saw you at the tables today so thought i'd check back in on this thread haha

good to see you're crushing

hey,

first of all, thnx guys who have been following in october.
As always, I stopped updating, due to lack of motivation and the lack of really making it a habit, I just cant seem to get myself to do it sometimes.

After playing a HORRENDOUS session yesterday (even tho it was a profitable one, i dont remember when was the last time i spewed as much as i did yesterday), I realized I played my first 100k hands at 200nl, so wanted to just come back here and post the graph, cuz im really happy with the results so far.



Fwiw Im updating my journal daily with all the goals/struggles/feelings/ToDOs/etc.. and I will probably be doing the same here, just not as frequently (meaning not daily).

Hope everyone is having a good start to 2017. See yall later.

Fu update daily for once !!!!!!!!!!

Ill try, its just after a long day of grinding the last thing I want to do is start writing up a session review, maybe I should do it every morning *question mark* *question mark* as my favourite streamer would say.

But I will definitely try to make it a habit.

Jokes us on us tho when Craibaby hits the big time like Fedor

Havent seem him at the tables for a while, did he switch over to timbeys?

He still be round the streets every now and then talking smack

Hey guys,

at first I didnt really want to post such a huge update, but it ended up being a little tldr, so w/e. I will be updating every day more or less, the odd day I wont update will be the ones I will be away from my computer.

A huge positive thing I did lately was quitting smoking (cold turkey after 12 years, its my 14th day now and I feel better than I ever expected I would, never thought its going make such a huge difference, although I still crave a cig from time to time, the cravings are almost negligible at this point in time). If anyone needs help or pointers feel free to PM me.

Poker is going fine, results are still pretty good, running at 5+bb/100 over the last 300k hands, so cant really complain, but Im still making a lot of mistakes, so Im just focused on getting better.

The one thing Ive been really struggling with is my mental game/health. Ive been seeing a psychiatrist because I started having anxiety attacks (not really attacks, just a really intense anxious feeling, but nothing like I couldnt breathe or anything), which originated in my beaing fearful/nervous about my future whether it be poker or just life in general.

I mentioned it somewhere in my previous threads or maybe even this one, Im still being staked, never saved any money and it slowly but surely started dawning on me + the fact that pokerstars is not gonna be easier to grind on in the upcoming months/years didnt help as well and I figured If I want to stay sane I need someone to talk to/attend therapy (cant really afford 300usd/hr by poker psychologists like elliott roe etc..).

My goals for now is to grind/get better at poker, I still enjoy/love grinding, both cash and tournies, Im just sad about where the whole industry is heading. I will also try to start saving money, I have to pay back some, but if i make a few more buyins this month I will be free of debt which would lift a huuuuge burden off my shoulders.

Reason why I want to start updating every day is because It helps me so much to write everything down, and when I feel Im not alone on this journey its so much easier to cope with the lows of being a poker player.

GL all, will leave you with a graph of this year, been playing 75% 200nl, rest 100.

Definitely in!

Very nice graph and start to the year , seen you at the tables a bit, gl!

nice results

but only 90k hands this year???

will be following gl, how do you study your game off table?

Fkn finally some regular updates u slacker

Vamoooooo

Tyty, yeah remember some hands vs you, gl in your journey as well

Yeah, Ive been struggling with volume a lot (one of the reasons I decided to see a shrink is my inability to concentrate and my spirals between productivity and burn out which were really frequent, like in a matter of 7-10 days I could go from super motivated to burnt out and back to productive)

tyty, PT4 and vids

Leggoooooo, every time I update my thread and see you commenting I think to myself... God, were getting old Gl to you my friend as well. Youre living in Vienna still?

Anyways went to see my GF on tuesday, heres the last 2 days:



Yesterday was one of those days where I went on an 8 BI heater and hit a brick fkn wall and everything went to ****, but didnt punt many stacks off which im happy about..

Mostly got coolered left and right and I honestly dont remember the last time thats happened to me which must be a sign i kept running well for a loooong looong time.

Dont matter, time to get back to grinding

(Btw for anyone looking to improve their accountability I downloaded a chrome extension called Momentum and Im loving it)

updates?

OP is in jail atm; won't be coming out until end of summer

got out a little earlier, my pal moved up to 500 and had the money to bail me out without having to move down, thnx Elski

dropping in to say im gonna update tomorrow around noon cet, im just pushing it in front of me day by day and cant get myself to write a propper update, so im commiting for real this time

Hey guys,

Soooo here we go with a little update.
Dont really know where to start.

Last time I mentioned that I quit smoking, im really proud of it, its been 3 months and have no cravings whatsoever, sometimes when im too drunk and everybody around me is smoking, but other than that I dont even think about it. To anybody whos trying to stop, buy Easyway to stop smoking by Allen Carr, cant recommend it enough.

I also got rid of all my RL debts. I was struggling with them for the past 2-3 years (dont wanna go into details), but I have to say they were holding me back emotionally, poker-wise, basically in every part of my life.
All in all you can imagine it wasnt a very pleasant period of my life for me, I somehow got used to the struggle, although at the start of the year when I was doing ok I started seeing a psychiatrist just to stay on the path and maybe help me improve my concentration/producitvity while staying sane having no savings while making decent amount of money playing.

Last week was my last appointment as most of my symptoms disappeared after I payed back the last euro I owed and I finally have some of my own money in the bank, which, I cant even describe how big of a relief that is.
Certainly learned a lesson and will never ever be so dumb with spending/money management as I was up until this point in my life.

Poker. Yup, been doing pretty good. Although my volume could be better, the lack of it stems from me needing the money so after I was upswinging I was just waiting until the end of the month for the profit split w my backer to be able to pay back the money I owed.
I hope thats over now. Im still going to feel pressure when im winning, but Im certainly gonna play with more ease.

When it comes to technical side of my game, I feel pretty confident atm. Been working a bit with Daniel Dvoress (shout out to my man Oxota), and he fits exactly where I needed him to (dont know if my wording is correct here). What I mean by that is that most of the time I knew where I made mistakes but I was sure I was leaking somewhere/could be playing spots differently, have a more clear cut map of my strategies for certain spots and he pinpoints the mistake and also explains things abundantly clear so that I know how to proceed to make better adjustments next time for similar situations.

Some graphs and goals.

YTD:



Im happy with my wr, and happy with this as well.

Been also battling a bit at the masters tables which also went pretty well so im hoping to bink a nice reward there as well.
Dont know what to add, oh yeah, goals for may.

[ ] 200 hours
[ ] 100k hands


I was waiting for may to put some serious volume in, my backer might let me play some 400nl which im excited about, and now that I feel 5x less pressure than before hopefully I can beast through these goals. Also started using MCT oil, modafinil/armo from time to time when I need a little push which works amazingly well.
If you have any Qs wrt nootropics feel free to ask.

Thats about it. A little tldr again, but will try to update more often. Again

Glgl and see you at the tables.

Edit: [ ] Beast SCOOP mother****ers WUBBA LUBBA DUB DUUUUB

Almost forgot to give a shout out to my boy Princess Elsa aka hamsa necklace aka pretty boy z500 aka zoom monster aka steady as she goes for studying the **** out of poker with me and helping me all around for the past year or so, thanks buddy, really appreciate it.

Subbed

Balling out of control here. Couldn't let you stay and rot in the pit when you're already wanted by all 200z regs lol.

All day, everyday

vamooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fkn finally u updated

regular from now one WAN FAKEN TAIIIIIIING

Congratulations man!

Subbed.
Keep on crushing!
GL

tytyty guys

Hey guys, nope not regularly blakk unfortunately

Im here for the coaching tho!
http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/16...stars-1676021/

A little update:

Last time I updated here was just before SCOOP, i was pumped, ready rock and roll.

I did rock but unfortunately dint roll Or however you want to say that I didnt bink anything Had a few deep runs, made a really fun series out of it, cuz me and my friend were sweating each other every day, but at the end not much came out of it. I can say tho that I really enjoyed poker and grinding the whole time, played like 13-14 hour days 15 out of the 16 days that scoop was on

After that I exhausted AF to say the least so needed a break and then learned that poker in slovakia is probably getting banned :/ So right now im just waiting for whats to come aaaand decided to start coaching in the meantime. Anybody whos been following and needs any help, Im confident Ican do that, but after Im back on the grind i wont be available for any hours so yeah..

Hope youre all good and crushing, all updates and graphs are in this thread

http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/16...stars-1676021/

Cya