So first test of this new approach to mental game has arrived, having posted a lengthy post i was logged out and put in the wrong password thus losing it all. Ooops
So today i tried out meditation for the first time. I think it has the potential to be one of those things that you can shroud in mystique without ever thinking about why. Meditation. It just sounds deep. With that in mind i decided to enter it with no expectation and read up on only on technique rather than outcome. I managed around 10 minutes overall spread over two seperate attempts. Firstly, i tried lying down in the bath in the corpse pose; i've always found warm water relaxing so that was the idea. The most noticeable thing was that i wasn't sure exactly how to deal with my thoughts. Actively trying to toss them seemed counter-intuitive and yet i knew the idea was to try and find a clear headspace. At one stage i was struggling to get the scene out of the Last Samurai from my head where Katsumoto's son is telling Algren he has 'too many mind'. I made a second attempt a little later by sitting upright on my couch. I found this to be a little more successful and even though inconsequential thoughts popped up every now and then they dissipated more easily. I would say i felt more inquisitive than calm by the end but thats possibly a good thing. Will try again tomorrow.
Before i entered my session i decided to try a couple of things out mentioned in the most recent Tommy Angelo/Lefort video on RIO. The first of these was to focus on your drinking everytime you took a sip of the water. I will admit i felt a bit ridiculous staring down the barrel of my glass and watching the water run down but i was 'aware' i was drinking and it did give me brief pause from my session. I also tried to correct my posture and recognise my breathing every now and then which i found to be quite effective, in terms of being able to refocus afterwards. On top of these i had a thought myself yesterday evening that i decided to implement. I think when tilted almost everybody plays faster than usual, and i am no different. I thought that if i slowed down my usual game and increased the difference that could be helpful. With that in mind i decided to wait until 10 seconds hit the timebank for every decision. Honestly, the reflex to fold 95o from UTG instantly can be quite overwhelming when you're a longtime fastfold reg but in general i managed to resist and was pleased to notice the change. I suddenly had a lot more time for rational thought and to build my strategy on a micro level. I was taking things into account that i had regularly neglected in the past and only ended up timing out once or twice. As a frame of reference, the session lasted 56 minutes and 715 hands. On two previous occassions last week did i play a similar number of hands; 684 and 723 elapsing 35 and 43 minutes respectively. Once did i play a similar amount of time; 59 minutes producing 1,011 hands played. I think the difference is quite significant and interesting. As with above, this is all a process and so we'll see how it goes as the sample increases.
Finally i'd like to share the last hand of my session
[converted_hand][hand_history]Party, $0.50/$1 No Limit Hold'em Cash, 6 Players
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SB: $212.40 (212.4 bb)
BB: $100 (100 bb)
UTG: $251.05 (251.1 bb)
MP: $167.06 (167.1 bb)
Hero (CO): $100 (100 bb)
BTN: $160.55 (160.6 bb)
Preflop: Hero is CO with A
A
2 folds,
Hero raises to $2, 2 folds, BB calls $1
Flop: ($4.50) A
8
T
(2 players)
BB checks,
Hero bets $3, BB calls $3
Turn: ($10.50) 6
(2 players)
BB checks,
Hero bets $6,
BB raises to $22.08, Hero calls $16.08
River: ($54.66) 8
(2 players)
BB checks,
Hero bets $72.92 and is all-in,
BB folds
I decided to end my session immediately after this hand after noticing a couple of things. As i was raised on the turn i felt a small dread overcome me as i realised 97 was a very real possibility and that i could well end up getting stacked. Then, as the river paired, i heard myself comment 'oh boy' and was excited at the thought of stacking him. Previous to this i had been breaking down ranges, relevant stats and potential to exploit in the majority of the situations and yet here i had gone full
h0mo erectus. I'm sure everyone does it from time to time but the pleasing thing is i managed to notice it
and quit. I'm not naive enough to think this shows a great deal of progression though; i had played well and was winning a nice amount. When i manage to do this whilst stuck 4 buy-ins i'll allow myself a backpat