As I already told u, really inspiring read bro!

stumbled upon this, thought youd like it, as a huge conor fan <3



lets continue crushing wcoop!

Crush them today buddy

Thanks for the support, tried my best

Saturday

I was so looking forward to this Sunday the whole week. One of THE biggest sundays of the year and I felt super super pumped up. I was kinda wondering wheter or not to play on Saturday because I really wanted to be rested for Sunday. Eventually I decided to pLay Saturday aswell. I filcked in the 1K which started soo well for me. An hour in the tournament I was in the top 10 stacks of the tournament. Everything was pretty smooth. Then I had this pot where I tripled in 3b pot and got called super super light.

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Honestly ast first I felt like the biggest punter of all times because obviously when you get called like this it makes you question your entire strategy and in the middle of the session in the highest buy-in tournament it just didnt make me feel good at all. I kinda had a feeling of instantly wanting to quit the session etc. That lasted for like 2 minutes then I realized I needed to refocus and tried to do that but it took like 10-15 more minutes before I was able to focus 100% again. It was super super annoying feeling. At that moment I decided I would not register anything else and I would just set the alarm clock on a reasonable time and told myself I would spend at least 1 hour outside preparing for the session and just relaxing.

The rest of the Saturday was ok, I ran deep in the 100e event on winamax where I made day 2 and I also was running deep in the 300e winamax event. I was top5 stack for the majority of the tournament and like 30 minutes before the end I went from top 5 stack to busto. That didnt help my mindset either lol.


Sunday

So on Sunday I did as I said I would. Woke up pretty early at like 12:00 and just instantly went out. I grabbed my book and a pen and wanted to finish some of the goals in this "the law of attraction" book. So I did. I also walked around a bit and then spent a decent ammount of time in the park. It served its purpose. I kinda lost that feeling in the back of my mind and felt relaxed again and happy and excited for the sesssion. I went back home and prepared some food etc. Then I did my warmup, set my session goals and was ready to grind.


WCOOP sunday 10/09/2017

1. 1) be proffesional -> if something bad happens, accept it and move on. Focus on making the best decisions
2. 2) be better than others mentally and strategically
3. 3) trust ur instincts
4. 4) dont rush into decisions
5. 5) dont be overcreative mainly bvb
6. 6) watch out for 50-75

I also made a detailed schedule of tournaments I wanted to play because I didnt want to end up in a spot where I wouldnt have table space for a certain tournament just because of firing b44 for example. I started playing just 3 tables and played for a decent ammount. It worked out pretty well because I always had table space and still high level of focus. Unfortunately the whole session went terribly as far as poker goes.

It was jsut one of those days where you dont get hands and even if you do its not enough. One thing that botheres me a lot is that even when I come to the series "fresh", when there are some bad experiences I tend to somehow relive the previous ones aswell and tend to connect those together which just makes me feel pretty bad in general. But I am definitely trying to fight it and I wont give up untill I either get there or something else happens. As they say :"Sometimes I win, sometimes I learn".

We have 1 sweat going. We made day 2 in the winamax million event (the small one) so hopefully we get there.

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I am taking 2 days off - visiting my dad pottentionally spending some time with friends. Will come back on wednesday. Will reevaluate my schedule in the rest of the series.

Ok, Ive got couple things to write about. As I mentioned before I decided to just take couple days off, visit my dad, go fishing with my friends etc. So I decided to just drive home right after the sunday session. I figured I wanted to be home as soon as possible so I just drove home. Also the traffic was better at night. I though I would get some rest but I actually couldnt fall asleep I figured Id go fishing with my friend on monday then come back on tuesday to spend some time with my Dad.


Fishing trip

It was supposed to be the three of us but one of our friends cancelled so we ended up going without him. I didnt have time for much fishing this year so I was looking forward to it. Unfortunately the weather wasnt as good as it could be but it couldve been worse. We, well my friend ended up catching a pike. unfortunately that was the first and also the last catch of the day. But I enjoyed it anyway. Was beatiful to just chill a bit in the countryside. Also on our way there we bought two beef steaks which we prepared. It was one of the best meals Ive ever had probably.

We came back the next day because I wanted to just spend some time with my dad. Unfortunately he hasnt got any better and doctors still havent figured out whats wrong with him. And if that wasnt enough his mom (my grandma) had a heart attack so that stressed him out even more. It was quite frustrating to just hear him being down all the time and not being able to do anything about it except be there. We went out for a nice dinner in the evening with my sister aswell. Then the next day I decided to come back since I had the day2 of the winamax event. Didnt really feel good about leaving my dad like that but what could I do. I also visited my mom for a bit, we went out for a lunch before I went back to Dresden.



Poker

As far as poker goes, things have been the same. Unfortunately there was not too much succes so far. Also all the guys I have swaps with bricked everything aswell. So that kinda makes me want to skip quite a bit of upcoming high events. Had couple of runs in the past 2 days but couldnt close out any of them. One thing Im happy about is I found another leak of mine so I at least have another area to work on. Its pretty weird tho. I feel like Ive changed my game quite a bit in the past couple of months but as far as my stats go, they were waaaay more sexy before. But Im just going with my gut a little bit more now and it just feels more natural. Lets hope we can bink something until the end of series. Not too many chances left tho.

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Very sorry to hear that your dad is not doing well. Fingers crossed that he gets better!

Nice pics, good to have an activity that you can pick up when you feel like you need a bit of time away from poker.

gl rest of the month!

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We´ve got a sweat going. Day 3 of the 55$ wcoop psko. 15 left, we got around 30BBs lfg

GL buddy !!! its about time..

FT 5/9. TID boss!

Vamooooooo <3

Hey man,

Subbed. I just found your thread and read your intro! I will be reading the whole thing soon enough

Best of Luck buddy!!

Thank you all for the support

Saturday

Soo yea it might sound ironic but this Saturday was probably one of the worst days I have ever had. It reminded me a little bit of this years SCOOP. It started of great, I was loving the game, played very well and felt super good. Then it all kinda turned around and I found myself being in too many ridiculous pots. There was this period of time of like 3-4 hours where I would literally stare into the nuts with second nuts. Wasnt really pleasant so I decided to stop regging pretty early.


giraffe lol


Despite of that I made a deep run obv in the 55psko and 320SKO. I made a pretty big mistake deep in the 320SKO which cost me most of my stack. I think it had to do a lot with the state of mind I was in. Then I was just one tabling this 55 psko untill the end of the session and I managed to make day 3.

Sunday

Sunday then was was pretty exciting. All day I thought the day 3 of the psko would start at 18:00 CET so I wasnt really registering too much to just have low table count and being able to focus on the deep run. Well then I discovered that It starts at 20:00 so that was a mitake on my part but it didnt really influence my schedule. I was really excited to play the deep run and had a very weird feeling. I decided to skip basically all HS tournaments so I skipped the 1K party phase and the 2k milly.

But yea, the day 3 was supposed to start at 20:00 and it literally didnt start. So there was a lot of messaging with stars and eventually after 40 minutes or so they started the day 3. I prepared pretty well in my opinion. I knew what my gameplan would be and I expected all guys to be super punty. I was not wrong about that. First hand of the day I managed to win a big pot which obviously was great. Then I remember opening like 4 pots and got 3bet every single time lol. People were just super insane. I adjusted my game a bit and it went pretty well. I managed to make FT coming into it as 5/9. I think I made a huge mistake in one pot that was pretty important. I wanetd to bet 4M into 4.5M on the river and I typed the betsize in and ended up betting 400K instead of 4M and got called by a hand that would never call vs 4M.

So that was a huge mistake on my part. Then 8 handed I think I got pretty unlucky, I rejam AJo vs SB 2.2x open he has KK and then we were basically left with 20BBs and had to just wait for hands. Managed to flip TT vs AK to double and then lose AJ vs AQ rejamming 23BBs vs a guy who was opening like 40% so pretty unfortunate. Things werent going my way at all and at first I was super super sad about the whole thing. The main thing about me as of now is that to be a crusher you just have to have high level of confidence in my opinion at least. I think I have very good strategic game but as of now my level of confidence is just super bad and it keeps suffering more and more. I have my own ways to try and rebuild my confidence but so far its not really working out. But hey, I still beleive that one day it will all turn around.

One thing that is quite unfortunate aswell is that I skipped both the 2k and 1k on party. These tournaments were involved in the swap package with the other guys aswell as some others that we played so far. Well we bricked everything that I played so far and one of my the guys cashed for 50K yesterday in the party 1k and 2 other guys made day 2 of the 2k. So wp me for deciding which tournaments to skip

Anyway we have one sweat ourselves aswell. We made day 2 of the warmup with around 30 bigs so lets make it count.

I def can relate to the confidence part. So tough to remain fully confident when deep runs keep not working out. Gl on your day 2 again

Tuesday

Not much happening on Tuesday. I was in a really good state of mind before the session. The session didnt go so well tho. Not too many deep runs or anything besides a run in bb215 where I came 17th I think. I came 5th in that one on monday which was pretty nice altho 5 handed I was 2nd in chipes and then I made a questionable play. It was one of those spots where I just relied on my reads and they were wrong. Or maybe they werent but villain just ended up having the top of his range. This is one of those things that I struggle with pottentionally. I tend to give people credit to take advantage of some spots that are easily exploitable.

The problem is most people are not as exploitive as I would think and they just play their game. And I am making that mistake of assuming people realize that in certain spots my exploitive strategy is super open to re-exploitation and I assume people would pick up on that and therefore I go for the re-re-exploit which is obviously very dangerous because I am working with lots and lots of assumptions and I could pottentionally end up making huge mistakes.
Anyway, at least 1 interesting thing happened on tuesday which was me railing one of my good friends from the stable on final table of the winamax main event. I really enjoyed watching him play. He just seemed to be in the zone and very comfortable in his strategy which I liked a lot. I was nice seeing him dominate the FT. Unfortunately he came 2nd due to running bad in HU but still, it was a great score and wp by him. It was also pretty inspirational because he is one of those guys who just grind and never say anything about running bad or w/e unlike me :P

Wednesday

Wooow. Just wow. Todays session was something special. I am really mad with myself because I think I played very very poorly. I dont know what the reason was behind it. Honestly I just feel like I never have the upper part of my range, the runotus dont favour me etc. But it also feels really weird that Ive had this feeling for quite a long time now. So I will just probably have to admit to myself that something else is wrong here. Ive decided that after WCOOP I would just start aaaall over again. Im planning on making a strict proper plan in which I will go over every single spot that is most common and will just do a complete summary and documentation of all the things I learn or re-learn.

The ultimate goal is just to be comfortable in whatever spot I end up being at or at least have some idea about it. Because as of right now, even tho I would like to think that I know what to do in most spots, it seems like Im just not doing well. I would like to just reach the level of being indifferent about the results of the hand because I would know where I was and I would be just super confident about my strategy. This was usually the case but as most of you might notice I am struggling a lot recently and Im tired of just bitching about variance. As far as immediate "improvements" I will start to probably only play 6 tables at most, trying to play just a lot more solid and try to not take too many "fancy exploitive lines". I think this will be quite a challenge but then again, Im sure I will enjoy it.

I have always wondered why do you seem to be down in your state of mind when you have deep runs everywhere. Its frustrating not to be able to close out tournaments but when you go deep in tourneys all the time then you are doing something right. Its just matter of time when you manage to close out one or two of those big ones that will boost your confidence a lot.

However I totally identify with your confidence struggles. I think every poker player doubt himself when it comes to downswings and long stretches of bad luck and variance but that is when you improve the most. You question everything and that leads you to studying more, getting better and subsequently winning more.

It seems like the best players are very, very confident (some even arrogant) but still aware of their mistakes so that is something to strive for. (the confidence not arrogance )

Great post, i also feel identify with where u at but the good thing is - when ull get out of it after all of the tough process and struggles ull be unstoppable ! Enjoy the game glgl

We got a sweat boys. Super happy to make day 2 of the 2k thrill. 64 left, we will be playing 45BBs tomorrow.

Also Pads made day2 of the 25K which Im super happy about. Will be nice to rail.

Vamoooo

Best of luck bro

2k thrill day 2

Woooow. Well, its behind us already. Its a pretty weird feeling for me right now since I dont really have anyone to talk about it I will just post it here to kinda "vent" or w/e.

I was super super pumped for this day. I slept a lot I decided I would take a walk. I wanted to just play 4 tables or so so I had plenty of time to just chill and prepare. I went outside for a long walk. The weather was beatiful and I was enjoying it. I felt really good, little bit nervous but good. I talked with my family etc and then spent some more time outside, then meditated and went back home again. I spent some more time just chilling, watching some series. Then I started with my pre-game routine, wrote down these "goals/notes":

22/09/2017

• 1) enjoy the game
• 2) decision making procces
• 3) dont take egoic lines
• 4) enjoy it
• 5) today is the day!

Then I started playing. The start went pretty damn good. I managed to pick up a couple of small pots without SD. Then it kinda went downhill and I lost 2 medium sized pots which got me down to 20BBs. I had a pretty tough table so I adjusted my gamplan a bit. Then I managed to get KK vs AQ and hold which I was super happy about. And from then on it was just a sweet ride.

I was very lucky with the distribution of the cards and people were also doing crazy stuff vs me. I think I played very very well, there were spots where I went for pretty thin value, I made lines I probably wouldnt make in my B game so I was super super happy about it all. By that point, we were sitting on on lke 120BBs and we were 1/25. Then this guy with 4.5K bounty was auto all-in so I expected fireworks. EP with a pretty big stack opens I 3bet KQo 4x everybody folds, he calls. Flop is K98hhx we have no heart we bet 50% he calls, turn is 8x we bet 60% he calls river is Ah we check back and he has K5hh so that was a bit unfortunate in such a big pot but it was ok.

We were sitting at 2/24 after this hand so it was all good. Then the most ridiculous thing happened where chipleader opens MP, MP1 calls I squeeze AKo and MP makes it like 2.7 and he makes it real quick. It was just super super nasty damn spot. The most upsetting thing is that I had 2s timebank. I just decided to go with my instincts. I thought the guy was very weak and also thought he would hhave a decent amount of 4b/folds. So I jam and we dont get there vs QQ for 200BB pot. Obviously very very unhappy. Im literally just sitting here, being still unsure about the hand, asking every other guy if it was good/bad. It just feels very very weird. I kinda didnt want to have expectationts but I guess you all have been there. Sometimes you can just feel it coming. Well not this time.

I received a lot of support from Tomi, Sam and Pads which I appreciate a lot. I dont even think they realize how much it helps me(perhaps others aswell) to just receive this kinda of support. In the end these guys have been there forever and Im just a newbie so its always nice to get support from the legends.



Well as of now I dont feel like even thinking about poker. I will just take tomorrow off and prepare for one of the biggest days of the year on Sunday. Hopefully this will just make me stronger.

Wow gross gg

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WCOOP in a cube

So yea, WCOOP is behind us and its time for a little review. As I said before getting into the series I felt a little bit sceptical about the whole thing. I didnt really like the idea of playing super high again just because of my past experiences. But then again I had the momentum from August so overall I felt ok coming into the series. I felt confident about my game and I knew I could just adjust my schedule according to my state of mind.

The first week of the series went pretty well. I basically played every day except 1 I think? I think I managed to make a day2 which was very sattisfying and a good start to the series. I remember the next week being a bit tougher mentally. I did make some runs tho. There was the day 3 of the 55$ psko in which I came 7th I think? Ye, it was a good run but could have been slightly better.

The last week was both the best and toughest mentally. By that time I was basically losing a bit but it thanks to the 55 psko bink it wasnt really that bad. But then again I didnt cash any of the 1k+ events, I didnt have any other sweats in the swaps so all in all it wasnt the ideal state. Again, I had some doubts whether or not to play some H events just because of the “fear” of exponentially grow the MU. I skpipped a decent ammount of those during the series but I definitely dont regret it. I know how important it is to not get into a bad mental state of mind and at that time I thought skipping some of those events would help to prevent that.

Obiously the last week was awfull apart from the day 2 in the 2k thrill. Looking back the short like 30-40min period of time in the thrill where I went from having 20BBs to having the chiplead was really one of the best experiences Ive ever had in poker. So right now I just tend to think about that good feeling. Unfortunately it didnt work out as I wanted to but nothing I can do there. The Sunday was really good, I enjoyed playing all the events. I decided to keep the table count super low and focus 100% on everything. I regged all the HS stuff I could because I felt like it. I was pumped going into the day and I was ready to enjoy the day. I also did. ALtho I busted all the HS stuff in a pretty meh fashion. In the 5K main I think I played like 10 pots overall, won 2 of them (non of them were 20bb+).

I only managed to make some runs in the 888 1K and the mini main on 888 aswell. I was top 5 stacks in the 1K for quite long time. BUt unfortunately like 70 people off the money I ended up being in a unavoidable pf AI AKs vs JJ and couldnt hold for absolute heaps again. Nothing I could do tho. I had the mini main left where I ended up coming 17th AQo vs JJ for decent stack aswell.

Overall, I have to say this was the best series results wise so far so I really cant complain. I learned heaps and heaps of things which I can implement into my game and overall approach to poker. I am quite happy about how I dealt with my mental game during the series. Altho having said that, I also have to admit that my current mental game is probably nowhere near close to someone who is crushing hs mtts. So we have lots and lots of things to work on in the future.




Regular Life

I decided to take 2 weeks of after WCOOP. I fired 2 more sessions after WCOOP both monday and tuesday and I felt reallly weird. IT felt like I couldnt really focus 100% on the game. I wasnt as motivated as I would wanted to be. My body was also drained quite a bit which is just taking away too much energy. So I just packed my things and decided to come home for 2 weeks, take some time off. Not think about poker at all, start to put some focus on my thesis meet my friends etc.

The next day I came home I finally played tennis again. It was vs my biggest rival I obviously was in pretty bad shape since I havent done basically anything during the series. Or at least nothing compared to what I used to do. But surprisinlgly I played decent. I expected it to be worse. I lost the 1st set 7:5 after I was losing 5:2 and then leading 6:5 lol. It was pretty draining but then I won the 2nd set 6:2 and the third 6:0 so that was pretty nice.

The next day I decided to go fishing with my dad. We tend to go on this private lake where u have to pay for the weight of the fish you catch. It was fun, we caught a lot of trouts and we had a good time. Tomorrow Im leaving with my GF and my friends to a cottage. We will spend the next 3 days there. Im looking forward to that a lot. Just a lot of chilling with friends. I think this all will just help me recharge my batterries and will give me a lot of new motivation and dedication to start the grind again. See you guys in 2 weeks

Oh well. Its been quite a while since I posted so its time to freshen the blog a bit once again. Ive been away since WCOOP. I came back to Prague to just relax a bit after the series. I decided I would stay longer because I had classes on Friday and Saturday so I thought it would be unnecesary to go back to Dresden for 2-3 days and then go back again.

I have to say I enjoyed my time off a lot. I think its good from time to time to just not think about poker at all. Especially after a month being basically chained to the desk and just grinding. I had a lot of time to spend with my family, friends etc which is what I did. That being said, its been somewhat hectic aswell because I kinda wanted to meet a lot of people but I didnt really have that much time.

Ive also been stressing a bit about school - specifically about my diploma thesis. But during this week I had some time to prepare a schedule and a plan. I also did a bit of work and it seems like I can actually get somewhere if I put the work in lol. I visited the proffesor whos “leading” my thesis (not sure if thats the way to put it in English but basically its the guy who Im gonna be working with throughout the next 2 semesters). I showed him what Ive done so far and we were supposed to discuss what was gonna be next.

So we did. At first he liked everything Ive done so far. But then again, it wouldnt be a propper professor if he didnt say that he would like to do it differently. For example my idea was to just data-mine all the stuff I need into a mysql database and he said that maybe it would be better to do it in postgre. Then he said it might even be better to just work with XML and XPath and just leave the database out. Then he contemplated it might be better to just work with simple .txt files.

Well you can probably guess how much I liked it lol. I considered all the options but so far I think my solution will be the easiest to work with and its gonna be way better structured. Anyways, I think Im done with the coding as far as the “black work”. Ive written all the scripts that would do the minings and transforming of the raw text and sepparating it into words. Now the real fun begins. Trying to do magic with words and determining automatically what they mean. So far I dont have much of a clue about how Im gonna approach it but I beleive its gonna be fun times.

The only thing Im worried about kinda is time management. I tend to be very good with it usually but its a bit of a problem when theres just too little time lol. Im kinda looking forward to getting back to grind and studying poker but then again, its probably not gonna be as hard grind as I would like it to be but getting some other distractions (programming, writing the thesis) could potentionally help me aswell. We will see about that. As of now, Im really looking forward for tomorrows grind.

Sounds like u had a great time off... now its time to crush.

glgl