So I wrote an update earlier this month, but simply had to cool down, and think things through. Anyway, a short summary of what has happened:
- Was terrible burned out from poker once again, realised this happens every third month or so. Had a lot of stuff going on in my life as well, so was probably also a contributing factor.
- Decided that I had to play because it was December, so I moved up expecting my motivation to rise.
- Basically been playing tilted/tired/stressed the whole time. Lost 500$ in my last session, and basically cashed out my roll and self excluded myself from poker, expecting I was done with poker.
Fast forward to now, and I actually want to play poker again. Looking back I should've self excluded myself way earlier from poker, and sort my life out instead of playing poker to relax (which in fact, probably is more stressing than relaxing). I now know, that I have to balance everything I do (so motivational I know), and I've even replugged my GPU.
I have decided that I will end this blog and make a blog for 2019, mostly because I really can't blog without having the feeling of being accountable for readers (even if I just imagine someone reads it). I will also see if I can study poker more, so I'm looking for some GTO Monker ranges for preflop (I already have PIO for postflop), so PM me if you wanna share them.
Merry Christmas/Happy New Year guys.