So I have decided not to join my coach’s stable. I had a conversation with them yesterday, where I was told they would get back to me in a few days after talking it over with the other investors. During this time, I was stressing out immensely. Not sure if I mentioned this, but they said they would sign me to an 18 month contract if I joined. A year and a half. That is a huge commitment, a huge commitment where the pressure is on to make profits for them and myself, to not go deep into makeup, to just keep playing poker and grinding away. After buying out of my contract, I would have had 6+ months to continue grinding full time from my BR. Honestly, I believe things would have worked out. I believe in my abilities, I believe I’m close to a breakthrough, and I believe I would have made money and moved up stakes with the help of the coaches
But a year and a half is a long time. So many things can go wrong, so many things can change, and I would always only get 50% of my profit. The doubts were very, very real, and even though I want to be successful, I want to make sure to do it on my terms knowing that I am 100% on board with what I am doing. So I passed. If I want staking later, I can apply later. If I’m not sure it’s best to wait until I am, especially since I’ve only had a few days of freedom from my own contract which is a very short time to decide on signing into a new binding deal. For now, I can genuinely be my own boss, make my own schedule, not have 4am webinars, and just be held accountable only by myself.
Even though people thought I was crazy to quit my job and start playing poker from scratch, it never felt crazy to me. I knew my goals, I knew my purpose, I knew the mental place I was coming from. I felt like I was freerolling because whether I succeeded or failed at poker, life would not be worse than it already was. Taking this shot, taking this chance has reinvigorated my life in ways that grinding away at Safeway or as an aspiring screenwriter would never have done. I’ve given poker a shot for nine months now and I have proven to myself I have what it takes. I don’t have the financial security I desperately want yet, but I believe I am making the steps I need to give myself that opportunity in the future.
After buying out of my contract I have one more month of expenses in my liferoll, plus my untouched BR. I will withdraw some more from my BR just for peace of mind, but I am taking a shot at WCOOP and Powerfest next month. If this next stretch goes great I can be in an amazing position to keep pursuing my dream full-time. If not, I plan to get a part-time job for the bills while I run up my BR and liferoll playing poker for a while. And even if that sounds like a bad idea compared to the possibility of 6 month security while being staked, I actually like it. I’ve always been working for someone, always accountable to someone, even in these last few months. I can be my own person now, call all of my own shots, and that is honestly really exciting for me
Real quick. I began this thread because I wanted to document this journey for myself. That being said, it has opened up more opportunities than I originally anticipated. All of the kind words and advice of the poker community have given me so much guidance on this journey, so it’s really meant a lot. I just wanted to thank everyone who’s followed along, who’s given advice, who’s offered help. It’s been great to have so much support and hopefully the journey keeps going strong