Hello, and welcome to my poker journey!
I have decided to stay anonymous for this thread for reasons including the obscure goals of this thread (It will make sense soon!), but I can assure you that I'm no one you've heard of. I've been an online grinder for about 5 years, full time since May 2015.
I currently play 200NL to 600NL online and occasionally travel to events where I play cash games 2/5 and up (future trip reports will to come!).
The Networks I play on include Party, Bodog, PokerStars, MPN and smaller networks for bonus unlocks. I'm just a bumhunter for the best 6max tables online. I play 3-6 tables at any given time, and the best tables that I can find.
My Results since 2015 look like this (lets be honest, you won't stick around without something interesting to look at!)
2/5
5/10
10/25
Now, onto the
goals of this thread:
I'm hoping to use this thread to create a new persona as the kind of person I would like to become on and off the felt. I would like to work hard to better my tilt issues among other things. I would like to lead a more balanced lifestyle as I find it hard to be motivated in other areas when poker related stress takes over.
I have major tilt/mental game issues
I am going to be using this thread as a blog to go through my every day process as a poker player and to help me (and others) overcome what I consider to be the hardest part of poker to handle, the Mental Game.
My issues include;
Anger/Tilt
Focus
Motivation
Fear
Happiness
I've included the last one because I think it is important to find that balance in life while playing poker, so I can truly be happy and enjoy the path that I'm on.
This might sound cliche' but I am going to start studying things like meditation and I will include that aspect in this thread. On recommendation I will be starting with a book called 10% Happier (Dan Harris).
The Content Ill be posting will usually be daily results, HH reviews and graphs etc etc. Ill also look to explain my thoughts and emotions as a way to get them on paper and review/analyze them. The goal is to improve on tilt and other issues so hopefully you guys will join in on the discussion! I'm open to
any and all criticism whether it be on how badly I played a hand or how I shouldn't be so upset over losing 3 buyins in a day.
"If you're healthy and you're playing cards, don't complain." - Bill Gazes on his return to the WSOP
He made this quote in a recent PokerNews interview during the 2016 WSOP and I feel it rings very true. Despite my mental game issues, things could always be much worse and that is a theme I am going to try and drive home within this thread.
He goes on to say
"You're not a syrian refugee, you're not cleaning bathrooms."
In fact, if I succeed on this path to bettering myself (using this thread)
I will donate $1,000 (CAD) to a charity of this thread's choice at the end of 2016.
This will be an informal goal of my own directly for this thread. It will be hard to judge otherwise, so to make it simple; if I am still posting in this thread, showing great mental game improvement in my poker journey and in life, and am still financially stable through continued poker results, I will make the donation date for January 1st, 2017.
The above paragraph will serve as requirements to accomplish this goal, and for my own sake I truly hope I achieve them but also to give a little back to those who need it more.
I'm going to end this first post here before we get a little too emotional! But
other areas I would like to post about will include:
Working out
The Toronto Maple leafs (Yes, I'm Canadian)
Trip Reports to future events
Lifestyle and health discussion
If anyone has any questions feel free to ask. Otherwise I will let poker drive my content from here. Thanks for reading guys and gals!
Last edited by AustonMatthews; 07-05-2016 at 04:35 PM.