Hey everyone, basically decided to give poker one last shot.

I started playing online poker seriously when I was 19 years old in my university days. At the moment I am approaching 25. Man the days go by so fast...

If you're interested in my past you can check my old thread [1% grinder] http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/17...inder-1352808/

So after finishing uni I wanted to play full time for at least a year and see how things would develop. Played FR and 6max 50-200nl cash games at that time. Unexpectedly I got an job offer in Germany while I had couple months left till I was done with uni. Decided to give this a shot, packed all my belongings in my car and moved to Germany. I thought if i wouldn't like the job then I would just return in a few months and continue full timing.

2 years did go by and I am still here in Germany At the beginning I tried to balance work and poker, played only part time. At first it was a whole new experience for me: another country, first job, not my native language, new environment and etc. Couple months did go by and I didn't fit in with the crowd, the job was not in my field, so I was on the verge of quitting. The only thing that held my back was that I had a very bad month, lost like 3k $, so decided to tough it out.

Another couple months passed and I found my place here, switched to another department and the work was quite ok. Poker wise I was not doing good, bounced back and fourth between 100 and 50nl FR + 6max. For like 6 months was breaking even. So a year has passed since I moved to Germany, the work was ok, poker has not gone so well, so decided to give up on poker...

Quit the grind cold turkey for like 6 months, lost my Supernova and enjoyed the time off. At the beginning of this year I felt kinda empty, was wondering if I had made the right choice to stay in Germany, so started to grind a bit on the side some 50nl FR. This year I have found also a gf, the time spent with her was nice. However in April things have broken down for me, had a very bad month. First of all had an argument with my management, it was very intense and private, don't want to share here the whole details, but I was on the verge of quitting, it was an very unexpected event. I was a little disappointed, because I had a gf and a quite peaceful and nice live here and now this would end? Couple weeks after the argument, my gf dropped the lets just be friends bomb and I have also injured my shoulder a bit. So in that moment I have hit rock bottom, it felt pretty bad, haven't felt like this for a long time.

"It's only after we've lost everything that we're free to do anything" - Tyler Durden, Fight Club

So these events pretty much destroyed my reality, but gave birth to a new chapter of my live. It was time to take things back in my hands and push to the next level. It felt like I was a sleep for such a long time. Got back to poker, did hit the gym even harder, started my own Youtube channel, the motivation and drive is better than ever.

So my main goals at the moment are:

• Make 10 k$ at the tables and rebuild my game
• Continue to make gains at the gym and push it to the extreme
• Develop my Youtube channel further
• Find new streams of income

That's it for now, I it will be a very lonely process, but you have to give up the good things in life to achieve greatness. Decided that it's best to track my progress here. Will post some Vlogs couple times per month, so this should be interesting to follow, not just walls of text

Keep tuned for the June update in a few days !

Gl , will be following!

Welcome

2016.06.30 June Review

So the month is done for me, time to share the results. First lets start with the graph:








At the start of the month I was felling pretty confident in my game and when I looked at the results I thought the leaks were plugged and I will continue to crush further. Today I looked again at the results and basically I am back at zero. With the bonuses I made 215 $ this month.

For this year the trend is pretty similar each month. Sometimes I have this bigger upswing but after some time I lose quite a bit and go back to zero. With the bonuses I manage to make couple hundred bucks each month.

Overall I don't feel that I have some major leaks, but after starting watching videos this month again I am sure that there are many small leaks. Over time these small leaks add up and cause me to break even.

So pretty sure I am not ready for 100 NL anytime soon, that's why I will continue with 50 NL till I start crushing it.

Next month I will have a one week vacation from my job, so I expect to put in a lot of volume, maybe even about 100 hours

Just one thing that I will adjust is spending more time doing of table work. The work ethic is there, but I have lack of knowledge, which prevents me from beating the games.

Here's the Vlog for this month:






10k $ Challenge [215/10 000$]

So that's it for this time

I like the video blog! Thinking about doing a poker/veganism video blog for my pg&c blog.

Hope you make the $10k and more!

Thanks !

You should definitely start doing the video blog, personally doing videos helped me a lot so far. I am a pretty reserved and shy person, so at first it was kinda weird to talk behind the camera, but after some videos I feel some major improvements. It helped me to become a more communicable person in real life too

By mistake saw this players location today at the Stars pool, USA back?

Good luck mate will be reading

Jersey is like part of England but in France near Normandy or something like that lol. It's definitely not USA. Ignore if you were just trolling and gl with the challenge.

good luck

Thx

One second of hope, that was enough

Thx


2016.07.06 Quitting the 9 to 5?

I hope this will not turn into a rant, but I wanted to share my thoughts about my current situation.

It has been already 2 years since I left my home country Lithuania and moved to Germany. The last 2 years I worked full time at the same place. In the beginning it was tough, didn't fit in at all, almost did quit. However it turned out that one person quit his job and I took his place, since then it was kinda ok.

This year like I mentioned earlier I had a big argument with my "boss" / CEO. That was in April, it was a private issue, that has nothing to do with work. Since then I have completely lost trust in him and the relationship was broken.

Each week at work we had friction between another, you could cut the tension with a knife. He used passive aggressive ways to basically hurt me: assign some ****ty jobs, get angry at me for small mistakes, that were not even my fault to begin with and etc.

After a few weeks it seemed that things have calmed down, but it didn't last long, soon at least one day during the week we got into an argument. So we have now the month of July, 3 months have passed since the incident. Overall things got better, but this emotional rollercoaster bs took a tole on me. Last Friday we argued again, he said I cannot envision working in the long term with you, I cannot picture that we will trust each other again. At that time I had enough and said that I am quitting , because I had enough of these arguments and cannot take it anymore. We agreed that I will work 3 months more and we will part ways.

This week arrived at work and he was not happy and regretted his decision, because he cannot control his emotions and acted on the moment. Basically he tries now to convince me to stay and find a way to continue, but I already stated that I am done and don't see any point in staying here. The decision to quit on my part was logically planned, I was already on it at the beginning of April. Decided to wait and observe things, but it just didn't get better.

Here are some other facts about my current situation:

• For 160 hours of work I get 1450 EUROS
• I live in a small village with 500 people
• I literally don't have any friends, just coworkers
• My monthly expenses are about 800 EUROS
• At the moment I am not liking the environment at work
• I am not satisfied with my salary, I feel I am quite underrated
• For my hobbies I have only limited time on workdays
• I feel not happy with my current life and feel that something is just not right

So I have been debating for quite some time now if its time to try something new. This year I have returned to poker, the results are not impressive, but I am quite positive that with enough hard work it will turn around. I am also actively searching for other income streams online and slowly building them up.

If I think about all these factors I think the time is now quite good to try follow my dreams instead of a steady paycheck. I have about 12 months worth of living expenses saved up, no dept,loans or commitments, can speak almost perfect german, 24 years old and flexible. After being employed 2 years and then quitting I will get up to 12 months of income support after losing the job.

First I need to change the living environment, because living in a small village depresses the hell out of me. The city of Coblence seems kinda nice:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Koblenz

Its not huge like Cologne, but very compact and also cheaper to live.

It will of course be more expensive to live there, I estimate about 1k EUROS for everything each month. At first I will grind for like 6 months and see how it goes, it was also always my dream to grind full time for like 6-12 months, never had the chance to do it. I will also see how my other ventures are going. If I see its not going like expected I will begin searching for a part time job, just to take the pressure away of paying the living expenses. Also after some time maybe I will try applying for some full time jobs if everything with the grind fails and see how its feeling working at other companies.

If after a year I will see that things didn't turn out as expected, I will pack my bags and go back to Lithuania and live with my brother in the capital Vilnius and try to establish myself there.

Would be nice to hear your opinions also, but I think its not worth continuing at my current job, because its mentally draining and I don't have the energy anymore to deal with that. Better to invest that 160 hours per month in myself than to bet on things getting better

Atleast have some life savings and a back up plan imo
a part time job to take away the pressure would be a decent choice.

Yeah, that should be the standard for the transition phase between full time employee and full time grinding. During this phase you have more time to grind and also backup from life savings and a part time job / backup plan

2016.07.16 July first half update

So we have now the mid of July, time for a short update








The month started not that great, basically it was just a rollercoaster ride down the hole. If we look at the graph with showdown winnings around 20k hands I was down in the redline 1100 $ and in the blue line up only 500 $. That means whenever I got to showdown I lost the majority of the time. Later I will analyze the hands that I have lost at showdown, but I am pretty sure most of them were setups or I just got sucked out.

So after losing 1 k$ I got an little upswing and things look a bit better now. This month I watched the series about 3bet pots from BPC by Gordon. I think that helped me quite a bit to plug some leaks. At the moment I am looking for another series about Big Blind play, because I am losing a bit too much there. Also I am considering on buying an RIO membership and check out the newest videos.

Like mentioned had an week off from work, it was really nice to just do the things that I am enjoying without having the stress each day to sit 8 hours at the office. Basically that would be my ultimate goal to develop income streams that allow me to structure my days as I want.

Check out also the Vlog to this post




10k $ Challenge [0 / 10 000 $]

The plan for the second half of the month is to continue grinding hard and work on my game each day for at least an hour. Hopefully the results will turn around soon

2016.08.07 July update

It's been quite some time after my last post. As you can guess that means things weren't going my way

Basically I did put in a decent volume in, it was one of my best months volume wise in a while. However I lost at the tables.

Here are the graphs:







I have came now to a point where I must either call it quits or change some things up, because if I continue going in my current directions I will just breakeven at best.

While I still have my current full time job I will enter the experimentation phase. First I will change to 6max, because FR is slowly dying over the years and the games got much tougher. Also I will try other poker sites, maybe the games are softer there compared to stars.

Vlog for July:



10k $ Challenge [-315 / 10 000 $]

The next update will come at the end of August, because I will not put in that much volume like last month and will experiment a bit too. Hopefully I will find a field where it goes better