hope hes ok. wouldnt be the first time someone went missing in thailand. OP we are worried......

Can't you change the colour settings in Hem? Pretty sure you can change the red to black, if the red colour is tilting you. I think Hem automatically switches to session stats, so changing the colour would be my workaround.

What's up everyone

I'm fine, but as you can imagine the PLO variance was and still is ****ing with my mind. Makes me very sad and upset, so from my last post on I wasn't even playing for two weeks straight until tuesday or wednsday this week. Started playing PLO10 back on Stars. Not much volume, two-tabling Zoom, 3k hands or so, being down 1,5 stacks. I'm just in a very dark place mentally right now poker-wise. Call it ****ing bro-science, but I feel whenever you do something with a ****ty mindset you will fail. In poker you will attract more setups against you, lose more flips, even lose more pots when you are a decent favourite or just hit nothing and have to fold no matter how great your hand looks or how high it's playability is. Some law of attraction **** or something like that.

I have no idea how I can come out of this mindset at this point. Maybe just stop to be a whiny ***** right? Yeah, easier said than done. My bankroll is back at 1000 Dollar, so basically my starting point at the beginning of the blog, almost three months ago. I don't know. I played on Party, but playing micro PLO there just feels like playing Zoom on Stars with less fun players in the pool and 90% nitty regs, who just won't make super big mistakes. And without a HUD. On TOP of that the software tilts me to the point where I want to smash my whole apartment into pieces.

I don't wanna whine about my situation. It was my decision to come here and to give it a shot. I feel like I was hugely underestimating the variance of PLO. Losing or even just break-even stretches. I just might have to put in hardcore volume again like in the beginning of september.

My overall living-situation is good tho. I realized I spent way too much money in the first month and I was getting fat from eating out and drinking a lot of beer every day. So I started cooking in my kitchen in the beginning of last week. Very good results so far, I'm cooking every day, eating healthy a lot of fruits and vegetables. Drinking way less beer. Some days none, but mostly just one a day. Spening not more than 400 Baht every day. Went to Lumpini Park couple times since the cooking, going for some long walks there trying to establish better cardio and joint/muscle strengh to build-up a running-routine again. Other than that I'm still working out regularly together with the cute thai girl I was already dating before. Stopped going out with the Thai-crew, because I felt this is just counter-productive (hangovers) at this time. Oh, and some days ago I went to the Immigration office to extend my visa for another thirty days. Allowed to stay until 24th november now before first visa-run.

So let's see how things work out from now on. Already changed my Stars avatar to induce run-good again The superstition is real at this point.

Good to hear you're alive M8! How large is the liferoll at this stage? What happens if you're unable to start winning? Will you stay in TL or head home?

Hey

My liferoll is around 4k euro right now. Plus my 1000$ Pokerroll. So everything is kind of ok financially. I think I'm gonna re-evaluate my situation in the end of november when my first three months visa will end.

All the best til then mate, hopefully we can book some profit to continue a while longer!

The key is to understand the variance and then embrace it, especially when you play a high variance game like plo or hyper turbo sng. Play with http://pokerdope.com/poker-variance-calculator/ and run some simulations over a big sample (1m hands +)to see/understand how sick the variance can be. Understand too that there is variance in cards distribution aswell. Try to avoid high variance spots, if possible. When on a doomswitch play less tables if you start to loose confidence, focus more, review more hhs, study more, don't tilt, that's it

I do not want to be a party pooper here, but for some reason I have been following this thread and my 2 cents.
1) You are likely not beating the games, looks like you are more like b/e slightly losing player. You should be really concerned when all your winnings come purely by running way above EV. Although that can be very skewed in short time frame.

2) You saying there are no fun players and no big mistakes made in PLO 10 on party is absolutely redic. The thing is you probably see "big mistakes" only in things you know or consider are big mistakes which are likely just getting it in lightly. However there are so many smaller things that are big mistakes. Starting from playing wrong hands, 3 betting wrong hands, c betting bad boards all time, not slow playing at all etc etc.
Basically you cannot see big mistakes in things you do not know are big mistakes.
Just assuming you should beat micro plo because there are "fun players" is wrong.

3) Zoom is a ****ing trap, this comes from experience. I know how addicting and fun it is to play hands fast, never wait for a seat etc. However there is sooooooo much you miss. If you play reg tables you actually see what people are doing and how they are playing, when they go on tilt after losing a pot, how light they stack off in 3 bet pots etc.
In zoom you look hud at thats it. Nowadays when I play reg tables I just play without HUD because then im not locked in looking at numbers and instead I focus and takes some notes on players. Much more useful.


I hope you succeed and I do not mean to bash you, but do not assume you crush micros just because you have watched some vids. All in all fun thread and hope you keep posting and turn your poker journy into HS crusher.

#bangbang
i also assume/agree that above is very true (not a plo expert but from common sense and logic pov, I play from time to time zoom plo100/plo200 for fun /thrill and i can see a lot of people making obv atrocious mistakes there so, #microstakes)

when that said, is very good to hear that everything is good irl with you and not some dark scenarios happen to you
i like your thread and is fun to read and i also hope you going to get this words as motivation/challenge and climb your way up to the high stakes and print money at game you like

gl

anymore poker updates/life updates?
still in thailand?

my advice would be to find a coach or stable and that way can get some great coaching, will be much easier to move up stakes faster. trying to live abroad on plo 10 is almost impossible.

anyways best of luck

But there is still a hooker budget right?

it is very true what they said above, I sometimes think that there are many people who do not really love the game, as to be aware of each player at the table, and prefer to play more std and no complications, I do not know, to me something similar happens to me and is why I can never win at middle levels or more than 3k per month

hero is MIA?

How's it going? Just tell us the adventure, good or bad.

+1 for the adventure

OP you alive? Just read the whole thread, good read.
How'd you get into the lucid dreaming/ OOBE stuff you mentioned early in the thread?

Damn I was enjoying this thread, OP come back What have you been upto? Hows the GF situation? Have you been travelling around Thailand and seen any new places?

bump

How's it going? are u in Cambodia now?

OP ded

I'm guessing the chef had something to do with it

+1

GG