Hi!

I have been a long time lurker, but not much of a poster. Had another account here, but cant remember login details, so I made a new one.

I`m 34 years old, and have played poker for many years. I have never been serious about poker, and have had alot of ups and downs. Started out with hu sngs, and moved to 6max turbo/hyper. I have also played quite a few mtts, always drunkk

So now I wanna do things right for once and document it in this thread. I have struggled with CFS for many years, which also led to alcohol abuse just to feel good. I will now try to set goals for myself, both poker and life goals, and try to have a better life for myself and my family.

Pokerwise i will start playing 6max turbo again at 7$ level. I am really rusty, but will hopefully get better along the way. I have also made a 250$ bet with willybeemen on 2+2, that I wont drink alcohol at home before I leave for Spain in July. I am allowed to have a few beers on my birthday and the day of the champions league final. No more.

I will try to update this thread fairly often, mostly poker related. Wish me luck!

onkltim

Goals for March:

-No alcohol
-Don`t play poker when health is saying no
-No candy/soda on weekdays
-Go out for a walk every day as long as my health allows it
-No pokersessions worse than c-game

I wont set any volume goals but instead focusing on doing things right. At the moment I`m away from home for a few weeks getting help with my CFS problems. That means I have alot of time on my own, so I should get a decent volume the next 2-3 weeks.

I played some 6max turbo i January, but still very rusty. I forgot to mention in OP that the last two years I have mostly played spins. I could really monkeytil in spins and wipe out a weeks profit in no time, so I had to quit. I started playing 6max turbo yesterday with a 350$ roll. Made a few mistakes yesterday and would rate myself C-.

Today I have had two sessions and played better. Would rate it B-. Will try to have a bigger session later and hopefully play well.
BR:435$

onkltim

I had planned a longer sesh tonight, but that was not ment to be. I started out playing my A game for the first 10 or so sngs. But then I started to lose focus, and the mistakes started to show up. I should have stopped regging new tables right away, but didn`t

I regged for another 30 mins or so, and bad mistakes was the result. Many of them. Will just have to learn from my mistakes. The play was so bad in the end, that I would give myself a D for the session. So already a monthly goal failed

I took a break for an hour+, and tried to get my s*** together. Then i fired up 8 new tables, but I soon started to struggle with consentration again. I stopped regging right away, so thats something I guess. Also happy with the level of play. A game is not possible when my head is like that, so I would give myself a B.

It would be interesting to hear from others who struggles with fatigue or simular stuff. Probably not many poker player out there who has the same problems as me, since its really hard to grind and play well. The smartest thing would probably be to just quit, but I refuse to give up just yet. If this turns out to be a big fail, then I guess I just have to.

I haven`t mentioned it yet, but I play on stars under the nickname onkltim.
I should have been up alot, but the combination alcohol(alot)/mtts have taken all profits. I drink to much and spew stack after stack in late stages off mtts. I really love mtts, but gotta stay away until alcohol problem is better and the health is better. The way it is now I can only consentrate for 2-3 hours on a good day, so mtts are no point right now.

I have also made a 150$ bet with willybeemen that I will stay away from spins and mtts until my roll is 3.5K. The bets are freerolls for him, but good motivation for me. Think I will be able to stay away from spins/mtts, but the the alcohol bet will be hard.

BR:482$

onkltim

Played a small session again. Maybe 15-20 games or so. Definitely the best session this far. Managed to stop regging as soon as i felt consentration lacking the slightest, so really happy with that Would rate my play close to A game

My other goals are looking good so far. I have eaten healthy both days and also been to a physio both days for some light exercise. Also went for a walk yesterday, and might go for another one later today or some swimming in the pool.

The alcohol part is also good this far. We are not allowed to drink where I`m staying atm, so it should be easy right? My last stay here i drank several times in the 2.5 week stay, so it isn`t that easy for me. But so far so good

BR: 569$+35$ in starscoins

onkltim

Today I`ve played a few more sessions. The first one was really short, as I only had 45min to play. Only got 8 games in, but thats better than none. Play was fine and would give myself B

The next sesh was supposed to be a longer one. I finally had a clear head and was ready to grind. But after an hour or so I got a phonecall from my kids and they wanted to skype. So I had to break up and do what I should. Play was ok and I would rate my play B-.

After skyping I went for a walk, and socialized with others in my group. I have walked outside every day this far, even though the weather could be better. Happy with that

I just played another session, and I started out playing well. Suddenly one of the members from my group knocked on the door and asked if I would join for beers on a local pub. I actually managed to turn the offer down! Probably because I had 8 tables up, but still happy with myself After a while internet started lagging, and suddenly I lost connection completely. I got it back after a few min, but made a few mistakes after that and started to lose consentration again, so I wrapped up for the day. Last session I would grade C+ in total.

Probably not many reading this, but I will continue my story as long as I find it fun. Will also try to be more active in other threads. There are alot of nice threads in PGC, and I read many, just gotta start posting more. If there are others out there who grinds sngs or find my story somewhat interesting, feel free to chime in.

I might share some stories along the way. I have been a crazy degen for many years, so I got some stories to tell

BR:693$+coins

GL at the tables!

onkltim

Just played my longest session this far, so finally got some kind of volume in. Was supposed to play a sesh earlier, but internet wasn`t working again. I played for over 2.5 hours, which for me is a long time grinding. It was a really frustrating session. None of my bluffs were working, and I ran really bad on the bubble for a while. I probably should have quit an hour earlier, because I started to get a bit overagressive in some spots. Also betsizing were bad for a while there. Gotta learn from this. Still haven`t had a losing session, so thats something. Would rate my play C+ overall.

Earlier today the whole group went outside for a hike, which was nice for a change. It gets boring walking alone. After lunch we went to the swimmingpool for some light excercise. The water is warm and nice, so I will try to use it more the next two weeks.

BR:778$+coins

onkltim

Just wrapped up 1.5 hours of playing. Wanted to quit early, but was down a bit and the games were really soft, so squeezed out another hour. Happy with that as my focus was ok even though I was tired. Would rate my play B-.

Have 2k games at this stake now, but not all games from 2017 obv. ROI is 13.9% atm, and I hope to push it up to 15% before this challange is over. Think thats possible if I play only when I should.

Really miss spins both because of volume and because its more fun. Think I will return after this challange, and see if I can get my "spin mental game" back on track. Volume is hard to get at 6max turbo when I rarely play 2 hours+.

BR: 829$+55$ in starcoins

GL at the tables!

onkltim

Another day in the books... Had my best day this far regarding volume. Thats pretty much it. Nothing much to say really. Have played 3 sessions today, and first 2 were 2 hours+. Felt like my play was decent, but nothing went my way. No mather what I did I was wrong. Mostly it was setups/runbad, but also a few mistakes along the way. When I play "longer" sessions, thats kind of unavoidable. Was down almost 100$ at the worst, but crawled back in the end. First two sessions I would rate somewhere between B- and C+.

Last session was rather short. Should have played more, cause then I was on my A game. For some reason I didn`t feel like playing and cut it short. I might play another session if I can`t sleep later on.

BR: 830$+55$ in starcoins

onkltim

Last night I made some poor decisions. We went out for some late food, and I felt like having 1 beer along with the food. Obv could stop there and had a few more. When I got home I started playing again. Played really aggro from the start, like it was spins or something. I played draws hard and showed river when missed. Got snapped again and again. Told myself over and over that I could pull my s*** together nd play well. And I could for periods and continued to reg more games. Than spewtard onkltim gets back for a while, rinse and repeat. Rate the session F-> FAIL

So disappointed in myself. I lost almost 100 $ and Fkd up my ROI really bad. ROI and sharkscope leaderboards have been most of my motivation, so this won`t happen again. Ever.

BR:741$+55$ in coins

onkltim

A frustrating weekend is left behind. Volume wise it was great, but thats about it. Played 3 sessions yesterday, where play was between C+-B+. Actually ok happy with that since I played more than I use to. Played an hour this morning also, whish I would rate B. I might reshove a little bit light in some spots in late stages, so I think I will change my strategy a little bit.

The story for the last days have been shoving into top range. It`s so frustrating, but nothing to do about it. Happy I haven`t tilted one time atleast. Def have made some bad plays, but thats more from lack of consentration. Another goal for the month is getting platinum, so I need to get more volume.

BR: 805$+coins

onkltim

Played 3 more sessions yesterday. The first two I`m not thrilled about. I think I miss some spots when I`m 8-tabling, and also many of my mistakes is just button clicking without any thinking. Think I will start with loading 8 tables, and continue to 6-table after I bust out. Lately I have been a bit spewy at the start of the sessions, so def need to work on that. Also have much to learn at the bubble, so will make some adjustments. Would rate the first two sessions as C

The last session I was much more happy about. I tried smaller betsizes and I might continue down that road. Would rate that B+

For the rest of the month the focus will be on quality over quantity, which def have not been the case the last few days. As for the other goals I`m doing fine. Been eating healthy and walked outside every day except yesterday. Yesterday I went swimming in the pool which is just as good for health, and also more fun.

BR: 845$+coins

onkltim

What is CFS?

Goals are important but equally if not more important is your plan for achieving those goals. You've identified several issues to work on, but how exactly will you work on them? For example, specifically what will you do to improve your bubble play?

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Thanks for dropping by!

CFS is chronic fatigue syndrom. I`m also very sensitive to noise/sounds, so that adds to it. Basically some days a 30 min conversation can be enough to make my head a complete chaos. Some years ago I was lying in a dark room for a few months, so I`ve come a long way since that, but still a long road ahead.

I have always learned by playing and trying new things. Betsizes and ranges and so on. I also talk with my only pokerfriend willybeemen from time to time. I have never used a HUD and never learned proper ICM. I might buy HEM but tbh I have no clue how/where to start working on my game. Any input on that is VERY welcome

My biggest issue the last days(except for horrible button clicking because of lack of consentration), has been when I am a big stack on the bubble. I have been shoving to wide, and also reshoving waaay to wide when I have slighty more than nr2, when nr3 is very short.

My plan was as simple as trying to be agressive without shoving, and maybe 3bet/fold vs nr2 stack. Of course will have to vary my style, not to get exploited by others. Willybeemen is a reg in 15$ 6max turbo, so I was def planning on catching up with him when I get home. Ghosting someone can be a big help I hope. But to sum it up, my plan was to learn by doing like someone clever said. I am fully aware that this is not optimal at all, but like I said, I don`t know where to start or what tools to use. Hope that is clarifying some of your questions. Feel free to ask anything, and I will try to answer as honest as possible.

onkltim

My advice would be to get much more specific and concrete with your goals. I've been going through this process myself (check out my goals thread I started recently) to develop more aggression in my game. I can't just say I'm going to become more aggressive by getting more aggressive. I've identified specific moves I need to work on (like 3-betting, squeezing, double-barreling, etc) and I've developed a concrete plan for learning those skills (listening to podcasts, watching training videos, looking for specific spots in tourneys to apply the knowledge, and so on).

So that's my advice to you. Start with a few very specific things you want to improve and then come up with some concrete steps you're going to take to make those improvements. Then focus on a few others and do the same thing.

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Today I have not had the best day, so I had to cut every session really short. Like 8 games a session for 3/4 and a few more on the last one. Sesh nr2 I made a few really bad moves, and also a big mistake in the last one. Insta unregged all tables after that last mistake, So atleast I`m sticking to my plan. Would rate my play B+ overall.

One of the sessions was really just a reg fest, so I cut down to 6 tables to focus better. Even though I have made some bad plays today, I`m really happy with my overall play. I don`t think I will ever be without some mistakes when health/consentration is like it is atm. I just have to limit them as much as possible. One of the biggest problems is clicking before thinking. That happens from time to time, and theres so many spewtard moments that could have been avoided had I taken 3 sec to think.

I have tried to mentally prepare before sessions to avoid these mistakes, but it still happens from time to time. I even decide ingame to bet/fold strong/semi strong hands on scary boards, but instacall when the shove comes. I really don`t know how to work on this, but I will continue to work mentally before sessions, cut sessions short when lacking consentration and just try to take time ingame.

BR:884$+coins

onkltim

Thanks for the quick reply!

I think I`m somewhat decent to figure out what I need to work on, but like you said, the concrete plan is missing. Do you have any podcasts or training videos to reccomand for 6max turbo? Really appriciate your input.

Will def check out your thread! I have no idea how to search for threads, but will scroll through pgc and find it. GL at the tables!

onkltim

I don't know about stuff that focuses on 6-max turbos but there is lots of free stuff available. Look up "gripsed" videos on YouTube. There are also a few excellent podcasts, like Tournament Poker Edge and the Postflop Poker Podcast. I find the podcasts incredibly valuable because you can listen to how pros think through and analyze hands.

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I thought I would make a little update and tell a bit more about myself and
my background. I`m a 34 year old from Norway, married and have 3 kids.
I started playing poker after my football "career" ended because of injuries,
and lacking of motivation. I think I was 19-20 when a friend itroduced me to
the world of online poker. I had some money saved up, and jumped right at it.

First it was a few deposits of 100$ just to learn the rules, and than I jumped
straight to highstakes cashgames. I played 10/20 and 25/50$ many times.
One day I could win 20k$ and feel like Gods gift to poker. The next day I could just as easily be in debt.

Looking back the games were incredible soft. If I only knew then what I know today. I am by all means not a great player today, but this
knowledge would print money back then.

Needless to say my savings didn`t last very long. I was a complete fish both with my play and the none excistent BR management. But I fell in love with the game....

To be continued....

onkltim

Will check out youtube for sure. I`m emberrased to ask, but where do I find
the podcasts? Is it on the internet or do I download an app or something?
I`m really a n00b with these things, but better to be than

onkltim

Depends on your device. On Apple I think you can just download them from iTunes. On my Samsung I use a podcast app.

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Tyty

Another day in the books, and another day of low volume. I have played 3 sessions today, and all 3 were short. Today I really had the consentration to play, like most of the day yesterday. Still I cut every session short. Like 8-10 games short. I think a part of it is I am so sick of doing big mistakes, and another small part is that I`m not very motivated to play.

I`m really happy with the level of play the last two days. Not many big mistakes. Today I made one bad 3bet/trippel barrel, but other than that very happy. Not many mistakes yesterday either, but like I said volume is hurting. Days like today I really should push for another hour+. Playing 6max turbo is not like spins when you can insta reg as many games as you want. It takes time to get 8 tables up. So if I play 1 hour I might get 8-10 games, but if I can push for another hour or so I might get 25+.

I will now work on my mindset before sessions if I feel the head/consentration is good that day, to up the volume a bit. No way I can stay at top 10 at the sharkscope leaderboard if volume continues like this. If I up the volume I will probably do a few more mistakes, but I still think hourly will be better.

BR:905$+starscions

onkltim

yesterday I didn`t feel like playing at all. Forced myself to put in a late night session, and that wasn`t smart. Played horrible, no more to say. Dropped 5-6 buyins which really hurt after the last weeks struggle. Won`t even bother grading that session

Just wrapped up a small session, and boy what a difference in play. Was really focused and happy with my play. The only part I`m not satisfied with was hu play. That`s normally my strongest part, but today I made some bad shoves/moves. Would grade that session B+

I have watched a few videos during the weekend. Tbh I didn`t get much from it, but won`t give up yet. I have also thought of using twitch. If anybody knows of someone streaming 6max turbo on twitch, I would appriciate I you could share that with me.

BR:946$+coins

onkltim

Just finished with a small sesh. Played just 8 games. I also played a session earlier which was a bit longer. Really happy with the level of play today. Have a couple of bad bluffs, but other than that I`m satisfied. Would grade the day as B+ or A-.

I think I aimed a bit high with 15% ROI. For now I just wanna focus on playing well, and don`t think about ROI or sharkscope leaderboard. Volume is still pretty low, so I might not get platinum star this month. Have to clear 60% of this 2000 coin step+1 more step to get platinum. If motivation comes back its very doable, but I have not felt like grinding the last days. If that continues I won`t get platinum this month. But if I push myself to play when not in the mood, I might play like yesterday, so I wont`t force anything.

I have 1 week left of my stay now. Will be nice to get home to wife/kids. I`ve been away for 3+3 weeks, and thats the longest I`ve been away from the kids. Really looking forward to get home and spend some quality time with my family. I will prob take a break from poker when I get home and focus on the important things in life.

BR:978$+coins

onkltim

Not much motivation to post the last few days. I have actually grinded quite a bit the last days, but not much to show for it... During the weekend the games were really soft, so I tried to push it with volume. So frustrating to be down in money during those days. Considering volume I am reallly happy with the level of play. Sure there have been some mistakes, but overall I would rate the last few days B.

I was supposed to leave on friday, but I will leave one day early. So sick of being away from home, and crying kids on skype longing for their dad doesn`t help much.

Today was the first day of the month with no walk/excercise. Body was in shut down mode, so no problem with that. Have been eating healthy all month so happy with that too. The alcohol part I`m not too happy with. Have drank beer several times the last week. When I get home my bet with willybeemen is on. So I hope/believe that I can pull my s*** together then.

BR: 1008$+coins

onkltim