It's pretty wierd, I've been in the industry for so long and never had an account here. Just lurked a lot. This is a story a new, fresh, drastic restart, a huge reset..then Twoplustwo it seemed to me the right place where telling this new story.

I'm 28, italian, and I saw myself losing the way in the last years. What do you learn more by falling down at some point in your life is if u still have the chance to get up after the fall, then you're still alive and there's still a route to go.

There will be time in the future to go more in depth in my personal history but as brief introduction, I'd say that I started literally from zero and took me a lot of time building the possibility to play seriously, which I got in 2011. I was a pure MTT grinder in the segregated italian market,. I grew constantly in that period, getting some good results and I was a player well-knwon and respected in the italian community.

At the beginning of 2014 I moved in Liverpool to grind on international sites, the reward after a huge, strong work. The dream came true, in a sense. I was doing a pretty good job. in a very new context, great work ethic and lots of efforts to keep going on my path. A huge crush in my private life took me out of the way and since then the rolling down begins.

I was pretty confused, ensure, suddenly I lost the target and my confidence disappeared. At the end of 2015 then I decided two get back in Bologna to enroll in a two-year master and putting aside poker for a while. These last years have marked so intensly myself, through thick and thin, and my personal troubles didn't even allow me to start seriously again my poker career, even though it was a goal that I set at some point.

Maybe I'll go more in depth in the future if the case, but for now it's enough to say that at the end of this long journey, I lost pretty much everything. I lived these years so intensly and so many experiences, but so many damages too.
During last year I've been depressed quite a lot, and I'm not even sure if now I'm out of it or what, but for sure I reached such a low point that I decided to give my life a huge poker.

I still feel myself a poker player, I worked so hard throughout these years and I can't believe how things have falled down at some point.

So I decided to come back to my parents for a while. I love them, but my independence, both economic and personal, has always a cornerstone of my life. It's been pretty hard accepting that this step was necessary If I really wanted to start again my career, but I did it in the end.

So here I am, few years later, without a decent bankroll, in a very small town so far what I like and I'm used to for myself, with the master still to finish (almost done btw) and a huge goal to reach. Coming back to feel myself comfortable as poker player and at the same time in my personal life.

The climb will be hard and tough, but I dug so deeply that it's time to go back. This is going to be a blog about me, the poker player and the guy who tried, succeded, failed, struggled, but it's still alive.

Thanks in advance to anyone who will follow this few words of me.

I will make a deeper update soon, but for now I just wanna say that I'm playing on pokerstars.it and I decided to start back from the NL50 to climb the levels.

I started the 21th of June, and these are my first three weeks of intense playing



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