Okay well i ran really poorly for this month. Now im 400 usd under EV i dont have upload all the hands on pt4 but i have the pokercraft thing... that hurts. I had 2 loosing day in a row. And now im back once again. And for the third time at 900usd. 910 to be more exact.

Well i guess its time to go back once again at 10NL. A litlle saf to be honest. Always painful to work so hard. To end up with nothing for it. But there is always positive and i think im way stronger of a player. I might take some tome off the game and refocus on my other objectif: sports and quitting smoking.

Bankroll: 910 usd (ouch)

After the ''beginning'', we had the ''Russian friend saga''. Now Let's get ready for:

CHAPTER 3: A NEW HOPE.



That's the graph I was talking about. So I have a receipt for crying.
*cue the sad music*
(deep thone voice)
'When all hope seemed gone, when all those hours seemed wasted... Our hero sat there wondering...''
HOW THE **** HE HITS THAT ONE OUTER FUUUUUCCC.

''And then... A Beam of light. Enlightenment? Well let's not go that far. Let's call it: A NEW HOPE.

You know when you start to tilt it up. And you refocus hard. If even harder then you were before. You switch the negative into positive. If running bad is the Doomswitch. I will call this the FocusSwitch.
Let's try to do it. IRL this time.

Back to the Structure. No shame in playing lower.
1. Wake up, Breakfast.
2. Some 2+2, posting 3 hands per day.
3. Small physical exercice.
4. shower. Meditate 15 mins (really wanna add that one)
5. Play for 5 hours per day. No care about the leaderboard. (****s my
mind up hard.)
6. Chill with book. Or by the basketball rim.

NO WEED WHILE PLAYING. ONLY WHEN ALL THIS IS DONE.

I will do this for 10 days str8.

Then, Next month I will add up some more structured work on my game.

Wanna talk poker HIT ME UP. Don't be shy I'm a chill guy. yeah mb writing that in black make me look like a psycho.
If somebody wanna talk some cards. I'll stop what i'm doing for it. Need a new pair of eyes.

I'm struggling to play more than two hours a day. Five hours a day is awesome maybe I'll get to that sometime. I think I'd need to quit smoking first as I always take break to go smoke a cigarette. This is cutting in to my hands per hour and sometimes the tables break when I get back. No one likes someone who sits out all the time.

Yeah same. Sometimes i miss good action for my breaks. But at the sametime I need break to stay focus. One day I will quit smoking just nor ready while playing that much.

I've become the one thing i swore to destroy.


BANKROLL: 925 usd

I've become a weak nit.
I've become the russian friend.
*long exhale*

All It took was a month of running bad and there we are. I can't remember the last time I thought in my head FOOOOLDD while making a big bet. Just waiting for the goods?

Now it has become very clear based on my redline.

I'm seriously thinking quitting GG for good. I don't really improve on there. I just end up playing way too much table and playing weak. I liked playing on stars so I could import all my hands into snowy and see the quality of my play. I feel like this month I was just focusing too much on the amount in the roll and waaaay less about the quality of my play.

I've been doing some retrospection tonight. About my approach: You talk a lot of smack Skull but you still struggle to structure. The more important thing is my studying. I've been slacking, I've been loosing. What a shocker. I progress too slow. Well I don't structure my learning. So I'm still trowing darts. Hoping to hit the middle. (Like there was a perfect answer) almost blindfolded by my lack of learning-structure.

I will need my Jedi mind tricks. To find the balance in the force.

OKay, I just had a session where I played 2-3 tables max. Let's just say that it was a world of difference. I felt I was so much more in control. Taking my time to look for every detail, looking into the hand histories and all.

Well it was a enormous mistake to try to go for the leaderboard.

I had time to think on why I made that big of a mistake. It has a link to the mental game. When I play so much table I loose track of the quality of my decision making. So I don't feel the fear of being wrong. And then, when something wrong happens: I blow up. Because of all the pressure I was trying to avoid.

Fear leads to anger.

After that roller-coaster of emotion. I feel so bad about who I am. Sometimes I even say things out loud like :'' i am the worst''. I've become, now, my own enemy.

Anger leads to hate.

My confidence is low. I'm weak, my plays gets weaker day by day. And the cycle continues again and again.

Hates leads to suffering.

But I will work harder. ON myself AND On my game. Now that I had that small Epiphany moment. Hopefully it will fuel my will to apply my new guidelines.

Best of luck at the table.

Hey SK. I remember going through these growing pains playing 10z on ACR and my strategy changed multiple times over 200k hands. I was lag, then tag, then nit, then finally a good solid reg confident that I was a solid winner in the pool. I also tried grinding for rb+lb and being a breakeven shiitreg just never appealed to me so I cutdown to 2 tables only and with study my play improved.

One thing I learned through all of this is unless you are a crusher/solid winner in the pool more often than not zoom is not a good way to grind up the stakes. I think you would have better success plugging some leaks and then moving to reg tables and moving up to 25nl. You have almost 100bi for 10z and that is way too much if you are not playing as a pro in a 3rd world country where making $10 a day is considered successful.

Send a PM I have a good coach that does DB review for cheap if you are interested.

Hey Bobby! Thank you for taking the time to follow and cheer me up. Yes i believe its part of what a learning process is. I want to be honnest with myself. Because if i dont understand why. It will hit me again soon or later. I have cut the number of table i will be playing and going back to quality over quantity. I dont take the set back too bad. Im having fun making the challenge a nice narrative!

I will send you a dm. Yay! Someone usefull! But for now time for some rest.

That's something Yoda would say in Return of the Jedi. You are a wise man my friend.

Hey 2+2.

I had couple of good sessions last night. Playing a max of 4 tables at once. The game was running around ''Cutebaby'' friendly guy.


BANKROLL: 990 USD
I think my level of play Is way higher playing less tables. Hopefully I could at least flat my red-line.

Of course my number of hands played will go down a bunch.

Still trying to be disciplined about playing less table and bringing my best game to the table. U can see a very big difference since I've been playing less. Running way better also helps.


BANKROLL: 1108 usd

Let's get it done.

Red line up + blue line up lfg

It's going kinda smooth on the grind. It tilted me a little yesterday... ended up playing more table. But After long inhale and exhale. We found peace back. And a nice profit.


BANKROLL: 1052

Actually I made an error on the amount in the roll.

1152 USD

I have managed to book some solide win in a row. Today was absolute destruction in the street.


BANKROLL: 1322 USD

The change start to be noticeable.
One time?

Very sick kid!

Thank you very much!

Gotta love seeing that red change! Keep it up

Haon. Ty Thommehh! It feels good looking at it. Must admit!

Nice to see you doing well, good luck!

Nice graph!!

Thank you! Luck as been on my side. No doubt about it.

Wow!Very impressive sir! Best of luck!

The amount of run good is getting insane now.



BANKROLL: 1412 USD

The Month Is coming to a close. And I will call it a clutch at the end to save my ass. Sometime all you need is retrospection, change your approach. And most of all: stick to it.

Share some of that rungood plx