There is a simple most common reason for the lack of updates :
Downswing:
Prolonged period of time of loosing in poker.
To be honest, I was not prepared for this one, and as always bad run have mixed with bad play as well. Still have not recovered mentally: it seems I want to tell everyone and no one at the same time.
Couple years ago I seemed to have hard time to grind during bad runs, now it seems easy to grind but impossible to win. Game got a bit more stable now, but variance continues to beat me.
Another mental issue I seem to discovered is loneliness. I was always happy to be on my own, but mixed bad run, unexpected financial burden and deteriorated game alter the mood quite a bit.
I have skipped meditation for a few days, ate a lot of sugar and started watching videos during last week.
However
Dollar-wise it is not that bad, I had worse swings before.
Continue to work on my game, continue healthy grind, limit expensive mistakes and I will come back, especially since NL100 players do so many horrific plays.