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Originally Posted by OurSurveySays
Whats uppppppp
SCOOP bets I ended up 2.5k total there was lots of HU bets, some other team bets, Girafganger, FU15 etc that was a relief!
2 days before Vegas i decided to sack it off and come to Russia for the world cup. Vegas had so many exciting tournaments, 10k 6m, 5k 6m, main event, 50k, 1m one drop, 25ks and 10ks every day in Aria etc, but I just really love football and this is once in a lifetime opportunity.
Been here for a while now, Moscow easily top 3 favourite cities i've ever been to, very very very likely its number 1 and somewhere I would love to live. The propaganda against Russian people and lots of small things in the press has made me reconsider anything i've ever read in the press before! Literally amazing city, if you can still come out for the semi final and the final do it!
I haven't missed the poker side at all, really weird, I've started to question my whole poker future, what do I want from it? What do I want to invest in it?
I spend sooooo much time studying poker and dedicating myself to it, but the difference in ev from me studying a lot to studying a tiny bit won't actually be that high in reality because of volume of games I play. I don't like the SHR scene anymore, since those 3 400k banks last year i think I played 5 high roller tournaments, around breakeven or w/e, I just don't really see the appeal in them as much anymore. I find them very cliquey, god knows if anything dodgy is going on and the edges of course aren't going to be huge. If I play a $25k like a 7.5k for bankroll management and have a 20% roi (thats fkn huge!) i make $1500 which is of course good, but there travelling, being away from things, health etc and if i want to make $1500 I can just stay online and do it instead, I don't see the appeal at all really. Sure you can go to a nice place and visit, but you can do that anyway lol and actually see the place.
I'm 100% skipping Barcelona, have no drive at all to go and play that series, I know there is some cool events and stuff there, 5k main, 10k hr, I just don't have strong urge/desire to go. Weird!
Just want to stay home, be with family, be healthy, play lots of football and start transitioning into some other kind of business. I'm really driven by success, not financial success, but just being successful, achieving things, I'm not sure what would be really motivating to achieve anymore in poker. I got to n1 in pocket fives, won scoops/wcoops etc, I thought that going live and doing that would be the "success path" that would keep motivating me, but thats completely out of the window now. I don't really see cash games/ spins or other games as being something that will drive me. I don't know really, kind of a weird situation.
Anybody been similar/similar now?
Since this message, I locked myself in house, didnt see any friends once and dedicated myself to poker, I was spending insane amount of time dedicated to studying and getting better and better and it was very obsessive, and I was really built up to WCOOP/Powerfest where I was very excited.
I had some very good times in the last two weeks, won two Powerfests for $120k, cashed the first 6 5ks on party and just felt great. Mid way through the series Stars on Tuesday/Thursday where they had made it "half price" and taken away the high buy ins in replacement for $530s very last second added a $5k 20 runner gte (min 10 entrants too) and all the regs just went and played. It made me so sad/sick to see, people say "what are you complaining about"? They took away something from regs (a really nice big gte high buy in) got complaints for weeks, then added it on the day with these ****ty guarantees etc as a "look what we are giving you" and all the regs chase their ev. It really made me so sad that day and since then I've looked at poker in completely different way, if people are going to accept that kind of stuff then they will just keep taking away and then giving tiny back, they did it with payouts, rakeback etc, I don't want to make a big deal about it because I'm ambassador for another site, but I will either never play there again, or have super reduced volume there. I was ALWAYS very open that I wanted Stars to do well, a partypoker monopoly isn't GTO, there needs to be 3/4 really active/successful sites. They did the same again 2 days later (both PSKO btw...) and people go reg again, they just create a raketrap and regs snap accept it. So I went from being super happy/optimistic/grinding huge content every day to thinking wow what a ****ed up industry. This really isn't a stars vs party thing, its actually good for party if stars keep doing that stuff, as somebody who genuinely cared about this industry for so long it was extremely sad thing to see, it was like I was watching some experiment or something. Crazy!
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Originally Posted by meale
Isn't BitB enough of a business as it is? Maybe play less volume and focus on that for a while? Kind of interesting to hear how you're somewhat over it at the moment at the same time as everyone is hyped up due to WSOP. Do you not have any bracelet aspirations or anything like this?
At the end of the day though, just do whatever you feel like. You're in a unique position to be able to do pretty much just that, just make sure whatever it is you are doing you actually want to be doing.
I don't care at all about live accolades/trophies/bracelets etc. I really wanted to you know go the SHR route and think it would be better for my skill set, but after winning $1m+ in that 7 days and the three trophies, I really didn't have that amazing feeling, it was more of a relief, I just wanted everybody to know I was good at live mtts like I knew I was, it didn't prove anything really and I shouldn't care what others think. I genuinely couldnt care less if you think I'm **** or the best in an MTT, I think I have good understanding of my place in the food chain and I'm very OK with it, I posted something like some rankings or something and I made a cavet "I didn't consider including myself, euro, elmerixx in here" then some pros were like "yeah well you shouldnt you guys are nowhere near" and I really just didnt care at all. It was so important for me to be accepted for so long, I knew I was good and just wanted others to think the same, but I realise now they aren't educated at all to make a decision on who is good or isn't good, if somebody thinks I'm good it doesn't matter either since they have no metric/background to make that decision.
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Originally Posted by blakkman08
Completely off topic but your writing in the last post you made reads incredibly like the way Donald trump gives speeches :/
As your past threads have shown, making these “big decisions” doesn’t actually lead to anything long term for you so my advice would be - especially as you are financially and otherwise fairly satisfied - focus on what is fun for you in the moment and do that to the fullest. Bc in a few months time you ll prob change your mind anyway
I think almost all my thoughts on wanting me to do x, y, z have been very beneficial, thinking about my motivations, documenting them, going over them and thinking again has been great way to push through very tough profession, I'm more than fine if I change my mind in 6 months on something, got to keep trusting yourself and pushing yourself if you don't want to go sidewards, **** going side-wards and accepting mediocrity.
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Originally Posted by nolongeravailable
Buy an English lower league side already. How much budget do you think you'd need a season for a national league north/south team? 100k max? Go into partnership with a mix of experience and money and mitigate the risk.
Yes, eventually this would be great eventually, definitely something I want to do, I have a friend who used to own a football team too (Rob Yong!) so would ask for some advice there.
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Originally Posted by con_leche
Pads - ever consider getting into Sports Analytics/Data as a stepping stone to coaching?
I guess combining your interest in new businesses, with knowledge of HUDs, stats, etc., to develop some sort of program/methodology that could be used by soccer clubs. THere must be a big cross over in skills from top end poker...
I mean you even your 2p2 name "OurSurveySays" evidences a dedication to a data driven approach ...
Yeah we have to do insane amount of data driven stuff, I do lot of unconventional data stuff people would think was crazy so wont say about that, but I really enjoy being around data, however not too interested in spending too much time doing that regarding football.
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Originally Posted by GazzyB123
Any footie updates? Or health progress updates?
I play for a competitive 5aside team now in London, loving that. Im finding it extremely hard finding a team to just let me manage them of course. Like I don't know anybody in London, if I was in North East it would be super east, but have no idea about the process of finding something in London, don't really know where to start. Tough one.
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Originally Posted by Kidstars19
whats happened to this blog ? Used to love reading the updates.
Sorry. Literally ridic busy, but like to stop by ever now and then and catch up.