Year Review
Online Results: I actually made $1,700 less overall online than it shows below because I lost $7500 on an untracked site, but also made 5800 one day that didn't get loaded into PT4 for some reason.
Stake Breakdown: Nice to run way better at your higher stake, this was complete opposite of 2017.
Live: I actually grossed $11k more than this, but spent way too much on food and alcohol in the casino this year.
-2018 overall gross: $331,474
-2018 net: Prob around $315k, don't want to figure it all out right now.
-2018 hours: 1361
So I obviously ran good in 2018 results wise, even though I lost a couple of my biggest pots live on the year by far. Half way through the year I was secretly hoping I'd be able to clear $300k net, so that feels good.
I fell just short of my total hours played goal. But I did study this year more than I ever have. I definitely significantly improved my technical game, and a couple small mental game things that coincide with the technical.
However, I just made too many mistakes in game than I should be (even while giving myself a break and knowing I'm not even close to perfect). I played way too many hours of my C+/B- game. I honestly had trouble trying that hard to be playing my best many times. I didn't focus on performance as much as I should have and it cost me a lot of money for sure.
While I'm happy with my overall hours between studying and playing, I was also too inefficient with my time. I could have wasted sooooo much less time, I could have studied more efficiently, and overall just managed my time better. Also, too much distracted behavior when with family.
Overall a great year though, and I'm not beating myself up for my many flaws. It has given me plenty of goals and things to improve on in 2019. I'm at kind of a weird spot in my career where I'm not really sure where to go from here. I'm established online and live in the biggest games that I can find regularly, and I need to decide how to keep growing. The only next step for me would be to start traveling a lot for bigger live games, which would have some potential pitfalls/payoffs and variance I'm not sure I want to deal with and go through. However, I don't want to completely stagnate and keep doing exactly what I've been doing for the last couple years for another 5+ years. That feels very uninspiring to me.
So, I've got a couple different ways my life can go over the next few years. I can stay on this same safe path I've been on the last couple years, which to be honest is a pretty damn good spot to be in. I can start traveling and playing in really big live games. Or I can start a transition away from 100% full time poker in a responsible (got family to support) and slow way that would possibly challenge and excite me and lead to a long term way of actually helping other people for a change. All of those 3 different macro options can have numerous little micro iterations within in them as well.
Who knows, I'm hoping the next 6 months will reveal the path for me?
Anyway, I'm gonna start a new blog in the next week that's more related to personal finance. I realized why I failed wrt updating this thing was that I felt pretty uninspired to write a pure journal about myself and poker. It kind of just felt like writing posts was wasting time and taking time away from doing other things I wanted. Personal finance has become kind of a passion for me over the past year. I'm hoping it will be fun to talk about, as well as a productive use of my time for numerous reasons. I'll still throw in some poker related things, and I've realized I'm just gonna be really open about results in both poker and anything related to money in my life. I plan on updating it every Tuesday and Thursday religiously and will re-evaluate in March or so.
GL in 2019 to anyone who actually read all this spew and made it to the end!