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Today Sunday was last grinding day in this month, time for month review !!!
I wasn't writing blog when May started, didn't write here any goals... I started May with a nice bankroll, won $18k in April and was close to make a ''big'' cashout, plan was play 100k hands at 0.5/1 1/2 for the last time before go travel and play 1/2-3/6 when back home.
But it was a disaster. 1st week I lost $27k in 1 day gambling destroying all my liferoll, friend gave me $5k, I double up gambling, but lost it all and lost another $10k loan... worst day for the month -27k, 2nd worst -20k, best day was around +10k. Took 1week break from everything, focus on not doing the same mistakes again. Got another $10k loan and in this 2nd 10k bullet its when I re-started writing blog , around May 14th.
One important thing I always forget... while Im losing big, like $5k or more in a day, its painful, but I have to remember its just painful during few minutes, later will be like nothing hapenned, its just money... next time Im losing $10k in 1 day hopefully I remember this and don't burn more.
Im going to review only counting since May14th, because everything that happenned before I burned
So, my goal since May 14th was 50k hands at 0.5/1 1/2 with good plays and no tilts and no gambling. At 1st I wrote that my goal was 70k hands and 130k hands in June to ''compensate'' for my gambling mistakes. I wanted to recover fast, erase my mistakes, but what is done is done, and I have to deal with the fact I will have to wait to go travel a few more months than my initial plan. And playing massive amount of poker isn't enjoyable... better play a bit less, enjoy playing and still have time to do many other things !
I didn't made goals in $$ results, but in my mind was win around $7k .
results
I played 75hours, 62k hands, and won $6,5k with AIEV at +$10,2k. Good results, but could been better if I didn't do few mistakes both at skills and mindset.
11 sessions won 6, lost 5. In ALL 11 sessions I had positive AIEV. It shows that Im very solid, but its also a bit of coincidence/lucky in non AIEV stuff and also because I play long sessions with 6k hands average per session.
- skill game for the month is 6/10 and mental is 5/10. There was days that my mindset was at peak 10 10 , but some other days was really weak. In the end my game was getting sharp and my mind stronger.
I failed at ''no gambling'' goal, but this time I got lucky (remeber Im only talking about May 14th when I got a new roll). I won $1k at sports and $4k casino. I cashout all this gambling money to my life roll because was broke , I mean, for real, total broke.
My money situation at this moment is good. I have $16,1k poker roll, and enough money in the bank to live 2months, maybe 10 weeks maximum. debts are $21,7k total debt, but with $16k poker roll Im not that far from paying all.
This month I did a simple but very annoying teeth surgery, couldn't do anything (not even eat !) for 1 week, and now its all good. Still have 3-4 sessions at dentist, boring, but easy.
About sports, I went to gym 6x week, but missed 1 week due surgery.
Running... For the few guys who read this blog, I love running, but Im terrible !!! This month I started following a coach program and was improving, but 10 days without running due dentist ****ed my progress... Im going to re-start . I did run ~10 times this month. Just for taking 10 days break, its incredible how my body lost progress...
I bought a really sick running watch Garmin, that **** does everything !!!!!! Im excited to run !!
Now... Goals for June !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
POKER
- 100k hands poker, no tilts, play best possible, if do mistakes, don't make things get even worse. don't get pissed with losing days. Hope run good, but if run terrible, part of the game. I expect win around $15k, but $10k is OK, less than $10k will be tilting stuff. Don't forget variance is big and its possible to lose ! (in 9 months playing this games I never had a month below $12k ... so... I really don't expect winning less than $10k, but.... you know...).
- no gambling until pay debts. will be easy, but annoying not betting in big events... NBA finals, soccer World Cup...
- Pay ALL debts this month. depends on how I run, but its possible.
SPORTS
- Run 3-4x week, follow my program that has a 10km in last day. and finally break my 5km PR (27:15min) .
- gym 6x week.
Im a fish at sports... but loving it !
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Last words:
May was a disaster money wise, but its part of the gambler, Im fine and fine/happy at this moment ! Motivated to June !!!!!!!!! could be better if I had money, but its fine, could be worst too .