Hey people been lurking around here for a while now checking out all the great threads, wishing that I had the same mindset as some of you winners around here. Truth is my mind is soft, I hate tards getting the better of me. I have always had a bad temper but I know it can be fixed, I know I can get used to the variance and smile through it. I have been advised to go keto to fix my mental issues, also I must meditate and exercise to keep my stress levels down. Whether this works or not is the big Q, I'm also adding CBD oil into the mix for good health and also to see if it calms me down. Reading wonders about it so hopefully I'm gonna make it this time. I have had a few attempts at poker, all resulting in me going nuts and moving up the limits to where i shouldn't be. Now I have till the end of march to be beating NL25, this is the deadline as I have my old job lined back up. Deadbeat scaffolder is what I will have to be till I save up to start my own firm. This is not what i want, I cant work for someone while they get rich and I break my back (fook that). I have beat NL25 for 2.4bb 76k hands, this is with spew ie not folding to turn or river raises some of the time. Or thinking about ranges and just randomly bluffing without any thought to villians range. So NL2 - 25 I have been and then I crumbled, been out the game for a few months now reading about the mind and poker. So I'm doing this blog to track my progress and for motivational purposes, started on the 1st of this month on a untracked site (betsson) with £150 at NL10. Luckily I didn't have to deposit any more, hit a 9 buy-in downswing straight off the bat with one overplay with pocket kings. But I recovered and brought it back up, bankroll is now at £315. My strategy is good but my mind is soft, I must get strong mentally. Now I plan to play on tracked site as well so I can check stats and improve my game, but these untracked sites are great there is POF about. I will reveal more personal details about me later in this blog, I plan to play **** loads of poker and plenty of study. 100k hands a month is the min I must play no exceptions. Study is going to be everyday 1-2 hours depending on how busy I am. Shi t needs to happen now and fast, no time for messing or being lazy. I DO NOT WANT TO GO BACK TO WORK!

Updates coming frequently stay tuned and I will appreciate any comments on hands.

Hey 2+2, its been 3 days and truth be told I feel i put more time into my vr than poker. In total I have done about 8 - 10 hours roughly, not to sure how many hands it is. Maybe I can get a exact number by asking betsson, bankroll stands at £319. Just was and up and down few days, but I am playing great as it stands. Been making some really tough folds which I am proud of, Its hard this game sometimes and all it requires is discipline. Some fish got a BDFD on me last night, this is what gets to me the most. I just laughed for once rather than losing my head, but this doesn't mean I'm cured as i have been like this before. Might just be having a good day, diet is going great I'm about 6 days in no sugar or carbs. Starting to feel tired now while my body converts to fat burning mode, its no wonder why people never make it through the change, by just eating some carbs my energy will shoot right up. But I need to stay strong I want the sharp mind what everyone says about keto, not to bothered about the great energy levels you get i just want a good mind, and also a fast thinking mind.

Meditation is going ok, mind wonders a lot but its normal. Its suck a nice feeling once you get into it, its like you have no bills or children or a care in the world even.. If only you could feel like that all day everyday.

Exercise I have done none, things will change tho I need to find a plan so i can stick to what I say.

Study I have watched some coaching videos and played on flopzilla. Was wondering if i can get hold of my hand history off betsson, i had some hands to post but forgot about the hands. Its the only downside of playing untracked sites, tempted to go play elsewhere cos of this.

Bankroll £319
Hours played must be close to 30.
Gonna make sure I take notes now, of the time and what time I do things. Cos this is just a mess atm.. I will evolve!

Had a good session tonight, played 6 hrs 25 mins 5-7 tabling. Mostly it was 7 but tables would die, seen some funny stuff tonight on betsson all in spaz outs you name it. Played good tonight but made a bad call which cost me 3$. Gonna do some press ups and meditation before I go bed, ate like a champion today did well to resist a treat.

Bankroll - £345 - bonus £66 left to be unlocked.

good luck man, look forward to following you, from UK by chance yh?

Thanks aggrofish, yeah I'm from uk, Manchester.

Last night I booked a small win, played for 2 hours 30 mins on 6 tables. Kinda worked out that on the button is where the 4bet bluffing is happening with the regs, hard with no stats to make assumptions but I managed to catch a reg in this spot. He was on a few tables playing aggro with similar bet sizes, over bets etc. He had been 4 betting OTB couple of times, but I have seen this alot OTB the last 2 weeks from players. Its a good spot i think to do this without stats as people like to 3bet wide from SB, anyway I decided to flat villains 4bet with KQs flop came QJ2r I check vill checks turn 7 I bet villain folds. So gonna keep my eye out for these button 4bets, with caution tho. Need some sort of evidence before I start shoving/calling hands.

Bankroll - £371 - £66 bonus, £437.

Today I plan to play 6 or more hours 8 tables, meditate for 30 mins and do some exercise. Also maybe study 1 hour.

Well last night hit another downer, it happened fast mostly got it all in good but lost from turn to river vs straight draws etc. Had to happen again so fast, played 3 hours on 6 tables lost 7 buy ins no spews or overplays. Gonna make my own graphs soon as my blog sucks, hoping I can recover the my buy ins quick. Forgot to mention that since being over £300 I been playing the odd £20 NL tables, defo won more out of that stake than I lost tho. Most of my loses happened at NL10.

Bankroll stands at £304 without bonus, next part nearly unlocked. Hardcore grind tonight!

So last night I only played 4 hours 9 tables, not much really happened just won a few buy ins then lost them shortly after.. Played only 3 hours tonight didn't get the kids in bed till late cos was having wars with my son, pain in the arse he is. Played 9 tables and made a few mistakes tonight, but at least i notice this so I can learn from them. Gonna make a plan cos Im making **** progress, this may help me to stick to playing so many hours or hands. Still doing exercise and meditation and watching coaching material, but Im just so random so need some order in here.

Bankroll now is £328 - 66 bonus 3 parts of 22, only 3% to next unlock. May switch sites to get another one. Back with a plan of action with days times etc... gl @ the tables.

Well couldn't get to sleep so from about Midnight I been playing 4 tables till now, 2 NL10 tables and 2 NL20 tables. Playing really solid atm not making many mistakes, and folding when I should really. Feeling more and more confident about my mental game, can tell I'm not ready for NL20 cos of my bankroll. Play scared, 3 bet less, hardly making any big bluffs. So until I'm rolled for it I'm gonna stay away from them tables.

Bankroll - £391 + bonus £66. Feeling secure now for NL10.

Poker Plan.

* Get up with the wife in the morning, help her get the ****s out the door.
* Study poker in the morning, go over strategy. Watch coaching videos, research solvers and some advanced poker Strategys
* Meditate and exercise.
* Get Paige from school @ 12 and play with her for a while till around 15.30pm.
* Eat a big bowl of spinach every other day, as well as salads.
* Start poker or get ready to.
* When the Mrs gets home grind for at least 6 hours, no excuses no pussy ****.
* Get in bed early (Routine is essential)

Gonna improve everything I do, need to stick to this and keep pushing through. NL25 is not to far ahead. GL@ tables

Not much poker because no sleep leads to being tired, cant sleep tonight also even tho Im tired. Played about 4 hours since yesterday 3-5 tables on and off, nothing achieved so far. And at this rate I wont be getting up this morning which is in a few hours, hope to be in better routine in a few days. Got to the 3rd to build a bankroll up, wanna be moving up to NL20 soon not sure how many buy ins I should go with, 40 maybe.

bankroll £430, bonus £44 remaining.

Nothing to report poker wise must of played a couple of hours in the all yesterday and night, was to tired and it was my birthday yesterday. But good news tho I slept like a baby last night and I'm now feeling fresh for tonight's grind, coffee is getting turfed out the house. Every time I start to drink that it ruins my routine up, so 1 coffee right now then the jar is going in the bin. Made a crazy bluff last night vs a unknown type player BvB, bankroll is good enough to make these kinda plays now. Will post the hand later when I work out how to do it. Gonna get into my plan and start learning some **** about posting and making own graphs. GL @ tables

Bankroll - £432