This first post will be lengthy, hang with me!
My goal is to make poker a nice side job that will help pay for some of the luxuries me and my family want in life. With that being said.......
I am a 30 year old business owner/father/husband with a very understanding wife. I am not an alcoholic, I do not have any addictions. I could literally walk away from poker today and continue living my life just fine with just a tad less money.
I have played poker for about 8 years (maybe playing once a month at most), 7 of which I was hands down a losing player. I started taking the game more seriously around May 2017. I started winning more and in turn playing more. I started tracking EVERY session I played the first of Oct 2017. I went on the variance roller coaster from Oct-May. I would have 4-5 good sessions then 2 BAD ones, then 3-4 good, so on and so forth. I have always had an issue with tilt and discipline but was still profitable.
I started hosting a game mid 2017 which is most of where I played. I would rarely get to the casino but when I did, I normally did well "mostly due to rungood". I would randomly try shots at online only to run it up, and lose it all , run it up and cash out part of it then bust. I quit online after a few tries.
A couple of months passed and I figured I would take another shot at online because it is so easily accessible. Similar story, different day. I was very swingy with a 48% vpip / 7% pfr / 1% 3b / 58% cb / 44%w$sd but was still able to somehow squeak some profit. I continued running into a player that was destroying me every time we played. I reached out to him and we have since become friends.
He has helped me mold my game to 20% vpip / 13% pfr / 3% 3b / 40% cb / 57% w$sd. I know the numbers still need work, I am working on them
. But, I had still been running into discipline/spew issues. After an extremely spewey weekend, he recommended I read a book called "Peak poker performance" by Dr. Tricia Cardner. I can not explain how much this book has helped my game and my daily life.
I immediately started implementing some of the things in the book and it is really changing how I look at poker, and life in general. It made me realize how truly important the mental game is in poker without even considering theory or strategy. It also made me realize how terribly disciplined I was in a lot of aspects of my life and game. Some of the habits I had let myself fall into were just absolutely terrible for physical and mental health all together.
The reason I say that poker will change my life is not due to money or anything monetary. It is more about the mindset path that poker has put me on, and had it not been for poker, I probably never would have been the wiser.
I plan to use this thread as a tool to help me reset my mind when I need to get away from the table, to post hands in, update my poker/life path, and be held accountable. I hope you guys don't mind that!
Cliff notes: 696 hours of play, and 1 year into my "actual" poker life after some roller coaster play, discipline issues, run good and run bad, I have built my roll to $9000. I got some coaching and read a book called "Peak poker performance" by Dr. Tricia Cardner and it is really helping with bad habits and discipline issues.