ok cut a story short i made a deposit planning to grind omaha texas both kind of but ended up tilting it off in end or most of it left wit tenth of it almost exactly but in dollars $26 -£260 was playing 50nl, 25nl 20nl and pot limit omaha oh and little blackjack thrown in which was £70 went to roughy.

anyway ive fallen out of love with poker i think need to regain it cause omaha i play well but never rolled texas i used to play well again never very well rolled but werent much of issue in past still ran up rolls for the $50 games alright enough, either games were softer or i tilted in more controlled way (i know games do play different to couple years ago so strat different to beat them) but who knows either way i tilt way too much at texas and almost feel impatient angry before i even bother playing texas nowadays, omaha i dont have that issue my issue there is purely bankroll management i think cause theres nutjobs at all the stakes so there is edge to be had even if not very good at omaha and nut peddle play a highly exploitable game.

this threads lasting 17days exactly as then im done not bothering using account no more i just want to see if i can recoup my losses in that time period maybe more hopefully ill be starting at the 2nl regular cash tables and no omaha i dont think swings to big and no zoom like poker for one simple reason i tilt loads at it im just bad at it basically it drives me barmy playing it.
so $26 and 17days let the journey back to a bankroll begin lol i dont know what my bankroll management will be yet ill figuire it out as i go 20buyins just sounds long though might just skim it to 15buyins.
need to refind my love for texas again though thats the real issue ive bored of it so leaves me impatient and prone to tilting far too much and not very focused.
theres no huds so no graph updates soz just screenshots and sh*t

I’ve tilted off about 10-15 bankrolls in my lifetime. Luckily none were bigger than $600. Took that many to learn to play within my bankroll limitations and to shut down the laptop when I am tilting. Then I learned to deal with tilt and continue to play. Now I find myself making friends with people that are responsible for the bad beats if they happen to be chatty.

Was a lot of work to get there but now I realize it’s just a game. I’m gonna win sometimes and lose sometimes. I’m gonna lose when I think I’m gonna win. It’s what I signed up for.

Hey man, its refreshing to hear people be honest and open about these things... What changed for you or how did you manage to get tona position like that?

thanks for sharing your words man, kinda much needed appreciate it.

well i moved it the tiny bit of money got to pokerstars so graphs are gonna used for this very short challenge, id need miracle i think to recoup the £260 in before the 9th but ill try my best, gonna play as much as can muster basically a poker marathon of sorts this fortnight
day 1/night/evening https://imgur.com/a/q72OSJO

game slipped at the end just unnecessary half stack spews actually were a few count about 3-4 ish mentally and one whole stack spew beginning of session decided to call it night, basically hit a urgh im done im bored point and thought i keep playing im gonna be prone to dumb **** or even tilting lot off at some point plus its late anyway could of stopped half hr earlier avoided the spew at end oh well

yesterday i spewed bit but it was close situations tonight more not really close situations happened and i made more consistent genuine mistakes, bluff even though technically good bluffs someone that is not folding if got any piece river even if its bottom pair to a 4 straight or flush or paired board just dumb nonsense like that and repeatedly to same dude so he owned me outplayed me in a sense in those pots got some nice hands this evening though run of premiums pre aces few times which is rare qqs etc and they mostly one another cooler vs kings like night before but completely not conversation worthy boring spots ha.

https://imgur.com/a/aiHnqnf

got to up the amount of hrs i get in otherwise there is just no chance i get that £260 in the allotted time im beginning to wonder if my goal challenge is realistic at all honestly ive underestimated it, but equally i have to wanna play enjoy it to play my game well otherwise ill be bored more prone to tilt or dumb **** or high variance **** plays in unnecessary spots (trying create force the action out of boredom impatience)
anyway enjoyed the game for 50minutes half hr was a drag then last half hr was just bored, if i played omaha this boredom wouldnt come on i can play that without getting bored its just more fun (but equally my risk of ruin busting be stupid high, particularly with my style of game).

ill try make up for lack of volume hrs friday sat sundays, should of played more this sunday just weren't in mood till stupid late at night so its not even prime time to play cause most folk have jobs with early starts not late so sunday night theyd be heading bed earlyish relative to friday saturdays well most of population

There are a lot of good material on tilt control out there. You can't find the love for a game. You either do or don't. The $ shouldn't matter.