What's up everyone
I'm fine, but as you can imagine the PLO variance was and still is ****ing with my mind. Makes me very sad and upset, so from my last post on I wasn't even playing for two weeks straight until tuesday or wednsday this week. Started playing PLO10 back on Stars. Not much volume, two-tabling Zoom, 3k hands or so, being down 1,5 stacks. I'm just in a very dark place mentally right now poker-wise. Call it ****ing bro-science, but I feel whenever you do something with a ****ty mindset you will fail. In poker you will attract more setups against you, lose more flips, even lose more pots when you are a decent favourite or just hit nothing and have to fold no matter how great your hand looks or how high it's playability is. Some law of attraction **** or something like that.
I have no idea how I can come out of this mindset at this point. Maybe just stop to be a whiny ***** right? Yeah, easier said than done. My bankroll is back at 1000 Dollar, so basically my starting point at the beginning of the blog, almost three months ago. I don't know. I played on Party, but playing micro PLO there just feels like playing Zoom on Stars with less fun players in the pool and 90% nitty regs, who just won't make super big mistakes. And without a HUD. On TOP of that the software tilts me to the point where I want to smash my whole apartment into pieces.
I don't wanna whine about my situation. It was my decision to come here and to give it a shot. I feel like I was hugely underestimating the variance of PLO. Losing or even just break-even stretches. I just might have to put in hardcore volume again like in the beginning of september.
My overall living-situation is good tho. I realized I spent way too much money in the first month and I was getting fat from eating out and drinking a lot of beer every day. So I started cooking in my kitchen in the beginning of last week. Very good results so far, I'm cooking every day, eating healthy a lot of fruits and vegetables. Drinking way less beer. Some days none, but mostly just one a day. Spening not more than 400 Baht every day. Went to Lumpini Park couple times since the cooking, going for some long walks there trying to establish better cardio and joint/muscle strengh to build-up a running-routine again. Other than that I'm still working out regularly together with the cute thai girl I was already dating before. Stopped going out with the Thai-crew, because I felt this is just counter-productive (hangovers) at this time. Oh, and some days ago I went to the Immigration office to extend my visa for another thirty days. Allowed to stay until 24th november now before first visa-run.
So let's see how things work out from now on. Already changed my Stars avatar to induce run-good again
The superstition is real at this point.