Chapter Twelven
Back To The Drawing Board, Half Glass Full, Self Fulfilling Prophecies, Placebo Effects.
OP did not succeed in his $16k goal LOL
The thing with OP is that he puts his heart into this but reality is not reciprocating a 1:1 return on energy spent.
So in order to compensate for this discrepancy between what reality is providing OP and what OP is investing, an empty glass shall now be seen as a full glass. Why is this? Random readers of this thread may feel this is delusional. And to a degree it is. But that's exactly what a self fulfilling prophecy and placebo effect does.
You see, I need to view the world as a religious person. When their house burns down due to a random fire and all but their Holy Bible survives the devil's outrage (even if half the bible is crisply singed, perhaps John 3:16 verse is still perfectly intact) - This religious person proclaims a miracle has occurred ... !
So now I will proclaim my own miracle. I exist. This is miracle enough for me. And because I exist, anything is possible. Simply existing allows many possibilities to occur. It is difficult to steer the ship of reality into the direction you would like. Sometimes your boat (bc let's be honest OP does not have money for a ship) simply gets flipped over to some crashing waves. It's our job to avoid the shark infested waters, the hot hot sun, the fair skinned siren mermaids. We must survive. Maybe the shark takes a bite of our thigh. It's all good. Maybe the mermaid sings you into a sleepy state where you sink to the bottom of the ocean. Well, there's always the next life. Maybe the hot hot sun makes you delirious and you start drinking salt water. **** happens.
You see how easy this is?
OP is going to grind 25NL with his own money until something better comes along, if something better comes along. And if it doesn't?
As Wesley Snipes famously said in "White Men Can't Jump", one of the most powerful one liners in all of cinema.
At the end of the day, delusional thinking and optimistic thinking do not draw hard lines between each other.
The grind is real...
Last edited by p0ker_n00b; 07-31-2020 at 03:05 AM.