Think this may of been dumbest poker session of my whole life, shotting 2K NL. Lost bi after bi after bi after bi, think -15evbi in one hu session. Just lost big % of past 2 week winnings in just 1.2k hands. Think im gonna stop trying to "make it", and just make variance free money at 100-500NL hu.
This feeling I got right now, theres no words for it just feeling sick to my stomach and wanna quit poker pretty much.
Its been almost 1 year now since I started playing poker fulltime with 3k euro to my name and being massive donk at 50NL, 11 months later I got now +100k euro to my name (And still being a massive donk). So If u look the bigger picture things could of gone worse for sure ;D Starting fulltime with 4k rolls and 0 poker knowledge in general often doesnt lead to having +100k€ to your name 11 months later I would assume. And I dont think it was worth it at all currently, grinding 9h a day for 1 year and just making 100k. And pretty much dropping all social life etc, Just simply doesnt feel worth it at all. Yeah sure some some1 else could of made more in this 1 year, but I think I made close to the maximum I personally could.
But I think Im gonna stop trying to "make it" if it makes me feel this bad when I lose chunk of my rolls shotting bigger game. Anyways, I did one week self bann on stars because, I just cant go instantly grind smaller with good motivation. Not on mood to post any hands.
All games (HU and 6max) since started fulltime grind with 4k to my name (11 Months), 120k rake paid (~35-40k RB I think)
HU only in BB (All stakes)
6Max only in BB (All stakes)
Last edited by spewmonk3y; 09-07-2016 at 09:41 PM.