Looong sunday. Played highest abi i can remember (42 i think) and powered through like 120 mtts. Way too many and way too close to a greeeeeat day. Made money though, had 19th in hot 55, 20 something 82bb and a few other close ones. Sundays man

Nice results man. Was wondering a couple times recently how you’re doing so this is nice to see. Keep it up! 120 MTT’s in a day is insanity. I feel like I’m losing my mind after 15-25.

Lol, what a ****ing session. Runs all over, even a solid outright win. Teres some, missing 13th early 109bb, 10th92h, 8th 22bb, 9th 109t, just gonna let the lobbys do the talking, 8.30 in the morning and i got school stuff in 5h. Enjoy:

Hey guys. So ive just been grinding like a mad man, and had an amazing day today, which means i can go on my own roll for the first time. Super excited about that, will probably play a bit lower and sell for the 109+ ones, but im super excited for it. Gotta get up for a huge sunday sesh in 6h so just leaving todays scores and ytd (also shipped a 33 pko for 1.2k earlier today)

Well, this year is off to an insane start. First sunday grind on my own and we manage my 2nd or 3rd biggest score ever! Played really well and am super happy with it (sold some of it tho). Took 8th in hotter 44 after being 1/10, feel i played that one badly. Also took 20th-ish for 1.1k in 44bb and now onetabling $109 wrapup 14/21. Here is the lobby and my ytd (100k seems doable now!)

Yes dude. I told you a couple months back it was just a matter of time! Definitely saw this coming, well played and keep it up. Beautiful stuff, I love seeing this.

Wow mate, that's insane!!
Subbed, i really look for inspiration in your challenge!
GLGL

Lurking in this thread since the beginning :-) . Really impressive results and an insane volume you put in. Did you quit coffein for good or did you take some coffee rungood for the long marathon session on the weekend? Played a lot with you recently and sweated your sunday warmup after my session aswell haha.. pretty sick you finish 2nd after beeing 20/21 with 10 bbs - But well earned

Impressive volume. What's the average size of the tournament you play? Not stake but number of players? 30% ROI is good, especially for a bunch of smaller tournaments.

I still think you should play cash games instead, still way more money for a skilled player. If you're gonna stick to MTTs though you might as well stream on twitch.

Good thing you're playing on your own dime. No reason to be staked at this point for $40 avg buy-in tourneys.

Sick thread, I see you in my games from time to time

glgl

The dream!! Glgl subbed. What’s the starting BR you did? I assume 100-200 BIs of your ABI?


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Thx man, feels amazing to have such a unreal start to the year. Im gonna keep studying & grinding away, lets see where it takes me!

Thx mate!

Ty man! Yeah that whole weekend was sick, think the sat before i shipped the 109 for 6k or something at like 6-7 in the morning, straight to bed and then took 2nd in that one for 13

I almost quit caffeine, i dont rely on it as i used to (needed it to get me going, needed to refill etc), now i have a coffee/redbull every now and then, dont find it helps much with grinding tbh.




Thanks. Its normally around 1k avg field, skewed this month due to reasons deposit limits (playing tiny field low/micros on party) so around 700 avg entrants this month.

Well, first of all a "skilled player" can mean so many different things and i can assure you i would get absolutely murdered in any cg at a semi-decent level. Mtts and cg are so different, and even if i thought i could make more money there (no chance) i would never quit mtts. Im obsessed with them

Not sure why you would recommend someone having by far the best results they ever had to change formats, and if they stick with it, twitch somehow makes sense..?
Ty m8! Whats your SN?

Ty ty! I was staked in the beginning and now i have a healthy roll, i sell for 100+ too so i am basically at 0 risk of bustoing (jinx) without saying exactly. But over 400 ABI.








So! Since the WU score i played a lot and pretty high to start out (sold to 100+ which was most of the losses), then yday chopped marathon & shipped a 33 turbo, and took 3rd in hot 33 today. Due to swedish regulation we are only allowed to deposit $600-ish per site and week, and my party has been busto. Deposited and grinded super low to try and spin it up to 1-2k atleast, did not succeed (unless i magically win every table i have left, which would barely make it ). Ran pretty **** on there, which is fine obviously but i just feel like i need party for the games, stars alone is not enough and i really do enjoy party. Long term EV i think will increase alot by grinding their 33-109 reg speeds mainly. Oh well have a pretty **** stack in the 55 big game as a hail mary, or ill wait and try again next week haha.

Lobbys and mtd (before sunday ruins it):

Yeah sorry man I meant to say you should play cash games as well rather than instead of MTTs, with the eventual goal of making that your main focus.

Twitch makes sense for you because tourneys are a better format for streaming. Cash games are less interesting, tourneys have a better story with a beginning and an end, more on the line since you can't reload if you bust. Bigger wins when you do get there.

For the record I play like 3 or 4 tourneys a day on Ignition. The bigger guarantees and I grind cash games at the same time and the rest of the day. I've won a lot more playing tourneys so far this year but it's just so much luck, I wouldn't recommend anyone make it their sole focus. But since you're playing like 50+ tourneys a day and seem to have a decent ROI you'll probably be able to outride the variance.

I still think it might not be a bad idea to fire up like one 50nl full ring cash game while you play all your tourneys. Good practice and more money in the long run if you do well.

Anyways I'll stop bringing it up. Good luck.

Didnt mean to sound offended or rude, was just genuinely surprised by the advice as it did not make sense to me. Any input is appreciated, but changing formats (or adding) is out of the question, maybe mainly because there is infininate amounts to learn and i am still so uncomplete and clueless all the time. as for twitch 1) i dont think it fits my personality very well, i dont like public speking etc, and streaming seems v similr. Very little upside therefor me IMO and even less upside in having a full ring cg (in which i likely dont kil l arm arctully going to try and open up a bit in this post as im having some unexpected issues. More on that below.

also, i can see why varinance is an issue plying only few mtts per day, i play lot nd most of it is just very printy 22-55 games.



So. Since last time ive been grinding away. some study but not enough. I bough pads course because i pads and truly look up to him. I remember watching him play when i was in BitB for a short amount of time, and i always thought he was so sick. So gonna be plowing through that one. Back then i was so yougn and had so many issues going on, i was never ready or mature enough to commit to poker. I think tkhe biggest difference since i got back in to it is i have, through self reflection, alot of it, improved myself id like to say, ive read a bit on mindset and self improvement and its all fine and dandy, but i have tihs part of my brain that is constantly trying to hold me back.

So in short since last time i chopped the off peak 33bb for 3ksih, i won some party bowls and had a few solid cashes here n there. Sattied in to the $530 turbo series and made a run for it, eventually losing AQ vs 44 for a top 5 stack to bust 30th or so, and things like that dont really bother me too much (im human, ofc i get annonyed) but id say i can handle it, and of course its easy to be strong mentally when you are winnning. On that note, my issue is i have been seing a worrying direction of my mindset. Alot of old bad thoughts are for some reason coming back, and i feel so unsure about my game, like im playing so bad, my studying is way too little, too uneffective, if i make a mistake i treat myself way too harshly and i never stop to appreciate what ive managed to do since i started last march or something, again. It seems i am asking myself to be perfect withing something where being perfect is a damn impossibility. When studying i feel kind of overwhelmed & try to do too much in one sitting, will go through the course next and then evaluate how to move forward, most likely is Only reson i bring it up is becuse i used to hve some issues with anxietys & stuff for long time growing up, got rid of it (due to a LOT of reflection & honesty with myself), i relly feel like ive become a better friend, less focused on my needs & working on being content with what i have. I only want to compare me to myself.


To jump subjects a bit, due to swedish regulations we can only deposit $600 per site every 7 days, so ive been grinding super low there on party to hep me abit in the long term to get an ok roll on there and keep grinding bi 40-45. all my low games there (mostly not played during my "main sched" but before, after or whilst winding down.

Month looks like this btw. record by quite a lot both $ wise and volume. played on ipoker & swedish site as well so should be over 2k games so far too. I really do enjoy the grind too, as long as i can avoid these negative pointless feelings that are just saboting for myself right now. I really wish i had a mentor or something to guide me through this journey, but that seems damn near impossible, and truly top notch 1on1 coching ( i find i learn by far the best like that) is just too expensive for me right now I am going all in on poker until graduation as i got everything covered and just make sure to be in a good spot bankrollwise ofc, but mybe most imprtntly, mentally. I just dont get it, and i think im basically on my peak (so far), why am i letting my my brain hold me prisoner & slow down my progess. Im sure this kind of thinkign is norml during downswings, but in the great run have had? Makes no sense, and i relly believe you have to understand how & WHY your mind is flawed, in order to accept & chnge it. so if anyone has any input/advice at all, feel free to chime in. My thinking is solve this before its too late, insted of celebrting &chilling im working even harder, but this unsecure negtive mindset is a hindernce.



Where do you even find coaches nowadays? Im thinking the top tier ones i cant afford either way, and id really like to work with someone who opens my eyes to a whole new world, there are plenty of leks to fix on me Been doing some preflop studying lately and come across some interesting tihngs to look in to. Sry for spelling issues, long grind today, heading to bed. GL out there!

Unbelievable man. Thank you for making this blog. You’re truly inspiring. I was also thinking about Pads course but I do have already RYE hmm let us know how it is!


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Hi Chariot, are you a perfectionist by nature, that seems to tie in with seldom being satisfied with your play.
Poker theory is never static, there are so many variables that make it a subject that you will never feel you know it all.
You should be proud of what you have achieved so far.

GL

Nah you came off cool, it's all good. Yeah I've tried streaming and it's tough, I'm too silent when I play so can't really get too many viewers.

You already got the king of tournaments commenting in your thread! I'd be willing to discuss particular spots or concepts you have questions about if you like, free of charge. I don't profess to be an expert on tournaments but I definitely have a strong grasp on them. I PMed you a dicord link.

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Sighhh, dude there's enough cash game blogs please let this one be, is fascinating for us regs to see one of the in form crushers inner thinkings and comforting that even the best have mental demons.

Rijad keep crushing, having a mental game crisis myself and struggling to get in the zone this week so is good to know I'm not alone.

I agree he should stick to tournaments if he wants to. I was just making a joke at the end there.

C Hey, thanks alot man thats a nice compliment! I myself was inspired by a pgc in here of someone who was just a insanely good grinder, and eventually got coached by him and without that there is no way i would even be considering professional poker. Really hard to explain that gratitude. I have only watched the intro (was already sold there lol) and the first video, because i have been grinding like crazy and i refuse to treat this course like i normally do, half-assed and not paying attention. Will be making notes and actively trying to absorb it, and im confident it will be amazing. RYE for me (maybe my own fault) was just slow and not very interesting and i couldnt get in to it, but i do struggle to pay attention at lectures etc so its probably just that the difference in style suits me more, and some prefer opposite to me.


Hey,
Im actually not sure, I dont think I am a perfectionist but to be honest i dot know what the actual defenition of that is I think for me its a few factors that ive identified as potentially affecting me badly in the mental aspect of poker. First of all I always was much better at studying very repetetive and monotone stuff, like accounting i was great at, because there is just a right way to do it and once you learn it you dont forget. Poker is kind of endless and you can never stop learning it, and if you think you dont have anything more to learn you couldnt be more wrong in my opinion. I always was kind of insecure in my own abilities and have been told i under-estimate myself alot, so that combined with having an extreme desire to avoid the 9-5 life which scares me so much. Im working alot more hours with poker, but its the fact that im my own boss, i work for me, is something id love to keep for life. So i feel kind of stressed and overwhelmed, and lose structure (or struggle to gain any at all), and then i go to what i do best, play way too much, insane sessions that just are against everything i want my approach to be.

I think I need to change the fear of endlessnes and how complex it is, I should view it as motivating because I decide how good I want to become. And i havent been doing nearly enough to become what i want to become in poker. Dont get me wrong, im thrilled with my results and development, but im clueless and have a bad approach based on impulsive decisions. Maybe the post-session J makes this make no sense but it does to me Thx for the well wishes!



Dont worry bro, mtts for life, the love-hate relationship, the misery, sweats and glorious days can never be replaced. FT bubbling a $22 2k at 6am with 400$ up top when you're stuck 2k. I love that ****

Sooo guys. Month is over, and i started this one out by doing exactly what i wasnt going to do. First let me show you Feb:



Current mtd missing the 215 turbo 1.2k score, also lobby of 82bb bink today.Included my 0-55 since i started playing poker seriously again almost exactly one year ago, so stress free and its why i wanna build a bit more before going ham. Better game + overrolled = success?





So a lot has to change moving forward. Im not very happy with much else than the heart im showing, my approach is all wrong and it needs to change. Will finalize a list of rules/guidelines that needs to be followed fo this month tomorrow, and will probably include some charity-freerolls.




Im thinking:
- Play 0-109 stars, skip 215s for now. Skip 60+ turbos. Due to regulation I can only dep $600/week on party and ipoker, so treat those rolls as they are and grind them up. I can do that a thousands time over, and will help me long getm with playing a better higher ev sched. Probs staying around 12 tables for this part, then cutting down to 9 when I try my luck higher up again.
- Study routines. I am terrible with structure/routines, but pads course is getting done. Set up a plan on how to do this and execute it.
- Eat healthier
- Read mental game of poker and 3 other books about self improvement/mindset.
- More time completely disconnected from poker, almost none this month. Again, this was posted just after a 22h? session where I binked 82bb for 3.7k, 14th 109bb, 12th 22 blade, 20th classico, like 2-3 f2ts on stars in 27 turbo, 27 deep, 22 hyper. 18th 22bb. A lot of almost, but got a straight out win for 3.7k to stop the bleeding, ill **** take that! Also was 20th and 30th in h109, I swear turbos hate me!
As I write this I am 2/5 in a degen reg, the $215 turbo…. And im out! Time to get my **** together, let play half of 2.3kish games in march! Gl to yall

Hey, man, have you ever estimated your hourly? I'm curious how it looks like for mid stakes winners. The results are fantastic but 22h session? Holy **** man

Hey,

Haha no i havent and i definately would want to know how many hours i played last month. Probably would seem too crazy to me. But I wouldnt really care for or try to estimate an hourly at all.

22h sessions are NOT good and you do not play great all the time, but i seem to get lost on those long mararathon sessions, not playing a-game often enough. This month Ill try to play fewer hours, lower, and bit higher tables.

That’s exactly how I feel with RYE. The lecture are rather boring but interesting at the same time. I’ll take a look into pads. For right now I’ll still with RYE until I feel confident enough in my game to move up from micros to mid.

Thanks again for the update, i finally have someone to look up to on 2p2. Cheers man hope you crush this month


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Yeah, i cant really do that style for learning, didnt/doesnt work in school and doesnt work anywhere for me it seems. Its all individual, i havent gone through all but im sure its great content. ¨

Not sure i am worth looking up to my man, mental struggles as hell as of late and just doing everything im not supposed to. Was gonna lean towards study more play a bitt less (less meaning 1-1.3k mtts which is way more reasonable). However, being me who doesnt understand structure or routines at all i played, alot.

MTD:



Not running fantastic in end games, but maybe esp not happy with how im playing for big portions of my sessions. Tonight and tomorrow will be spent clarifying my plan moving forward and how to hold myself accountable to it. In short, play lower (30abi-ish), 12 rather than 9 tables, fewer hours and pour the millions of hours that open up into studying. I need a long term approach that works for me, and its a bit scary since im SO bad with structure and routines, but i have to make it work this time. Gonna think a little bit about how to do that. For now, off till sunday. Ciao