playing on PartyPoker starting at 2nl with $32.50
going to use a 20buyin brm to move up and down stakes but move down to stake below at 17buyins, other than that im going to try not tilt, and get better obviously whatever that means exactly.

will move up to 5nl games once bankroll hits $132.50 so ive grinded out my 20buyins for the 5nl games then withdraw the $32.50 so mentally i know im playing with winnings from there on out will put me at ease, no more busting deposits and no more not using bankroll management and no more tilting, also sadly no more Omaha least for time being.

changed mind im keeping omaha in the mix i enjoy it way more than texas holdem so just for pure pleasure sanity sake i need it in there so i dont go mad cause ill burn out end up tilting or not enjoying playing if i just play texas if i dont play something else other than it, im just doubling the bankroll requirements for when i do play it so so having least 40 buyins for the plo game im playing and stopping dropping down stake below at 36 buyins etc or just stopping go back play some texas, im basically keeping texas as my main game to #grind if wanna call it that and omahas gonna be my enjoyment me time relaxation time when i really cant be bothered with battling in Texas cause as i said i enjoy omaha more honestly i seem to tire or bore of texas quicker than omaha omaha i actually dont bore of really think part of its fact im a gambler at heart and omaha inherently has more swings more all ins on turns flops etc more sweats whereas texas its more someones crushed and someone isnt, and the big bluffs arent really a sweat either if your weighing them up right you know in your head if there profitable break even or losing when doing them so theres less err sweating like they call whatever (your have value there too) they fold whatever if that makes sense? or if you do dumb bluff you know isnt working the right amount its not a sweat your just feel like an idiot for doing it anyway, i dont know texas just doesnt feel like gambling even though it is omaha always still does

day 1 results really nice start glad didnt go tilt go busto straight off the bat ha =

played


3hrs2min of 2nl in 2 sessions and made +11buyins love maniacs when run good vs them


1hr16min of plo which i mentally debated dabbling in and playing at all, i was going to play another little afternoon sesh of texas but the thought was urgh as feels like preparing for war battle at times which is fine when im actually in the mood to battle but not pleasurable when not so i decided screw it i need to actually have fun while playing so opened few tables up luckily ran fairly well 1-2 gay hands but that was it really +16.5buyins

ok played another session played very badly, as in really not sure if it was profitable play longterm at all too much good hand idiot hand maybe played deep ones ok and i was marginally profitable or maybe i was just fish on a heater for tonight's session
anyway i played omaha again long session 3hr10mins straight kinda only kept playing as there was definitely worse players than me at the table even though i myself was playing appallingly truth be told anyway 3hr10min at 2plo +5buyins

running total
$2 stakes
plo +22.5bi
nl +11bi

most likely just going to withdraw the initial deposit now and just hope i run well enough to grind up the $100 for 5nl $200 for 5plo etc

played crazy amount hrs today 8 but did enjoy it but felt 2.5 of those hrs were spinning the wheels wasting time playing like **** the first 1/2 of first session where i dropped 3 buyins instantly in bad bluffs and the first middle part of the 3hr session i just played actually only half hr was genuinely sound play rest was dirty, playing a pot well one moment to make a loose call or bad bluff the next so last session of day quality deteriorated greatly partly i think cause i had some stacks to fall back on i dunno

need to update this every day i play i think purely to keep my goal in sight to be honest im determined to never busto a deposit again play within my means (use brm) and make this deposit stick permanently no more gambling no more playing poker negatively emotionally or positively emotionally in negative way e.g. gambling and messing around when in good mood just cause its fun im in the mood to spew about etc.
always attempt to stick to my strategies play my game and avoid tilt like the plague.

withdrew the initial $32.5 deposit feels good but ive some how missed calculated somewhat as i have 1 extra $2 buyin so made 33.5 buyins not 32 whether it came from texas or omaha i have no clue im going to guess omaha cause you know the swings deep stacks seems more likely i just miscounted there so ill update that in a bit