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Old 05-12-2020, 01:50 AM   #451
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Just spent a couple hours running through my tourney HH, doing pretty much any ICM hand I saw that I thought was interesting and everything I saw on the FT. I forgot how TIGHT ICM dictates you play. Like, I knew you tightened up, but I didn't remember that almost every time you called an all-in with big ICM implications your range had to almost be 99+ AQs+ AKo. Like, every time. I made at least one disciplined lay down with 66 on the FT that I could have gone awry with and more or less played very well. Guessing proper open jam/rejam/calling jam ranges from the other players was much harder tho. I was in the ballpark but not great

Going through the HH I also saw a lot of leaks for me to work on. I think my big glaring flaws are when playing out of position for the most part, especially defending BB and as pre-flop aggressor with caller behind. I also suck in three bet pots post-flop as far as gameplanning goes and my BVB play is really just whatever I feel like in that particular hand haha. If I can plug those I will be going a long ways towards moving up the poker ladder

Scheduled for seven hours tomorrow but it might be a light day. I was thinking I might do a late poker session but it's almost midnight right now and chances are I will be dog tired tomorrow. I guess we'll see how I'm feeling! Gnight!
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Old 05-12-2020, 08:03 PM   #452
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Not my finest day ever on the felt. No serious runs and I played a lot of $11+ tournaments. That being said, I played Day 1 of the $12 Mini Dragon on 888 and I finally made Day 2! I've fired multiple bullets in there over the last few weeks but could never connect, but I finally did it. I think I'm a shorty though

I'm not a shorty in the $22 SCOOP Phase 2 though! Yep, I know I said I wasn't gonna play it but sometimes you gotta take your shots, right? I actually fired two bullets, my first one ending mighty fast. I built up a stack in the second run though and have some chips to play with on Sunday!

I'm not actually done yet, now two tabling a $5.50 Party bounty tourney and the $5.50 SCOOP turbo PKO. Hasn't been my day today but big scores happen at the least expected times. Guess we'll see how I finish. Probably back Thursday if I'm off work early, Friday if not, and then I have a long weekend of grinding hard planned. I guess I've been doing pretty flipping good since I came back, wouldn't mind the upswing to continue for another week, Gl gl
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Old 05-14-2020, 10:46 PM   #453
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Heyo! Just a quick check-in. No poker today, ended up working the full 8 hours and walking 11.3km during my shift. I was absolutely dying. It's been a few months now since I had any potato chips but there were snome snack-size bags in our break room so I crushed a few just to survive the day. I haven't been getting enough sleep for maybe the last week or so, had a solid two hour nap after work and gonna hit the hay after this. Hopefully will be well-rested for the long weekend of MTTs ahead

Watched a couple movies in the last two days. Yesterday I crushed the three and a half hour The Human Condition I: No Greater Love. Definitely not my favourite Masaki Kobayashi movie, a little too preachy for my tastes. I've been grinding the Letterboxd Top 250 films which has given me a long list of classics and hidden gems to chip away at. I've watched some on there that I really loved but plenty I didn't. This one was okay anyways. Still need to grind out parts 2 and 3 just to say I did it and get closer to finishing his filmography haha. Also watched Jigoku which was pretty choppy but also trippy? Jigoku translates to Hell and who doesn't love a flick about the anguish and torture of sinners in some indistinct spiritual plain of horror. Not bad, not bad. My Criterion orders still haven't come in yet and I think they've already passed their estimated delivery date. Give it another week before I start freaking out I guess haha

Was looking for info on the wage top-up I heard about well over a month ago for us low-income workers and I guess that the Canadian government came to an agreement with the provinces but we still haven't got any dough or idea of when it will come??? Supposed to be for essential workers making slave labour money and if I don't fit that bill I don't know who does. Hopefully I'll have some extra change soon, whether to keep stored in the liferoll or add to the BR. Golf courses open tomorrow too! Haven't gotten a text from the old geezer that won a bunch of money off me last summer yet, hopefully he'll reach out soon so I can kick his ass. I'm in a lot better shape than I was last year, hopefully I'll be pumping everything 20 yards longer haha

XL Inferno has started up on 888 as well and I'll be looking to grind events $22 and under. I was really hoping to play the mini-opener today but missed the boat. Tomorrow is the $22 PKO event and PKOs on 888 are an absolute joke, cannot recommend enough for some easy money. Only a matter of time until I make an FT in one of those. Hopefully I get off work early tomorrow but it's hard to say, we had a lot of orders come in (I'm a personal shopper). Might take five hours or so, guess it depends on how lazy the new girl wants to be tomorrow. glgl this weekend everyone!
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Old 05-14-2020, 11:21 PM   #454
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Jesus, forgot to even mention my counselling session. This was my second one since coronavirus hit and was conducted over the phone. I guess to go back, I think it was January or February when the lady I had been seeing since last June told me she was taking less patients and wanted to pass me off to someone else in the office. Tough pill to swallow when you've spent like eight months building a trusting relationship and can barely cope with life/change in general. Had one session with a new girl, honestly probably close to around my age (25ish). I was super closed off that day because I was depressed as **** so she was mad that I wasn't talking to her even tho I didn't know what was happening haha. I talked about how much weight I was putting on and how I wanted to lose it and she told me that I shouldn't be trying to lose weight because most people just tend to gain it all back within a year. Like, what??? There I am, wanting to improve myself and be healthier and she's trying to talking me out of it because I'll probably just fail? Hey, I mean if you're okay with being fat that's cool. From my perspective it's always been about the long term health implications of being obese, not so much the insecurity associated with the weight itself. I guess that bigger people don't like hearing that being fat isn't good for you hahaha. She was a little chunky herself, so I think I might have pissed her off. Anyways, I actually ended up being suggested to just leave the session early. I had no idea you could get kicked out of a counselling session you were paying for hahahahaha

Anyways, after that nightmare I was planning to just go on my own before my old counsellor contacted me. She heard that my appointment with the new girl didn't go well (understatement) and we ended up booking a session afterwards. Of course, that was when I hit the mental health upswing. Now I'm flying high and the call yesterday was more or less just for her to say "Have a nice life." She literally used those words haha. I have some new skills that I never had before that helped me get through this winter and will hopefully get me through whatever chaos I end up facing in the future. If those fail, hopefully I can fall back on counselling and/or medication in the future. Still on antidepressants for the time being but I might try weening myself off soon. Honestly I don't know if they've done anything for me anyways haha

Might sound silly but the biggest life hack I learned from my counsellor was a thing called thought blocking. Basically, if you have any bad thoughts you just try to block it out. You can do it in writing (writing down stop on a sheet of paper for example). You can do it through oration ("Stop stop stop") or you can visualize it (a big red stop sign growing bigger and bigger, overwhelming your mind until the thought you had is pushed aside). The effectiveness has varied for me but it's worked good lately, usually end up using it a couple times a day. I mix together visual and speaking, usually closing my eyes and saying quietly "Stop Stop BIG RED STOP SIGN STOP STOP STOP" all the while imagining that big red stop sign just swallowing everything. Like I said, I might do it a couple times a day. So if any of my coworkers have seen me talking to myself, that's usually what I'm doing haha. I try to be covert about it, and it is silly, but it works so I can't complain


Also, I took an acting class this winter that we were about halfway through before coronavirus cancelled everything. On my way out to the mail to see if my movies came in I had a little diploma from the theatre saying I'd graduated my Acting 101 class. Had a good laugh, tossed it in my nostalgia box for safekeeping. Let me tell you, I am a horrible actor. And this class also coincided with my huge depression downswing this winter which did not help. In my general day-to-day life I have next to no vocal tone shifts. I'm just a monotone motherf'er. Most people think that means I don't have much in the way of emotions but you guys know that's not true haha, I just keep them a little tighter to the chest. Anyways, lets just say that if I was thankful to covid for getting me out of one thing it was definitely the year end performance we were going to do. My teacher was really into human tableaus, so basically just us pretending that we were mountains and trees and victory while someone would read out a monologue. Thank you coronavirus for getting me out of that embarrassment
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Old 05-15-2020, 06:47 PM   #455
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Very abbreviated 5.5 hour session today. Got off work at 11 and was still able to hit most of the tourneys I wanted to. Thing is my parents decided to come up to Stoon today and I kind of wanted to hang out with them. They don't like me playing poker (shocker) and I think my dad is borderline offended I'm busy playing when he needs a ride, comes up to surprise us, etc. In a lot of ways not much has changed in my parent's attitude to me and poker. Anyways, because of them my heart wasn't really in today and I stopped registering pretty early. I had several promising stacks/runs in big tournaments but they all amounted to nothing but a slightly losing day. Back at it tomorrow, pizza tonight boys
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Very abbreviated 5.5 hour session today. Got off work at 11 and was still able to hit most of the tourneys I wanted to. Thing is my parents decided to come up to Stoon today and I kind of wanted to hang out with them. They don't like me playing poker (shocker) and I think my dad is borderline offended I'm busy playing when he needs a ride, comes up to surprise us, etc. In a lot of ways not much has changed in my parent's attitude to me and poker. Anyways, because of them my heart wasn't really in today and I stopped registering pretty early. I had several promising stacks/runs in big tournaments but they all amounted to nothing but a slightly losing day. Back at it tomorrow, pizza tonight boys
Do your parents know you are a winning player? Have you showed them your graphs?

I must admit mine were not excited either until I started having noticeable scores and getting (a little) media coverage and then they were quite impressed. Until then they just accepted it without ever saying a thing, but I could see it in their attitudes
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Do your parents know you are a winning player? Have you showed them your graphs?

I must admit mine were not excited either until I started having noticeable scores and getting (a little) media coverage and then they were quite impressed. Until then they just accepted it without ever saying a thing, but I could see it in their attitudes
They know Iím a winning player but I donít think they understand the difference between being a skilled poker player and being a degen gambler. My mom is still borderline hysterical whenever I bring up poker and my dad throws shade every chance he gets haha. Iím really not surprised, thatís their right I guess. Biggest score Iíve ever had is only $3.1k USD, maybe if I bink $10k theyíll come around haha

I guess the thing that annoys me is how ignorant they are. Pretty sure my mom still thinks that the only person that gets money in a tournament is the person who wins it (which is insane and drives me absolutely nuts). My dad is completely unable to comprehend the fact I canít get up and leave my computer when Iím playing tournaments even though he himself has played live poker tournaments and watches them on tv. Honestly itís just willful, parodic ignorance at this point. Frustrating but whatever haha. Fun little side note: after suicide attempt #2 last year my mom and dad thought it would be a good idea to pay for my buy-in into a $1k live tourney in Regina to cheer me up. I had to talk them out of it because I was a) way more likely to lose all their money than win anything, and b) they hate that I play poker in the first place. Their logic is not always sound haha

Whatever. Itís my life not theirs. At least Iím not grinding in the same house as them again, thank god

In movie news, finally watched Vertigo tonight. It was very meh, even though the opening titles were absolute fire. North by Northwest is the only Hitchcock Iíve genuinely liked thusfar and Iím not too sure Iíll be dipping much further into his career. Gnight and good luck this weekend everyone!
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Old 05-16-2020, 03:22 AM   #458
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In movie news, finally watched Vertigo tonight. It was very meh, even though the opening titles were absolute fire. North by Northwest is the only Hitchcock I’ve genuinely liked thusfar and I’m not too sure I’ll be dipping much further into his career. Gnight and good luck this weekend everyone!
Not a big fan of Vertigo neither. But liked Psycho and The Birds. Rope is also a must if you have not seen it, which is the simulacrum of one camera shot, but actually uses several long takes. BTW, iif you do like Psycho, I was surprisingly impressed with Bates Motel that brings back the character of Norman Bates and his mother.
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Not a big fan of Vertigo neither. But liked Psycho and The Birds. Rope is also a must if you have not seen it, which is the simulacrum of one camera shot, but actually uses several long takes. BTW, iif you do like Psycho, I was surprisingly impressed with Bates Motel that brings back the character of Norman Bates and his mother.
Never seen The Birds or Rope but I know that the latter kind of has the “one-shot” gimmick going throughout. I’m definitely less than impressed by “one take” movies or movies that pride themselves on long ass takes just because. Absolutely hated Birdman and wasn’t too hot on 1917 this year (even though the nighttime sequence was mesmerizing, still listen to the song that played during that part on my phone). That being said, I did watch a true one take movie earlier this year called Victoria which wasn’t amazing but I did like it. Man, she sucked at piano but she could **** you up haha

Seen Psycho but really didn’t like it either. Never seen Bates Motel before but when I was dating my ex in Vancouver she used to do background acting gigs and she worked a couple days on that TV show. She always used to say I’d get hired because TV shows love diversity in background and my ethnicity looks ambiguous af but like I noted earlier, I am a trash actor. I did do background for a creative writing classmate’s short film. They originally had me right beside all of the actors during the scene while I was supposed to be drinking at a bar. They did a few takes and then decided that I would be better off setting up a guitar stand on a stage fifty feet away. Let me tell ya, I absolutely knocked that part out of the park. Gl today everyone, lets win some dough
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Old 05-16-2020, 08:09 PM   #460
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Finished my 11.5 hour session today down about $200ish. Today was maybe my most expensive buy-in day ever. I played A LOT of $22's, mixing in a fair amount of $16.50's along the way. My normal $11 stakes felt like the new micro who gives a **** level haha. Since I played several hundreds of dollars in buy-ins I actually had some pretty decent runs. It was really looking promising especially early on in the day. I've never had a genuinely deep run in a $22 MTT before but I built up some sick stacks in most of them today, racked up lots of bounties (they were all PKOs ), and cashed a few. That being said, somewhere along the way all of the stacks fizzled out. Was able to recoup most of my action but it felt like a day of potential unrealized. Made an F3T on 888 and bubbled an FT in an $11 Party PKO but unable to get that big score. Both of those runs I had some massive stacks early but by the time I reached final 30 I was severely shortstacked just trying to claw my way deeper. My FT bubble hand I got in 20bb on the flop with two overcards and the second nut flush draw. All the equity in the world and I didn't hit. Oh well!

Deposited another $200 USD on Stars just to replenish my roll there for the next two days. I'm still up maybe around $1.6k CAD since I started playing again but I've taken my licks along the way. Also, my monthly MTT total is sitting at a dead even 500 so the volume sure helps (or hurts) the bottom line. The plan is full steam ahead for Sunday and Monday. Afterwards I can reassess my rolls and make some withdrawals. Nice to be playing some higher stakes MTTs (for me) but I would say my BRM right now is very aggressive and once the next few days are over I wouldn't mind dropping back down to my $11 comfort zone. Y'know, unless I bink a hundred k or something...

Also shoutout to Sarah! We shared a table briefly on 888 and she congratulated me on my win so I gotta believe she's lurked on the thread before. That's a first for being recognized on the online felt for me and a pretty unique feeling. I gotta say sometimes writing in this thread it feels like I'm just talking into a vacuum, I almost forget there's people that actually read this other than myself haha

I have eaten pretty horrible the last three days so I'm gonna go rip through a quick workout and try to get back on track. Afterwards probably a movie. Been really itching to rewatch either Sideways or It Follows, I guess we'll see how I feel post sweat session.

BIG SUNDAY TOMORROW, GOOD LUCK EVERYONE
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Just started my day and am I crazy or is there still two weeks left in SCOOP?????? I thought SCOOP was over on Monday, I was so excited to get back in the lab haha. Oh well, more grinding in the future I guess
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They added two weeks on to it because Stars wanted to squeeze out every last dollar of Covid rake
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Makes sense haha. Wish I wouldn't have gotten so geared up for this weekend now, need to pace myself a while longer

The day is approaching it's end and right now I'm maybe $300-$400 in the hole? I cashed a few tournaments but I didn't even get a sniff of a deep run. I hate to be that guy but I was running pretty horrible, lost a lot of flips and a lot of better than flips haha. That's how it goes I guess. I'm still two-tabling a smaller $11 Deepstack on Party and the Bounty Builder $7.50 on Stars. The day can still be saved, I just need a little FT magic

I almost forgot that my SCOOP Phase 2s today were instant cashes which accounted for most of the money I won. That should give you an idea of how horrible I played the rest of the day. Min cash in the $22 Phase 2 was something like $50+ so I definitely played above my bankroll on that one Made it up a few pay jumps but nothing substantial before I hit the rail

I guess that I'll be going hard tomorrow. Tallied up my MTT totals today and I played in 72 ( ) which is easily my new PB. Twelve tabling from six in the morning to maybe four-thirtyish haha. Can take a bit of a breather playing my last two now My plan of attack for tomorrow is more or less the same as today, hopefully I just run/play better.

After my workout yesterday I decided to watch It Follows which I can definitively say is a perfect movie. I've seen it twice before and really really liked it but was on the fence in regards to "perfection." Put it to rest because that movie is exactly my vibe. I used to hate horror movies but now I love them, the more moody the atmosphere the better. If I bink something I'll make sure to come back and let y'all know
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Two FTs in some smaller tourneys helped today be profitable! Mix in another 888 F2T and a Party F3T and today wasn't a disaster. Only wish I could have hit some bigger scores! In my third place finish I was a midstack entering FT but everyone was grouped close together. I didn't get much in the way of cards and found myself super short 4-handed. Thankfully a guy with 20bb decided to commit ICM suicide and I got that sweet little pay jump before bowing out

On my other FT I was one of the shorter stacks but was clawing my way through the tourney. In the Big Blind with 10bb I got dealt pocket kings and ripped it in versus a button open raise... who had aces. GG

Pokerstars success continues to elude me as I just got pummeled there. I was profitable today but I bricked all of my $22s and $16.50s meaning it was only marginal success. Better than nothing though! Variance was on my side to only get top twos at FTs in my deep runs, time to balance it out and bust earlier haha

I find that my ranges for people are always a little off. It's always when I openraise and some fish calls me in the small blind. We'll get to the river with the board paired with sixes and I'll have top pair and they'll rip it all in and I snap it off and they always have A-6 offsuit. It drives me absolutely insane to get torched by hands that shouldn't be in the hand hahahahaha. Nah, I just like swearing at my computer a bit and then moving on to the next suckout

Also, figured out a lifehack. The injustice of flops, turns, and rivers are rendered moot if you just don't watch the cards come out!!! I've started to look away now which helps me not freak out when my 80/20 gets rivered. Because of course I'll lose one in five times! See the cards, look away, and check back for the results and you can avoid the whole painful process of those god awful coolers

Absolute powerhouse grind of a weekend. I am putting in serious hours/volume, more than ever before. Will likely take at least one or two days off. Wish I could just hop in the lab but I think I'll be sticking out the grind for the next two weeks still. The bankrolls will remain as they are, this is the time to take some shots. Trying to thaw chicken for supper tonight. If I don't post again in the thread it wasn't covid that killed me, it was the salmonella. See ya
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Been reading your thread lately, really interesting!
Congrats on your recent fts. I don't know much about your playstyle but your attitude seems really good. If you put in the hours I'm sure you'll keep scaling. Gl!
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Still following and going to tell my wife about that movie 'It Follows'. She's a huge fan of 'scarey' movies. (she's subjected me to many terrible movies, lol... but I see this one has good ratings).

I'm just trying to make a go at playing some MTT's but am having a tough time getting going on it. I'll get a day in here or there but no consistency on volume. (have had LOTS of stuff going on... tons of loss... loads of grief).
But... I'm trying.
When I was reading your post on the 17th, I saw that you still had a couple games going & it reminded me of my day (albeit on a much smaller scale.. I think I might've played 25 mtt's as I was off to a late'ish' start). It seemed my day wasn't going to end so well (bought into the $109 Scoop ME,.. after spewing a few $'s on satties unsuccessfully first) & only a few min. cashes on the day but then did okay on a couple stragglers (& wishing I'd reg'd to a few more games running later in the day) and ended up with a small profit on the day.
Good luck going forward. Myself, I'm feeling a bit stressed on wanting to get more time on the tables and feeling like this window of opportunity will be closing in near'ish' future... so I need to GET ONTO IT!!! < This is the plan!
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Been reading your thread lately, really interesting!
Congrats on your recent fts. I don't know much about your playstyle but your attitude seems really good. If you put in the hours I'm sure you'll keep scaling. Gl!
Thank you man! Appreciate it! I'd say my playstyle is probably your generic tight-aggresive, mostly from what I learned while getting coaching. Crushing everything $11 and under and probably profitable up to $22's but struggling at that point. If there's one edge I think I have over most poker players it's probably my calm demeanour. Usually I don't let bad results dictate my play and tilt has almost never been a concern. Beyond this month and me stretching the comforts of my rolls my BRM is usually solid too I appreciate the vote of confidence, I'm a believer too and I know I can still do A LOT better than what I'm doing right now

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Still following and going to tell my wife about that movie 'It Follows'. She's a huge fan of 'scarey' movies. (she's subjected me to many terrible movies, lol... but I see this one has good ratings).

I'm just trying to make a go at playing some MTT's but am having a tough time getting going on it. I'll get a day in here or there but no consistency on volume. (have had LOTS of stuff going on... tons of loss... loads of grief).
But... I'm trying.
When I was reading your post on the 17th, I saw that you still had a couple games going & it reminded me of my day (albeit on a much smaller scale.. I think I might've played 25 mtt's as I was off to a late'ish' start). It seemed my day wasn't going to end so well (bought into the $109 Scoop ME,.. after spewing a few $'s on satties unsuccessfully first) & only a few min. cashes on the day but then did okay on a couple stragglers (& wishing I'd reg'd to a few more games running later in the day) and ended up with a small profit on the day.
Good luck going forward. Myself, I'm feeling a bit stressed on wanting to get more time on the tables and feeling like this window of opportunity will be closing in near'ish' future... so I need to GET ONTO IT!!! < This is the plan!
As far as movies go I would say my taste is definitely not for everyone. Especially when it comes to horror, the stuff I like seems to bore the average person out of their mind haha. Another horror movie I just rewatched last night is The Babadook which is in my personal top three (with Parasite and A Serious Man). Have read more than one review online of people trashing The Babadook and not thinking it's scary which I'm sure lots of people have said about It Follows too. Definitely still recommend though

Sorry to hear bout the tough time you've been going through. Definitely earlier on in the thread/poker journey I was similarly pretty lackadaisical with how many MTTs I played. Lots of the time I'd play 40+, other times I might not have even played 20. Definitely a good time to be playing which might not last forever but I don't think it's the end of the world if you don't have motivation to grind a crazy amount, MTTs are stressful/time consuming af. If you aren't feeling it then there's nothing wrong with easing up a bit, whatever works/is right for you I guess. Awesome you still had a profit on your day tho, good luck in the coming weeks


Watched a bit of Lex's Twitch stream today which really inspired me to want to get Raise Your Edge. It's pretty affordable (at least compared to what I was getting) and I think it would go a long ways towards helping me climb the ladder. I'm not really one to **** around haha, if I do invest I'll definitely try to digest everything. That being said, this moment in poker may pass and hard times could fall on everyone, me included. So nothing wrong with waiting and seeing how I feel in a few weeks. I'm still a crusher for my stakes and if I decide to buy the expert class (**** apprentice level haha) I want to have a very healthy roll for my $11's to play with still. So I'll still be on my own for the foreseeable future. I'm still good enough to run up a couple $k if variance falls my way. Just something to think about!

Gonna bust out a workout and then probably run through an HH from this weekend and catch another flick. I know for a fact that my game has serious deficiencies, especially postflop and in 3-bet pots. I'm pretty confident with my preflop game but once you get to the complicated intricacies you find in the streets my knowledge is severely lacking. I know I'm sitting on a ton of great material I don't need to drop over $1k for so before I get RYE I'll want to go through that stuff. Probably no personal coaching anytime soon not counting the possibility of the one-on-one session my old coach owes me for the calculator I fixed up a year and a half ago. Definitely no desire to get staking either. Right now I love the balance I'm getting between my work-life and poker. The stakes are still low enough I don't need to freak out at the possibility of a sick downswing. The paycheque will keep me afloat and hopefully if I rip off a few scores I can actually start withdrawing money. I'm going to estimate I've made like $13k-$14k in profit since the start of the thread and I have used basically none of that money to enrich my life haha. It either went straight to my coaches, helped me scrape by, or was dedicated to building the roll. I would love that little financial flexibility I know I can achieve soon. Time to get my sweat on, later
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Old 05-19-2020, 06:29 PM   #468
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Also a quick addition: one of the grocery managers at work today asked me how my weekend was/what I did and I told him I played poker the whole time.

"Big winner?"

"Big loser."


Had a couple quips about lucky this, casino that, etc. etc. thrown my way the rest of my shift. In the year and a half since I quit poker I was pretty mum on the topic. I never talked about it with my golfing crew who, for all they knew, were just playing with some grocery store bum (which I am). The main reason I avoided talking about this wasn't so much shame about having played poker. It was much more with the question I didn't like answering:

"Well, why'd you quit playing?'

What a loaded question that is. In my head my go to answer is that I ran out of money which is partially true. But the thing is I made money. For my stakes I did really ****ing well. So although money issues is a correct answer all it does is make people think I have a gambling problem (which I do depending on who you talk to ). Does anyone really want to hear the actual answer? That I fell into a deep dark depression again, something I've been trying to overcome for the last five years or however long it's been? I'm not ashamed of the way I've lived my life post-university, it's just how things have shaken out and I wouldn't change much about it.

Starting to feel comfortable talking about being a poker player again because I'm truly back on the grind. I'm putting in volume, I'm making some cash, I feel engaged and actually alive which virtually nothing else in my life gives me. I love poker so so much and now that the depression has lifted (hopefully for a long long maybe forever long time ) I'm starting to feel like a living, breathing person again. I was so ashamed when I became depressed last year because I thought I overcame it forever. Everyone I knew knew that I'd dealt with it and was better now yet there I was just melting away again. Would have been nice to see friends/have more support during those tough times but it was also a relief no one had to see me the way I was. As I'm getting back in shape and leveling up in life again people I haven't seen for ages will probably just assume the last few years have been hunky-dory. Nothing wrong with that. It's much preferable to explaining why you stopped playing poker/aren't writing/gained so much weight/stopped drinking/etc. etc.

OKAY workout for real now! I feel more or less fresh mentally so I might be able to hop back on the poker grind tomorrow. We'll see, I might spend tonight dissecting the updated SCOOP schedule and decide then. See ya

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No poker today! Ended up working my full seven hour shift even though I was gearing up for a post-work session. By hour 5/6 I was just tired and very very hungry and I didn't feel like playing anymore. Once again, I haven't been getting as much sleep as I've wanted to. Better to just rest today. If I get off work early tomorrow I will FOR SURE be playing. If not I might just save all of my juice for the Friday-Sunday grind. Gotta say, it's nice knowing that taking a day off doesn't necessarily mean unearned money for me. Trying to go pro, every day I neglected playing when I felt capable was a day I wasn't making money and a day closer to going broke. Nice to have the steady income from my job and poker as just a fun (and profitable) side grind

Was planning to just chill and watch movies all day but ran through my 888 Deepstack FT instead. Crazy to think how much time I gladly wasted watching movies the past year+. I am being productive af rn. Leave it to poker to bring out the best in me

Overall my play was pretty solid. I think I made all of the right ICM decisions facing rejams/jamming myself. If not it was usually a marginal decision where erring on the side of caution was justified. That being said I think I'm playing too loose preflop. Going through the ranges I have I shouldn't be calling my smallest pockets EP vs EP at 100bb which I've been doing with a lot of regularity. This has left me exposed to getting 3bet off of my hands/not getting much value when i do hit anyways. I am also opening too wide shortstacked with suited connectors. I think I came across two hands where I open raised 67s from HJ with less than 20bb which is just horrible. Speculative hand that it is I'm pretty unlikely to hit big and I'm not deep enough to really realize the speculation part. Need to tighten up some of those marginal opens when I'm shorter. I think it was even worse when I was sub-20bb and I limped a 67s. I've been trying to work limps into my game which I think could be used in spots like this but I should be limping better hands than 67 that I still want to see flops with (ex. J9s, T8s, etc.). I think the worst part was that big blind had a 6bb stack. I mean, what am I gonna do when I flop a gutshot draw and I get open-jammed into? Just bone headed on my part

I also think I should make some adjustments in my final table play. Once again I think I'm opening a little too wide in spots (ex. J7s on BU) where I can find folds in an FT situation. It's not horrible and I was still able to win chips cbetting small but I need to pick my spots better. BVB as always needs work. I defended 74o vs a 2.5x SB OR which I think was a huge mistake with a sub-20bb stack. I'm basically tempted to call anything that's suited/semi-connected when the open is less than 3x. But in an FT situation where I'm a mid-to-short stack I just have to find the fold button. Even if I'm getting odds, ICM dictates I should be more of a nit *****.

So yeah. There are definitely leaks in my game but overall I still played really solid. I've trashed my postflop game before on here but I think it's still more than serviceable for my stakes, I'm definitely playing my relative hand range strength in a lot of spots to some good effect even though it isn't always consistent and the thought process isn't there. Hopefully that will come with time.

See ya!


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Almost forgot! Had a fun little Snapchat memory today from two years ago, my very first last Sunday of SCOOP! Pretty sure I lost big! Some thing don't change :P


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Won some chump change today to finish this stretch of poker. Definitely the most volume I've put in over a prolonged stretch. I was probably averaging between 25-30 MTTs per day over the last few weeks. I've played 441 MTTs so far in May (4 off my monthly record) and have played 139 hours (11 off my monthly record). It was a grind, but I stuck with it and I'm proud of my last five days even if I didn't have the huge results I was hoping for. It was good stuff.
Oh the memories. This was from almost two years to the day, May 21st 2017. 25-30 MTTs per day is a pretty sick grind but for perspective in this 2020 May so far I've played 138.25 hours and 638 MTTs. And that's while working a job 30+ hours five days a week. Cracked 60+ MTTs in a day four times this month which I don't think I had ever done before. Now I know what a real grind is
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Made my first $22 deep run to end the day down a couple hundred. Guys, I ran like absolute **** today. So so ****. I feel like I'm gonna be sick. Never in my life have I had trouble with 888 and at the F2T of this massive f'ing tournament my connection completely **** the bed. I mean WTF HAPPENED!!! I have no idea if it was something on my end or some BS with 888 but I am actually disgusted. I shudder to think of the premium hands I couldn't shove to try and double up because I couldn't get a table on my computer OR MY PHONE





I mean, just oh my ****ing god. I wish I could throw up right now

Back at it tomorrow I guess. Hopefully nothing blows up in my ****ing face then
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I mean WTF HAPPENED!!! I have no idea if it was something on my end or some BS with 888 but I am actually disgusted. I shudder to think of the premium hands I couldn't shove to try and double up because I couldn't get a table on my computer OR MY PHONE
Was your internet working for other sites? If such is the case, which happened to me years back, write to 888 support like non-stop until they give you an adequate bonus or tournament dollars or whatever. They eventually gave me 100$ or the equivalent after 4-5 messages of me calling them out. GL
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Hey welcome back, i went broke like you but ended up running it up back up within like 2 months

Lmk if u want to discuss MTT spots sometime
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Played 65 MTTs today and finished close to breakeven, slightly losing I think. I didn't get any big scores but I did really well in most of the big bounty tournaments I played today, just racking up booties. That being said, in every single tournament even though I ran up my bounty my stacks all eventually fizzled out. Actually made F2T in the 888 $22 PKO again today. My app didn't completely spazz out this time, I just went totally card dead. Frustrating to be so close. I feel like I should be raking in the dough right now but I've just been running into a brick wall every time I get to the late game. Just gotta stick with it, hopefully things will turn soon

Had to deposit on Pokerstars again just to be rolled for the weekend grind. I didn't lose too much there today so I won't have to deposit again for Sunday (thank God)

I was planning to play after work this Thursday. I was scheduled to work until one which would have left me enough time to come home and maybe get around twenty tournaments in. That being said, by the time I got off my shift I was dead tired and in no mood to play. I think that if I start at one there's almost no point for me to play. I miss most of the big tourneys I like playing and I would just get stuck late registering on the tail end of others I usually hit. For that reason I think I'll avoid playing if I work until one or later (unless it's a Friday). When I get off at noon I'm happy with the volume I can play and the tourneys I hop in so I think that'll be my cutoff. I have a couple shifts this week scheduled until 12 so I'll probably play a few days in the middle of the upcoming week.

I'm still up like $1.5k but I know it probably sounds like I'm losing a lot and sucking. I think the truth is that I've never put in this much volume before which really pads the stats. Make the lows lower and hopefully the highs higher (when I hit my upswing). I could still be losing hundreds more because I am recouping large portions of my buy-ins, I'm still having good runs, just not that big ass score other than my win and my runner-up. I want to win $10k hahaha. My ABI is somewhere around $10 CAD and I've played almost 1000 MTTs since I came back. I just NEED A SCORE



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Was your internet working for other sites? If such is the case, which happened to me years back, write to 888 support like non-stop until they give you an adequate bonus or tournament dollars or whatever. They eventually gave me 100$ or the equivalent after 4-5 messages of me calling them out. GL
My internet was definitely working so I'll do my best to start a fit, thanks Dub


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Hey welcome back, i went broke like you but ended up running it up back up within like 2 months

Lmk if u want to discuss MTT spots sometime
I hope I can run my bankroll up too, been going hard but not much to show for it yet. Glgl out there
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GLGL, I'm like 90% cash but enjoy tourneys too so I'll be following! I've been going through long spells of depression myself the last 5 and a half years or so. I know how debilitating it can be, it's tough to enjoy anything or have energy. I'm looking to try TMS therapy since meds and typical 1 on 1 therapists haven't done much good. Not sure if that's something you've tried or heard of. Anyway, hope you run well !
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