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Originally Posted by baannii4
losing feels 100 times worse than winning feels good...
i haven't had fun playing in weeks
i can't win at all
every session is a battle to not lose 10 buy ins. i literally sit down and by default i start at a guaranteed -10 buy ins and have to play perfectly to break even. if i play my B-C game i will lose 5 buy ins.
every 80-20 feels like a flip. every flip feels like a 20-80. every set feels like a bluff. every 2nd nuts feels like a bluff.
having to hero fold amazing hands in crazy spots in massive pots and being right every single time is not meant to ****ing happen... where are my amazing coolers?? why do i have to hero fold every hand???
something is not right
time to take a day off to delude/trick myself for the 5th time this month and pretend like it will get better and i just need to keep playing well but i know in a week from now we will be back here again
but i honestly don't give a ****. i am too arrogant and too ambitious. i will literally withdraw my bankroll, buy a plane ticket to ignition HQ and suicide bomb myself before i give up.
i know i am playing well. i know i am winning for a decent chunk. i am working hard every day. it is easy to lose faith when the last month and a half have been cancerous. i will figure it out and i will quote this post when i do
Going through the same thing myself this past week and a half M8. I recently had the following revelation
When you get AA in vs KK and win, it doesn't feel good. When you get AA in vs KK and lose, it doesn't feel good. When you get KK in vs AA and win, it doesn't feel good.
Poker I think is rigged to make us feel net negative about how we're running almost always.
Anyway, back to your point. This past week for me has been indentical. Every time I flop a set or flush in a multiway pot, these villains check fold like clockwork. And then when they do put money in, I'm pipped by some turned or rivered two pair or something. Luckily, most of the time I'm sitting there laughing at how ridiculous the setups are and how there's nothing that can be done.
If you have any suggestions for how I can effectively suicide bomb all of China, I'd genuinely be open to listen. :')
On the real tho, I think this period of time is one of the most important parts of your poker career and how you proceed will determine whether you succeed or fail. Some ideas I've had while pondering the best approach through this abyss,
Volume: I don't recommend taking weeks off or extra days off like others have suggested. If you take an extended period off, you'll get ever so slightly more rusty and that'll just make things harder. Downswings need to be played through. Just like NBA coaches will often let their team play through adverse periods.
Only play though while you feel like you're playing solid. If you can look back on the session at any point and say that you're really happy with how you've been playing, keep playing, regardless of whether your up or down 5 buyins. As soon as you notice tilt or spew creeping in, quit at least for 10-20 mins to regroup. If this happens to me I'll often just quit for the day, but I'm currently under no pressure to put in volume.
When you have really terrible sessions riddled with mistakes, get closure asap. Review the next day, identify the problems, and then learn from them - i.e. what do we do differently in this spot next time.
If you can rinse and repeat this process of continuing to grind so long as you're playing solid, taking breaks/quitting when mistakes happen, and reviewing bad sessions afterwards to learn from mistakes, I think you'll come out on the other side alive.
Gl