Try green tea, it works for me. (don't add sugar or anything else to it)
Looks like below buy get the larger size
http://www.walmart.com/ip/Thermos-St...roduct+Reviews

Find a green tea you like, don't buy the cheapest, below is what we have at work, so I buy the same for home.
http://www.walmart.com/ip/Bigelow-Gr...-of-6/17195119

Buy a large thermos(40oz) at walmart by camping/outdoors items.
Boild water before grind and have it next to you while you play.
Drink 5 cups of green tea a day one every 2 hours works for me.
If you don't like it really hot you can wait for it to cool off(10~20min)

Don't wait to drink it when you feel you need it, just do it and try it out, let us know how it works.

in b4 heads up with Ivey.. gl man

Yo when are we going to have our match?

whoa huge thanks for this I'm going to definitely check this out on monday when I go to walmart and try to buy green tea. Its very far away and I been there multiple times already this week going to wait for my free day to do this . Its not really waking up thats the problem its more continuing through out the day, I normally have a huge headache and just say **** it and go back to sleep. I hate my mentality for that too but I still continually do it (even today) :/

I will definitely let u know how it works

hahah thx. Don't think I ever want to play phil ivey HU would be too intimidated to be honest. ;(

Damn I don't know. i'm barely starting to turn this month around I wanted to do it earlier but I was getting owned soooo hard.

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I was down 3K for today and it was rather fast at how big of a rate I was losing it at, managed to turn it around though and turned it into a positive day.

Can i get into the hu matches list? How exited are you from the upcoming stars lobby change?

Lol, I'm going to have to decline I only want to play Imfromsweden, I don't want this to be a continuous thread where people will continue to ask me as its rather inconvenient sometimes imo.. I only want to play imfromsweden cause I loved his thread from way back when before I even started playing cash games. To be honest he's probably even better then me, but its more for fun and a learning experience rather then doing it for the hourly which is why I don't know when I'm going to schedule it with him. ehh.. i'm whatever really for the pokerstars lobby change seriously no comment for it haha.
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Heres my graph for today, it was insanely hot today over here in mexico. So weird how it hasn't been hot at all until like maybe 2 days ago when summer is coming to an end lol!



It's the end of the month, this was my toughest month I went through my biggest downswing roughly ~15k I think the biggest one I ever had before that was maybe 5-6k lol, I managed to over come it recently through these last few days. I'm fairly happy that I played most of the time and only stop lossed / stayed away from poker not so often. Hopefully big things will happen in September and maybe I can play more hours, I am not entirely sure yet.. I think I just want to take it one week at a time and reevaluate the situation for what it is. Which is what I felt like I did good in august, I did specific action plans just to cope with this even dropping to 100NL just to regain confidence to recoop some losses lol.

yearly graph in $ and bb/100?

Great job!!!

Where are you staying in Mexico?
I have some plans to go to Playa del Carmen very soon.


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dudeee I love your attitude, but remember your roots. 16k month. be grateful

hu 4 rollz?

This is actually the better representation of my stats (this is not including augusts month), my hands deleted and not all hands were able to get restored which is very unfortunate

Rosarito, yeah I was thinking about going to that area but ended up going here. Its pretty cool over here, except internet is kinda bull**** sometimes, (I kind of want to leave a bit earlier as I've gotten everything I've wanted from here and learned and experienced everything I needed to experience around here). I decided to stick it through and not get into the habit of continually moving every 6 months or so (I'm already on month 6 and 2 weeks over here).

Thanks man.. It took some blow ups, tons of mistakes such as even getting robbed over here In mexico to progress as a person / having a psycho roommate who wouldn't pay rent / leave the house or do anything except freeroll me. Things like this really helped me progress and not get pushed over as much as I normally do (I use to be probably the biggest pushover in the world, and extremely naive and easily manipulated). I managed to progress a lot during this 1 year and 6 months ever since I left home to try to pursue being a poker professional. I'm still probably somewhat naive, and probably still a pushover, its not so easy to get rid of that over night. But I recognize everything and try to fix anything I do wrong so I can better myself.

It wasn't more of the 16k month, of course I am very grateful for the month. It was more of the mental mind-**** along the way that made it the toughest month, I think the difference between me and others is that I learned my lesson. And I think that is a huge reason why some players who are probably even better then me, can be worse then me because they do not pick there days or drop down when necessary. I managed to gain that and which is why I think I was able to pull through the month.


This was actually my toughest cash game month, but definitely not my toughest month of all time. My toughest month of all time was definitely May 2012, It was the second month I went into playing poker full time, I grinded 180 mans and 90 mans and 45 mans at the time with the 50 euro deposit I managed to grind it to ~2.2k US within 8 weeks playing tons and tons of MTTs, then I shot took the higher stakes (the 8$ 180 mans and some 15$ 180 mans), I wasn't controlled and by the end of one session I had 200 bucks left in my account. It was where I nearly broke down during that time and was starting to have doubts in myself and thought about packing the bags and giving up the poker dreams (although I know I probably would never do it), it was much more then poker itself my parents didn't believe I could do it, friends seemed kinda eh about it even being possible, I even was ashamed when someone was talking to me before I went to cambodia and said what stakes are you planning to play for a living? I remember very vividly stuttering and saying "2$ buy ins" it was just so embarassing for me to say as the look on his face looked so shocked and in such disbelief that I'm actually going to do it. I will never forget how I was during my times in Cambodia, thinking about it sometimes scars me the thoughts about me accidently eating bugs, or not sleeping on a bed, sometimes having 30 bucks and really being picky on what I have to eat in order to survive until the next week or sometimes not even having money at all and having to borrow money in order to just survive but no one believed I was going to make it I almost started to doubt myself and completely shut down, I kept going though but that's the past part of my life that I will always appreciate as it defined who I am and I know I can over come any obstacle because I don't think I will ever face a challenge harder then this (who knows though).

Ok, 10 MILLION hand challenge at 4NLHU on Ipoker? Whoever goes broke to rake first loses.

looking forward to the challenge.
Anyone wanna bet? My 4ct to your 20ct on ImaCHAMPION.

glgl

Kreatief to be the commentator?

Done for the day; September starting off a bit rocky, but its ok. I'm more concerned about losing my drive to play to be honest over the actual results. I've always had burn out issues and then this sudden drive where all I want to do is play poker.. and then back to burning out. Its a terrible thing and I know once I have that drive thats the thing that could take my poker skills to the next level. I always think about everything and where I've gotten because of poker but can't seem to continually get into it. Well all I can do is take it 1 day at a time, tomorrow I will put in more hours.

Winding down, got 40 more minutes I only ended up playing 8 hours in total today. I kept clicking on random videos just to entertain myself for a bit then nothing was entertaining me enough so I kept watching videos and I ended up wasting 3 hours, its kind of like an addiction to be honest I couldn't even control myself lol! I just kept saying one more. In conclusion: **** you youtube and tomorrow I will not watch any of those random videos.

Although today did end up not being so bad

That hand 400-700 stretch must have felt quite good . All the showdowns went your way..

Because of timezone differences there is a moment where the hand histories aren't entirely accurate. BUT, I do remember yesterday heating up within the hour, don't know if it exactly went like that but it was a nice upswing for sure and it did feel good

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Hah, I played sooo bad today.. Idk why I was being so spewy my logic at the time were just ******ed. Pretty happy that it ended up being a winning day despite that lol probably ran pretty good or something.

Looks like your heading off-track. How much are you working on your mental game? Its pretty important to maintain it although in threadstart you seemed to have an endless well of burning motivation. I hope you can keep that fire alive dude. gl.

Your right.. I myself know I was kind of heading to the wrong direction and just kept trying to go towards the right direct. Actually fairly often, I normally spend 1 hour in the morning just trying to get myself going to start playing the hours. I realized that too in the beginning, was reading my thread from the beginning, and last year when I first started, I'm sure I'll get it back. I needed to hear this, Thanks!

I ran extremely hot today, but I think I played very well, I made some spots where it was questionable. I think today I had some realization and started applying some of the stuff correctly (some stuff incorrectly, but I'm still working on it and I think it will get better). Watching and Reading a lot of high stakes players play HU against eachother and I just try my best to copy what they do and think about what there doing and what there trying to accomplish by doing so.

Mental game (imo) is about understanding all the bull**** and rationalization we use that are blocks to success.

You know stuff like when a guy says he doesn't like tall women with a nice ass bc he "prefers" fat chics and is more concerned about their character.

If you've banged models for some time and say this, i'll believe you. Otherwise this "i'm totally different" stuff is just a bunch of bull****.

I love to use chicks analogies bc everybody can relate to it. So in poker, players with weak mental games have similar obstacles. They say money is not important or stuff like the games got to tough.

So if you've had a lot of money and if you have worked your ass off and still can't beat the game, i'll believe you. Otherwise i call bull**** and have lots of people to prove the opposite.

Steven is one of them

Thanks Gordon. I am very guilty myself of having that mentality of money not being important, and have reflected and learned a lot since then and realized that Money is important, every single thing is important its a matter of balance though and how you choose to proceed to take what you got.

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I'm thinking after talking with Gordon this whole new thing just opened up in my life thoughts after thoughts just all over my head now, I don't feel like playing anymore today its not because I ran bad (it happens as i ran extremely hot yesterday anyways).. I just don't want to play lol. It just really hit me when Gordon started talking to me, and it just all bombarded in my head and I need to recollect all the things that he's put in my head. As a person personality wise I think I'm very similiar and I will stay true to myself, or what I think is right but there are certain things that I have changed a long the way that I have learned and experienced and that was what really shaped me within this year and a half journey. I realized that damn since I been so use to average and below average... Now i'm on a new stage of life but still feel guilty for spending more then 100$ in a night. I remember I spent 500$ for my first new years party for all of my friends because its been a while since I've partied with them. We had a hell of a time but still the consciousness within me still made me feel guilty like "dude, why are you spending so much money?" Its soo flawed on how I use to think, and how I currently still think its just because my whole life I never had anything, shared computers with my brother I remember we all use to take turns sharing it, and I had a big house hold so we would all split the hours and argue with each other for who ever could use the computer (pretty much I had about 2-3 hours of computer time a day to play games) the rest of my life I spent watching my brothers play the same computer games to learn from them haha.

Which is why I think I haven't really progressed at a person whatsoever until I left home, I may have been 17 but had the mind of a 10 year old because I didn't learn any common sense there was no one to mentor me as a kid and all I did was play games. Now that i'm on another stage in my life I wake up thinking whats my biggest worry, and to be honest I don't really have one for myself. I'm self-sufficient, and am now able to take care of myself and will find a way out of any particular situation, it really can only go up from here its just a matter of what direction I want to take and what I want to do with my life. And thats what i'm stuck and pondering over which direction do I want to take? DO I want to play part time/coach and venture on to new things? Do I want to go to Egypt? Do I want to go to Japan? I just don't know yet and its all exploded in my head, because really this just all happened so fast and it just all connected to my head soon I will be on my own (almost done paying the amount I owe Gordon I will not say what amount we agreed on but he himself can say it if he pleases), That may be a good thing, but it can be a bad thing as well he was like my "boss" kept me accountable for everything, and made sure that I put in the hours, work on my game, and pretty much I had to do it because we are in a deal that I did not want to fail on. Now that I will soon be on my own I will have much more freedom, which makes me unsure of whats next for me. Today I will just recollect my thoughts, spend a bit more and live for the day and having the ability to do what I want when I want and within time I will progress into the person I want to be and will never forget this journey of how I was 1flightaway.

Graph is a bit off; didn't record my last hand where I lost a 1k pot.

How many sites are you playing and what stakes? You seem to get quite alot of volume.

hey bro, you know I got only love for you and for Gordon, but I think you are leveling yourself out of this world

you have a valuable skill right now whick is making money by playing a game. use it wisely and try to exploit it as much as you can, while you can.

other than that, all that philosophical bs, all I can tell you is, there is a time for everything, dont over think things so much and go with the flow with out rationalizing everything

gl

exactly my words

But it's quite normal and i remember myself doing that as well.

+1
Dont sabotage yourself.
You still have to face a long way to reach your goal.
Walk it!
I was in a similiar situation, i think its about beeing scared of your own potential.
Its a big difference between "i could have done it..." and "i did it!"

yea I agree with Jabooo also. its a little bit about the fear of maybe not making it and maybe realizing you are not good enough