Interesting, I'll look into it more.


Beeks and Cole are so obvious tonight I'm considering fading both, probably at least Beeks, who the sharps are going to be all over. The problem is there really isn't a 3rd option much better than Mike ****ing Leake. Something like, use Cole when salary allows, mix in all the other turds (minus Stanek, who's only going a couple innings, lol Tampa) or just fade both Beeks and Cole 100%.

No risk it no biscuit


Also, Det stack in at least half my lu's...

I ended up going with this pitching mix:






Cole was just too easy to work in to fade completely.

Det scored 7 runs tonight, the most on the board, so I must have had a good night? Here's the top of the order (the guys I played the most):




What's that you say, they combined for 1 ****ing hit? Impossible!!


I had about the same results I would have expected if Beeks dominated:




11 losers in a row. I absolutely hate this ****ing **** right now.

This week was... Worse than last week, how? HOW!?!

-$4747 Mon thru Fri, 12 losers in a row, noice. took my first and second day off this season Sat and Sun. Many, many more to come

+$17,923 YTD. Looks like I'll be going underwater on this thing some time around 4th of July.


There's really no way to break this down w/o sounding like a whiny kunt, so I wont bother trying. One more week like this might be the sign I've been looking for.

Is there a chance that the rake is just so high that you are actually somewhere around your season long expectation with these +20k seasons? Sorry to hear about the rough swings, I imagine it's super tough and a mind ****.

It's possible, Yes. Maybe the -30% months are my actual win rate and the blips are GOOD luck.

The problem is I know some guys are winning big, at least I think they are, and I think I'm either almost as good, as good, or better. So, no one is really making money, I'm not nearly as good as I think I am, or I run bad.


If I knew for sure that this was as good as it gets I'd quit tonight. I've come to a decision on what percentage of my assets I'm willing to lose on this. That's the real bankroll and when it's done, I'm done.

Another 3 days, another 3K's.

Last 14 days played:

14 losers

-$12,296

I'm playing $1200-$1500 a day, so this is just complete disaster after disaster, every day.


Not to get all emo but my spirit is officially crushed. Is being furious all the time a good thing? I don't think even a big win can undo this. Gambled for a living most of the past 15 years, they finally broke me. No mas

Not gonna lie, my last few posts nail my mindset at the time pretty well. I was becoming more and more frustrated every day, could you tell? lol. I had a nice +$5K day a couple days after my last post and that got my spirits up and kept me going, but by the end of June I hadn't had another winning day, I had burned through that $5K and back into eating my BR up, K a day. I was thinking about quitting every single day all through June. Mid-April-May sucked, but June was a different beast altogether, just a soul crushing disaster.


I took Sun July 1st off, considered taking the week off (if not more). Then I decided to give it one last shot until the all star break. Two weeks, if it went poorly I'd save the last of what I was willing to lose of what I once called my bankroll for one last shot at football.


Mon turned things around a bit:




I've been chasing that MFing Rally all year. Finally! I wasn't really all over everything (as you can see by my few other cashes) just hit that magic outlier.

Tue felt like it could have been my year maker after looking at box's. I nailed my themes like never before. Ton of lu's up the money, but alas, no big outlier:






Still, I'll take it!


Wed dropped $750, but with a lot of cashes. This would have qualified as one of my better days in June. at least by cashing %


Thur wasn't a monster, +$1350. Mostly due to my vip freeroll cash, decent day on DK too (where I play a tiny amount, like $50-$200 a day)




Fri I had a big party to go to. I considered taking the day off and going early, but decided I could work, take a quick shower, and be there by 7 (CST) Made my lineups, went to party. The boxscores looked really good, really, really good. I kinda snickered at the idea I may have won the Rally again this week:






Boom! I can't believe it. I think I've mentioned trying for that $50K day that will lock in a decent year. Well this wasn't that but it was a $50K week and I'll take it! But wuz it?

I wasn't the least bit interested in playing the 4pm slate today, until I looked at the ****ty 4 game 7pm slate. So ok, I'll get up a little early and pull a "double" why not?

BIZ



OOM!!


I knew I won this mother ****er before I even checked results.


After Mon and Tue I was feeling pretty, pretty, pretty damned good. Making plans and allocating funds and whatnot. Now, I'm kinda reeling. This hasn't sunk in. I think this has probably been a life changing event, but I haven't thought it through enough to know


Oh what a difference a week makes...

Nice going man...bottle that **** up!

Wow! I've admired your humility and self-awareness through both the good times and bad. Very pleased for you; nice job!

very nice upswing!

Thanks guys, and yeah, you wont catch me complaining about variance or top heavy payouts again.

also, might as well end the week with a bang:




This is getting pretty unreal.


Most people would shoot for the stars. Imma be a nit and not go out of business the next time I get my skull cracked 100 straight days. That said, I might take a few shots from time to time.


eta- Oddly enough none of these were 4/4's. Mon and Fri's wins were actually 4/1/1/1/1's sat a 4/3/1 (pretty typical) and today was a 4/2/2


FWIW

Congrats!

But please keep on grinding and improving, maybe even more than before. Use the money for freedom and clarity of mind, and step up your game. This is for a lot of people a point where a lot of sht goes wrong.

Congrats, also.

I enjoy reading your blog, and am glad that you started winning again after your frustrating losing streak.

Nice to read that your hard work is paying off.

Congrats on your recent results! Great blog!

I dont know too much about DFS, I would like to ask you a couple of questions:

How are games today compared as with those 2-3 years ago? In a small stake gpp, what percentage of entrants would be regs and what percentage recreational? I read Ed Miller wrote it was something like 30-70 a couple years ago.

Thanks!

Life update from the road:

A week ago I had no plans to travel over the all star break, and if I did social media my relationship status would have been not interested. Fast forward to today and I'm 1500 miles from home and planning on asking a stripper to marry me tonight. What a world, man.


Update when I can. Also, yeah, this is gonna work out really well...

This might be what they mean when they say don’t let money change you. Not sure though. Hope you blink another soon. Best of luck if she is the one


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I don't think things are going to work out, lol. Long story short logistics alone makes it impossible. She's a great girl though and I'll probably ask her again next week!

I'm out of the loop and it feels so weird to be back home and ready to work as I'm still in island boy mode, but here we go. Ready to attack this second half leading up to a big shot at NFL. Binking the super rally for $50K tonight would snap me back to reality.



Things are tougher across the board, for sure. That said even after 2+ lackluster years I still felt that the kind of results I just experienced were possible. I know better than to get too big for my britches after so many smackdowns, but I'm finally in a position to just roll with it and not worry about $ at all. I think I can make some decent money over the next few years


No idea on the %'s but a lot of the regs are not good. You wont find near as many totally or even mostly hopeless lineups, but I see a lot of trash, some with names attached. I know people claim to be doing well at cash games, I'm skeptical in most cases, esp at volume.



Not bad

I'm drunk as **** and thinking about my lady friend, but I'm also thinking business. In the past couple of years whenever I was feeling particularly self-loathing I'd check out certain sections of this thread so I could really hate myself. The only reason I brought this thread back from the dead, yet again, was because I figured I'd go down in flames this year and it might be an interesting read.


Now, I just read the last few months and it feels great! I think it just sunk in that I've turned the corner. I'd like to say more, but I'm way too drunk

In the 3 weeks since posting my last result I've had 8 vacation days and 13 losers. So it seems the heat blew back out of town as quickly as it blew in. I've been playing very conservatively over this time, so the damage isn't too bad (-$7500). I've got some bullets loaded up but I need to see some signs of life before making any kind of move. My game feels a bit off ATM to be honest. Running good, running bad, doesn't matter, my head is usually in this 100%, and it just isn't right now.


I'll be back tho...

Posting a day early as I'm definitely taking tomorrow off. 6/6 this week puts me at 19 losers in a row, lol. Luckily I know I've been distracted so I haven't been putting in my normal volume, "only" -$11K. It's frustrating, no doubt, but I can't really complain as just a month ago I was in the middle of my best week ever. You'd think +$39K, -$25K, +$76K, -$11K would be all fun and games, but it's a pretty brutal way to end up at $80K, esp as the losing runs fill up most of the time. If I took the first week of July off (like I was seriously considering) I'd be having a sweet $3K year.


Speaking of time off, I need some. My head is all ****ed up and losing every day isn't helping. I'd love to just go camping or something but of course I stepped in a hole and scrambled my ankle to bits. I can barely walk, so that's out!


I really need to get my **** together by football. Right now I'm 0% prepared.



...On the bright side... I'll be in a better position heading into 2019 than I've ever been no matter how the rest of this year goes. And hey, maybe I can make something happen in the next 5 months.

Another ugly week where I get nothing right. 6/6 on losers again, and taking Sun off again as well. So in my last 35 days that's 25 losers and 10 days off for those keeping track. I took a couple shots (and by shots I mean simply playing my old, pre big week volume) but by mid-week I've been scaling back, olny played around $650 the last 2 nights, and still managed to lose $400 and $500. Still, only -$14K from my peak. I was just starting to get a little annoyed last night until I started thinking about that next downswing eraser. Sooner the better but it's out there. Or, maybe I continue to run like total **** for a while, **** it!


The ankle is finally getting better after hoping around for a week.


I entered some NFL wk 1 contests on FD, but I still haven't done any research.... definitely behind

Lost Mon, Tue, Wed.. $1400, no biggie, but 28 losers in a row is a bit ****ing much! Couldn't even think of playing today (thur) Sat I'm going to a party and I'm done with MLB Sundays until April, so maybe I work Fri or maybe I don't (probably will). This streak has got to end sometime, in the meantime I'll just ride it out. That's not why I'm posting though.


Things aren't really working out with my island friend. I'm trying, she's not. I sent her a breakup text tonight, but it's probably more of an affirmation of my undying love (what a moron). I try not to have ego, but I don't really want this girl or mutual friends to think I'm a pathetic loser, but still, I fired this text off anyway.

"Hey XXXX, I can see now what a fool I've been, such a cliche. But I gotta tell you, my heart was in the right place. You're an amazing woman and I think the world of you. I'd make an ass of myself again and again, for you... I'm backing way off now. If you ever want to talk I'll be around."


I probably should have subbed this out to one of the many better writers on 2+2, but that's my sloppy, mostly out of context ending. I'm looking for feedback, lurkers welcome. I think it's a little over-dramatic, but I'm leaving it all out on the field and I think it gets the point across.


Also, I've been failing miserably at trying to drink and smoke this girl out of my head, so maybe this post is weird, I just don't really give a ****!

General rule of thumb, a text like that is never going to accomplish what you are hoping it to do. And will likely just make things worse. Better to just move on and not try to throw a hail mary trying to get her to care. I don't really remember what the situation was with this girl if you talked about her in the thread. Was it a long distance thing? It's cliche but there literally are millions of girls out there, if she's not putting any effort in just move on and find someone who will.

You nailed it, mostly. If she ignores or ends it I accomplished "knowing"

If that lame **** got to her at all, we'll try again.

The harsh reality of it is that if she cared she already would have shown it in her actions long before it coming to you sending that text. If by some miracle that text does something it will only be temporary. It will be easiest to get over her if you just completely cut contact, block her on all social media/text, and when you're ready start dating again and find someone who shows they care about maintaining a relationship with you. gl man.