hey, see above I'm at 62 kg or so, so some progress but still a really small frame. Probably in the future I will work on this more, but would like to work on poker more first and foremost.

i think you could still make some serious progress if you just went 1hr 3x a week and just done compound lifts?

I'm sad to say, not sure what it is but mentally I feel much weaker even in any sort of some sort of intense lift. I thought it'd eventually subside but it never did, I tried training 3x and cutting the amount of it but really it was just too much for me to stay sharp while playing the tables.

might be diet related if that happens also sometimes i feel so drained after i go so i usually go late in evening.

u simply don't eat enough.

Yeah, my friends told me that would be the solution in order to do it. To be frank gym is a lot of work still, setting diets eating a set amount of meals and organizing your time correctly. Although I'm sure no one likes doing it and does it anyway, I simply couldn't organize it well enough for me to put in enough time into poker.

Definitely not true, at that time I was eating 4x chicken and rice, 1x banana and oat shake, 2x protein shakes. It was more then enough, I had to stay up at night extra 1 hour or 2 to finish my last meal.

I just don't have a great system to handle those things. It's just reality and I'm ok with that, it would be extra work for me probably to achieve a great body and currently I don't have that motivation/ don't believe its possible for me to do two things at the same time well. I don't know many people who can just beat the perfect amount of hours into each and just crush in both areas outside of Lefort, what a beast. I am aiming for stupid goals next year and can't see myself investing time in perfecting this art of balancing / staying mentally focused.

well there's your problem. banana? 2x protein shakes? u realize that adds up to about only 350 calories. a raw 4oz chicken breast is about 110 cals, and once that's cooked it goes down. and you have to eat at a surplus constantly. you probably gave up after like a month of eating at what you thought was a lot, when really you probably were eating at maintenance or a slight deficit.

and what do you mean extra work to achieve a great body? all u need is an hour a day 3-4x/week in the gym.

aren't you a poker player? u can't dedicate a hour to the gym?

i started going to the gym and eating right not only was i more focused but i was happier less prone to tilt and i just felt really good all the time once you start good habits the rest is easy.

If you don't thoroughly enjoy going to the gym to lift it can be quite mentally draining and time consuming, especially if you have a decent drive to your gym.

Plus, worrying about your meals and eating so any meals per day also takes out a good amount of mental energy.

I bought a pullup bar for my doorway and I do everything at home now.. takes about 30-45 mins 3-4x a week.

Pullups
(Psuedo)Planche pushups
Handstand pushups against a wall
Tricep pushups
Curls using a backpack as a dumbbell
Lateral raises using backpack as a dumbbell

etc

I feel depressed if I don't keep up with my fitness somewhat, but I also feel too worn out and mentally exhausted when I go to the gym and do intense lifting, so this is my happy medium.

My equipment is only pushup handles ($10), my backpack that I put whatever I want in for weight (containers of football cards and old bottles of booze), and the pullup bar in my doorway ($30).

I do a light day with high reps (everything is bodyweight).

Then I do a heavy day where I just wear the backpack while I do pullups and pushups.

I just try to increase my total rep count on each exercise from week to week.

As for diet, I eat very healthy and right around my maintenance calories. My #1 goal with diet is to feel good mentally, and I feel my best on about 2300-2400 calories and lowish carbs.

^LOL routine

I used to be a very serious lifter so I know where you're coming from

I just can't bring myself to go to the gym and do monotonous reps for hours anymore like I did in college.

he said he wanted to be a meathead not lean

ahh true yes... not gonna be a meathead doing what I described

Also not true, I was eating close to 4k calories a month, I had a personal trainer and he was counting my exact calorie amount, I more or less could have missed a few things. I did not give up after a month I continued for over 6 months and it was just too much for me.

@Welsh: I'm honestly not entirely sure why this did not manifest for me, everyone tells me simple habits routine then you will fall in love with it and it will not be easy, but easier I never did, why I don't know why.

@Jake: yes, that is roughly how I felt it got to me mentally and whenever I stepped into the big games I just felt too exhausted to focus at 100%.

Number1Hater, this may come across as rude, but play some of the best players in the world and go to the gym and see if your focus is off. Even a slight difference in focus is just magnificiently damaging to your winrate.

Everyone is a pro specifically and seems to know what to do for everything now a days and if I can't match up to your idealistic point of view of what is possible then its just because I'm bull****ting myself and didn't try hard enough. Trust me I tried it I went through it, but to mix poker at an elite level and training gym multiple times a week was not for me. Again I repeat, name one elite player who is able to knock out 100s of hours+ go to the gym outside of Lefort? I can't name one.

Now.. Imagine what I'm doing I'm going to pump in 300+ hours a month every single month, and if that is my goal I'm looking to manifest I just would not be able to balance myself and do gym. I certainly cannot name 1 who will be able to do that... Forhayley? During his times I can't imagine him doing those hours and be like 'oh **** I still can do an hour of gym' I look for the day I am proven wrong here and I am certain that person would be a different breed.

Anyway enough with this topic, lets go back to talking about poker. I have had 0 game selection for the last 120k hands maybe, I fixed a lot of my leaks and its looking promising. Still I am having a few leaks that I am certainly aware of its mainly doing long hours at high performance while playing everyone. Sure I'm not super human, sure most people can't do it, but this is something I certainly believe in I work a lot on these to spot the potential flaws and I see endless possibilities here I am going to be one of the only breeds who will be able to do long endurance in this current format against the elites of other HUNL players. In term of edges, I think the time is right to say I am #1 **** it. Whose the best poker player who plays up to 1kNL? Me,me,me,me, me and me who did I leave out?

Guess I rated myself #1 too soon.

Haha, I got quite a spanking and a lot of people took shots on me. Dropped like 40 BI's :P.

I'll do it again sometime the emotional rollercoaster just really can break me sometimes, my spirit feels quite damaged atm... Which means... I guess I wasn't working hard enough. I sometimes wonder why I don't get it, if I'm not smart enough to crush at big winrates like the likes of WCG, Jungle, Otb, Ike etc. Maybe I'm not as smart as they are, but I am certain I work just as hard as they do... or so I hope I do, when I talk to my peers I just feel so bad and somewhat jealous that they work so much less then me and are so much more talented then I am. I guess success doesn't come easy for everyone, certainly not for me..

Back to the ol' grind... try again next time.

So I ended up losing around 50 BI's total:
http://imgur.com/a/s6CiE#U9duEz5

I started to wonder if I was doing the right thing, wondering if I wanted this really bad to be one of the best or should I set it aside and move on. My heart ached at the pain of the hours I put in only to realize it wasn't enough. I was never good enough for this game to make it. The months where I spent weeks sitting and fiddling with ideas, the blood sweat and tears I put in, my mind felt defeated, my soul tainted all this effort for nothing. I went out, had a few drinks and my heart and mind still stated I wanted this, I had this feeling where it had to be done... I clearly didn't pay my dues then. Work harder, study more, and think more while playing be more effective during the hours I put in at the tables. I started realizing there is something in my mind that just blanks out while playing occasionally, yesterday I started playing and picking up a few new things I was missing, it should always be like this a continual improvement ladder.

I started this new rule, anytime I lose whether or not it was because of variance I must study. I ****ing hate losing, that sinking feeling in my stomach to drop 50 buy ins just was so ****ing brutal. **** all yall at the tables, I'ma kill you you will be the one moving down stakes, you will be the one who will face defeat. I'm #1.

I think ull do fine man.

dont put so much pressure to be the best. do your best, study as much as you can and results will follow

gl

Shouldn't you be eating like 2.5k calories per DAY??

I play HUNL to be the best and make money if I am not going for #1 there is no point in doing it. I do plan on mixing formats in the future afterwards because I want to crush the entire poker world. I just need to pay my dues.

In short: Compare the end bosses of every format, HUNL, 6max, MTT, spins etc. HUNL will certainly not be as lucrative as 6max, and possibly MTTs.


downswing in poker battled the world of 400/600 and ... recovered, another tough mission completed. I hated the agony, but to see the light at the end of the tunnel made me smile. Poker never came easy for me since I've moved to having 0 game selection. Unfortunately, I downswing in life, I broke my back nearly by playing too long in an uncomfortable sitting, so can't be playing much as soon as my back is healed, I will fix my chair-game a bit temporarily as I anxiously wait for my new shipment of my new permanent chair to come.

We gonna do it again pain or glory I'm ready to see what develops let the cards fall where they may I prepared and feel much better this time around to crush the entire world... lets go, ready to play anyone at 1k again... try bringing me down again this time ****ers.

I'm #1.

I was and am a fraud.

A liar, a guy who appeared and painted an image of greatness only for it to be a complete mirage I'm currently not a person able to live up to expectations that I painted for myself. I dream of the days where I can automate myself and train the mind to play 80-100 hour work weeks. Its just a total mirage right now and I only am averaging like 55 hours a week. More then I ever did in my previous years, but it's still certainly not enough for greatness... I hope I won't be such a disappointment for myself next month... 80-100/hr a week, study harder, work smarter starting now...

i agree with the working smarter alot of poker players could take this advice and im no exception. i just think youre too hard on yourself and probably play too much and need other things going on in your life but poker still being the main priority...

im very similar to you so i know kinda what your going through i play similar number of hrs but i dont study i dont need to anymore and i always play better when i break it all up.

I thought about this for a while I don't see a point of balancing other things, I'm doing just fine with poker as my primary focus as I continually improve it takes much less energy in order to beat anyone who I use to consider tough and draining mentally. The population continues and will continue to get softer each day as I diverge and differentiate myself in skill level... that can only happen if I continue to double the amount I do in order to do something that almost no one else in the world is willing to sacrifice (going out, being in some sort of club, taking time to do x activity etc). That will be the only possible way to make a tough population soft.

Not only this, I am somewhat 'balancing' my life on other things, to be honest most of it is purely for selfish needs at the moment in order to feel some sort of future significance in the world. I don't feel as if I am high value to many people in society if any, and I'm looking to build some skills up in order to be versatile so I can be of value by reading (a book a month maybe would be ideal with my busy schedule) more about people I look up to personally, getting into investing, and possibly other things when I can start juggling more activities... Until then this will be enough.

you say you study alot what do you actually do to study efficiently ive probably reviewed 100 hands in last 8 months or something.

Review lots of hands, think about spots try to be creative in similiar positions over and over again to reevaluate if my sizing was correct. Reevaluate players, work on my mental game frequently (I use to be a pretty big tilter at some point and it was very harmful for me).

I actually never said I study a lot though, I made a rule this month to study whenever I had a losing day, and that's it.

I'm ready for what's next.


I did really well this month, but was due to a few components luck was certainly one of them, and I certainly feel that I didn't push hard enough this month as I should have, but lots of life obligations and back was damaged from playing too much in a bad sitting really hindered me for a bit... Also starting this month being down a decent amount when I was previously down a ton the previous month was also demoralizing to step into the tables for a while too. Still I broke through the challenge and started this new rule to study anytime I lost.

Lets just say... I haven't studied because I lost, but because I wanted to. Haven't lost for 3+ weeks... so sick. Did like 47k hands only, which I guess is good for most people for HU standards, but not ok for my standards. To be fair I also had to take 3 days off because I had to do some visa run (in actuality I mis-played a few hours and should have bought a plane instead of taking a bus ride), still.. there is always room for more improvement and more I could be doing!!!!!!!

Next... I will be mixing formats, I been playing HUPLO a bit, probably up 10k or something there so far so its going at least ok, people have been reverse bumhunting me lately which kind of annoys me, but its part of the game considering im a fish there and only play whales as thats the only way I can win. I will start squeezing in time for that in the future probably to master that craft, but I will focus on 6max next, then MTT's then HUPLO probably will be the priorities.

I'm out here... still. I'm ready to play anyone up to 1khunl post up donkeys.