Way Overdue for an Update
As pokerished said it has been way too long since my last post here! As usual, the lack of content here is probably due to the downswing I have been on. That being said, I've felt less of an urge to come and "brag" about any success I've had on this forum lately, and I think that's a good thing. I want to update regularly but I don't want to get so amped up about a win that I feel it's necessary to get on here and spread the news instantly.
The Good News
It hasn't been all bad in April though. First and foremost, my dad is doing well. I'd give all the money in the world away for that to be the case. It seems that we are past the worst of it and, God willing that the cancer does not return, I think it should be uphill from here.
I've been running again. My girlfriend has been doing an amazing job of running 6 days a week for almost a month now and it has inspired me to get going as well. I ran Monday-Friday last week and then ran a 5K on Sunday. Going into the race my mindset was that I'd be content breaking 20:00, happy breaking 19:30, and ecstatic breaking 19:00. I went 19:33, but based on how the race shaped up I was quite happy with how I did:
Kelsey kicked ass and ran 23:00, which is exactly what her goal was, but unfortunately the timing system for the race was terrible and they got it wrong on the results. That being said, she finished 11th of 84 runners and was the 2nd place female and I am very proud of her. Unfortunately, they only gave out prizes to the top male and female, so I was the only one of us to get the $25 gift card and little medal
Downswing Details
I'm down a shade under $5000 on the month in MTTs now. I was lucky enough to win $1100 from Pokerstars in a promo they had where, if you played the $200 50K on a certain Sunday, you'd be awarded a 5K freeroll ticket, and if you correctly picked the Villanova-UNC winner, you'd be awarded an additional 10K freeroll ticket. Both were all in heads up shootouts, and I cashed for $1000 in the 10K and $100 in the 5K. Added to the other bonuses I've been receiving and cash games and I'm only down $3200 or so on the month. Two days ago was my 2nd biggest winning day of the month and I won $395
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My mental game has not been good. I've been feeling like everything is going against me and I've been focusing too much on the things I cannot control. I decided to buy an elite RunItOnce subscription for $100/month and I will at least try it out for this month. The videos are good and are going to get me thinking straight again. The last few days I've played I really feel like I am thinking things through and not letting the negative stuff get to me the way it was to start the month.
I think the financial burden of paying off an absurd amount of taxes and sticking a big chunk into an IRA made me feel stressed about having a smaller bankroll than I'd had after the blazing fast start to the year. So when the first couple weeks didn't go the way I'd hoped I started feeling stressed. After taking a few days off to clear my head I realized how ridiculous it was to feel stressed right now. Financially, I'm fine. I want more money in savings and invested and all that when I think about the future and starting a family and all that good stuff, but for me individually I'm totally fine right now. I want my bankroll to build but while it stays dormant or goes down I really am not in bad shape.
The Plan
I'm just going to keep grinding. Fridays and Saturdays off as usual, and I think I'm going to be putting less volume in on Pokerstars. I was so excited about the launch that I think I put too much effort into getting volume in on there. In reality, the 10K on Stars ends up with the smallest 1st place prize of the 3 sites on a daily basis. There aren't any exceptional tourneys going on there. The 10K is worth it and I enjoy the $50 6 max they have. Other than that nothing seems like exceptional value. I'm going to continue focusing on playing the big tourneys on all sites while also getting the good smaller buy in value stuff on WSOP.
I will also continue running. Got six miles in today in 43:26 on the beautiful paths that run through Saddle Brook, Paramus, Fair Lawn, Glen Rock, and Ridgewood. Six is my longest run in a long time and I was very relaxed, splitting something like 7:21 - 7:16 - 7:14 - 7:20 - 7:12 - 7:01 for each mile. I find that starting slower has me feeling way better at the end than I would otherwise. I guess this is common sense but sometimes I get too wrapped up in going fast throughout the run and it hurts me.
I'll end the post with a pic of the medal I won. I told my mom I won a 5K and her eyes lit up in excitement and I realized she thought I won 5K. Had to explain to her it was a race and not cold hard cash
. She was still happy though lol