One More Time.
04-25-2017
, 06:24 AM
"We can't run from who we are. Our destiny chooses us."
That quote from Rounders is something I have legitimately struggled with for a long time. The reason being, I was an "advanced" kid. You know the type: great grades through high school, started college at 16, was supposed to be somebody. Until reality hit and it became very clear that I was NOT who everyone else wanted me to be.
Reality came when I was 18 years old and discovered online poker.
I guess you can say I'm an OG of online poker. I started playing in 2007 and by 2009 I was beating 50nl and 100nl. By 2010, I became one of the bigger winners at 200nl on FTP. I had dropped out of college, and poker had become my life. Even back then, I remember maybe grinding 20-30 hours a week, if that.
See the thing about being blessed with a brain is that when combined with laziness can be absolutely wasteful. My entire life I have taken the easy way out of things because I could just get by with the intellect I was given. Same thing went for online poker, and eventually live poker when I made the jump. I have a serious problem putting in the effort/work/grind to actually super robusto. I probably have all of the talent, but the hard work has been severely limited in my life and that needs to stop now.
I am 28 years old, I have a college degree and a resume with relevant work experience in the accounting field. I quit my job at a CPA firm last year in order to play poker full time (live) while still trying to figure out what my destiny is. As much as I hate to say it or admit it, poker might actually be my destiny and what I was born to do.
I am not a big fan of wives and kids, or owning a house, or really anything of that sort. I am a big fan of trying to live simply, trying to not be held down by "the man" (which is kind of immature but GFY) and eventually going into business for myself. Poker might be the vehicle that can get me there, and its really sad that I have been doing this on and off for 10 years and have nothing to show for it (lack of grind, supremely poor money management skills, sometimes battling light bouts of depression)
Anyways, I am still grinding 2/5 live, and I want to make a PG&C thread so that if I fail, at least I can have these memories to look back on. If I somehow make it, this thread will serve the same purpose.
POKER GOALS
1. 200 hours in May
2. Tighten up some ranges (for instance I'm going to stop opening QTs and KTs from all spots)
3. Discuss at least 3 hands/week with friends
4. Learn how to deal with grinding 40-60 hours in a week.
I'm sure as time goes on there will be a ton of things I will want to discuss (my school debt, my weight, my background, my character flaws, things I love about life, etc) but mostly this will be about poker.
C'est La Vie.
That quote from Rounders is something I have legitimately struggled with for a long time. The reason being, I was an "advanced" kid. You know the type: great grades through high school, started college at 16, was supposed to be somebody. Until reality hit and it became very clear that I was NOT who everyone else wanted me to be.
Reality came when I was 18 years old and discovered online poker.
I guess you can say I'm an OG of online poker. I started playing in 2007 and by 2009 I was beating 50nl and 100nl. By 2010, I became one of the bigger winners at 200nl on FTP. I had dropped out of college, and poker had become my life. Even back then, I remember maybe grinding 20-30 hours a week, if that.
See the thing about being blessed with a brain is that when combined with laziness can be absolutely wasteful. My entire life I have taken the easy way out of things because I could just get by with the intellect I was given. Same thing went for online poker, and eventually live poker when I made the jump. I have a serious problem putting in the effort/work/grind to actually super robusto. I probably have all of the talent, but the hard work has been severely limited in my life and that needs to stop now.
I am 28 years old, I have a college degree and a resume with relevant work experience in the accounting field. I quit my job at a CPA firm last year in order to play poker full time (live) while still trying to figure out what my destiny is. As much as I hate to say it or admit it, poker might actually be my destiny and what I was born to do.
I am not a big fan of wives and kids, or owning a house, or really anything of that sort. I am a big fan of trying to live simply, trying to not be held down by "the man" (which is kind of immature but GFY) and eventually going into business for myself. Poker might be the vehicle that can get me there, and its really sad that I have been doing this on and off for 10 years and have nothing to show for it (lack of grind, supremely poor money management skills, sometimes battling light bouts of depression)
Anyways, I am still grinding 2/5 live, and I want to make a PG&C thread so that if I fail, at least I can have these memories to look back on. If I somehow make it, this thread will serve the same purpose.
POKER GOALS
1. 200 hours in May
2. Tighten up some ranges (for instance I'm going to stop opening QTs and KTs from all spots)
3. Discuss at least 3 hands/week with friends
4. Learn how to deal with grinding 40-60 hours in a week.
I'm sure as time goes on there will be a ton of things I will want to discuss (my school debt, my weight, my background, my character flaws, things I love about life, etc) but mostly this will be about poker.
C'est La Vie.
04-25-2017
, 03:31 PM
