Hey guys I've been pretty busy the past few weeks, had my 30th last weekend and some other rl **** on as well as putting in a fair chunk of study/play/coaching and workouts too.
Mostly the theme for past 2 weeks has been about
building character.... I've been running really bad, which I handled pretty well for the first 20-25 buy ins or so (super happy about that) but the last 10-15 have been pretty grating to say the least, to the point where i feel like emailing the devs and telling them their app is cooked.
I'm not feeling super stressed about it, just some standard downswing blues ha!
Kinda cuts a bit deeper knowing how insanely soft the games are and running just absolute bottom 5% or w/e.
Put in a tonne of sweats/review the past week or so with a bunch of different guys playing 1k+ and yeah defs making some small'ish mistakes but nothing absolutely out of line so I'm happy about that at least.
I've defs played in a heap of really fishy/suspicious spots and coupled with running so bad it definitely feels like I'm being cheated on some level haha ****!
Had a couple long conversations with guys crushing in the same club about collusion and we all agreed that its probably happening on some level but the guys that are doing it are that bad that's still +ev.
Something else worth talking about is my standard deviation has shot up from around 100 to 135, mostly from buying in 150-200bb deep and then playing with 2-3 whales.... so I guess the bigger downswings come with the territory.
Mate just linked me this song and said to cheer up about the downswing, somehow makes me feel super melancholy and insanely motivated at the same time haha wtf
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yyDKtXefliI
Some real positives I think are worth thinking about are how much room these downswings open up for personal development, no matter how talented you are at Poker it can and will chew you up and spit you out at some point/s or another.
But if you pick yourself up, tell yourself it's OKAY to make mistakes and you tried your best, believe in the process, be humble and PUT IN THE WORK.
Then its only a matter of time before you're/I'am back to
Moving up.