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Originally Posted by chillskill
This is exactly what I thought. Im 6ft tall aswell and I weight 145lbs and Im really skinny. I man I cant even imagine someone of my eight with 103 lbs, I would be completely in my bones, please post a pic man
Gl with you challenge, and man up and stop getting anxiety shet
I'll post a pic of me later tonight.
Thanks, I did man up
my preparation really helped me stay calm and stopped getting anxiety
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Originally Posted by Kaiser Soze4
Ok, you're so full of entusiam for poker and making it on this journey, and that's good. But you also probably have no safety net and not enough going on in your life to make this healthy. I really respect the guts and drive it too to step out on your own.
But, your life is screaming for something more. Find a job, get some other interests. Nothing wrong with your dreams to succeed in poker but your just sort of all in in life on this one project. Diversify your life and income stream. Your rolled for 200nl? Really?
Anyway, check out the Kelly Criterion relative being rolled for something. Good luck but relax and think things through. I don't mean to really discourage you, just point out that your sort of out there on a limb, maybe you wanted to be. Shoot if my ability to eat depended on a week of poker Id be anxious as well, I think intuitively you know this, and it may be the reason you are feeling so stressed. Maybe you could teach English or something there. ANyways, best of luck.
Hey Kaiser, we all have different motives in life. 3 Months ago I was near broke, I was not willing to go home till I bust, truth is I know for a fact that would never happen, If I had to drop down to the 2$ buy ins I would do it. If thats what it takes to make it. To me its not just poker and goals of making here thats on the line. Thats a hell lot, but I have a ton of weight on my shoulders and a family that I need to help get out of this hell hole that we've been living in our whole life. Me being able to eat does NOT depend on this, I have money on the side in order to pay my bills. If I were to teach here that would be beyond redic, the amount they make an hour is about 1.5$ an hour.
To me this is a test, this is the way I always think of it, I always have thoughts of me getting down on my knees, begging for things to get better. I picture my family, my friends and I get asked the golden question "what would you be willing to do in order improve there lifestyles".
I think of this every damn day, I feel weak everyday (at one point throughout the day), who doesn't feel weak at one point though? but just this thought makes me strong and makes me know I can make it to the finish line.
Will look up Kelly Criterion later tonight as well.
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And back to a breakeven day, I think whenever I meet Gordon I will take the 200NL shot anyways. I'm so ready for this, and obviously I have a huge edge in the 100NL games (low sample size, but who cares). Psychologically I'm strong, in every single way I'm strong. Running this bad did ABSOLUTELY NOTHING to my game. I FEEL amazing that I managed to crush this hard (20bb/1000) DESPITE RUNNING 1K UNDER EV AND PAYING 500 IN RAKE!!!!! IF I lose 800, and drop down to 100NL? WELL thats poker, it HAPPENS, Ima KEEP STAYING STRONG AND KEEP FIGHTING
IF I EVER sound like a little crybaby please redirect me to this post and tell me stop being a ****ing bitch and man up. Real Talk.
#IMSOPUMPED.
Last edited by ImaCHAMPION; 01-04-2013 at 06:53 AM.