I never said that you said she is a b****, i said
and

I'm trying to be careful and deliberate and respectful with what I type on these forums cause I'm like one infraction from being perma banned lol.

There is perhaps a more tactful way to express your sentiment. That's all I was trying to say. Just trying to keep things copacetic. =D

My long terms goals with poker are to get good then possibly transition to live. (I mean im pretty sure im already a winning player live but theres sooooo much room for improvement). Right now im more worried about getting good vs making money. I'm not going to improve as quickly on these "softer" sites, so why bother?

LOOL this made my day.. A few weeks ago my co-worker (who has known and worked with my mother for years) said that my mother is the scariest person she knows.

LOOL this also made my day. Thank you for defending my mom. I have to agree it's not exactly fair to bash people where they cant defend themselves but because its my mother it's fine hehehe.

Unfortunately some parents don't realize how much damage they do to their kids with things they say. People spend their entire adult lives in therapy trying to repair that damage.

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Mid month update!!!
Poker is going meh. I think a big part of this is that I haven't been running too hot but I don't mind because its forcing me to really think about what I'm doing. I could be studying more as well but I've found that my energy levels have been super low lately and because of that motivation is low as well. So a new goal for the rest of this month is to get back on a proper sleep schedule and drink more water (water is life).

I've been doing 20 minutes (minimum) of Spanish a day on the duolingo app. I've found this to be fairly easy to complete since I do spend a lot of time on public transport.

I told my parents about poker so we can check that off the monthly goals

School is meh but that's also due to the low energy thing.

As for fitness, I'm starting my cut tmrw!!!! I'm doing this for an online figure contest but I don't know if I will go as far as it takes to win (mostly because going that far will mean 10% body fat, low energy and negative mental space). So really it'll be more of a "Quest to six pack" cut. A friend asked me to create a plan for him so now we are doing it together. If anyone else wants to do it, I am more than willing to be your online coach. Here is stage one of the plan:

STAGE 1:

Duration: 4 weeks- March 15th- April 12th

Nutrition: The nutrition portion of this phase is simple. Cut out treats, allow only 1 snack per day, cook majority of your meals, and cut out excess fats/oils!

i. You may eat one treat on weekends but keep the portion small. Treats include; candy, chocolate, ice cream, baked goods etc.

ii. Aim to eat 3 big meals (breakfast, lunch, dinner) a day and save a snack for when you have the longest wait time between meals or use it as a post workout snack. If your snack is a post workout snack, then pack it with protein and carbs (a protein bar would be fine for this).

iii. Cooking your own meals automatically forces you to realize what you are putting in your body. Include a protein a carb and lots of vegetables on your plate. If you’re not a fan of vegetables, just pick one vegetable from every colour of the rainbow and find a way that you like to prepare it. When you want to feel “full” do it by eating more of these vegetables.
iv. Eat lean meats. Chicken, turkey, and extra lean ground beef are perfect examples for this. Nuts have a huge fat content, so portion them out before you eat them. Cook with small amounts of oil vs butter. If you want more tips feel free to ask.


Workout plan: In this stage we will be building up cardio at a comfortable pace and creating a consistent gym schedule. The gym schedule is to be defined by the coach and athlete together.
i. Running, biking, stairs, swimming, and rowing are all great forms of cardio. If you are someone with joint pain, go for the low impact options like rowing swimming and biking. The cardio can be broken up into 5-minute segments (but not shorter). For intensity, you should be getting your heart rate up to the fat burning zone. This is 60%-70% of your max heart rate. Your max heart rate is 220-your age. Example for a 20-year-old: MAX HR: 200BPM & Fat Burning HR: 120-140BPM. Easy way to calculate your HR during a workout is by counting your pulse for 10 seconds. Make sure to start your count at 0 NOT 1! Then multiply that number by 6. Hopefully you are sweating by the end of your cardio sessions.
Week 1: 5’ of cardio EVERYDAY (5’ means 5 minutes)
Week 2: 10’ of cardio EVERYDAY (ex. 5’ before weights, 5’ after)
Week 3: 15’ of cardio EVERYDAY (ex. 10’ before weights, 5’ after)
Week 4: 20’ of cardio EVERYDAY (ex. 10’ before weights, 10’ after)

ii. Aim to go to the gym a minimum of 5 days a week. This plan is to be defined by the coach and athlete.

My history with fitness: I've been a coach for almost 9 years for competitive swimming and rowing. I've also been a high level athlete in multiple sports (triathlon, swimming, cross country, track and rowing). I've done a fair amount of nutrition work and weight training in that time, so I'm fairly comfortable helping people out.

Off to rowing I go. GLGL everyone

first 50k back at 10nl:


We did it!!!!!! I'm a winning player at a lol 10nl sample. Also I just checked the bell curve and noticed we ran near bottom. So even though I have a lot of work to do, I'm very pleased with the progress I've made over the past few months. To compare here is my first go at 10nl back in November and December 2017:



Taking 6 grueling engineering courses and keeping up with fitness is incredibly draining. And yes this is an excuse for why I'm not doing better. But I have confidence that my win rate will sky rocket once I'm done with school and can focus all my energy on poker.

Next goal is 5bb/100 for a 50k sample. If I do it, I'll move up to 16nl.

Gonna take the rest of the day off and catch up on sleep. Resetting graph tmrw.

GL us

50k hands omg dont burnout playing microstakes. just jump up to 50nl and get a job if you have to imo. get that money!

This is in response to your initial post.

A lot of what you describe sounds is similar to my story.

- Middle class family
- Parents showed little interest in anything i was doing that wasn't sport related
- Crazy religious battles with Mom. Dad emotionally absent
- Life advice and mentoring was virtually nonexistent
- Studied electrical engineering in college but was bored to death
- Only did it because that's what i was basically told/pushed to do
- Constantly felt lost as to what i wanted to do/be
- I am really athletic, enjoy outdoors, etc
- Have a big geek side to me

One of the differences though is that my parents where usually a bit more subtle in their distaste for things i did. Every once in a while it would boil to the surface though.

Having grown up a bit, I've stopped thinking of them as parents and more so as just human beings. They're flawed just like everyone else and did the best they could. Their biggest faults were not doing enough (guidance), doing too much (enabling), and projecting themselves on to me. A wise man once told me that people are most critical of things they fear becoming. So their anger/frustration with you is merely a reflection of their own internal demons. It is clear in your writing that they use threat/fear/uncertainty to manipulate you...

“Carmen do you know what you’re getting yourself into. If you move out with her, you will not be welcome back in this house ever again. Don’t mess up your life for her.”

That kind of stuff is toxic. It is exactly the type of stuff that gets passed down from generation to generation in families and causes all kinds of problems. IMO, you should put your foot down and if need be walk away from them. Be you, don't be your parents or whatever society makes you think you should be. At the end of the game... all the pieces (pawns, kings, queens) go in the same box. Your soul is in your keeping alone. When it comes time to kick the bucket the only person you're accountable to is yourself. Be the best person you can be... be you... and that single flame can be used to light a thousand.

It is my opinion that this life we've been thrust into is all about learning and growth. And in order to do that you have to take risks, you have to fail, you have to push yourself, you have to walk towards uncomfortable situations, you have to fight for your dreams instead of settling. What's the worst that can happen... death? Well it's going to happen regardless.


As someone that gave the middle finger to other peoples expectations a few years back and just let go ... it's amazing. I went and thru-hiked the Appalachian Trail, skydiving, bicycled from Canada to Mexico, played some cards, screwed up a lot, helped a lot of people, shared with a lot of people, and thoroughly enjoyed it. I'm not perfect by any means, but i constantly push myself to overcome my own limiting beliefs. Whatever you do, don't end up in "no mans land" ... that place where you aren't happy... but aren't unhappy enough to do anything about it. Just be frank with you parents, tell them who you are and how it's going to be. If they don't like it, so be it. You don't need that negativity. Then embrace the journey.

/RANT

All that stuff made me think of this:

solid post, faxanadu

As far as moving up to 16NL scocupuff, I would suggest aiming for 3bbs/100 and then moving up. When factoring in the TITANIC rake at the micros, a winrate of 3bbs/100 pre-rakeback is very solid. But then again, from my understanding, you have a coach/backer, so the decision will ultimately fall upon him/her, right... GL

I agree with following what you want in life but being so sure about going pro when you're at 10NL is not exactly realistic. What about keeping it as a part-time income stream? You haven't shown that you're able to make a living from poker. GL though!

agreed

Coach wants me at 5bb/100. But yes rake is ridiculousness.

LOOL When did i say I was going pro at 10nl? Yes the plan is obviously to have a healthy roll and the ability to make a living at poker before I make any further decisions.

END OF MARCH UPDATE

Spanish: Was doing really well with using the app and was consistent up until last weekend when I had an ultimate Frisbee tournament and then got really sick through the week. I was just too tired and sick/congested to care tbh. But I'll be getting back on it this week.

Fitness & Nutrition: Once again, this was going very well up until the Frisbee tournament and getting sick. Let's just say my body was not exactly ready for the Frisbee tournament since I hadn't played in 2 years. Luckily this coincided with me getting sick and so I just took a few days off to recover from everything. Nutrition has been decent. Let it slip this past week because of birthdays and Easter. So I will tighten that back up this week.

Poker: I've been in the lab with my coach fixing some basic things. This is the start of my current 50k:



ANNNNDDDDD
I came 2nd in the 2.20 turbo-zoom-pko for $210. Ran pretty good and played very well. Started the final table in 1st with a dominating chip stack but ran a bit card dead at the very end. And no I dont normally play mtts these days since I mainly focus on 6max zoom. But I was watching/ studying some math videos and felt like throwing up a table on the side purely for fun.

Will update again soon with a plan for April!

one can tell OP is mtt noob. where is the lobby porn?

I am mtt fish.. I took a pic when there was 18 left but not of the final result ;(


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nobody going tel you this here because most people just want that people like them.

- I would not take a 1:10 bet that you will make poker work
- if your parents blow up this way (even crying wtf?) this is an indication that you have not give them any reason that you can fix your life. You probably have no skills (yet) to know what will work for you.
- You are a girl and you going to take advantage of a friends couch and poker skills, he will probabaly take advantage in other way (sex). If you dont like him that way dont start this fishy idea. On the other hand if you like the idea i doubt that you really quitting your life to pursuit poker. Maybe it just a way to get away from your unhappy life.
- you playing nl10 how can you even think about really making money with poker and proposing the idea to your parents (when they put up so much effort for you). If you really would want it, what have you done couple of years now?
It hard but true, you dont really want it otherwise you would have made tons of money by now.

I still see a lot of similarity with myself (and my parents) what i did: I (somewhat secretly) worked my ass of when i was still in school, i did nothing else then focus on poker, skip friends, skip healt, skip family, only poker 14+ hours a day (next to some school). Because i REALLY want it. when i made tons of money already (more then my dad and mother combined) for a lot of month in row i started the convesation where you just started with. I can tell you my dad did not cry and my mother did not flip out because i had prove that i can let it work.

Hope you will think very hard what you doing and really want with your life

I appreciate the vote of confidence lol. To begin, you don't know my family or my current situation. Whatever joke of a course you were taking in uni that allowed you to play poker full time is beyond me. I however am currently taking six engineering courses. I realize poker may not work hence the effort in school over poker right now. And even then I've been able to find some small success in poker over the last few months. So get your head out of your own ass because if you had actually read my thread you would know that.

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I hope English isn't your first language because your grammar is atrocious.

Oh really... and how many languages do you speak, if you do not mind my inquiring...

One, what's your point?

Then until you learn 1 or a few other languages, your opinion on someone's grammar in a dialect that is not native to him/her, is easily discarded. That is my point.

That's why I qualified my statement, if you read my post closely

Wow, what a read.

IMO don't play much poker over the next few months but make sure you crush your last few months of your degree, this could pay off massively in the future. Use poker as motivation to study so you know that when you've graduated you can have the freedom to give poker a shot and play fulltime.

I think moving somewhere to play live would be massively beneficial as you can probably beat live 1/2 for $20/hr or so. This is a better way to build up a roll while using online to study/improve. Its a very slow grind up stakes from micros online. Then you can study hard and not play so many hours as your hourly will be so much higher.

GL

Honestly I just wrote this long ass update and then it didn't save (probably should have wrote it in word first but I'll just do a quicker version since I can't be ****ed.

1) I'm in London England for the summer, I'm trying to balance my life with poker and positive things that I can control. I dont have many friends here so If you live here and want to possibly hang out at a local card room, hmu. Or if you have any recommendations for things I should do here, again just hmu.

2)Poker went well, I have a lot of stuff to work on yadayada. Currently reading "The Mental Game Of Poker" so hopefully it'll help me come up with some positive mental game strats to use in the future.

Here's my latest 50k graph;


Ran super good at the end despite not working on my game much. So now that I'm at 16nl, ill be back on that study grind and looking to play for quality not quantity.

Here's a fun hand that I probably botched on the turn but got saved on the river

PokerStars - $0.10 NL FAST (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

BTN: 100 BB (VPIP: 8.82, PFR: 5.88, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 34)
SB: 96.2 BB (VPIP: 25.00, PFR: 25.00, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 6)
Hero (BB): 543.4 BB
UTG: 101.2 BB (VPIP: 18.49, PFR: 14.06, 3Bet Preflop: 4.46, Hands: 398)
MP: 220.4 BB (VPIP: 22.50, PFR: 18.89, 3Bet Preflop: 9.79, Hands: 379)
CO: 668.2 BB (VPIP: 34.38, PFR: 15.63, 3Bet Preflop: 7.14, Hands: 33)

SB posts SB 0.5 BB, Hero posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 1.5 BB) Hero has 9 9

fold, MP raises to 3 BB, CO raises to 5 BB, fold, fold, Hero calls 4 BB, MP raises to 20.5 BB, CO calls 15.5 BB, Hero calls 15.5 BB

Flop: (62 BB, 3 players) K 5 9
Hero checks, MP bets 29.6 BB, CO calls 29.6 BB, Hero raises to 79 BB, fold, CO calls 49.4 BB

Turn: (249.6 BB, 2 players) T
Hero bets 119.2 BB, CO calls 119.2 BB

River: (488 BB, 2 players) 9
Hero bets 324.7 BB and is all-in, CO calls 324.7 BB

Hero shows 9 9 (Four of a Kind, Nines)
(Pre 55%, Flop 86%, Turn 23%)
CO shows J Q (Straight, King High)
(Pre 45%, Flop 14%, Turn 77%)
Hero wins 1122.4 BB

This is the biggest pot I've ever played in terms of bb's

Have a wonderful day and gl at the tables

Great advice btw. Not sure if i'll be spending too much time in live card rooms for the next long while. I'll mainly be putting in all my efforts into the online world whilst using live to occasionally up or to fire the occasionally donkament.

And with that being said I think i might fire up a few SCOOP events. My schedule and prior commitments have never allowed it. So if anyone wants to buy some action just hmu.

good luck in London, have fun!

A 1100bb pot? Holy mother of hell!

did OP get enslaved by her "online friend" in London.