Nice updates sir. GL for the rest of the WCOOP.

Hey guys,

Today wraps up another year of WCOOP for a lot of regs who grinded hard and have nothing to show but Sklanksy $ for their efforts. While we count said Sklansky $ maybe our eyes skim the lobbies to see those regs who ran better than us and have some real chances at getting their ticket out of this rat race, or perhaps their ticket into it if they so choose. I'm a little sour but I do wish all the best to the good guys out there putting in the work.

Update (Personal Level)

Uhmmm yeah I've basically done **** all since COVID took off. Day in and day out just been going through the motions. Some days I'll golf, some days play poker, some days sit around and watch sports. I'm not sure what it is but my motivation really got killed this year and I've just found myself several times being my own worst enemy and letting the days pass by.

2019 was the year for me when I went from busto to robusto and literally everything I touched turned to gold. 2020, on the other hand, everything I've touched has turned to dust (since Covid began). I'm still in a far better financial spot than any time outside of 2019, I've ever been in...but losing ~35% of your net worth in a year at my"profession" never feels good. Just the path I chose I guess...

As for the health grind it's just been whatever. I stopped going to the gym when they all closed down. Recently they've re-opened and I'm not sure if I've been neglecting because I'm lazy and making excuses or because I genuinely don't feel comfortable going to the gym with covid on the rise here.

On the positive side I've been getting out for walks and hikes ~5 times per week and if it's any consolation, I've really enjoyed that. Small spurts of motivation or inspiration have been hitting me lately and I'm convinced things are on their way back up.

Update (Poker):

Had so many sweet equity spots everywhere during WCOOP but just ran sick bad when it counted. Very happy with where my game is at and even though results have been poor most of this year, I feel my game and game selection is the highest EV it's ever been. I have 0 regrets about firing hard during COVID and putting myself in what I perceived to be very high EV spots. Sucks I ran bad and couldn't realize the EV but such is life. There's worse areas of life to run bad in and I've been blessed af in poker. Can't win em' all.

Hands:

WCOOP Main 530 Bust Hand:
https://upswingpoker.com/hand/?pokeit=724HcN0vW
feels quite bad man. more on this one later.

Deep Run in 109 Warmup on Sunday/today
https://gyazo.com/ae66deef3800cb8a1253c664b364fe4f

^i mean I was gonna 3 bet/snap off pre but ended up folding vs this 11$ ABI guy

https://upswingpoker.com/hand/?pokeit=324HcB4cr

^vs josefshvejk this guy does my fkn head in and i honestly like snap fold river vs everybody here but had no time bank and for some reason with game flow and some pots we played I convinced myself he could have some bluffs (silly me)

https://upswingpoker.com/hand/?pokeit=224HclMJu

^vs some mong from kazakstan...literally beats me into the pot on river.


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Anyways, I thought I played quite well and worked hard during COOP but ironically I'm quite happy to get back to the low variance grind. These series are great sometimes but I'm sick of them and I just want small/soft fields I can crush to get some money back to end this year. Hate this feeling of being obliged to fire outside my comfort zone/desire just because a massive field is "high EV", even though it takes a life time to realize that equity and 95/100 times just end up running way below EV .

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Poker Strategy Rant

That above hand with 54cc what in the **** was running through my head? Did I seriously think I could make this Russian dude fold Qx or possibly even Ax? There's a very fine line in tournaments where a play is "printing" vs. "punting". To be honest, vs. how 99% of players seem to play they will have exactly 0 bluffs on the river and his QJ snap call is literally burning money. Regardless, I'm the one who is punting in this instance for legitimately thinking I could make this dude make a big fold with this SPR...even though nobody is ever bluffing here, they still won't fold.

Theoretically speaking, this seems like a good hand/line to bluff with at a small frequency. In practice it's just a huge punt and we can literally just always be bladed in this spot because people will just keep spite calling regardless of us never bluffing.

So why does "nobody ever bluff man"? If you're in any type of poker chat group you probably hear this a million times of guys being upset with themselves for calling rivers and losing. Well, the answer is simple, because nobody ever folds. There are exceptions but in those spots where you think "this guy always has it", he probably does "have it". The reason he always has it, is because you never fold.

I see it several times a session where a player will show up to the river with infinite bluff combos, yet just gives up with even the best bluff combos. For example a board with 2 bricked flush draws/a bricked straight draw etc....they're aware they will get to the river with a lot of bluffs but will pull the trigger with none? Meanwhile, they will bet for value relentlessly with any pair or better. They think they're being tricky by not bluffing but really what's happening is they're completely unbalanced...and the grossest part about it all....




Not really sure where I was going with this one guys but it's time for me to hit the hay and get out golfing tomorrow. I'll be back Wednesday for a nice night time lower variance session. Looking forward to getting back to the grind stone Thanks for reading and best of luck!

You'd prob find it way less stressful and way easier to stay with good habits if you didn't fire as hard. No real reason to put yourself in a position to be able to drop 35% of net worth. Granted you wouldn't have had as sick a heater the year before if you weren't pressing super hard then too. But you were basically a couple tourneys away from busto before binking that live tourney and it seems like you've repeated that pattern a few times. Don't risk putting yourself back into a bad position. Gl rest of the year!

@colin: ty ma man

@tyman: yeah don't worry I learned my lesson the hard way at the start of last year lol. I wasn't even pressing that hard last year lmao literally just ran pure in every single aspect. This year though I admittedly was pressing way too hard in some other avenues which I definitely regret. Poker wise, meh the games were just so good and I was in a good spot so I thought fk it let's give it a shot (was still selling diligently just taking bigger pieces than normal), feels like a bottom 5% run or something so w/e just gotta take it off the chin and adjust/move on I'm still in a good spot though and not worried just need to make some adjustments and get back to the bread and butter.

Thanks for reading and the post m8 GL to you as well

Are you in some sort of group or did you ever consider connecting to other players? To me it always seems like you‘re doing all of this poker thing by yourself. I‘m sure your mental (and strategical) game would improve massively by talking to others. There‘s a reason the top guys always have their crews. Glgl

I get why you might get the "lone wolf" vibe from reading the ramblings of this thread but I've actually got a super solid poker friend network. I generally try not to involve them or people in my personal life in here because of the personal nature of the thread. In a weird way this serves as some type of pseudo journal where I just like to unwind by saying what's on my mind (and getting a small amount of validation or support from the small community that reads)

Yo guys,

Someone said to me today "I have so much respect for the guys who play poker full time online day in and day out". While I also respect everyone's grind I think sometimes the line between "hard work" and "addiction" becomes very blurred. It's easy to convince ourselves that we're "working hard" when we mass multi-table for 12 hours every day, and ignore the fact that we're neglecting real-life balance. For example, when I was in Uni I would just grind 24/7 when I wasn't in class because it helped me avoid the discomfort of various factors of being unhappy in my position. Sitting at my computer occupying my mind with "decision overload" helped me forget about my current state, and I even convinced myself I was doing a hero's work. It was somewhat of an addiction to poker combined with an escape mechanism. It's an extremely self-destructive way of living life and is something that should be helped and not respected.

The guys in this industry I respect the most are the ones who manage a full real life balance and still find the time to be fully devoted to poker. Afterall, it's easy to sit around and play poker all day, it should be, we love the game. The internal psychological warfare we experience day in and day out is extremely difficult. We're in this constant battle with our monkey brains to make logical decisions and getting our asses handed to us for 9 months in a row and still showing up to grind...it's not easy, and probably 95% of people couldn't play poker tournaments for a sustained period of time on a high level. This profession requires a combination of very niche skill sets/personality traits that very few people possess. I respect everyone's grind, but the guys who crush fitness/relationships/mental health etc while remaining on an elite level in poker definitely take the cake...that **** is hard to do.

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Grind has been going well for me last few days boys. Don't have any financial gain to report but made ~4-5 decent FTs and got grossed out in all of them. Feeling that level of focus and dedication that I haven't really felt since 2019. Really enjoying playing poker right now and can't wait for the next session. Been golfing almost every day as well which helps the balance aspect. Getting a nice ~4 hours of outdoor activity before the grind is very necessary these days.

Anyways, that's all I got for now. Take care!

Binked a couple small bowls and this:
https://gyazo.com/f415f379fd8834eeb195916079781d15

and this:
https://gyazo.com/0a672f609685f5db295dc9d3a2490b03

Feeling amazing at the tables and motivation is the highest it's been in a long time. I really feel "at home" in the night sessions and conversely from most people, it's where I feel the highest energy/productivity. Every time in the past when I found myself in a rut the first adjustment was switching over to the off-peak schedule and cutting the dick swing stuff out of the schedule. You will still see me during the day tomorrow (because lol_Sunday) but during the week I'm looking to carry this night grind pattern forward.

Time to grind out some rake points on Stars because they gave me this promo to generate 24M rake to get 1600$ reward. Sort of feels like a trap where the target paid rake $ is out of the player's reach but they will try and get 80% of the way there paying heaps of rake for no reward. Also feels designed to make you fire -EV games like cash or SNGs (or games is not a specialist in I should say).

Anyways, I'll punt around and pay some rake for a couple hours then taking the night off to watch UFC with a couple buddies. May the run good be with you this Sunday!

Sup lads

I'll come in here for a post as I try to stall my way into a min cash in my last tourney of the evening. Things have been on the up and up since my last few posts. I've had a few realizations and made a few big changes in my everyday life and will talk/summarize briefly below:

Poker: Feels like the large losing sessions have mostly gotten under control, likely a bi-product of all these series coming to an end and changing the hours in which I play. Tuesday I had a huge session (1st 500$ for 20k, 1st hot 109 ~5k, 1st fat tuesday ~6k, 2nd in ACR bowl for 2k). So the sky isn't falling in poker anymore and I feel amazing mindset wise/strategy wise at the tables. I'm loving the night grind and the lower variance fields. I find it much more relaxing getting stuff done during the day and then I can grind again with a guilt-free conscious at night.

Golf: The season has more or less come to an end as Winter is nearing. I probably spent ~5k on miscellaneous golf rounds/equipment etc this Summer but I'm so glad I did. At the start of COVID I was primarily sitting at home and either playing poker or Call of Duty Warzone with basically all of my time. I was anxiety ridden with the uncertainty of how COVID and it's factors on everyday life would unravel. It was beginning to feel like groundhog day just living the same boring day over and over again.

Although everyday life was quite a bit different, golf remained unchanged. I was shooting ~115 my first few rounds and losing 5-10 balls off the tee because of this wicked slice I possessed. I really didn't think I was going to stick with it or get my money's worth on the membership, which I needed to play 40 rounds to make it cheaper than paying each individual round. I forced myself out to the course almost every day at the start of the Summer and within a few rounds it became a routine I was addicted to. Between getting some sunshine, exercise, improving by 20-30 strokes, and giving me a sense of normalcy, it actually turned out to become a damn good social outlet.

Life Rant:

I've always been brutally honest in this thread and I like to think of myself as a very honest person. However, after so much self-talk and a lot of deliberation, I've come to the realization that I've been perpetually lying to myself. I keep reverting back to the same old habits that I just can't seem to kick. I keep promising that I'm gonna stop and make changes yet keep breaking that promise to myself every time.

The ego is a very interesting thing because we will go through massive lengths to protect it. It's so tough to look at our lives through an unbiased lens so much that we miss the bigger picture. I went through a super difficult time in my early to mid 20s where everything just kind of went to ****. Instead of working to get myself out of that unhappy place and solve the issues at their core, I let them overrun me as I buried my head into any numbing mechanism I could find. Alcohol, weed, poker, gambling, food etc. was all just a temporary fix to feel some type of good or to feel anything really. At the time I knew I was 100% unhappy and most of that was driven by my circumstances: poor experience @ uni, excessive weight gain, being so far from friends/family, lacking quality friends @ uni etc.

I grinded my ass off and put myself through the ringer and eventually accomplished what I had set out to do. I graduated, paid for my school, and left with some money in the bank, and I got to return home to Ontario. Right after graduating I went to Australia for a month. I was really just so relieved to get out of Uni, in the thick of it I would have put myself as a +1500 dog to graduate (for all the degens reading).

Time passed by and I bought a place and all of that circumstantial stuff was in the past. I found some self-help stuff and did some traveling. My overall state had improved quite substantially to the point that I really had myself convinced that I was happy. That amazing state that we all want to feel.

More time passed into 2020 and with the whole pandemic thing it left me alone for countless hours to ponder this existence. Some help from some performance enhancing substances and living groundhog day over and over led me to a rather uncomfortable realization: I don't feel good. I'm not really unhappy with my life, in fact I am happy, but I'm just complacent. Merely just getting by each day and convincing myself that I deem certain tasks as important. It's hard to explain this void or emptiness that I've had for so long but I think it comes from constantly avoiding the problems at my deepest importance. I've let certain traumatic events linger in my subconscious for too long now and neglected to realize or heal them.

In a way I've healed and am happy, but when I can be completely honest with myself, I don't feel good and most days I'm not doing the things I need to do to live my best life. That's it. I feel guilty about living some of my prime years in a state that was anything but living life to the fullest.

So here I am at the cross roads where I'm faced with the decision of continuing down the path I've been on or changing paths to the one that entails my best life. The latter involves so much pain and discomfort but sometimes the pain of staying the same outweighs the pain that it takes to change.


Relationship: It really sucks because I've been dating a girl who cares so much about me and is the kindest someone has ever been to me. I had to break it off recently because like I said, I just don't feel good. I wish she treated me like **** and that way I could move on guilt free but it really hurts to let someone down who cares so much about you and has treated you so well. I need some more time to be single and figure things out. I guess staying in something that I'm unhappy is a bigger disservice to us both.

Changes

Anyways guys I have a clear picture of where I want to be in the future. Every time I've thought about slipping up or giving up I just picture that end goal and how vital it is to get there, to the point of "feeling good". I know what needs to be done

Thanks for reading and here's a few pics below of some of my life in the last week or so:

https://gyazo.com/9fa71d77984cd4d5913eed450de16c71

https://gyazo.com/a15272c8f28a77c898d4cafaeef5022a

https://gyazo.com/ac1e867cd49ab5a4adb66affcd3fbd16

https://gyazo.com/13ea467ebb1eb863199ef8ae685cad08

Thanks for reading and GL at the tables, signing off for now

Hey guys. Part of me really wants to update here but the other part of me is sick of singing the same old song and dance.

Today was a terrible day. Upon waking up and showering, I drove to McDonalds for my morning coffee. If I don't get out for a walk before my Sunday sessions I at least like to get outside and drive around for whatever reason. The ole' roll out of bed and fire the hot 33 and load until the bb 162 routine doesn't make a 28 year old lad feel so good ya know? After all, I'm not 20 anymore and staying cooped up inside all day really takes a toll on my mindset. (btw I just realized I've been saying "cooked up" my whole life as opposed to the proper "cooped up" after a quick google search).

I proceeded to do the same thing I do every other Sunday. Click a mouse and try to win a house, while trying not to lose one at the same time. Today was mostly just a series of teases ranging from aces getting cracked in final 27 players for chip lead stack, to the Atlanta Braves blowing a 3-1 series lead, and a 3-2 lead in game 7. Yeah, I had a bet on them to win this series on top of the World Series. Just another kick in the nuts and a reminder to not bet sports against professional line setters. Wasn't a huge bet or anything and I hedged out a decent amount of it but the feeling off loss just sucks, especially when you feel like the win was in the bag and you were entitled to it.

After rage turning off my TV and the room going quiet I realized I was insanely stressed out and high strung for no apparent reason. It was midnight and a perfect time to grab a little pre-rolled joint and head out for a midnight stroll to calm down and grab a little exercise! I got dressed and put on my coat and stepped outside only as a torrential downpour decided to come down.

Just one of those days.

I turned around and headed back inside and here we are, writing down aimless thoughts to some unknown audience on some unknown archaic forum

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There comes a time in every man's life where he's faced at the crossroads between continuing down the path he's been traveling on, or altering his path to ultimately change his fate. The path he's been traveling down is the same one he's always known, a more familiar path. The same obstacles, the same people, and the same destination. There at the crossroads he stands and contemplates a new path, one that entails a much different journey, new challenges, new people, and a new destination, a much happier destination.

If you haven't guessed by now the above paragraph is in reference to myself. I won't get into it too much guys but long story short I've done some deep thinking and contemplation and I wasn't happy with the path I was on for several different reasons. I've decided to turn over a new page and to make some major changes to my life. I just can't continue down the path I've been going down. Not gonna get into specific details yet but my days are going to be structured much different going forward and wealth generation is going to be put on the side burner until at least 2021. (Will continue to play poker but a few adjustments to schedule/volume).

Thanks for reading homies and this time next Sunday I'm going to have a much more positive update and that is a promise.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4d-P...=HESMotivation

^this video really fired me up the other night

Hey man, sorry to see yesterday went badly.

I say this with only the best of intentions but you've posted a few times now about wanting to make changes in your life to varying degrees and (from what I gather) haven't had much success, have you considered why this time would be different/what you will be doing differently this time round? I'm a few years younger than you but in a very similar situation, dissatisfied with my life but struggling to commit to any real change/find any real improvement.

Hey dude it's all good! Standard to have a few horrid days in this business just need to shake it off and bounce back

Like I said I'm sick of singing the same old song and dance. I've had the best of intentions the past few years but the stuff at my deepest importance I've only made small and inconsistent strides for small periods of time. I avoided getting into details this time because I don't want to become "THAT guy" who just talks about stuff and doesn't actually follow through after writing about this stuff a million times.

Every time I've failed it kills me and I've went as far as "**** it mode" more than a few times and purely given up.

To answer your question: Why will this time be different? Well, if the past is any indicator of the future, it won't be. I wish I had some secret mojo secret to tell you that I've unlocked the hidden key to unleash my inner potential but I'd be lying.

The only thing that's changed is the goal and path have never been clearer and have never felt more reachable. At some point the pain of not changing outweighs the pain of what it takes to change...and I've reached that point.

Feel free to PM me about improvements you want to make or whatever and maybe I can help you or point you in the right direction.

Supsup, as promised here's a positive update:

I'm happy to say I stopped being an idiot and finally went out and purchased a scale for some objective measurements. There was some weird fear or something that I had built up that I was telling myself these lies that I didn't need to go buy a scale or whatever. I think the reality is that I didn't want to check my weight because it hurts the ego, it all becomes real when you see the objective results, like "damn, we got work to do homie". I kind of feared that moment of it all becoming real. (Yes, I know any normal person probably thinks wtf is wrong with this guy that he can't check his weight?)

Anyways, I went to Walmart and bought the scale for 17$ and brought it home. I took it out of the box and got it set up and sort of stared at it for a few minutes...almost like some bad ancient omen had just been brought into my home and I didn't know how to deal with it. After a while of contemplation I gave my head a shake and reluctantly stepped on there. As my ego expected, I put on about ~25 lbs. since I last weighed myself at the gym about a year ago. It hurt.

Anyways, I soon after realized I was being stupid and actually started to feel damn good that I cleared the hurtle of a major mental barrier. It felt even better getting on there and seeing positive change, to the tone of being down 1 lb over night on the first day of a GTO diet. I've been documenting my weight every morning when I wake up now.

That wasn't so hard was it? Now it's like I'm obsessed with checking it. Like some little kid who was nervous and scared to go join some activity and then 20 minutes later they're having the time of their life and won't leave.

Diet:
Not being absurdly restrictive or anything yet. Not eating many carbs/sugars at all outside of maybe a fruit item per day. Most common breakfast has been 3 eggs and 3 slices of turkey bacon. I've heard things about eating too many eggs is bad for you? It's easy and consistent for now and can't be worse that breakfast sandwiches or w/e other poison I was eating regularly in the past. Snacks have mostly been fruit/nuts in moderation. Not drinking any calories. Main meals have been pre-marinated chicken breast from the grocery store butcher with broccoli or some frozen veggie mix.

Exercise
Haven't drilled this in too hard yet and not going too hard on myself. Diet is the only thing I'm 100% adamant about for now. That being said, I've been trying at the very least to go for a 1 hour walk if nothing else. Have done some home workout body weight workouts off youtube or went for a job when I feel like it.

Weight
When checked this morning was around -1kg or -2.2 lbs. since Monday. Target goal is going to be ~2.5 lbs. per week to start. (Is that too aggro?)

Anyways, feeling great and the changes haven't been too restrictive thus far. This feels sustainable for now and I finally can check objective results regularly to make sure I'm making progress/motivate me with results.

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Random Social Observation

As I talk about a lot in here, I enjoy going for walks in nature. Not sure if you guys notice this too or if it's a North American thing but: older people almost always make eye contact and say hi/smile vs. young people keep their head down and only say something when you address them (almost always).

Are these anti-social gremlins the product of the social media/technology era? Years being spent playing video games and primarily interacting behind screens leading to a socially awkward person avoiding face to face interaction....who would have guessed?

Anyways, this generation has become really good at certain things like: harvesting rock in RuneScape, building forts in fortnite, crafting a perfect social media profile that showcases the top 1% of their lives, and living in some virtual world. While it makes for really great fortnite players it does not promote a very healthy social person, the foundation of happiness for a human.

All of that aside, I had a weird realization that social norms have changed so much to the point that a social gesture such as saying hi or trying to start a conversation with a random person is now no longer the norm...in fact, it's perceived as weird. Younger people are so used to ignoring strangers and strangers ignoring them. Breaking that cycle now can set off red flags in some instances and give off serial killer vibes.

Maybe I'm wrong though and this isn't even a thing.

That's all I got for now guys thanks for the support/reading. Take it ezzzz

I also spend a lot of time walking on nature trails and think your observations and speculation are spot-on. It's amazing how many times I'll do a small wave or smile or say hello at someone about to pass by only to be met with a blank stare or the person very clearly trying not to make any eye contact and pass by as quickly as possible. Some older people act this way as well, but the tendency is definitely more prevalent in younger people. I'm in my mid-thirties so I guess I'm somewhere in-between. Truthfully, I used to be more the "let me pass by this person as quickly as possible without acknowledging their presence" type but started having thoughts along the lines of what you posted above and decided to make more of an effort to fight against social isolation.

The bolded makes me especially sad and I'm hoping humanity (or at least people in this culture- it might not be as much a problem in other parts of the world) can start turning things around.

Oh yeah, re: health issues, if my own story helps in any way, between 2011 and 2012 I went from someone who weighed 250 lbs to someone who weighed 170. Since then, I'm down to 157 and haven't struggled with weight issues at all after what was a very long cycle lasting over a decade of gaining weight, losing it, gaining it, etc. The #1 thing that has helped me and I still do is stepping on a scale as soon as I wake up, every day. Over time, you develop a really good feel for how what you did the previous day, what you ate and your activity level, affected your weight today, and further you reinforce that your weight/health is something that matters to you. The main thing is, it's a daily commitment; you'll have to work hard for awhile to change your eating habits, but over time the new habits will stick and be unconscious. Don't be afraid to indulge yourself every once in awhile, just do so knowing you will make continue on the healthier path the next day. Good luck.

Imo videogames are very often bad, but some of them are art and can open your mind/be a healthy form of entertainment. Obv not talking about those money grabs/hype/games designed to addict you. I think it's easy to use them as a scapegoat though, it's very likely that most people that drown themselves in gaming 24/7 do it because they have some deep unsolved problems and end up using games as a coping mechanism.

thanks for the post inspiring story as it sounds very similar to mine (struggling and trying/failing for almost a decade now/slightly higher starting weight but i think my ideal target is ~205 ish lbs.) Been checking weight every morning when I wake up and I was an idiot for not doing that before because it's kept me conscious of my short term decisions and helping me stay accountable because the numbers can't lie.

yeah i agree 100% I've got so much nostalgia of various video games from my childhood and have had a lot of fun along the way with them. that being said I've lost thousands of hours being distracted by some virtual world while the real one was passing by. I don't really consider it problematic for me as I only play recreationally a couple hours a week but there's a fine line. the last part is true for a lot of vices even poker (was for me for a long time), drugs, alcohol, tv, porn etc. thx for the post m8 hope all well w/ u and ur grind

Saw you on one of my tables yesterday so thought I’d drop by to say hi! Enjoying the blog, cheers!!

How has cash games been going? See you in the mix here and there; you doing it when mtt grind is winding down or just for fun/seperate?


glgl enjoy reading your updates throughout the years lots of reflection / thoughts that I think a lot of us go through and is relatable

wassup bro thanks and GL

hey man thanks i appreciate that nice to hear. 2 main reasons why I've been in the 200z pools:

1) stars been giving me some rakeback promos for 1600 USD every 3 weeks or so if i rake a certain amount. when I need to make up points 200z covers it pretty quick and when the pools are softer off peak hours I think it might even be +EV regardless of not being too well studied in the format

2) been using it as a cheap lesson (maybe even make some $) for experience with deeper stack and shorter handed play. always refreshing to mix in a new format here and there and see how all the ranges interact/effect each other at different stack depths and what not

re: hows it been going? : pretty well surprisingly but running fairly pure and also purposely playing in smaller/softer pools

Hey guys, had a late night last night on the grind and was lucky enough to win the 530 bb high roller late edition for a couple racks. Afterwards I cooked up some scallops, not something I would ever buy but saw they were on sale at the grocery store and I'm a cheap bloke so decided I'd try em out. Cooked them as per recommendations and they seemed decent, slightly undercooked. Woke up around 5 AM with a cramp like stomach pain, fever, and overwhelming vomit feeling. Ended up lying on the cold bathroom floor for about an hour regretting not taking precautions with cooking. (Just figured it's like shrimp and not gonna get you sick for not being cooked or w/e). That's the first episode of cooking noob 101.

So I woke up feeling almost hungover all day and just took the day to relax. Hopefully be feeling 100% tomorrow and get on the grind for another night sesh.

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Disclosure: Not trying to make the following a political post

For real though, wtf is the deal with the extreme polarization of people on certain topics almost to the point of idiocy? Yes, some topics such as "should you call an all in with a royal flush?" there is a correct answer and anything but polarization would be insane.

What got me thinking of this?

1. I was speaking with a good buddy on the phone today just shooting the **** like usual. We started talking about Justin Turner in the Dodgers game. Justin was pulled out from the game in the 8th inning because of a positive covid test. After his team clinched the World Series he ran onto the field and celebrated with all of his team mates and continued to touch the trophy and kiss his girl? I mean, I get it the dude probably just achieved a life long dream and it would suck to miss the iconic moment of the celebration with your team mates.

We talked a bit about the scenario and he started saying lines like "it's ridiculous that internet trolls are so mad that he's celebrating with his team", "his wife was kissing him she probably already had it too or knew she was kissing a guy with covid so what does it matter?" "he was sitting on the bench with those team mates all game anyways", "it was probably a false positive"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eHEO...nnel=FOXSports
^there's a video of it

This guy thinks covid is all stupid and calls people who take strong precautions "covid sheep" then continues asking me things like "well why doesn't the government freak out like this about the flu? That kills people doesn't it?"

2. Politics: Why are people always so die hard left or right? I don't know much about politics but why is it not reasonable to support some arguments on the left and some on the right? So often I will see somebody support one party and refuse to acknowledge any of their downfalls meanwhile neglecting to talk about any of the strong parts of the other side?

There is this weird phenomena that some people seem to attach to certain ideologies and choose to die on their shield for that view point. Again, there's some instances where that is 100% reasonable.

Other topics I think people love picking sides: drugs, exploit vs. solvers, gun laws, etc. There's positive/negative sides of almost every debate but by trying to defend a position we become polarized and end up with a solution far from the equilibrium.

Note: My friend above probably sounds like a huge dolt from the above example. He's actually a great guy we ended up having a long discussion about it and look at covid through a bit of a different lens which is fine. I'm somewhere in the middle with covid in terms of overall fear or w/e but it gets tilting talking about it lol

That's all I got for now GL homies

Not really wanting to get into politics but America doesn't have a proper left. I'm from New Zealand and both our major parties would be far more to the left then either of americas.

That food poisoning sounds nasty. You have to be really really careful with seafood, that stuff can kill you. I definitely wouldn't buy old almost expired seafood ever. Glad your ok and congrats on the $530 BB shipment!

haha yeah i think most countries would be in similar boat. not saying what is right or wrong but i just mean people seem to attach to one side to the point they are so entrenched in that position that they refuse to see or hear arguments from the other side.

it wasn't expired or anything i'm pretty sure at least, just too undercooked haha.

yoyo

Health

Before the weekend was down ~7 lbs. or so. Had a bit of a punty weekend going out for breakfast, drinks with some friends, and a punty meal or two. Kicking off this week I'm down approx 4lbs. or so, should shed off the weekend damage pretty quickly. 2 weeks in now.

Started a challenge with friend of the thread and friend in general egption. His side of the bet is slightly different but on my end my goal is being -15 lbs. by December 20th. Anywhere from 1-5 lbs. short of my goal I give him 100$/lb., anywhere >5 lbs. short of my goal I'm giving him 250$ per lb. Shouldn't be too hard to obtain the goal if I stay with the process and I wouldn't doubt to see myself lose 20 lbs. but we will see. Will post updates here.

Poker

Every time I switch to the off peak schedule and buckle down I print money relatively consistently. Every time I play the day time dick swing schedule I get my ass handed to me it seems. The games are much tougher and heaps of runners making things much more volatile. I refuse to not fire hard on Sundays but I think sticking to the bread and butter schedule outside of Sundays is the way to go. Have a decent stack in the 2650 venom today for day 2...hopefully win a milly.

Peace

It's easier to control people when they have only 2 sides, you can use them to fight themselves, in finland the democratic scene is divided in this way:

17.7%
17.5%
17%
13.8%
11.5%
8.2%

https://www.politico.eu/europe-poll-of-polls/finland/


When the population is very educated, that's what happens, they're conscious about things and think, it's hard to control people who question. It's way easier to control those who think they have all the answers (and don't have enough knowledge to even question their own opinions).

Imo when there's only 2 sides it means that you're living in a low level of democracy:

that's interesting. i'm not really qualified to comment about politics and what not but i get what u mean it's a weird phenomena that people can't just look at things objectively and they tend to choose a side and look for supporting evidence to further entrench them in that position and to disqualify the other side. it is pretty absurd that out of a country of hundreds of millions, joe "sleepy" biden and donny trump are the best they can come up with as their leaders?