Weekly Recap - Fri 11/08 - Thur 17/08
Volume:
47.4 Hours
Profit:
-$2,137
How'd we go goals-wise this week?
[X] 45 Hours - I think we can do this by playing a 6 day schedule and hoping games don't break too early. We need to recoup some of week 2's lost time. -
Bink!
[X] Gym min 5 times this week. -
Bink!
[ ] Tinder date Tuesday night - Tues will be my one day off this week. I have an Old Collegians basketball game vs the First 5 in the arvo... Really looking forward to a relaxing Tues - will take ourselves out to brekky, play some ball, then meet this Tinder chick for a few (or a **** load) in the evening. -
Decided to pull the pin on the Tinder date... Did a bit more stalking of this lass and came to find out she likely isn't as good looking as I expected. Just wasn't reeeeally that into it and decided to have dinner with the parents instead lol. Good news is, I have a new Tinder date lined up for this coming week!
[ ] Best disciplined poker every session - No more lazy limps or lazy limp calls or loose UTG opens on 10-handed tables. We need to stay tight and focused 100% of the time. No spew. -
Can't say I did this... Were a few large mistakes that cost me.
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Well, what a ****ty week results-wise! We're now down $3,200 over the 123 hours since the start of this thread. -$26 per hour. Which isn't particularly encouraging, I'll admit. But we're not throwing in the towel just yet! We're still on month 1 and I'm determined to finish my first month on a positive note. It'd be brilliant to finish the first month in the black but after this start, I can't expect that to be a likely outcome. Instead, my focus should be on playing my best every session for the next week.
Goals wise:
[ ] 37+ Hours volume - Hopefully we can hit this target in the forthcoming week. We've currently hit 40 hours for each of the previous weeks so I'd like to see 160 hours as a total after the first month. That means we're in a good routine and getting the volume in that we need to be to do this full time.
[ ] Sunday night Tinder date - Super interesting Chinese ex-stripper lined up for shenanigans on Sunday night. Not sure what we're gonna do yet, but I imagine it'll be something along the lines of drinks at a bar. So Sunday will be my "official" night off this coming week. However, Saturday night, I have an old friend's 21st party at an apartment in the city - she's a model and has basically invited 20 other super bangin' models and only a few guys - so it'd basically be a crime not to attend? I'd need to buy a new shirt (smart attire) for it though and I'd probably end up spending a bit on booze and I'd rather not skip a Saturday night session at all. Still undecided about this one.
[ ] Slow motion thinking in big pots - Really want to get into a habit of doing this better... Think through things with clarity and logic and then think through things again. Make the best decision with the best bet size, every time. If I just find myself wanting to bet $X, I need to stop and take some more time and make my intentions crystal clear in my mind - basically giving myself closure that what I'm about to do is the best thing I can do in real time.
Hopefully if I can do all of that, I'll have a happier time doing my first month review in a week's time.
On another note, I noticed I'm now 95kg while weighing in at the gym this morning... Idk if it's because the scales are different at this gym to the previous one, but I haven't been under 100kg for ages - last I weighed I was about 104kg. I feel as though I've definitely lost some fat over the past few weeks. Losing that little bit of a gut I'd developed while bulking up. I can attribute this to my half-assed fasting routine. Basically, I get up and go to the gym before eating to force myself into a ketogenic state, get home, shower, and then eat one big meal. I find I can survive most of the rest of the day fairly easily off just one coffee, some almonds, and a mass gainer shake (e.g. at the casino, if I'm at a home game, I'll have another proper meal). So my caloric intake is way down, which is awesome, and I'm still hitting okay numbers in the gym. Health wise, I'm extremely happy atm.
Mental Review
I'll be honest, it's not been an extremely easy first three weeks. I've been slapped in the face by quads tonight, lose set under set for a big pot a few nights ago, lost AA to QQ in a $2500 pot during week 1, I've been card dead for an entire week (week 1), and I've made a few bad folds. It's been very difficult getting any momentum together.
I know I can win in the games I'm playing at but there is a small niggling doubt that I can do it at the intended winrate (7bb/hr)... But tbf, I'd settle for a 5bb/hr WR if I'm honest. At least in the first year or so. Anyway, since I've been losing the past few weeks and don't have much more than $10k to my name rn, I've been having "what if" thoughts and kind of considering back-up options if things don't improve. These thoughts are more or less innocuous at this stage, don't inspire much anxiety, but possibly distract me more than anything.
I want to put those thoughts to rest by knowing exactly how long I can keep this up for and at what point there's any merit to calling it quits. I don't quite know how much cash is in my safe atm but let's assume $1.5k. + $10k in the bank. Each week I exist on this earth, regardless of results, that $11.5k drops by $500 minimum. That's 23 weeks or 6 months longevity assuming I A) don't spend more than $500 a week and B) don't lose any money in poker. Of course, this doesn't allow for me to compartmentalise my bankroll and my liferoll. Which is an issue. I want to leave myself enough cash to buy myself enough time to find work or another direction in case I lose a lot more money. Two months should suffice, or $4k. So that's my number. If I drop to 4k to my name, game's up - we surrender and can be happy knowing we gave it a decent crack. Right now, that gives us between 3-4 months (15 weeks) to get out of the hole and earning some money from this thing. If we manage to dust off the remaining effective $7.5k before then, then obv it's gg. This is all pretty doom and gloom - I'm sure we'll have some heat over the next 3-4 months, but at the end of the day, we can't control the variance we're given over that period and can only do our part by playing our best poker every session to give ourselves as much longevity as possible.
It feels better to now know explicitly how long I have in months and in dollars. 3-4 months is a long time. That's 500 hours of poker. My only mission now is to play the best poker I can, try not spend more than $500 a week, and simply enjoy the ride!
Full Results & Graph:
https://1drv.ms/x/s!AkK4doh8PHLEgk6pBpFJrgcokPKM