Rsiatat - The game of life
05-07-2016
, 11:55 PM
Haha , just a few moments ago finished making a very strict schedule for tomorrow, so that nothing will stand in between my focus and the best play I can give 2morrow and also to have the best game selection possible , and while making it I have seen 3 sattyes running so I regged em' .
Ended up winning 1k$ TM$ while making the schedule hahaha . Winnnning !!!
So about what I did earlier today ...
I took my girl and went to this great place called "therme" which is just outside my city and it's amazing . Went there with gf and another friend + his gf and it was very relaxing and fun ... at some point I even fell asleep for a little while
( haha the effects of 14h session in the previous day)
https://therme.ro/ Just in case some of you want to travel around here , this is a great place to make a stop at
It was pretty crowded today , many people came here because it's weekend ; but this place is huuuuuuge so np . I hate going on public places on weekends , it's always full ...
The privilege of being an mtt pro : I always work on weekends . So when going anywhere in the mid week there aren't many ppl out there
I think it wasn't allowed to take photos inside , but whatever I have ninja sk33lz
^This is how the entrance looks
^ some peeking inside the main covered pool which has a bar in the middle , many jacuzzis on the sides and there is also a part which goes outside and also part of the pool goes outside .
The water is thermal coming from below 1000m or smth , about 36-40 C . You can go from inside to outside trough the main pool , and you can do that with a drink in your hand !
The water outside has about 2 degrees more and with the air temperature about 15 C the feeling is great when making the switch from inside to outside.
^ it would be even better if outside would of been below freezing
^here's a panorama showing the details
They also have thermal baths with calcium , magnesium , lithium , and marine salt ; more over there's an artificial rainforest out there !!!
There were 2 outside pools way bigger than this main covered one , but it wasn't hot enough today for 'em to be opened . Never mind that, I went to the water sliders :
^ this is my Pre-SCOOP face haha
They have so many different sliders , most of the super fun . Getting some adrenaline up is always nice but very tiring overall
Now I finally get the chance to sleep and rest properly for tomorrow !!!
Good luck everyone !
Ended up winning 1k$ TM$ while making the schedule hahaha . Winnnning !!!
So about what I did earlier today ...
I took my girl and went to this great place called "therme" which is just outside my city and it's amazing . Went there with gf and another friend + his gf and it was very relaxing and fun ... at some point I even fell asleep for a little while
( haha the effects of 14h session in the previous day)https://therme.ro/ Just in case some of you want to travel around here , this is a great place to make a stop at
It was pretty crowded today , many people came here because it's weekend ; but this place is huuuuuuge so np . I hate going on public places on weekends , it's always full ...
The privilege of being an mtt pro : I always work on weekends . So when going anywhere in the mid week there aren't many ppl out there
I think it wasn't allowed to take photos inside , but whatever I have ninja sk33lz
^This is how the entrance looks
^ some peeking inside the main covered pool which has a bar in the middle , many jacuzzis on the sides and there is also a part which goes outside and also part of the pool goes outside .
The water is thermal coming from below 1000m or smth , about 36-40 C . You can go from inside to outside trough the main pool , and you can do that with a drink in your hand !
The water outside has about 2 degrees more and with the air temperature about 15 C the feeling is great when making the switch from inside to outside.
^ it would be even better if outside would of been below freezing
^here's a panorama showing the details
They also have thermal baths with calcium , magnesium , lithium , and marine salt ; more over there's an artificial rainforest out there !!!
There were 2 outside pools way bigger than this main covered one , but it wasn't hot enough today for 'em to be opened . Never mind that, I went to the water sliders :
^ this is my Pre-SCOOP face haha
They have so many different sliders , most of the super fun . Getting some adrenaline up is always nice but very tiring overall
Now I finally get the chance to sleep and rest properly for tomorrow !!!
Good luck everyone !
05-08-2016
, 08:03 AM
Vamooooooooooos , gl tooooòoooo
Will do sir !!! glgl
I think that variance is inflencing this stat alot , over the short term you can even get 20evbb/100
I think a relevant sample would be at least 300k hands , but if you want a variance free same you might need like 1 mil hands.... Have a very skilled friend who had a very bad year last year and had about 3evbb/100 , while on a bigger sample it's 8.
Also I think playing 33-100s on stars and being very good 8evvbb/100 is doable on the long run .
If you play even lower you could even get 10 asa a top
I belive at Hs, on stars only, you can't get more than 6 tho
Stakes matter alot ofc , and by adding euro sites you might be able to get about 2-4 units more to your evbb stat ( depending on how good u are)
Will do sir !!!
glglI think a relevant sample would be at least 300k hands , but if you want a variance free same you might need like 1 mil hands.... Have a very skilled friend who had a very bad year last year and had about 3evbb/100 , while on a bigger sample it's 8.
Also I think playing 33-100s on stars and being very good 8evvbb/100 is doable on the long run .
If you play even lower you could even get 10 asa a top
I belive at Hs, on stars only, you can't get more than 6 tho
Stakes matter alot ofc , and by adding euro sites you might be able to get about 2-4 units more to your evbb stat ( depending on how good u are)
05-09-2016
, 09:36 AM
Poker post #3
Right after the session I was super tired to make a proper update...
Now I just woke up , slept for about 9 hours with a few wake ups in between but still it was solid rest
The mental game
I had trouble sleeping ever since that 14h session on friday ... it somehow made me feel asleep later then usual(7AM compared to 4AM usually) but was still waking up at the same hour ... so there was some accumulated fatigue .
After 2 'close to perfect ' sessions , yesterday went poorly ... tilted a little at some point , and I think all mental issues have to do with food , energy and multi tabling !
I would rate my session as a solid 7.5
I have played too many tables because I added so many satties trying to qualify the High events , because of this I was under constant pressure of making each decision fast and be the right one ...I did alright for about 4 hours and but after this the effects started to feel.(I guess pushing myself so hard I get to realize now that 4h is the maximum limit of grinding 15-18 tables and thinking at the highest possible level )
Somehow subconsciously I was feeling the need to get rid of this pressure and it felt very uncomfortable. Even at breaks I had decisions that got me 2-3 mins into each break , and then with only 1-2 mins left for the break I was doing only back exercises , and didn’t had time to go the the bathroom or eat something … it felt really bad.
This discomfort turned to frustration after 5 hours into the session when I had to eat 'what I can hardly call dinner' (while eating you loose focus, it's how we humans work) . So having all the accumulated pressure from the multi tabling , the accumulated pressure during breaks ( yes , for me not having at least 4 mins to do all my shizz and then get at least 1 minute to cool off ,it builds even more pressure … and also making back exercises every break eat some of my overall motivation ) , and now getting even more pressure because I had to eat during multi tabling so many tables, and making the right decisions became even harder , it was overwhelming .
Also didn’t liked the fact that gf gave me the cold food because she was too busy playing lineage while I was working my ass off … and ofc I had to run 5 secs to get a plate -> comeback click all the decisions while table timebank sounds were popping all over the place , then run for another 5 secs to put the food into the microwave -> comeback make the right clicks , then run again to get the food out of the microwave -> repeat .
^ All this made me have negative thoughts + being irritated because I was starving
Yes this is a natural feeling that we humans have , when we are hungry we feel irritated …. Hundreds of thousands of years ago this irritating feeling leading to anger is what kept us alive and not starving to death . It is what pushed us forward to go hunt that deer and eat something :P
So as I was saying earlier while eating I had an even harder time focusing , and now multi tabling got harder because I was loosing 2-3 secs when looking at the plate to stick my fork into the food .
At this point somehow I busted a few tables because of bad luck ( but it didn’t help release any pressure , I needed a lot more than this to cool off ) and I had a huge stack in the 44 bounty builder , and because of all the negative thoughts , loosing focus while eating , and all the accumulated frustration I wasn’t thinking ranges properly and fired a bad river barrel , where I should of stopped bluffing OTT .
This led me to tilt -> mistake tilt . I just couldn’t take it anymore from this point on , as a defense mechanism I went on auto-pilot , and in the hard spots that I am not-so-used-to couldn’t think ranges properly . So for the next half an hour made a few mistakes :
- Did a super bad play OTT where I bet 2nd pair ( should of checked back) and then called a reraise click vs fish and a very small river bet … overall it cost me 7-8bbs more
- Did a bad defend vs 3x opener and flopping 2nd pair + gutshot on midboard I ch/shoved 20bb deep . So 1st mistake -> fold pre , 2nd mistake just call flop !!! Because of this I busted the ipoker main event
- Made a spewy play vs a very loose bad reg , where I had range advantage and lead the flop 3way (I would do this with my whole range),got reraised -> just called , and possible flush came OTT and he bet again … here I should of folded my SD … instead I check shoved trying to make the bad loose reg fold a set . Very ambitious of me , even if I did think at a high lvl and realized how many combos of sets 2p he had and how not so many of flushes with which fds re-raised a flop lead with he had … but still I lost my tournament life because of this
- Was on ticket bubble @ a satty and reshoved k4o as chipleader vs a bad reg … where he min raised from 14bbs (2nd in chips) … in theory he should fold 100% because of icm , but if I would have had a better mental state , I would of realized that he was so bad and he wasn’t capable of folding 100% there ….
All of these made me loose $$$$ , and it sucks leaving money on the tables and dropping my hourly rates for the session
The tilt was in the early stage levels , probably about 3 or 4 out of 10 but it was enough to make me play bad for about 1 hour until I finally managed to push it away !
I have this mistake tilt problem because every time I try my f*** best and it sucks not being able to give 100% .
I have been working on it a lot and came to accept that making mistakes is part of the learning process , also realized a while back that I have to become a better friend with myself , and not be so hard on myself when I don’t get it right or when I *** up . Still it turns out I still didn’t fixed this at a subconscious lvl yet , and when there are so many negative factors and fatigue accumulated it gets to me .
Some good points aswell :
- Having a great structured learning process , over the last 2 and a half years my autopilot got super good ( I have learned most of the stuff at a subconscious lvl ) and when I start tilting the number of mistakes I can make is limited to only the spots I am not used to yet ; so basically not that many
- Working constantly on my mental game for 2 and a half years , I am now able to realize so many things
- I have managed to keep the tilt at low level , and after some time I got back to my A game
All of these could have been avoided if I didn’t had that pressure in the first place so , having less tables would of done it
At least I have learned something about how my mind works and how to avoid most of the things , and to keep max 10-12 tables will be a very strict rule in the future
After the “happy hour” I came back to my A game and having very few tables left I played absolutely perfect !
With about 90 mins left until day 2 starts, will go make some exercises , shower , eat properly and snap go outside for at least 15 mins , then come back for a super solid session warm-up and hopefully take it down !
I like to think that If I am better prepared than my opponents I will find success somewhere on the line ; every 1% adds up and I am doing everything I can to make sure I get there .
Vamooooooooooos !! LFG !!
Right after the session I was super tired to make a proper update...
Now I just woke up , slept for about 9 hours with a few wake ups in between but still it was solid rest
The mental game
I had trouble sleeping ever since that 14h session on friday ... it somehow made me feel asleep later then usual(7AM compared to 4AM usually) but was still waking up at the same hour ... so there was some accumulated fatigue .
After 2 'close to perfect ' sessions , yesterday went poorly ... tilted a little at some point , and I think all mental issues have to do with food , energy and multi tabling !
I would rate my session as a solid 7.5
I have played too many tables because I added so many satties trying to qualify the High events , because of this I was under constant pressure of making each decision fast and be the right one ...I did alright for about 4 hours and but after this the effects started to feel.(I guess pushing myself so hard I get to realize now that 4h is the maximum limit of grinding 15-18 tables and thinking at the highest possible level )
Somehow subconsciously I was feeling the need to get rid of this pressure and it felt very uncomfortable. Even at breaks I had decisions that got me 2-3 mins into each break , and then with only 1-2 mins left for the break I was doing only back exercises , and didn’t had time to go the the bathroom or eat something … it felt really bad.
This discomfort turned to frustration after 5 hours into the session when I had to eat 'what I can hardly call dinner' (while eating you loose focus, it's how we humans work) . So having all the accumulated pressure from the multi tabling , the accumulated pressure during breaks ( yes , for me not having at least 4 mins to do all my shizz and then get at least 1 minute to cool off ,it builds even more pressure … and also making back exercises every break eat some of my overall motivation ) , and now getting even more pressure because I had to eat during multi tabling so many tables, and making the right decisions became even harder , it was overwhelming .
Also didn’t liked the fact that gf gave me the cold food because she was too busy playing lineage while I was working my ass off … and ofc I had to run 5 secs to get a plate -> comeback click all the decisions while table timebank sounds were popping all over the place , then run for another 5 secs to put the food into the microwave -> comeback make the right clicks , then run again to get the food out of the microwave -> repeat .
^ All this made me have negative thoughts + being irritated because I was starving
Yes this is a natural feeling that we humans have , when we are hungry we feel irritated …. Hundreds of thousands of years ago this irritating feeling leading to anger is what kept us alive and not starving to death . It is what pushed us forward to go hunt that deer and eat something :P
So as I was saying earlier while eating I had an even harder time focusing , and now multi tabling got harder because I was loosing 2-3 secs when looking at the plate to stick my fork into the food .
At this point somehow I busted a few tables because of bad luck ( but it didn’t help release any pressure , I needed a lot more than this to cool off ) and I had a huge stack in the 44 bounty builder , and because of all the negative thoughts , loosing focus while eating , and all the accumulated frustration I wasn’t thinking ranges properly and fired a bad river barrel , where I should of stopped bluffing OTT .
This led me to tilt -> mistake tilt . I just couldn’t take it anymore from this point on , as a defense mechanism I went on auto-pilot , and in the hard spots that I am not-so-used-to couldn’t think ranges properly . So for the next half an hour made a few mistakes :
- Did a super bad play OTT where I bet 2nd pair ( should of checked back) and then called a reraise click vs fish and a very small river bet … overall it cost me 7-8bbs more
- Did a bad defend vs 3x opener and flopping 2nd pair + gutshot on midboard I ch/shoved 20bb deep . So 1st mistake -> fold pre , 2nd mistake just call flop !!! Because of this I busted the ipoker main event
- Made a spewy play vs a very loose bad reg , where I had range advantage and lead the flop 3way (I would do this with my whole range),got reraised -> just called , and possible flush came OTT and he bet again … here I should of folded my SD … instead I check shoved trying to make the bad loose reg fold a set . Very ambitious of me , even if I did think at a high lvl and realized how many combos of sets 2p he had and how not so many of flushes with which fds re-raised a flop lead with he had … but still I lost my tournament life because of this
- Was on ticket bubble @ a satty and reshoved k4o as chipleader vs a bad reg … where he min raised from 14bbs (2nd in chips) … in theory he should fold 100% because of icm , but if I would have had a better mental state , I would of realized that he was so bad and he wasn’t capable of folding 100% there ….
All of these made me loose $$$$ , and it sucks leaving money on the tables and dropping my hourly rates for the session
The tilt was in the early stage levels , probably about 3 or 4 out of 10 but it was enough to make me play bad for about 1 hour until I finally managed to push it away !
I have this mistake tilt problem because every time I try my f*** best and it sucks not being able to give 100% .
I have been working on it a lot and came to accept that making mistakes is part of the learning process , also realized a while back that I have to become a better friend with myself , and not be so hard on myself when I don’t get it right or when I *** up . Still it turns out I still didn’t fixed this at a subconscious lvl yet , and when there are so many negative factors and fatigue accumulated it gets to me .
Some good points aswell :
- Having a great structured learning process , over the last 2 and a half years my autopilot got super good ( I have learned most of the stuff at a subconscious lvl ) and when I start tilting the number of mistakes I can make is limited to only the spots I am not used to yet ; so basically not that many
- Working constantly on my mental game for 2 and a half years , I am now able to realize so many things
- I have managed to keep the tilt at low level , and after some time I got back to my A game
All of these could have been avoided if I didn’t had that pressure in the first place so , having less tables would of done it
At least I have learned something about how my mind works and how to avoid most of the things , and to keep max 10-12 tables will be a very strict rule in the future
After the “happy hour” I came back to my A game and having very few tables left I played absolutely perfect !
With about 90 mins left until day 2 starts, will go make some exercises , shower , eat properly and snap go outside for at least 15 mins , then come back for a super solid session warm-up and hopefully take it down !
I like to think that If I am better prepared than my opponents I will find success somewhere on the line ; every 1% adds up and I am doing everything I can to make sure I get there .
Vamooooooooooos !! LFG !!
05-09-2016
, 12:15 PM
Awesome post, got similar things going on in my head sometimes as well. It can be hard sometimes, I've learned trying not to take these mistakes with you during the rest of your session. Or at least, that's how it works in practice. Usually when I think of a hand I played suboptimal or even bad, I mark it in my pokertracker/HEM (w/e you use) and by doing that I'm telling myself I need to work on these spots. So basically that way, I already 'confessed' to myself that: 'yeah sure I might have played this hand suboptimal, but at least I'm going to work on it and next time I'll do better' instead of trying to beat yourself up for it for minutes/hours. It might seem negligible at first, but it works well for me.
05-13-2016
, 12:32 PM
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Awesome post, got similar things going on in my head sometimes as well. It can be hard sometimes, I've learned trying not to take these mistakes with you during the rest of your session. Or at least, that's how it works in practice. Usually when I think of a hand I played suboptimal or even bad, I mark it in my pokertracker/HEM (w/e you use) and by doing that I'm telling myself I need to work on these spots. So basically that way, I already 'confessed' to myself that: 'yeah sure I might have played this hand suboptimal, but at least I'm going to work on it and next time I'll do better' instead of trying to beat yourself up for it for minutes/hours. It might seem negligible at first, but it works well for me.
We should always look for anything that helps improving and having an easier time handling the variance and mistakes
thx m8 , best of luck to you sir !
05-13-2016
, 01:14 PM
Day 2 of scoop went meh , lost a small pot with TT first hand then lost half of my stack with JJ<KT vs sb shove 20bbs 
From that point I was shortstack all the way and played as good as I could ... finally managed to ladder up and bust on 40ish place .
It's still something to get top 40 out of 17.000 ppl field , that's like aprox top 0.0028 in the field , so I am can't be sad about it :P
On Tuesday went for the usual grind , had a very solid session , I would rate it at 9.5 overall . Had some good hopes to the end but managed to bust everything , the most promising was a a package of 8k euros for ept barca in the 500 FO satty where I had a huuuge stack all the way , but blinds went up was card dead and managed to get coolered once then loose a flip .
Marked some hands during the session but didn't got the chance to analyze them. I lost all my motivation after that session , so I took time off ever since .
Yesterday was a good day to grind with many value mtts , but lately I only had poor sessions when I played without enough motivation, and in the end decided it's best to take it off.
Considering my life goals , instead of wasting time playing a session where I am playing unmotivated and maybe in the end play B game or tilt or stress because of the mistakes ; I realized it's way way better to just take the day off and enjoy life , charge the batteries and comeback the next or few days later prepared to give my best !
I don't know about how others approach the game and the work-life balance ,but this game is about making the best possible decisions based on incomplete information . Since 2 years ago I am trying my best to do the same when it comes for the decisions in all the other aspects of my life . Even the small things like improving a little the time management in the days off to be able to cover up more things that you love doing can make a big difference in the day to day happines lvl
With the spring around , going into summer , in may which I have missed for the last 4 years or so because of the full month scoop grind , everything changed , there is so much green outside , lots of flowers blooming , the weather is good enough to wear shorts ; so earlier today I went out in a very nice park close to where I live . I have been visiting this park since 20 years ago , and witnessed it change into this greater and greater place year by year .
Incoming pics ( the quality gets so bad when I upload them but meh )
if you guys have some suggestions about a place where I can convert pics @ better quality for free please let me know
Amazing sky view today ^
little island surrounded by fishes haha
you can see how windy it was today if you look at the trees
Lake vegetation was quite nice . There were so many types of fishes and turtles around , I liked it !
And some other stuff around :
Today will analyze a little , then go out with some friends and tomorrow will be back in force ready to crush at the tables
Good luck everybody!!!
From that point I was shortstack all the way and played as good as I could ... finally managed to ladder up and bust on 40ish place .
It's still something to get top 40 out of 17.000 ppl field , that's like aprox top 0.0028 in the field , so I am can't be sad about it :P
On Tuesday went for the usual grind , had a very solid session , I would rate it at 9.5 overall . Had some good hopes to the end but managed to bust everything , the most promising was a a package of 8k euros for ept barca in the 500 FO satty where I had a huuuge stack all the way , but blinds went up was card dead and managed to get coolered once then loose a flip .
Marked some hands during the session but didn't got the chance to analyze them. I lost all my motivation after that session , so I took time off ever since .
Yesterday was a good day to grind with many value mtts , but lately I only had poor sessions when I played without enough motivation, and in the end decided it's best to take it off.
Considering my life goals , instead of wasting time playing a session where I am playing unmotivated and maybe in the end play B game or tilt or stress because of the mistakes ; I realized it's way way better to just take the day off and enjoy life , charge the batteries and comeback the next or few days later prepared to give my best !
I don't know about how others approach the game and the work-life balance ,but this game is about making the best possible decisions based on incomplete information . Since 2 years ago I am trying my best to do the same when it comes for the decisions in all the other aspects of my life . Even the small things like improving a little the time management in the days off to be able to cover up more things that you love doing can make a big difference in the day to day happines lvl
With the spring around , going into summer , in may which I have missed for the last 4 years or so because of the full month scoop grind , everything changed , there is so much green outside , lots of flowers blooming , the weather is good enough to wear shorts ; so earlier today I went out in a very nice park close to where I live . I have been visiting this park since 20 years ago , and witnessed it change into this greater and greater place year by year .
Incoming pics ( the quality gets so bad when I upload them but meh )
if you guys have some suggestions about a place where I can convert pics @ better quality for free please let me know
Amazing sky view today ^
little island surrounded by fishes haha
you can see how windy it was today if you look at the trees
Lake vegetation was quite nice . There were so many types of fishes and turtles around , I liked it !
And some other stuff around :
Today will analyze a little , then go out with some friends and tomorrow will be back in force ready to crush at the tables
Good luck everybody!!!
05-16-2016
, 10:30 AM
Poker post #4
LOL wtf tinypic changed one of my photos into a weird one ...
Anyway , lately I've been up to poker only, and many dark thoughts were going trough my mind before making this post . But in the end these dark thoughts are what pushed me to start doing something about it and gave me motivation .
I played 2 mediocre sessions over the weekend , and I wasn't able to give 100% because of different reasons .
First the financial pressure felt on saturday when my aces got cracked on 215 bbuilder to bust on 28th . I played all the higher 100-300 buyins and even if I sold action looks like I still wasn't comfortable enough ... and after that bust my motivation dropped very low ( also some mental accumulated issues with the fact that at highstakes I run so bad since forever always getting badbeats in last 40-30-20 and many FT bubles where I get coolered or some bad beats )
So went into sunday with a not-so-high motivation lvl and played good at first then pretty bad on the end .
When I say bad I mean I did some bad turn bets or a bad hero call or bluffed at a bad sizing , etc .. Overall I would rate my sessions at 7.8
The mistakes aren't that big but they matter alot ...
I also think that I could of avoided all of those mistakes and the shatter of motivation if I would of just stopped registering when I got deep runs with 40-50bbs last 60ish .
I think it's very important to STOP adding tables no matter how many millions GTD they have and how value they are if you have a deep run with a good stack in a nice mtt .
Once you get deep , you should focus on returning the highest possible $ sum rather than looking to make new investments ( A.k.a registering for other mtts) . Many ppl fall for the mirage of red or blue or purple colored mtts with such attractive $ gtds while loosing focus on what is in front of them ... and that's the deep runs they have . You can play much better a deep run where you have only 4 tables up compared to when you have 10 tables up
So as a golden rule once I get a good deep run I will stop adding other tables no matter what and keep max 4 tables , if I drop under 4 tables will add some more
This is a very competitive environment , and it's not like it was in the early days of poker . The game evolved and I have to keep up , otherwise I won't be able to survive here .
And this is how I got those amazing no variance results with such a huge roi in 2014-2015 ... I was there giving 120% , everyday trying to get better and to play better ; I wanted the money and I wanted to be one of the best .
My health didin't matter , the fact that I was loosing every night didin't matter , all I wanted was to become better .
Lately I had some contradictions in my mind . I wanted to give everything , but wasn't prepared to waste nights anymore , I wasn't prepared to study that much as I did in the past , I wanted to enjoy life more and take poker more easy .
WELL **** ALL OF THAT $h## !!!
Starting with today will be here crushing every day , studying 7 hours a week and making 100k by the end of the year .
I am still far away from the perfect balance , I am still trying to find it .. compared to the last few years now I want more from life : I want to be in a better physical shape , I want to spend more time with friends , I want to eat healthier , and have some time for some other things in life .
And I will get all of these + crushing the poker world .
Once you have been there , you know how to do it . The second time is easier but it's just a matter of choice ( for me at least ) .
You can't have success if you have contradictory thoughts going trough your mind ; you can't crush the game if you don't want the wins as bad as your opponents .
So yeah , starting with today will play a little lower (**** the HS) and I will go for it giving my best !
Wish me luck :P
LOL wtf tinypic changed one of my photos into a weird one ...
Anyway , lately I've been up to poker only, and many dark thoughts were going trough my mind before making this post . But in the end these dark thoughts are what pushed me to start doing something about it and gave me motivation .
I played 2 mediocre sessions over the weekend , and I wasn't able to give 100% because of different reasons .
First the financial pressure felt on saturday when my aces got cracked on 215 bbuilder to bust on 28th . I played all the higher 100-300 buyins and even if I sold action looks like I still wasn't comfortable enough ... and after that bust my motivation dropped very low ( also some mental accumulated issues with the fact that at highstakes I run so bad since forever always getting badbeats in last 40-30-20 and many FT bubles where I get coolered or some bad beats )
So went into sunday with a not-so-high motivation lvl and played good at first then pretty bad on the end .
When I say bad I mean I did some bad turn bets or a bad hero call or bluffed at a bad sizing , etc .. Overall I would rate my sessions at 7.8
The mistakes aren't that big but they matter alot ...
I also think that I could of avoided all of those mistakes and the shatter of motivation if I would of just stopped registering when I got deep runs with 40-50bbs last 60ish .
I think it's very important to STOP adding tables no matter how many millions GTD they have and how value they are if you have a deep run with a good stack in a nice mtt .
Once you get deep , you should focus on returning the highest possible $ sum rather than looking to make new investments ( A.k.a registering for other mtts) . Many ppl fall for the mirage of red or blue or purple colored mtts with such attractive $ gtds while loosing focus on what is in front of them ... and that's the deep runs they have . You can play much better a deep run where you have only 4 tables up compared to when you have 10 tables up
So as a golden rule once I get a good deep run I will stop adding other tables no matter what and keep max 4 tables , if I drop under 4 tables will add some more
This is a very competitive environment , and it's not like it was in the early days of poker . The game evolved and I have to keep up , otherwise I won't be able to survive here .
And this is how I got those amazing no variance results with such a huge roi in 2014-2015 ... I was there giving 120% , everyday trying to get better and to play better ; I wanted the money and I wanted to be one of the best .
My health didin't matter , the fact that I was loosing every night didin't matter , all I wanted was to become better .
Lately I had some contradictions in my mind . I wanted to give everything , but wasn't prepared to waste nights anymore , I wasn't prepared to study that much as I did in the past , I wanted to enjoy life more and take poker more easy .
WELL **** ALL OF THAT $h## !!!
Starting with today will be here crushing every day , studying 7 hours a week and making 100k by the end of the year .
I am still far away from the perfect balance , I am still trying to find it .. compared to the last few years now I want more from life : I want to be in a better physical shape , I want to spend more time with friends , I want to eat healthier , and have some time for some other things in life .
And I will get all of these + crushing the poker world .
Once you have been there , you know how to do it . The second time is easier but it's just a matter of choice ( for me at least ) .
You can't have success if you have contradictory thoughts going trough your mind ; you can't crush the game if you don't want the wins as bad as your opponents .
So yeah , starting with today will play a little lower (**** the HS) and I will go for it giving my best !
Wish me luck :P
Last edited by Rsiatat; 05-16-2016 at 10:38 AM.
05-16-2016
, 07:31 PM
05-17-2016
, 09:27 PM
And yeah Mr Goliath there is so much wisdom in your words :P
Poker post # 5
I have played 2 slightly better sessions since I have dropped the HS , but both of them left me in a "kind of sad/depressive state" .
Looks like 4 days in a row is a bad way to go when it comes to grind , haha
There might of been some fatigue accumulated , some lack of motivation because of the very unattractive 1st places ; and in the end made mistakes in both sessions ( wich I could of avoided if I was playing A-game)
Overall yesterday made 2 fts , and 8th place and a 5th place where I couldn't fold on a bad river like big fish that I was :P I would rate this session a solid 8.3 . And today's session was an 8 ... made a loose call in a 4b shove pot for 50bbs with AQ ... and busted on 8th ( ft buble for a 6max )
The play would of been great on chip ev , but considering ICM it was a mistake for CL pot ... meh
Don't want to cry to much about how things are, but I guess what I write at a given moment reflects the state of mind I have at that moment . I am not really looking to be shallow and post only when I am happy or things are going well . Still , considering all of these, I wan't it to be a positive blog so I will try to push my writings into that direction :P
I think both of the sessions left me so sad because of the lack of results , the fact that I was unhappy with my deep runs busts because of a few mistakes and also because of the accumulated fatigue and the monotonous environment around me .
Talking about the environment , I think when going on a very long period of downswing you need to have other things in your life that go well .
There are things like relationship , being surrounded by positive people , having financial comfort , eating healthy , exercising , going out on daytime ; which can make a huge difference in the happyness lvl . If poker is everything that you do for a given period of time and that goes worse day by day , it can't make you happy . And this is why I don't like poker series that much nowadays : they force you to grind a lot , play higher than usual and you don't have time for as many things as you usually do .
I realized that a downswing makes everything worse . Even when talking with someone I get irritated easier , or seeing that other things don't go well either can have a slightly more negative impact on my mood.
I also realized that playing 4 days in a row , barely going out and without doing that many other things , playing only poker and that going bad is the reason for how I feel right now .
I didn't exercised that much , didn't eat too healthy , didn't go out at all ...
Ofc you can do all the good things for you during the series as well ; for me is a little different because exercising ,eating healthy , going out after so many grind days eat a lot of motivation . When I grind more days that I usually use to I have to study more between sessions and these 2 things consume close to all of my motivation , so there is nothing left for other things
( well until I will transform them into good habits , bahaha
)Overall playing scoops over the last weeks fcked up my happiness lvl , dropped my bankroll and left me exhausted ; and to think that I started so well before scoops with 2 amazing low variance and happy sessions...
Today I started the session poorly , and it sucks making bunch of mistakes and getting showers right at the start . I think this affected me a little later on in the session .
For example http://www.boomplayer.com/en/poker-h...688_C998E5C0C0
^this is vs a good Hs reg and I should of shoved the instead of making that stupid click giving him a great price to call . He had a huge cold 4bet stat and even without dynamic this would be a std shove considering his stats .
We can't just flat the 4b because we will need to fold a lot of flops and AJo plays kinda bad with spr 2:1 , and fold pre is not an option . Maybe if his 4b range would of been way way lighter then we could of considered flatting AJo
I think AQo Ajs , KQs QJs JTs 9Ts play slightly better as a flat for the 4b . And we can 5b shove Ats ATo AJo KQo , some pairs and the nuts ofc .
Anyway this spot subconsciously made me have some negative thoughts during the sessions , and as it usually goes things add up
Tomorrow will go for eureka bucharest , and try to enjoy it as much as I can , hopefully play till the FT and skip the weekend grind online . This is what I need right now :P
After this will take some time off , charge the batteries and probably play 2-3 sessions a week giving myself time for everything else that makes me happy. This is how I handled this 1 year long downswing , having other things in life that made me happy
Keeping up with this low variance schedule , sticking to it no matter what ,and playing as good as I can with moderate breaks to recover between sessions , will help me build momentum .
Momentum is very important after going trough a long stretch of bad run . Downswings can make u loose confidence , make u sad/depressive , make u loose motivation and to get out of it you need to start with small steps . Having a few sessions where you don't loose much , then having some small winning ones are the stepping stones for moving out of a downswing . After a few sessions like this is much easier to go for bigger tournaments and having the right mental state to take them down :P
Some people are blessed with a natural mental state that can handle big swings and even after years with no scores they are able to go for the big BINKs , I am not like that , and I believe this is an amazing skill to have as an mtt player . Well most of people play backed tho , and since they are not using their own money it might be easier ...
I am not sure what is better :
- playing stress free backed and giving a good chunk % of your profits ?
- or facing the tough downswing on your own dime , and handling stress and financial pressure but having 100% of yourself ?
Anyway tomorrow will be live poker , should be fun :P
Have a great day everybody !!!!
Last edited by Rsiatat; 05-17-2016 at 09:32 PM.
05-18-2016
, 11:04 AM
05-19-2016
, 07:15 AM
05-21-2016
, 04:52 PM
Quote:
I am not sure what is better :
- playing stress free backed and giving a good chunk % of your profits ?
- or facing the tough downswing on your own dime , and handling stress and financial pressure but having 100% of yourself ?
Anyway tomorrow will be live poker , should be fun :P
Have a great day everybody !!!!
I am not sure what is better :
- playing stress free backed and giving a good chunk % of your profits ?
- or facing the tough downswing on your own dime , and handling stress and financial pressure but having 100% of yourself ?
Anyway tomorrow will be live poker , should be fun :P
Have a great day everybody !!!!
Def stay on ur own and work it out if u have the money to do so. Consider staking when u really dont have a choice imo. Why do u think playing backed is stress free?
Also, do not expect your journey to be as smooth as before. Games are tougher now, smaller prizepools, smaller ROIs > bigger downswings. That graph of yours also shows ****ing 1500 avg entrants. What would you expect to happen when you play those fields ?
It is surprising that you did not experience these moments before.Subbed and GL! Summer/WSOP is usually a good time to lick ur wounds and get some momentum back.
05-29-2016
, 05:02 AM
It's very nice to see so many different perspective than mine , helps me to evolve a lot and not only as a poker player but also as a person
I guess u guys are right , stress is everywhere no matter if we play backed or on our own dime . But I believe it's a matter of perspective , even if one is let's say 30k$ in MU , why not enjoy that 3-4k $ score ? It's a win , a decent score and a day on a + ... I am always enjoying a win no matter if it's for 800$ and I am down 30k
And yeah sometimes after many expensive sessions and so much run bad I guess I got emotional , and become quite desperate trying to figure out a better way not to feel the way I did after that session ; but getting backed isn't the solution , as you guys opened my eyes and I thank you for that
Also getting a job in my country for 250-300E a month is not an option and I never plan on doing that . Came too far with poker invested a lot of time and effort and emotions and so many "white nights" , to go for a lower variance but "safe" option . I am constantly improving no matter the results , studying very effective about 7-8 hours a week and the knowledge seems to be going in a constant uphill direction .
Variance can be a bitch and downswings are part of the game , sometimes can be very hard over such a long period of time where things go bad , but going for the easy and "safe" way getting a part time job feels like running away from all of it for me . Anyway this will never be an option for me :P
I guess u guys are right , stress is everywhere no matter if we play backed or on our own dime . But I believe it's a matter of perspective , even if one is let's say 30k$ in MU , why not enjoy that 3-4k $ score ? It's a win , a decent score and a day on a + ... I am always enjoying a win no matter if it's for 800$ and I am down 30k
And yeah sometimes after many expensive sessions and so much run bad I guess I got emotional , and become quite desperate trying to figure out a better way not to feel the way I did after that session ; but getting backed isn't the solution , as you guys opened my eyes and I thank you for that
Also getting a job in my country for 250-300E a month is not an option and I never plan on doing that . Came too far with poker invested a lot of time and effort and emotions and so many "white nights" , to go for a lower variance but "safe" option . I am constantly improving no matter the results , studying very effective about 7-8 hours a week and the knowledge seems to be going in a constant uphill direction .
Variance can be a bitch and downswings are part of the game , sometimes can be very hard over such a long period of time where things go bad , but going for the easy and "safe" way getting a part time job feels like running away from all of it for me . Anyway this will never be an option for me :P
05-29-2016
, 06:12 AM
Lately things started to look brighter ! Took some time off made a better grinding plan for lower games , then played last Scoop sunday where I didn't want to play the mid mainevent but a good friend of mine that I study with from time to time offered me a nice deal for both giving me the whole buyin and I played for only 11% of myself . The session was very good but there were no results :P
Since then I decided to play on the days where 90% of the regs don't . So that I can be in the best possible games and be able to build confidence ,momentum and $$$$ . So this week where mostly everybody took off , I played on weds then thursday and then friday .
Had 3 very good sessions , probably I would rate them at 9.5 , 8.8 and 9.8 ; on weds had 3 fts , and on friday had 6 fts .
After I played these days I realized something amazing and SNAP re-opened my coaching thread here on 2p2 .
I realized that I can have a better and improved approach for the guys that play these games opposed to the past where I was talking from my perspective in the games I was playing . And most of the guys I coach play the same games I do now. While playing these sessions I had to make so many adjustments for these easier and lower games , and so many things that I had to change in order to make the most out of these sessions .
The games are much easier , you don't need most of the advanced stuff , and all that's important is a very solid game with solid preflop ranges and , with a good understanding of the postflop game .
Bluffing is rarely necessary and there are just so few spots where it's actually a good decision to bluff and be effective .
It's funny how I was noticing so many advanced stuff while playing , so many spots where people's ranges were capped and I could of exploited that , but overall it was a bad idea because nobody would fold haha
So I think now I can help more the guys playing these games , and really make the difference at a coaching hour depending on what stakes a guy is playing . I can talk about the perfect approach for the lower games with the best optimal GTO lines (where spots with no info ) considering the general population tendencies .
And also knowing all the different things in order to crush the higher games and be able to make the difference at a coaching session to who they are useful and who doesn't need them ( and would be better on focusing on improving the overall approach and lines for their current games ) will make a big difference on my further coaching sessions :P
I think many coaches that play higher games than the guys that are coaching will have a wrong approach for the general tendencies , and thus make wrong assumptions while giving an explanation.
And all of these will be good for the coached guy if he is already taking shots for those higher games and is really determined to move up and crush them , but most of the time the guys just play a certain lower stake with very rare or not enough shots at the higher games so a better approach would be to focus on improving at maximum the win rate in their games over the first few sessions and then focus on the more advanced concepts and analysis :P
For example:
- most of the coaches that play over and abi of 50$ will say min raising AQo in MP with 15-16bbs is better .
This would be true if the general tendency would that ppl will reshove you and you will print money ; but for the lower games so many ppl are pasive and will just make the call and very often you get to play 3 way pots oop with a very poor spr and playability and mostly no fold equity
Another example of advanced stuff that ppl don't need unless they move up would be like a hand like this vs 2 quite exploitable regs on pokerstars in a scoop event :
http://www.boomplayer.com/en/poker-h...768_3FC7ACA739
Here considerring their stats it was a good exploit to Sqeeze this wide .
Postflop when somebody does that is trying to protect his hand from further pressure OTT and OTR .
And I think he is doing that because against many weaker regs it probably worked in the past and he keeps doing it now disregarding his current opponents
No one should really re-raise there because it's very exploitable when most of the value range and bluff catchers will be a call on the flop .
So in a spot like that I expect villan's range to be mid pairs trying to protect his equity and some non pair bluffs. And ofc I have all the AA KK AK and thus range advantage and I go for it
Ofc I show him the bluff and next hand I gets all of his money preflop for 70bbs where he gets it in with AJo and I get all of his stack
Stuff like this is totally not useful for the guys playing lower games because of different assumptions like :
- at lower games , very weak regs or fishes will reiraise here with value like 56 A5 quite often , and even if they do it with medium hands like 88 or 99 , they rarely find the fold button if hero shoves
Also at the HS some regs can use this in their advantage and play exactly like this the nuts so that we are on lvl 3 ( I know what you are trying to do and I will exploit you like this ) and they are on lvl 5 ( and they know that we know that they are trying to do that and we are trying to exploit them so they will be 1 step ahead and exploit us ) This happens so rare tho that is irrelevant
Most of they regs at the Hs ,at best if they slowplay AA pre or find a call to the 3bet with 55 and flop quads, will just call IP to underrepresent their hand and let us barrel of our stack :P
Anyway yesterday went to a good friend for a BBQ. I didn't see her in a good while and it was very relaxing and fun overall . Today I have the batteries charged , will just take a small nap before the session, and it will be an easy Sunday with no pressure . So I hope for a great session no matter the results
Good luck everybody
Since then I decided to play on the days where 90% of the regs don't . So that I can be in the best possible games and be able to build confidence ,momentum and $$$$ . So this week where mostly everybody took off , I played on weds then thursday and then friday .
Had 3 very good sessions , probably I would rate them at 9.5 , 8.8 and 9.8 ; on weds had 3 fts , and on friday had 6 fts
.After I played these days I realized something amazing and SNAP re-opened my coaching thread here on 2p2 .
I realized that I can have a better and improved approach for the guys that play these games opposed to the past where I was talking from my perspective in the games I was playing . And most of the guys I coach play the same games I do now. While playing these sessions I had to make so many adjustments for these easier and lower games , and so many things that I had to change in order to make the most out of these sessions .
The games are much easier , you don't need most of the advanced stuff , and all that's important is a very solid game with solid preflop ranges and , with a good understanding of the postflop game .
Bluffing is rarely necessary and there are just so few spots where it's actually a good decision to bluff and be effective .
It's funny how I was noticing so many advanced stuff while playing , so many spots where people's ranges were capped and I could of exploited that , but overall it was a bad idea because nobody would fold haha
So I think now I can help more the guys playing these games , and really make the difference at a coaching hour depending on what stakes a guy is playing . I can talk about the perfect approach for the lower games with the best optimal GTO lines (where spots with no info ) considering the general population tendencies .
And also knowing all the different things in order to crush the higher games and be able to make the difference at a coaching session to who they are useful and who doesn't need them ( and would be better on focusing on improving the overall approach and lines for their current games ) will make a big difference on my further coaching sessions :P
I think many coaches that play higher games than the guys that are coaching will have a wrong approach for the general tendencies , and thus make wrong assumptions while giving an explanation.
And all of these will be good for the coached guy if he is already taking shots for those higher games and is really determined to move up and crush them , but most of the time the guys just play a certain lower stake with very rare or not enough shots at the higher games so a better approach would be to focus on improving at maximum the win rate in their games over the first few sessions and then focus on the more advanced concepts and analysis :P
For example:
- most of the coaches that play over and abi of 50$ will say min raising AQo in MP with 15-16bbs is better .
This would be true if the general tendency would that ppl will reshove you and you will print money ; but for the lower games so many ppl are pasive and will just make the call and very often you get to play 3 way pots oop with a very poor spr and playability and mostly no fold equity
Another example of advanced stuff that ppl don't need unless they move up would be like a hand like this vs 2 quite exploitable regs on pokerstars in a scoop event :
http://www.boomplayer.com/en/poker-h...768_3FC7ACA739
Here considerring their stats it was a good exploit to Sqeeze this wide .
Postflop when somebody does that is trying to protect his hand from further pressure OTT and OTR .
And I think he is doing that because against many weaker regs it probably worked in the past and he keeps doing it now disregarding his current opponents
No one should really re-raise there because it's very exploitable when most of the value range and bluff catchers will be a call on the flop .
So in a spot like that I expect villan's range to be mid pairs trying to protect his equity and some non pair bluffs. And ofc I have all the AA KK AK and thus range advantage and I go for it
Ofc I show him the bluff and next hand I gets all of his money preflop for 70bbs where he gets it in with AJo and I get all of his stack
Stuff like this is totally not useful for the guys playing lower games because of different assumptions like :
- at lower games , very weak regs or fishes will reiraise here with value like 56 A5 quite often , and even if they do it with medium hands like 88 or 99 , they rarely find the fold button if hero shoves
Also at the HS some regs can use this in their advantage and play exactly like this the nuts so that we are on lvl 3 ( I know what you are trying to do and I will exploit you like this ) and they are on lvl 5 ( and they know that we know that they are trying to do that and we are trying to exploit them so they will be 1 step ahead and exploit us ) This happens so rare tho that is irrelevant
Most of they regs at the Hs ,at best if they slowplay AA pre or find a call to the 3bet with 55 and flop quads, will just call IP to underrepresent their hand and let us barrel of our stack :P
Anyway yesterday went to a good friend for a BBQ. I didn't see her in a good while and it was very relaxing and fun overall . Today I have the batteries charged , will just take a small nap before the session, and it will be an easy Sunday with no pressure . So I hope for a great session no matter the results
Good luck everybody
Last edited by Rsiatat; 05-29-2016 at 06:23 AM.