------------ grind grind grind ------------

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AQ4xwmZ6zi4

The close to busto is annoying me... again in random times this poped my mind.

Poker Session Review

This stakes during weekends are .... no words in enlgihs to describe. easy, soft, watermelon, tits... Its fun that Im annoyed with my homeless bankroll, and I see good game at 2/4 and I play there with 25buy ins life roll... this sounds crazy, but actually its not given what I do... lol

- skill game: 6/10.

- mental game: 7/10.

- imaginary results: won $1,5k-$3k . Thres a chance I was destroyed at 1/2... some bads there...
- total results, 7:15hour, 6,3k hands, won $4,5k AIEV + $3,4k . gogogo

Very very important winning this .... I need it, I deserve it !!! Now I have bankroll $11,7k and can breath ......

------------- The Locomotive -----------

Poker Session Review

- skill game: 7/10.

- mental game: 10/10.

Today I was playing well, not any problems, but I was tired... slept only 6:30hour , was auto piloting very tired... and made a fatal mistake: shove 2nd nuts on turn vs reg raising... I thought I had the nuts... lost $750 pot in ths hand, got very very tilted... serious, can't acept mistakes like this... This almost killed my session... I had to make 1min break... Remember NBA this season, in a game that K. Durant made 50points, need a 3pointer in last second of the game, had ball in his hands, did the 3pointer !!!! but he put 1inch of his foot at the line... like me, playing great, but doing dumb mistkae lol.

By the way I didn't realize I was winning so much and got a bit tilted during session... berating players etc lol. But I didn't change anything in game, so even pissed because my misread burning $300 I keep playing The Locomotive strategy and worked very well.

- imaginary results : won $500-1,5k
- total results: 5:37hour, 5,5k hands , won $4,4k , $2,4k aiev.

2 days in a row running a lot above ev... 55buy ins up last 2 days. Now Im very confortable... can breath well... no pressure... $16,1k poker roll, $4k life roll and only $12,5k debt ......................

----------- The LuckBox ------------

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HIWY...nqDR0m-yjof1rS

Amazing weekend, especially at poker where I ran good... But to be honest, games has been awesome in this stakes with many whales and weak pros...

Poker Session Review:

- skill game: 7/10. I think Im playing most spots very solid and might deserve higher than 7... I look at 2/4 and 3/6 tables running and most regs are guys who I play often at 1/2. But while Im playing only $150 avg buy in, maximum its 7/10.

- mental game: 10/10.

Ran lots above ev today, might seems easy, but it was a hard session...Most of time was ok, but during a while there was critical moment that I lost everypot... and a ridiculous hand too.. but I didn't change the locomotive strategy... but ya it was very tilting because he is a pro and how he played the hand is the worst possible... If I wasn't strong mindset Id colapse from that because his play was pretty bizarre. also lost $1k pot with set vs flush draw , and $1k is a very big pot for me nowadays.

- imaginary results: won $1,5-$2k
- total results: 5:08 hours, 5,7k hands, won $2,5k, AIEV $1,1k . only 12evbb today, which is a lot smaller than my true winrate for a Sunday like today... usually Sunday aren't that good , but today was special... more than 20evbb I should have.

$11,5k up this weekend... $15k up this month which is higher end of range for my money goal ... but I have 100k hands goal for this month, so will play a LOT this week... 71k hands this month, will do my best to play everyday this week and hit that goal... playing 9 days straight (since last Friday) will make me tired and easy to get tilted... lets see how I do.

------------- WHY SO LATE ---------

Poker Session Review

1st of all... I swear never again I start playing so late... I hate it, makes me tilted easy , not many tables running..... *** never again !

I already didn't play yesterday and if I didn't play today would be impossible to hit 100k hands this month... force to play, but wasn't with sharp mental game... but I handle well.

skill game: 7/10.

I was owned in many spots vs ukraine reg... he is really bad, waaaay over agressive, and I made the calls i usually do, but today he had it in all hands... its fun that he played one hand bad and got rewarded... by the way its the same monkey who I said last session who put me on tilt playing his hand the worst way possible... and hitting miracle flop. I made one small mistake vs him... I called one hand that he played like everyone plays with middle flush, and it has to be a fold given his line plus his bet sizes... but he is so bad that he is clicking random buttons and could do it as a bluff... ya, but I think its still a fold, even vs him. the pot was big, but because it was vs him, its not a big diference in call or fold. but the perfect play should be fold...

Also there was many spots that I played perfect with bluff catcher and he was value betting very thin... he sucks , but at least he is able to vbet hands that most don't... I rate him at bottom 5% of regs at 0.5/1.

I also lost a hand that put me on tilt because it was vs a nit and I had 0% on turn... losing vs nits its tilting, especially going with 0%... top 2p w 2nd nut flush draw on a very good board for my hand , but nits has top set w nut fd. ....

mental game: 9/10. LAte session, being owned by bad pros, easy tilting... but didn't change anything in my game. I just don't give me a 10 because I was very very pissed... but its good to learn how be pissed and still play solid.

- imaginary results: no idea... I think I was crushed at 0.5/1 and won around $600 at 1/2... I might lost $500 today...
- total results 3hours played, 2,1k hands, breakeven, AIEV - $700...


73k hands played... need play 27k hands in 4 days. damn ...


ps: don't remember password, created this new account.

-------------- The LuckBox------------

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NEJniCCuqR4

Poker Session Review

Games today was amazing, I started at good hour with tons of tables running, many fishs... But I was dumb... There was one reg willing to start tables and to show him who is the boss I played in 7 or 8 hu table and 12 more 6handed... maximum auto piloting... he was making mistakes, but small mistakes, I shouldn't do that amount tables hu + ringames. off course I couldn't play the best possible during this , very very fast decisions...

- skill game 7/10.

- mental game 8/10.

- imaginary results: no idea, was very busy with hu .
- total results 5:07 hour, 5,2k hands, won $3,1k, AIEV - $200 (!!!!!!!!!!)

huge ev diference... I ran hot and didn't notice lol . This is one thing that I noticed and shows again now: I don't ''feel'' when Im running hot, but I feel a lot when running bad... off course, weak mindset. but not only that... its somehting that me and other gamblers talk when I was a heavy gambler... winning $50k is 10/10. but losing $50k is more than 10/10...

review some hands, I floped terrible at 4bet pots, but rivered well... not that I should be losing $200 and won $3k... 4betting AQQ, villain Q932, flop 933..river Q for example.

in that hu match vs reg I won 2buy ins but -1bi AIEV... means nothing short session, but nice not being destroyed while auto piloting hu .

anyway, sick sick sick luck Im having last days... gotta admit Im a ****** luckbox.

--------------- The Deal ----------------

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eFjjO_lhf9c



Ffinally paid everyone, everything !!!!!! 0 debt with friends,governament, condo....... 0, nothing !! hahaha very cool !

Going sleep with huge debt, $5k poker roll and $1k at bank... worried about not having money next month... how someone smart like me could be in that situation... What I learned from this bad sitatuon is: never be broke again. It sucks... being poor isn't that bad, but being total busto sucks a lot. Never ever again !


Because of my big debts I couldn't play my best poker... I wasn't motivated to play poker... most of time, everything I win it was to pay friends... off course, I already wasted the money... also had to play small stakes and couldn't take decent shots ... (because I wasted everything in something else lol) Even without pressure from friends, I felt ''locked'' with debts... I hate owe money to anyone... by the way, I did gamble a LOT while in debt, but for the most part was trying to win more money faster to pay debts faster... obvious not the best way, but I was desperate... and if got lucky, could work.


$9,2k poker roll, $4,5k life roll. 0 debts (weeee) . Im a rich guy now.

One interesting thing is how my point of view about money changed so much.... I felt poor with $100k... now I have $14k total money and felling rich.

My next step is finish this month with 100k hands, still 22k hands to play in 3 days. Then I will make my plans... which will be about going travel for 1-2months and moving up to higher stakes .

------------ Shevcheko ----------

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JBN1...=RDvnKGN9oNEYo

Poker Session Review

- skill game 7/10.

- mental game 9/10..

Today I eat food during session... I don't like it, lost focus. I usually just eat snacks, don't lost focus w snacks lol.

Did a small shot at 2/4 and lost 1buy in very fast which put me on pissed mode... call down a boat and lost 50bbs aipf cooler vs reg on blinds. Id like talk about that boat call down hand... I almost found a huge hero fold because his bet size was previsible, and I got surprised with how someone who plays 2/4+ using that bet size... make me thing game at higher stakes aren't that hard . Anyway, 2/4 will stop until have a decent roll... said this many times.. but have to follow this rule, 2/4 only $15k roll.


- imaginary results: no idea, lots of hu today again... worst possible lost $1,5k, better possible won $1k.
- total results. 7:02 hour, 7,6k hands , lost $800, AIEV - $300...

very frustrated... today games were really good . and its the 3rd session in a row that I have negative ev... damn it , things aren't working for my side as its supposed to be. Im not kidding, I think my winrate should be higher than 20bb in this games, regs do so many mistakes, fishs are so easy to play and theres soooo many fishs...

****, losing $800 is pretty standard and I can't cry about variance because last week won $15k, but Im a crying babe... it hurts lose $800 with $9k roll... so whyyy paid debts........... why not wait.... damn it!!!!!

Will play a lot from Friday to Sunday and will do my best.

At small stakes I win so often that when I lose it feels very bad... and because game is full of whales, so its like ''how I can lose playing with this guys''... this month I have 4 sessions with negative ev (last 3 days... in a row were negative ev, until now only 1)... Im doing good doing what im doing. but 3 days in a row damn.

I don't like how I played today and also not fan how I played yesterday... my auto pilot is very good, but last 2 daysw asn't that good... idk if Im being oriented results or not (because AIEV), but tomorrow will try play perfect !

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Poker Session Review

- skill game 5/10. too tired, not review hands, but b ecause Im oriented by reuslts I put 5.

- mental game 10/10.

- imaginary results, lost $3k
- total results : 7:07 hour, 7,4k hands, lost $2k, AIEV - $200.

days like this make me hate this game... full of whales and I get this...

also felling like a fish... 4 days in a row with negative AIEV... lol. -2k (today) was the 2nd worst session of the year for me.

Its the 1st time I have 4 sessions in a row with negative AIEV (750k hands sample size). I had 7 sessions in a row negative EV at 1/2, but in most of this sessions I was killing at 0.5/1 and overall was only 3 sessions in a row negative ev, which was my personal record.

Thats very annoying... always running in top of everyones range and never getting good situation to perform. Even running like trash still 8bb (9evbb) in almost 300k hands at 1/2... which is not good... games are very easy...

Tomorrow will try my best again. Hope I can do it.

----------- Grind machine -------------

Poker Session Review

- skill game 6/10. very very easy games today... Not many times in my life I saw so many fishs...

There was few annoying spots that I folded the best hand, but I really think it was good folds.. and a big pot I called I lost 400bbs pot lol. very close spots, but in all this 3 spots I took the wrong decision.

- mental game: 10/10. I ran TERRIBLE in the middle of session, very very bad !!!

Serious, I ran at bottom 1% of possible run in a while...

I took a small shot at 2/4 because it was ridiculous soft at 2tables, lost AAJ2 4bet pot vs AQJ9... amazing run. and tons and tons of crap spots at 1/2 and 0.5/1. very sad run so bad when Im playing well and drunk guys are getting lucky.

- imaginary results: no idea. anyway, the true AIEV today is around $5k, because games were VERY easy and very frustrated with today because it was veeeery easy games.
- total results 8:10hour , 7,1k hands, won $700, AIEV $400.. hahahaha **** off aiev.

-------------- GG March -----------

Busto days are over... https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HIWY...nqDR0m-yjof1rS

End of month ... Im very tired, didn't sleep well last nights, played 27k hands in 4 days, which is a lot more than Im used... I also don't feel good playing 4 straight days, 3days straight maximum is good for me. But want write a month review.

I wrote this in the last day of February and in middle of month I review it.


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I start March with $9,2k roll and $3k at bank ($3k is enough for 6weeks). very underolled, ''can't'' have a big downswing.

Major Goals:

- test hiv negative 100% conclusive. The results will be avaliable in 1st day of March...

SOLID RESULT !!!!! WEEEEEEEEE !!!!

- pay $12,5k to P2. Last debt... total debt was over $100k few months ago, $12k is nothing !

Done. 0 debts !!!!

Poker Goals:

- 100k hands.

Done!!! It was hard, was behind pace all month.

- $15k profit is 10/10. $10k is 7/10.Less than $10k will be annoying... $5k is 4/10. Less than $5k profit will be hard to acept, but part of the game. Have to remember even being the best its possible to lose

Done, won $16k, but given how good Im playing and that last week Im breakeven, at this moment my feel 6/10 about this poker results.

For the month, overall I rate my skill at 7/10 and mental game 10/10 ... There was many soul crushing moments because variance...

Sports:

- Sleep schedule: 8hours sleep, wake up at 11am.

Done. I slept most days 7:30hours, and EVERYDAY I woke up at 11am. It took a year for me finally ''learn'' about sleeping only 7-8hours like a normal person. For a decade I was wake up for 20hours and sleep 10hours... sometimes 35hours wake up, sleep 11hours, etc.

- eat better. Less salt, less pasta, going to a doctor specialist in food to eat like an athlete.

In middle of the month I started doing it. A lot less salt, a little less pasta... but still didn't go to specialist. Will go in April.


- gym 6x week.

Done, but had to skip 2 days because kneess was sore, didn't want to get hurt.

- Run 3x week. Run 5km below 28minutes. Run 10km (just complete is already good, doesn't matter time).

As I said above, skiped 1 week because knees, this make me change my Running goals to Run 10km and run 5km below 29minutes.

NOT

Ran 12times, but my longest distance was ''only'' 7km (49:40min) and my fastest 5km was 29:50min. Really slow...

- bike twice per week .

NOT. Because knees... not going to happen and might don't happen not even one day.

- Start swmiming.

Not.

- tenis 1x per week.

Not. Played once all month.

''''

I will add to this goals, weight goal that is less than 93kg. Im 190cm with 96kg... around 22-25% bf. idk. Will measure bf % in April and keep measuring often .

My lowest was 93,8kg day 29march... eh, can say ts done !


Thats it... pretty good month overall, got health results perfect, eating a little better, exercise almost everyday, and finally paid ALL debts !!!!

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If I remember correctly I started writing this blog because I lost a lot in gambling while I already had a big debt with few friends, and didn't know what to do, saw a movie where one person write a letter to himself and I came here write this blog... the 1st post of this blog is pretty pathetic lol. wish I could delete haha. I was in my worst mental moments... anyway, in my mind Id stop writing blog when finished paying debts, but Im enjoying and will keep writing once in a while.. but won't make sessions review everyday, don't need do that anymore. I was writing here every session because I had to keep strict discipline... had lost not only money, but I lost my mind, and I had to have strict rules to (re) learn how do basic things, and writing here EVERY session help me with that.


Tomorrow will write my April plans... now sleep............

-------------- The Plan -------------

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ofrq...nqDR0m-yjof1rS

I start April with $5k life roll and $7,1k poker roll. and 0 debts with perfect health... all good !! Overall my mind improved a lot and Im happy with many little things !


What I want do in April:


Poker Goals

- 100k hands / 100hours. I average 1k hands hour.

I have been thinking about increase my volume, especially after reading other blogs... zomgtilt and jdwang. 1st guy plays a lot higher than me ( less hands per hour ) and just posted 106k hand on day 27 of month... probably playing 150hours / month. 2nd guy plays sit go and plays 160hours month. And here Im thinking I was a grind machine playing 100hours month lol.

Anyway, I will keep with 100hours month. Its a good volume ( not the maximum, but big ) , and give enough time for balance my life outside poker. I usually play 18-20days per month, and can skip days if I want or just quit early in day Im not doing well.

- Profit. $$$$

I will stay modest and keep going on the same as last months because its impossible to imagine what games will be avaliable to play and how variance will be.

- $15k profit is 10/10. $10k is 7/10.Less than $10k will be annoying... $5k is 4/10. Less than $5k profit will be hard to acept, but part of the game. Have to remember even being the best its possible to lose in a 100k hands sample size.

I made this profit goal in January and I was thinking $150 hourly rate is good for 0.5/1-1/2 reg. But at this moment there are more tables running with more fishs than I expected... so having a 10bb doesn't seems good for me. I want more. In 2018 so far I won $52k in 330k hands . And I think Im running bad ! At this moment I consider my year results 7/10. Can do better, Im sure I can.

Its the 3rd month in a row I will say I won't think about study/improve my game. The last 2 months it was because I was grinding to pay debts, and now I will say its because Im grinding to leave poverty. My plan is make $15k this month and in May start taking shots at 2/4 and 2/5 and then I will study and try improve my game. One important reason is because at 0.5/1-1/2 Im 20tabling auto piloting... at 2/5 I will be playing less tables and focus more in quality than volume. By the way its so nice to think that all money I win will be going to my pockets.

Important notes:

- don't play 2/4, not even a shot with fishs... only next month!
- start every poker session before 5:30pm ! I usually start 6-7pm...

Sports:

- Sleep schedule: 8hours sleep, wake up at 10am.

Last month goal was wake up until 11am, it was hard but I did it. 10am sounds perfect for me.

- eat better. Less salt, less carbs, going to a doctor specialist in food to eat like an athlete.

Will go to food specialist in middle of April.

- gym 6x week.

Will be ''easy'', already did last 2months.

- Run 5x week.

Will be hard, hope not get injuried! Last month I ran 3-4x per week but without a training schedule ! Now Im a pro (lol) and will run following this schedule http://www.halhigdon.com/training/51...medite-Program .

I did some modifications and won't do cross training because I already go to gym 6x week. The Sunday in the program will be my Monday, and my running rest days will be on Wednesday and Sunday. I might change and rest on Thursday and Sunday... I do legs workout at gym on Wednesday and Saturday, lets see how I react.

My mid term goal is run 10km and 5km in the top 50% percentile which means 10km in 53:30min and 5km in 26:00min. Not sure how accurate is this running calculator... but its my guide for now. My PR at 5km is 27:20 and at 10km is 1:07hour, and this year I never run 10km and best 5km is only 29:50min, so Im far away from that ... side note: Im a beginner, thats why Im so slow !!! I only ran 10km distance 3-4 times in my life !

As for this month... Keep on pace with the training schedule and run 5km below 28min and just complete 10km below 1:10hour. Im so clueless about running that I can't even make a solid guess/goal. The running program is 8weeks, end of April will be half of program... In the end of this 8weeks I hope I can run 10km below 1hour, will be extreme satisfying for me if I can do ! And for sure I want break my PR at 5km, below 27min.

I still want start swimming and riding my bicicle often, but because this is my 1st month running program I will focus on running waiting my body adapt. I also want play tenis in April, 1time per week is good.


No more daily updates because now Im doing good and don't need be keep tracking things like a ******.

---------------- New Plans -------------

Started the month slow... only played Sunday (6k hands), already behind 100k hands pace... And on 3rd week of month I have something and won't be playing any day....

Thats why I decided to make a solid grind stint sprint : Play 11 days straight, around 5k hands per day and finish Sunday day 15 April with 60k hands played. Im not used to play so many days in a row, hopefully I play well and don't tilt/burn out.

On day 17, Monday, I will be out for a week, and then will have 8 days more to play 40k hands, 5k hands/ day.

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Running plans...

I changed this plan too and stop following Hal Hidgon after 2 days lol. I didn't know, but at my gym theres one guy who is runner coach specialist and I will talk with him next Thuesday and he will make a running program specially for me ! Anyway, even with this great news, I lost part of my running motivation... Im 1/10 runner. With tons of effort, after MONTHS, I might be 4/10 runner... Reading guys who warm up doing 6:00 km/minute... its their WARM UP! hell, I run 10km at 7:00km/min... I always knew I was a bad runner, but after researching about this... felling a bit down . I always knew because my cousin ran 10km at 38min, which is extremely hard, you need YEARS to achieve that (especially at his age 40s)... he always told me he wasn't that good, so I always knew it... but seeing and reading , seeing with my eyes ... damn it .

Im not quitting, off course not, but not that excited... still have the same goals : 5km and 10km at top 50% of all male runners in my age group. But now I realize... thats only average, no good... and its so ****ing hard to be at average 50% runners 5km and 10km.

ps: talked with doctor specialist in food, going there soon! today I eat worst possible , as a good bye lol.

why new 2p2 account?

Good to see you are out of debt!

No more debt!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7rXhXLsNJL8

One important thing:

NEVER START A LATE SESSION !!!! In weekends, if going to play, START EARLY!!!!!!!!!!! and by the way, try play almost every weekend until rich again... the games are just too good for a poor bastard like me don't play maximum hours possible... doing other things are nice, but Im poor, HAVE to play maximum possible during weekends !

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Not playing much this month, only 11k hands... already $4,5k up (42bb, 42evbb) and to be honest I deserve more... games are just too good and Im just too good.

$11,5k roll with enough in bank to live until end of may...after 3-4 years Im 100% confortable and rolled to play 0.5/1 and 1/2... if I wasn't tilting with tons of pressure, imagine now... peak game ! (in before I lose 30 stacks in a day 5beting trash lol)

I was thinking about when take shots at 2/5... But I will be a nit: wait until I have 6 months ($18-20k) in bank AND have $25k poker roll to start playing midstakes (and stop with 0.5/1) ... Its very nit plan , especially given my winrate, but given my history, I think being way too cautious is good. In my math 2/5 shots will probably happen in early June. Then I will see games in other sites and decide if I play Stars 500zoom or eurosites... maybe both, idk.

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Running... Still didn't talk with running coach... might happen in Tuesday.

yesterday ran 8km in 53:11min, with avg pace 6:39min !!!!!!!!! AMAZING !!!!!!! 1-2 weeks ago I ran 7km (my longest distance in 2017) in 49:30, above 7min km pace and was exausted... I don't understand how I improved so much in 10 days.

Very next day (today) went run 5km just to get in shape, ''slowdown... its hot , it is 1pm with strong sun , and you ran your longest distance yesterday'', but I run run run, finished 5km in 27:44min which is my 2nd best all life time and 2018 record !!!!!!!!!!!! 10 days ago I did 5km in 29:50min felling very tired... As I said, no idea why I improved so much lol

Next mini goal is break my lifetime record 5km 27:15min... the goal is run 5km at top 50% male runners which is 26:00min.

Lost password, tried recover but didn't work.

Yes very nice out of debt !!

-------------- The Crash ----------

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ErSvE5Gc6lI

Today played 3k hands, 20k hands month, which is the smallest amount I played this year in a month.... Slowdown a bit because paid debts and played a lot in 3 last months. I love poker, but I also enjoy doing other things... and 100k hands is hard to play. That said... Its no excuse, in my new life when I have a goal it became a mission, and I will achieve 100k hands this month.

Today I didn't want play poker... I had a good day , arrived home 7pm... As I said many times before, I HATE starting poker sessions late... well, I forced to play and played... and played bad... and running really bad...running bad + playing bad + weak mindset = disaster. The locomotive turned over... boooooom explosion !! but in this perfect world where everything is fair and justice happens, I did the wrong things and got rewarded.

While I was on peak tilting, I quit tables and put 800 at roulete... lost, put a bit more than 2k, won and quit casino winning $2k... and back to tables, won a bit more there and finished day winning $700.

I wasn't losing a lot when went to casino, was just losing $1,5k... had worst days before without a single gambling 3bet ... but today my mind was weak. This can never ever happens... one bad day can destroy everything !! I could be busted today... actually I deserve be busted... Im a clown. gambling is awesome, but when can afford losing!

By the way, today the games was just amazing... between 10-11pm the tables were the best I have ever saw in my life. Just couldn't believe so many whales.

After today colapse, I need make changes... starting sessions always early ! and GRIND GRIND GRIND GRIND GRIND SOLID ! Seeing how good the games are in a random Tuesday... I need make plans to play MORE than 100 hours next month. maybe 120hours.

For this month, 80k more hands (total 100hour) will be very very hard, but I will do it. Theres 4 days this month that I have plans and won't be playing, so 16 days to play 80k hands...will turn into a grind machine ! Sounds ridiculous pushing the goals just after tilting because playing when I didn't want, but thats what Im gonna do.

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to be honest, even before playing I was already thinking ''maybe not play poker today, and go casino... '''

playing bad again... not a disaster like yesterday, but not that good... tons of fishs and I lose $800.

Running TERRIBLE at 0.5/1....

Today I was annoyed because I woke with my legs extremely sore, maybe injuried . Yesterday I did a diferent running workout, running in extreme heavy hills... did 4 shots, 1,3km each . very intense workout... and just the day after running 6km... resume: dumb plans, might get injuried.

at least started session in a good time , lol.

Playing very good today... but won only $400.

This month only 31k hands played, running terible at 0.5/1 and not that good at 1/2... 0bb at 0.51 and 12bb at 1/2... $147 hourly rate, which is the same I had last month. Should be decent results, but the thing is: this game are full of whales!!!!!!!! I think its possible have 20bb+ at both stakes... I should be winning at least 15bb...

Idk if I overstimate my edge or if Im just running bad and soon I will have around 20bb...

------------------- Crash Boom Bang -----------------

Unforunally Im here to write about losing... as most of blogs, when lack updates its usually because something bad happenned... Frustrated so don't want get into much details, but also didn't want just ''forget'' this blog and quit in the middle... want write a last post.

I lost $8k playing 1/2, 0.5/1... in the end I got tilted, but I admit the main reason for me doing busto its because I played bad. Add the fact I was running bad, and booooom, disaster happens ! At least keep with decent mindset and didn't lost a lot tilting... just few buy ins. Got pissed, cashout the rest of my roll... few days break, no gambling, nothing stupid... and few days ago deposited $2k and have been playing a lot at 0.25/0.50 and 0.10/0.25 too. Could ask for a loan, but I hate being in debt, sucks have only $2k and having to play such small stakes, but whatever, Im healthy, everything is good... Will play 0.5/1 and 1/2 again in the future, but for this month and maybe next month too, maximum I play will be 0.25/0.50...

This is probably my last post here... if I was doing good Id keep posting, but from now I don't have any goals, will be playing just small stakes and make a living with that until I run good again...

One last update about running:

Im still very slow, but improving a lot !!!! Running very often and this makes me very happy ! Last time I ran 6km with 5:45min pace, which is faster than my pace at 5km early this year !!!! Very cool !!! I want run 10km with 5:00min pace, so still bad runner, but improving a lot anyway!

gg

----------------- Idiot is Back -----------------

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QeM1fRcqWl8


The good news I have is: Im alive, healthy, only 30 years old and amazing future in my mind ! Could have a lot more lol... but Im falling downnnnn

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1lWJXDG2i0A

I went down down down down again... and felt like I wanted write about my plans again ! REBUILD PLAN PART 10238. But now, this is the last time !!!!!! (said this many times before, but oh well, this time has to be)

The bad news: lost a lot of money. I ran really bad (****ing casino ) like, really really bad, but I admit the way I was doing theres only one way: bustoland ! I won't keep thinking about how bad I run, I only should cry when Im doing my best and things are going bad. * And I don't want talk about this bad things... let be realisct and think about the real situation:

My money situation at this moment:

- have $1,5k bank
- 0$ poker roll

Debts:

- 10k to F with month fee %. Can pay whenever I want, but % every month.
- $375 to G.
- $250 to J.

Not bad. I was pissed few hours ago, but all my debts are $10,5k !!!! Only $10k, serious, thats amazing !!!!! Could be $100k debt... could have an accident... could be dead... Im alive and doing great ! Nice !! Another good thing: Im aware at this moment I might go gamble high if I touch money, so Im taking 1 week break !

The Plan:

Before I talk about the plan, I will have to make a small surgery at my teeth... years of crazy life, smoking, etc paying off that life debt. Its $1k. Because of this I can't eat for 3-5days, can't do sports for 1 week and off course can't go out drink etc. Im doing this tomorrow afternoon, so I will have 1 entire week to think about my mistakes, put more good details in my PLAN , watch tons of tv/series and might write dumb **** here. I could use this time to play poker, but I need at least 1 week to reset my mindset. After this annoying 1st week, I still have 30 more days going to dentist 1 or 2x per week... but will already be able to drink and do sports after 1st week, so not that bad. Actually Im a bit scared that I got unlucky there... lol Im so scared about everything hahaah

Another thing: before going broke I bought a pro running watch thats around $400 and will have to pay next week. So, in 1 week I won't do anything and liferoll will be around $100.

The 1st step of THE PLAN is get loan, off course !!! But don't worry, be happy ! Im almost sure I will get 10k loan from a friend... If I can't get this loan, well, no idea. but I think I have good chances on this.

With $10k, thats what Im going to do: NBA playoffs, GS WARRIORS !!!! lol, no.

Im going to pay G1 and J, thats -$625. And cashout $1,4k to have something for month in the bank.

with $8k poker roll I will play like theres no tomorrow, all day at poker tables playing the best possible, most hours avaliable, go full machine mode !!! Will only quit poker station to workout, run, eat and sleep. Like a true machine ! I don't know how Im so motivated to do this again, playing this busto stakes forever and still think its amazing to playing poker low stakes... I guess I truly love poker.

I plan to be back at day 18 Friday and play total 60hours until end of month, around 12 days 5hours x day. In June I plan play 150hours. Doing this I Expect to start July with $10k roll and 0 debts.

When things are bad, when you are about to explode, remember: its the time to stand up tall. Im and I will be !!!!

* As I write this , I think ''hell, theres many people who are dumb and just got lucky... why Can't happen to me too''... It happenned... I did got very lucky doing really dumb stuff, the thing is: one time will fail ! ok, we are fine.

been following your progress.. Subbing now.! goodluck and congrats on paying back all your friends. Thats a massive burden lifted off im sure.