Mastering Mental Game and Mental Health
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, 01:17 PM
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Legend 
all the best brother
all the best brother
08-18-2020
, 01:54 PM
08-24-2020
, 07:05 AM
You've been here since the beginning man, appreciate it!
haha sorry to disappoint my man. But it was going to have to slow down at some point. It isn't completely gg though and you never know it may well be rekindled in the future.
lmao <3 i now have a time stone troll shaped hole in my life
not your fault my man! thanks for sticking around all those years
cheers J, glad you enjoyed <3
Thank you!
a large part of that winrate being so high is the heat i found in the first 150k hands of 500z i think (won at 15bb or something truly insane).
I hadn't thought about it, I doubt top 10, prob like top 20. So many guys who play there have played for way longer than me but who knows what their wr's are.
Ty for following bro
<3
Wow, big props to having been here from day! Very kind words, thank you
I think i properly started playing 500z (not just shotting occasionally) in about march 2017, so 3-4 years. And rake paid is something like 150-160k. Ridiculous amount. Imagine if i was getting that 40% rb from back in the day!
time to get with the times! Enjoying your thread atm too
it's posts like this that do make me wonder if stopping posting is actually a good idea, but for now I'm going to continue to stick with it and see if new purpose/motivation emerges to post (perhaps not in this capacity, but maybe another).
haha i totally forgot momess used to make videos for RIO, such a blast from the past!
Seems there really are so many old timers knocking about still.
tyty brother
Thanks you! I will be sure to link posts when i write them. At the moment i am enjoying the freedom of not having to write every day haha
Thanks! This is a difficult thing to answer because it's pretty subjective. i'll give it a go though.
Jarretman is a theory boss and i'd put him at #1. Then you got guys like Chipsncrisps, whilst only really just having moved up to 500 is another guy that plays really well. Nietmar is another very tough opponent. Then there are a host of players who are tough but honestly i wouldn't be surprised if their wr's were lower than one might anticipate - players like davyjones and xeliqq. In terms of the actual goats, the majority of them have moved over to party cus of the rb - ishter being the lead example (he would still be #1 at 500z).
The issue with ranking players is that i imagine most of the regs wouldn't put me up with the better players, however, because we don't have the wr's of every single reg, it's all just guess work.
Top 500z wr in 2020 with no selection whatsoever is probably in the region of 5-6bb. But because samples are too small it's impossible to say for sure.
Ah thank you! Definitely get in touch if/when you would like to work together. I'd be happy to help.
Man, we really are all getting old! Thank you for following and constantly posting. gl to you
I'm really glad you were able to take something away from the blog man! Gl with your own blog
Thank you! I've already seen a few posts from people referencing my post/making an effort to post more consistently and in other blogs - hopefully that continues. I'll also still be knocking about. Can't go cold turkey on PGC
Thanks for the post rapidesh <3 haha well, yeah, let's not forget that this is a zero sum game and ultimately people don't really care if you lose. And honestly a gambling community will naturally embody the characteristics of trash talking/anger/saltiness because we are winning/losing money vs one another haha.
I'll be closely following your blog moving forward of course. Best of luck on and off the tables
Cheers for following and posting for such a long time jimbo <3
You're welcome my man, gl!
come at me
Great post man. The point you make about retaining hope given the influence of this form of poker writing feels poignant for me. The pieces I have written about poker recently have more of an autobiographical quality and really gives me the fulfilment to write that I used to get when I began this blog. I really want to continue this, and who knows, some of it may find its way into the public domain, however, with my current position of building a private practice and still being very much embedded within the poker community, I don't see any benefits. People like Ben Saxton are a great example (check out his blog if you haven't) - he offers refreshingly eclectic writing about life and poker.
Thanks meale! You been around for a looooong time itt too so big up. Ah there are still some banging threads out there and I'm sure new ones will be created. Gl!
Some sad truths in this post yeah.
Really glad you enjoyed it man. Gl to you too!
Yeah, holding onto previous warm/content for nostalgic value feels OK to some extent, but if it's hindering growth/moving forward it becomes potentially unhealthy. Perhaps a good break can give some space to what's important for me.
Cheers lad. Bring back the PGC 1 time
hahaha unreal rip Yeah totally think that things moving over to other platforms was inevitable. Just like we aren't on myspace anymore!
ty man! glglgl
lmao lets open a spikeball highlights reel thread. although it would just be you crying on video so maybe not
newp
<3 ty bro, take it easy
gg's. yep, benabadbeat
gl man, thanks!
<3<3<3 ty brother. Are you back in london? whatsapp me
lmao <3 i now have a time stone troll shaped hole in my life
not your fault my man! thanks for sticking around all those yearscheers J, glad you enjoyed <3
I hadn't thought about it, I doubt top 10, prob like top 20. So many guys who play there have played for way longer than me but who knows what their wr's are.
Ty for following bro
<3
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GG WP. Have opened this thread once a day for as long as can remember. Very inspiring and your consistency in poker and in life when running good or bad in either is very admirable. Good luck with everything, not because you need it but because you deserve it.
time to get with the times! Enjoying your thread atm too
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I think I made only one post here itt (a few days ago), but long time reader. Your results are impressive. First time I heard about you was by watching a RIO video (momess) and he called you a very good reg. Also watching the whole bitb podcast made it clear. And the results obviously. So, came here just to say good luck with everything in your life, and hopefully you´ll change your mind and resume updating regularly sometime in the future.
haha i totally forgot momess used to make videos for RIO, such a blast from the past!
Seems there really are so many old timers knocking about still.
tyty brother
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Hi Ben,
i have read your blog weekly, little sad that u decide to stop posting here, but i already found ur instagram account and have followed you.
U have a lot of experience of 500 zoom, who do you think are the best reg playing it?
What do you think it is a top reg winrate? Are u among them?
Ty.
i have read your blog weekly, little sad that u decide to stop posting here, but i already found ur instagram account and have followed you.
U have a lot of experience of 500 zoom, who do you think are the best reg playing it?
What do you think it is a top reg winrate? Are u among them?
Ty.
Jarretman is a theory boss and i'd put him at #1. Then you got guys like Chipsncrisps, whilst only really just having moved up to 500 is another guy that plays really well. Nietmar is another very tough opponent. Then there are a host of players who are tough but honestly i wouldn't be surprised if their wr's were lower than one might anticipate - players like davyjones and xeliqq. In terms of the actual goats, the majority of them have moved over to party cus of the rb - ishter being the lead example (he would still be #1 at 500z).
The issue with ranking players is that i imagine most of the regs wouldn't put me up with the better players, however, because we don't have the wr's of every single reg, it's all just guess work.
Top 500z wr in 2020 with no selection whatsoever is probably in the region of 5-6bb. But because samples are too small it's impossible to say for sure.
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Thanks for sharing your journey with us for all these years. Definitely one of my favourite pgc's. Your results are mind-boggling but even more impressive is your consistency with posting. Now that you're gone, who will lead the way for new up and coming players
Best of luck OP
Best of luck OP
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It's gonna be a great loss for P&GC, it's unbelievable how much good advice/attitude you've gave/shown in here. Not talking about poker only, but at your approach to life/problems/trolls and how humble you've always been no matter how good you ran or how bad things have gone. I've read a lot here and I don't remember seeing you being salty even once, it shows how good your mindset is and tbh it shows you're truly a happy person that doesn't feel the need to prove anything to anyone.
I can recall of a lot of regs that played with you that said bad things about your game, at the time I believed them (even after you've posted a 5bb graph over a large sample fwiw). But once I stepped back to think a little, maybe the metrics they were using to judge your game were wrong, maybe they thought less of you because of their relationship with themselves (luxpoker cough cough lol) and couldn't admit you were one of the best.
Chances are that the best reg isn't the guy talking about how bad things go with him and how bad everyone is, but the one who is humble and won't **** on people.
wp man!
gl with everything in your life! You're a big inspiration bena!
vamoooooooooooooooooooooo
I can recall of a lot of regs that played with you that said bad things about your game, at the time I believed them (even after you've posted a 5bb graph over a large sample fwiw). But once I stepped back to think a little, maybe the metrics they were using to judge your game were wrong, maybe they thought less of you because of their relationship with themselves (luxpoker cough cough lol) and couldn't admit you were one of the best.
Chances are that the best reg isn't the guy talking about how bad things go with him and how bad everyone is, but the one who is humble and won't **** on people.
wp man!
gl with everything in your life! You're a big inspiration bena!
vamoooooooooooooooooooooo
I'll be closely following your blog moving forward of course. Best of luck on and off the tables
Cheers for following and posting for such a long time jimbo <3
You're welcome my man, gl!
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Sorry to hear the news. Haven’t contributed much to this thread, over the years, but have always greatly respected the breadth of its content, and you’re ability to contextualise poker strategy in terms of mental health, especially given your expertise (and research interest) in this area. (Obv. your results over a long sample confirm expertise in the former.) Can certainly empathise with your view on the down-cycle of the PGC, as a former PGC-er, and generally agree with your conclusions. I’m still retaining hope for the PGC, given how much influence this form of poker writing has had on so many. If placed in a historical frame, as we do with literary genres, for instance, I suspect we’ll soon see how threads like these don’t become threadless, regardless of how much we try to tie a knot at the end.
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near 400k breakeven stretch in there and still a sick winrate over the sample! gg ben, i wouldn't be surprised if PGC forum dies entirely now, this and tgigs literally the only two threads i check anymore :\
thanks as well, this thread defo was a big inspiration for me when starting out!!
thanks as well, this thread defo was a big inspiration for me when starting out!!
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In my eyes not a lot has changed over the 5 past years in online poker. Likely the only thing that did is that one has to work harder to get somewhere and has to do work to stay where one is. Learned this while had a breaking even year, last year.
I think having a thread somewhere to reflect is always good. Sadly here is no separation / hierarchy by threads based on amount of posts / PGC subforum for midstakes / highstakes etc. which means everything worth reading gets always lost by 17 pages because of these "making 200 usd with 10 usd starting roll" threads being at same place as the rare ones worth reading.
Too much spam and trash stopped me from posting here several years ago more than very occasionally. Haven't regret that decision. Cheers!
I think having a thread somewhere to reflect is always good. Sadly here is no separation / hierarchy by threads based on amount of posts / PGC subforum for midstakes / highstakes etc. which means everything worth reading gets always lost by 17 pages because of these "making 200 usd with 10 usd starting roll" threads being at same place as the rare ones worth reading.
Too much spam and trash stopped me from posting here several years ago more than very occasionally. Haven't regret that decision. Cheers!
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Eiyaa the end of an era
As we talked on Skype before I simply think people (based entirely on my own experience) have flocked from public forums such as this one to more intimate private groups, be it on Skype insta or discord and have many blogs there followed by more direct “followers” and communities that form around these. The interaction that used to happen on here is probably even more intense in some of the groups I am part in but of course anybody not involved in such groups will be left out.
It’s quite sad that this forum is what it is but I personally prefer what I have now compared to what my thread used to be when I was updating more regularly (either just bargs or boring af diary planner thing)
Prob just comes to show sth we all know and fear to admit:
We re getting old ripppp
As we talked on Skype before I simply think people (based entirely on my own experience) have flocked from public forums such as this one to more intimate private groups, be it on Skype insta or discord and have many blogs there followed by more direct “followers” and communities that form around these. The interaction that used to happen on here is probably even more intense in some of the groups I am part in but of course anybody not involved in such groups will be left out.
It’s quite sad that this forum is what it is but I personally prefer what I have now compared to what my thread used to be when I was updating more regularly (either just bargs or boring af diary planner thing)
Prob just comes to show sth we all know and fear to admit:
We re getting old ripppp
Yeah totally think that things moving over to other platforms was inevitable. Just like we aren't on myspace anymore! ty man! glglgl
lmao lets open a spikeball highlights reel thread. although it would just be you crying on video so maybe not
newp
gg's. yep, benabadbeat
gl man, thanks!
<3<3<3 ty brother. Are you back in london? whatsapp me
09-23-2020
, 04:59 PM
In true PGC fashion, I'll drop this here and come back next time i find an upswing
Will do more of a write up on IG regarding this rather than in here @benabadbeat
Hope everyone is doing well! <3
Will do more of a write up on IG regarding this rather than in here @benabadbeat
Hope everyone is doing well! <3
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