness and come home before 9pm. Ribs were good though, no horseradish, no sauces, no potato chips, nothing. Just straight up beautifully cooked ribs with a nice layer of fat that made them even juicier. i felt like a straight up carnivore

I managed to get to PC at 20:58 and decided to lr a bunch of comps so I don't have to 1 table + it's series and a lot of good comps are running. Managed to play a small session with a bunch of late regs. Cashed ME and majority of other Winamax comps like Xtase and I had a really good stack in the 50 PKO too but I did not learn to win the flips when somewhat deep but that's fine.

Not sure if opening more tables and playing small session was a good idea. I wanted to analyse a lot and I have only managed to get through 1/2 of monday hands. Still have to go through second half and all saturday/sunday hands. Just for imagination, I have marked ~115 hands from saturday

I have a few hours before the grind starts. I should make sure to go through as many hands as possible so I don't fall behind the schedule as much. I am quite behind studying schedule. Not good

Quote of the day:


The flute is sick in this one. Q killed it

Wednesday

Grind did not go well but managed to keep my composure throughout the whole session pretty well. Played great. Have been enjoying a lot of overbetting on turns/rivers lately. It reminds me of days I used to play cash. I loved it

Will go through marked hands of today so I can study hard tomorrow/friday on things I need. I am little behind studying schedule and it is so unlike me that it's not making me happy. I did not have a few things under control for last 2 weeks but that's ok. I'm back. More then ready to do this. With less distractions. Let's fokin do this

did my first pack of meditation on HeadSpace. It was one for prioritization. I have been only meditating on days I have been playing. Now things will change. I will be meditating everyday at least once. Twice is better but I will not be forcing it if I won't feel like doing so. But I definetely feel like 3-4/week is not enough and upsides of meditation are too big to be neglected. Not sure yet what packs I am going to pick. Do you have any favorites?

quote of the day: "Learn gratitude. You don't need a perfect life to be lucky and appreciate what you have."

Because of my name for every fokin crime they find the relevelance

Thursday

Got somewhat of a day off. Gone through 100 marked hands. Posted a few hands into forum/discord. Will watch one video from library since I am kinda worn out from working out today. Got my post workout ribs but did not feel like relaxing today. on the crossroad of going home and going to welness I turned towards my place.

Outside of that there is not much else to talk about. In regards to developing my reading habit further I will buy a book that concentrates on hormonal/testosterone potential from Jay Campbell. I pay close attention to my moods and how I feel at certain days, how hormones drive my actions.. hormones play a huge role in our lives and so many people do not even know about it. I myself am huge dopamine addict/fiend and I don't even want to know how much influence it had over me over the years. But that time is over. Getting them under control, understanding them and using them to our own benefit sounds like a bus I should not be missing.

plan for tomorrow is simple. Go through another ~100 marked hands. Watch video(s) from library. Read. Meditate. Be focused and observant. Another day in the office.

Quote of the day: "Doing what others can't or won't do is what excites me"

New EVidence is out. and here I am. Listening to his old "freestyles". The way he paints the picture is something else.

my alley was a way out, you saw a bunch of dumpsters
you see trash i see treasures
reverse the word stressed i see desserts
i dont see lunch dinner or see breakfast
i see survival on my plate and see blessings

the contrast between alley-dumpsters-trash then another one with desserts-lunch-dinner-breakfast while still continuing in his message WHILE keeping the rhyme scheme tight...this shiet gives me similar nerdchills like watching ByuN crushing zergs with his stellar micro while TasTosis duo goes crazy in the booth

Friday

did approximately 7 hours of studying. I went to bed with a feeling that I could have done 3 more with ease. Next time I won't let that happen

In regards to that book. Lol. I have bought a book in emotional state of mind. Did not do my research. And bought a book that was writing about things I was not interested in. Lesson learned, though

will grind today/tmrw. I have found a bunch of new patterns that I can punish heavily in game. Took a note of them and I can't wait to test them in the game environment. It's gonna be fun!

Quote of the day: "If you don't sacrifice for what you want, what you want becomes the sacrifice."


Love the last line from EV.

Understood, the getting is good // At least the present is.

great wordplay/homonym that fits in with both meanings.

1. present is
2. presidents. like dead presidents, money that he makes as one of the outputs of him getting good


"Decoding" lyrics is fun. Some artists are more straight forward than others, though. Remember Jay-Z's Reasonable Doubt when I was just going through songs. He was the king of it

Saturday/Sunday

Just me grinding. Playing 40-45 mtts a session which is great if you take into consideration that I start with lr big27 and last normal comp I reg is at 9:30pm if I don't count lateregs and I play 0 turbos. Can't be mad with the volume. Just have to make sure that the approach is stellar on other front such as analysing, pimping daily routine, icm, gym etc

One of the next books up for grabs is going to be The Rational Male by Rollo Tomassi. I follow him on Twitter for a long time so it was only a matter of time. Also the theme of the book is interesting, the dynamics between genders and overall I like his pov and there is a lot of things one can learn in this regard

Pre-session routine is taking a hit right now because there was DotA tournament in Genting and there are some siiiick games. Watched grand final already, got through Secret v Newbee. Last one will be EG vs Liquid and I will not watch anymore of that. Can't afford to lose so much time and usually games in group stages are not so hyped.

will continue to grind today. I am doing veeeeeeery bad but I just dgaf and fight through it like it's nothing. Don't have time and energy to think about negative stuff. Let's make the best out of the next week of series

Quote of the day: "Every time you blame an outside force, you give up some of your own power."


no words needed

Hey! As I said in te past , love the way you handle things and how hard worker you are...
Anyway , could you please tell me what HUD your using , I have HEM pro, but somehow I mark hands I wanna review , but it only saves one (the last one ) any idea why? Ty and gl!


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hey,

I use HM2 and NoteCaddy. I have my own stats for majority of spots because the ones provided are simply not accurate enough. In regards to your issue I have no idea, never happened to me. You can write at hemforums, they should know whatsup

Monday/Tuesday

Monday was just another day in the office. Me playing my heart out and not having any results. But I made day2 of wina ME and marked a lot of hands so I got that going for me which is nice

Got day off today. Got back from gym, read a lot of pages from The Rational Male, made a ton of notes just before d2 started. In the end managed to bust few places before FT BvB A5o<AA 10bb aipf. Managed to get quite lucky in pfai's to get there so that's fine. Was not able to book a few points for our team, unfortunately.

The plan was to analyse for the rest of the night but the book seems like more fun. Will have to create warmup routine before firing session where I would be going through marked hands at least ~1hr. There is just too many of them and I want to be smarter with my time management in general

Switched from 10 minute to 15 minute meditations and I can't express how big of a difference I feel. The extra 5 minutes may seem small but it's all I need for conquering the day. The focus levels were much higher. I loved it

I have decided to play 3days a week and go harder on studying after series end. I feel like I am not getting better at fast enough pace as I want to

Quote of the day: "It's mind boggling how some less qualified people do the things everyone dreams off, just because they decided to believe in their abilities."

so much positivity from this one

Wednesday & Thursday


played my first session on new Stars. I have completely forgotten how many good comps have gone missing. So many good 50's and 100's. Oh baby.

The session was great yday. Play gazilion of comps, had a lot of fun playing. Managed to make FT of b109 with very small stack 9/9 but smh managed to ladder and busted 6th which was better than expected final destination so I will take that haha. Even though the field left was really good. Sometimes it's just not your time to win. Outside of that there were no deep runs. Just got somewhat deep in 215BR and cashed for a few bucks. Got completely rekt on new Stars but somehow did not manage to bust my account by cashing a few 100's Managed to make d2 in some .es series with 6bb so I may just fire night 8pm+ session if I feel like it. Probably not, though. I have to take care of 200+ marked hands and b109 run

after playing my 1st sesh on new Stars I just felt really motivated to work hard. Things are not looking so bad afterall, Party is trying, even god damn ACR is trying and even though I can't play on 888 you can see that they add a few playable comps here and there. Makes me happy about my overall decision made many months ago

Today I have decided that I am not allowed to do anything unless I go through all marked hands. I have had enough of all of work just piling up. Managed to go through all 42 marked hands from yday.

Plan for rest of the day is gym, go through b109 run, go through as many marked hands as I can and if I won't feel like going through them anymore (feel like taking a pause) I can only read The Rational Male, no youtube, no twitter/instagram. There is no time to not get better. If you can't work, read. If you can't read, watch videos. If you can't watch videos, go through marked hands and make notes. Just do something that always keeps moving you forward. How simple, right?

Quote of the day: "Self-love is the only love there is.
You can't expect love from outside until you get right within.
Once you're right within, you won't seek that which can only find you"

RA showing people how it's done. What a master of ceremony

Friday

Just wanted to say that I have completely crushed Thursday. I was in control. I got through maybe 200 marked hands. Read many many pages from Rational Male. Took even more notes. Found a lot of patterns to think about from marked hands etc.

It's interesting how I switched from cash to mtts thinking mtts will be less complex and easier to learn. I just thought that I am gonna come here, learn everything in a year-two and destroy everybody. It was like I did not think about how can NLHE strategies change from 20-40-60-100-200 effective stacks, antes, ICM, bubble etc and it's so fascinating. Every week I go through ~350-400 marked hands, find 50 hands that I have completely butchered, find 10-15 patterns and a lot of spots where I don't have a god damn clue what am I supposed to do. And that's great because if I don't have a clue and I am grinding here like a madman, how are other guys supposed to have a clue?

Today I took it somewhat easy. Just gone through 70 marked hands, read a bunch of pages from Rational Male. I don't even count the pages. I just do it unless I get tired of it and then I switch to something else. Works way better. Gone through 1 short video from library and will make sure to go through another one as well. When I get through it I will resume watching stream record because there is just too much stuff to catch up with and I just can't afford to lay in bed and wait 1hr-90mins until I fall asleep. If I do that for 1 week and I would watch a video for that 1hr thats 7hrs of video content per week. That's too much value and time

Honestly, I thought that The Rational Male is going to be quite an eye-opening experience. But god damn, man. That thing is something else and this bastard has 2 more books. But I think I can consume only one book of this topic in a certain period of time because it is not easy to digest type of stuff and you actually have to use a lot of "findings" in real life and test it. So after getting through this bad boy I will probably dip into something less heavy in gender dynamics but still very aplicable in real life like 48 Laws of Power or Peterson's 12 Rules for Life. Not sure how I will feel after reading whole Rational Male, maybe I will not feel like digesting anything and will just say F it. But there are definetely a lot of books that have to be read in future because not making mistakes in your 20's is just so valuable.

Tomorrow starts another simple 3day grind. I have missed playing today but that's a good thing. Let's kick some ass

Quote of the day:" It's important to showcase assertiveness as often as you showcase niceness. People need to know that when necessary you can let go of your niceness"

It's funny how a person with way lower IQ (as Sean P imo was in comparison to other rappers) has the ability to influence a culture in such a positive way. He had a lot of bad traits but he knew how to rhyme, he loved rap and he was real. He was "too dumb" to know how to play a game. And I think that may have been one of the reasons why people have been so appreciative of his work. RIP P

Saturday & Sunday

It was meh. Managed to make FT of bb44 with beautiful field left but came as 9/9 with sub10 bbs. Managed to smh make 3 ladders so in the end I can't be mad. Outside of that I just got completely rekt and it's not making me happy. As I have said, I will switch to 3d/week grind and will be analyzing more.

Making this post after I got ribs for brekafast. Life is not so bad afterall but I think I can do better than this. Not sure how much of it is my ability and how much of it is variance and that's what kind of frustrates me. I will continue to get better because that is the only way "you'll ever know" but a lot of guys are crushing and moving up in tiers (whom I think I am better than or at least very similarly skilled) but I just don't have any results. But I don't accept failure and in the end I know that I will get over this. I just have to work more and get a little bit of confidence back because in times like these, the mindset is everything. If you don't think you are the man, who else is going to believe you? Nobody

Will go through marked hands from Sat/Sun. I have approximately 30 hands ready to be posted so I will make sure to do as much work as I possibly can. Then will move to video library and mark every spot that I would approach differently and try to find WHY's behind that. But now I will read a few pages from The Rational Male because digesting those ribs takes a lot of energy and I want to be focused when doing anything poker related. This is why I love reading. You still get better but your level of focus does not have to be so high

Plan for tomorrow will be the same. Let's get that confidence back

Quote of the day: "Comfort is beautiful paradox. To increase the likelihood that we will attain it, we must constantly leave it behind."

Joey and other guy killed it^^

Monday & Tuesday

Did not do any further analysis outside of going through marked hands and posting them. I have a lot of spots for Pio, a very big change in my general preflop gameplan and many more tweaks to my preflop play

last few days Pio / deep analysing just did not seem interesting. The Rational Male book took all of my curiousity and I have learnt over the time that sometimes I can't force myself to not do things that I really want. Sometimes I have to let myself do what I want but still do my work, don't get me wrong. Today I have read the last page and I have to say that people whom don't read books are losing a big opportunity. Everyday. Throughout their whole life. It's interesting how this world is designed to serve a female imperative. One would ask the motives behind doing such

I have never read a book or read in general with such a mindset. The spark it has lit up in me while I was going through page after page. The time was going by faster and faster as I was making notes and connecting the dots. It can be comparable to the feeling of finding completely new strategy in NLHE that not many people know about, digesting it and preparing the postflop gameplan to fukc these bastards on tables so hard that their only wish would be that only thing I will fukc is going to be TeamDuck (love u boys ). Only coming to realisation that nobody is going to be left out of this fukcing.

outside of that I crushed gym today, had nice PR on squat clean which is probably my favority exercise

In regards tomorrow I will play. A ton. .es allows me to reg a little longer which should make for a rise in abi and decrease in tables played towards the end of session which is going to be great.

Quote of the day: "The definition of power is not financial success, status or influence over others, but the degree to which we have control over our own lives. Real power is the degree to which we actually control the directions of our lives."

From the moment you hear this beat you know it's produced by Alchemist. Mad piano^^

Wednesday/Thursday

Wednesday session was great. I got completely rekt in the first 1/2 just so the 2/2 could be full of runs/ITMs. I have probably regged every god damn comp there was (outside of Markovitsus) because ps.es is soooo full of 50-100 comps. It's crazy! In the end did not manage to convert any of the ITMs to any reasonable run. Made some F2Ts, FT of big100 but I got completely carddead and somehow managed to make 4 ladders with sub10bbs which was really nice. It was funny because I was ready to reg a bunch of 100's on .es but I have busted my account but I had big100 FT where I could not bust so I had to wait for like 30mins to finally reg these comps lol

Thursday has been great. I am in a good place right now. Attended Zolta's coaching for dev guys where he did a great job and I have refreshed and learned a few things which is always great. From library 1 video of Ben + 3hrs of Sam's stream. I was considering watching all videos but I will reserve them for flight to Barcelona and manage my time in a better way.

Will have to jump on Pio aggregate reports grind. That means I will have to review my 1on1 with Apo so I don't fukc up any settings when doing so. I have to watch replay of our 1on1 today, make notes so I have no excuses for not letting my PC do the work while I sleep

Started reading 12 laws of life by JBR. Will read a ton today for sure. It's great to read after I get home from gym because I am tired af and don't want to do anything at that time. Great observation of last few days. It would not be the smartest to do when your mind is sharpest. Use that time for most challenging parts of the day. Then get some rest in the gym. Get your shiet together while reading. Then come back for last 3-4 hours to give your all to poker again. Repeat until you are hs endboss

Managed to create a habit where the next day after I play I try to go through as many marked hands as possible so they don't stack up. Does not matter if I go through 10 or 40, just making sure they don't pile up is a big thing. I like when things are in order, in the past it was quite chaotic. Leaves my options for the next day/s more open etc. Also I am willing to do the work if I know I have 50-100 marked hands to go through rather than 350.

Finally back with 3d/week gym grind schedule. 2days were too few. I have packed a toooon of muscle and strength but I want to get rid of the body fat. Lately I have been eating very well + I am cutting everything unhealty / not necessarily needed in my food like ocassional ketchup or 1 extra spoon of marmelade in my porridge. Did not have pizza or any junk food for a long time. Managed to swap it for ribs. Healthier, tastier, more carnivorous option. Less carbs, more protein. That's what it is all about. I think I am on a good track right now

Quote of the day: "For the better part of our lives we have been taught to emulate socially acceptable mannerisms and adopt a mindset of cooperation above self interest. Most people are conditioned to think that deliberate use of power is inherently manipulative, self-serving and sometimes evil"

I have probably put this one here already. So what. Fukc it. Found a sample of this one yday. It was some song from 1979. I don't know about you, but whenever I find a sample from some of my fav songs..it just makes me happy.