11-27-2018
, 01:29 AM
___________________ GG ________________________
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UMVjToYOjbM
End of Month for me!!!! Lets go for a long detailed Month Review !!!!!
One of my main goals was play 150hours in November and this was on my mind until today... At this moment I have played 136hours and would be easy to complete this goal until Friday, BUT this recent loss, I recognize Im not in good state of mind, I admit my weakness and will take a step back, acept my disastrous month and get ready for a big December.
1 month ago, my goals were....
Total failure this month. Why I failed in all aspects ?
Starting with sports, its obvious, day 9th November I got sick, severe sinusitis, hard to breath, went to hospital... my paranoid mind thougth maybe Id die, did many blood tests, it was ''nothing'', just this ****ing sinusitis... not my fault.
Now, back to poker... Why I had my worst month ever ? Im 100% sure the main reason is bad luck. I review the hands, compare stats, and i played like I always play. i ask myself many times if itwas the bad state of mind because sick sinusistis, but no, it was just bad luck . (I did tilted 2 days... and maybe I wouldn'thave tilted if I wasn't sick, i dont know)
detailed results:
plo100 ___ 65k hands, Lost $500 (-1bb, +1evbb)
Its a stake thats feels too small, but I still play because Im poor, lol, also because its easy to win money... I never ever thought this could happen to me at plo100. Acording to poker variance site, someone with 12bb and 147std dev has 1.8% change of losing after 65k hands. I have 10,5bb lifetime at plo100, but I do believe my winrate nowadays is 12bb... anyway, with 10bb winrate and 147std dev, theres a 4% chance of losing money after 65k hands. sick sick run...
plo200 ___ 48k hands, Won $10k (+10bb, +11evbb)
Im one of the bosses here... feels at home playing this stake. this results proves my bad run at plo100 is just bad run... my game is sharp and im ready to kill.
plo400 ___ 5k hands, Lost $4,5k (-25bb, -17evbb)
Pretty bad result... sure only 5k hands, means nothing, but with my little bankroll it means im not playing this stake again until a long time... just in months im back... its sad because many guys who i crush everyday at plo200 are playing plo400...
plo600/plo1k ___ 130 hands , won $700 (+41bb, +16evbb)
3/6 was ok to sit given the player, but 5/10 was stupid. I lost $300 at 3/6 and won $1k at 5/10.
plo2k ___ 6 hands
, won $200 (+177bb and +177evbb)
wtf I did sitting here.... I admit, i was tilted and sat to play with regs. 1 orbit enough to realize I was being an idiot.. lesson learned, in this day i self-ban my account and the maximum i can sit is 1/2. which is good when the pilot is an idiot without break pedal.
ZOOM HU ___ 3k hands at plo100 and 200, won $600, AIEV -$600. Im going to play more here .
ZOOM 6max. ___ 730 hands at plo100 and 200. won $70, AIEV - $300. Im NOT going to play more here.
damn god, I can't believe I wrote this.. but yes, I LOST money in 1 month of plo100. Now Im experienced this bad run... I thought it was the worst possible. its close to it, but I had worst bad runs at this stakes last year, I didn't remember... Last year I was 80k hands breakeven at plo100... and I finished that year with +13bb... ya 25bbs runs happens too.
I can't change my luck, lets see what I can change.
- skill game of the month: 6/10. .
I learned a new bet size, its very cool. I think to improve myself to became a 7/10 player I need play more at 2/4+ to see what they are doing there. Also improve my mental game.
- Mindset, mental game, STATE OF MIND !! 5/10, average. There were days I was strong mindset, but days like today that i was very weak... being sick and staying at my house all time ****ed my mindset... how people stay sane without sports or weed... i was without both and couldn't sleep, tough... Honestly, for real, even with that bad state of mind I most days, almost always, I was very strong mindset . maybe I should give myself a 7/10...
Terrible month, actually the worst in my life (poker results), everything bad happens, and i still managed to have a poker bankroll
didnt broke this month, even idiots can learn and improve !
The results were pretty bad in all aspects, but looking back, Im satisfied with the month. I played the most hours I have ever played, I ran close to the worst possible, I didn't react well, but managed to not go broke, now Im healthy again, so its all good. bad results, but Im trying, Im on the right track.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UMVjToYOjbM
End of Month for me!!!! Lets go for a long detailed Month Review !!!!!
One of my main goals was play 150hours in November and this was on my mind until today... At this moment I have played 136hours and would be easy to complete this goal until Friday, BUT this recent loss, I recognize Im not in good state of mind, I admit my weakness and will take a step back, acept my disastrous month and get ready for a big December.
1 month ago, my goals were....
Quote:
GOALS November !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Poker
- 150 hours . Will be around 120k hands. Never played so many hours , lets try. In the past I was grinding 100hour per month which was a lot , but given my poor status and big debts , its time to go for the maximum possible.
+ Not done. didn't worked. I played 136hours, 122k hands total. It was harder and it took more energy than I expected. Im never again trying to play so much in a single month... its probably one of the reason Im weak at mindset this week, crying everytime for bad beats etc, burnout !!!!!!
Im happy that I tried, because Im trying to win more money fast as possible, and seeing some players playing 150hours, I had to try too... also, playing average 100hours like i usually do, I had in back of my mind that I wasn't doing the best I could at poker... Now, i don't have that felling anymore... 100hours is perfect, its a big poker grind, but still plenty of time to go out, relax, do whatever I want. For December i go for 120hours and see how it goes.
- Start ALL sessions before 5:30pm. More tables running, higher hourly rate. Otcober I was starting 8pm, 7:30pm...
+ Not done. I got sick, severe sinusitis, and was sleeping until 1-2pm...
- Play good, try not make mistakes, and when do mistakes, acept and don't get tilted.
+ Done. 95% of time i was playing great, didn't get tilted, and when I got tilted, I didn't let this issue change my style. There was 2 days that this happenned... today and 2 weeks ago when I lost during plo400 shot.
Im very satisfied with how I played.
- no casino, no sportbets.
+ Done !!! tempting this week that Im running bad, but not doing it ... doesn't matter what happens, im only gambling again after pay all debts.
- Became a solid 2/4 reg. Im not quitting 0.5/1 tables if this happens, because playing only 1 site , need play diferent stakes... right now I can't have a downswing at 2/4, I need a bit of lucky to became a 2/4 reg for real.
+ Not done. will stay playing small stakes for a long time.
- results............. I never played 150hours in a month. I don't know if I will play worse... playing 100hours per month I average $14k per month over a million hands sample size, without playing 2/4. I will be humble and say if I win $15k after a month its a 8/10 month. 10/10 is $20k +. $10k is 4/10... Less than $10k is possible but I will be very pissed. Losing is also possible and I need remember its part of the game. so, $12k-$17k its a good result. More than that its very good. less than that its not good.
+ Not ... depressed with my results. won $5,5k . its by far the worst month in my life . its also the month that I played most... will talk about detailed results below.
With the money I win, my next steps are:
- pay $8k to P2 .
- pay $3k to F.
- pay $1,1k to S.
+ paid 8k, 3k and 1,1k . also paid $3,2k to DM. I paid more than I should...
____________
sports.
gym 6x week, keep going.
running, 2x week without any injury. I want run more than 50km this month.
+ gym. was going solid 6x, but got sick... its been 2 and half weeks since Im not running or going to gym.
I ran only 10km this month... damn it !! Goal was 50km month...
GOALS November !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Poker
- 150 hours . Will be around 120k hands. Never played so many hours , lets try. In the past I was grinding 100hour per month which was a lot , but given my poor status and big debts , its time to go for the maximum possible.
+ Not done. didn't worked. I played 136hours, 122k hands total. It was harder and it took more energy than I expected. Im never again trying to play so much in a single month... its probably one of the reason Im weak at mindset this week, crying everytime for bad beats etc, burnout !!!!!!
Im happy that I tried, because Im trying to win more money fast as possible, and seeing some players playing 150hours, I had to try too... also, playing average 100hours like i usually do, I had in back of my mind that I wasn't doing the best I could at poker... Now, i don't have that felling anymore... 100hours is perfect, its a big poker grind, but still plenty of time to go out, relax, do whatever I want. For December i go for 120hours and see how it goes.
- Start ALL sessions before 5:30pm. More tables running, higher hourly rate. Otcober I was starting 8pm, 7:30pm...
+ Not done. I got sick, severe sinusitis, and was sleeping until 1-2pm...
- Play good, try not make mistakes, and when do mistakes, acept and don't get tilted.
+ Done. 95% of time i was playing great, didn't get tilted, and when I got tilted, I didn't let this issue change my style. There was 2 days that this happenned... today and 2 weeks ago when I lost during plo400 shot.
Im very satisfied with how I played.
- no casino, no sportbets.
+ Done !!! tempting this week that Im running bad, but not doing it ... doesn't matter what happens, im only gambling again after pay all debts.
- Became a solid 2/4 reg. Im not quitting 0.5/1 tables if this happens, because playing only 1 site , need play diferent stakes... right now I can't have a downswing at 2/4, I need a bit of lucky to became a 2/4 reg for real.
+ Not done. will stay playing small stakes for a long time.
- results............. I never played 150hours in a month. I don't know if I will play worse... playing 100hours per month I average $14k per month over a million hands sample size, without playing 2/4. I will be humble and say if I win $15k after a month its a 8/10 month. 10/10 is $20k +. $10k is 4/10... Less than $10k is possible but I will be very pissed. Losing is also possible and I need remember its part of the game. so, $12k-$17k its a good result. More than that its very good. less than that its not good.
+ Not ... depressed with my results. won $5,5k . its by far the worst month in my life . its also the month that I played most... will talk about detailed results below.
With the money I win, my next steps are:
- pay $8k to P2 .
- pay $3k to F.
- pay $1,1k to S.
+ paid 8k, 3k and 1,1k . also paid $3,2k to DM. I paid more than I should...
____________
sports.
gym 6x week, keep going.
running, 2x week without any injury. I want run more than 50km this month.
+ gym. was going solid 6x, but got sick... its been 2 and half weeks since Im not running or going to gym.
I ran only 10km this month... damn it !! Goal was 50km month...
Total failure this month. Why I failed in all aspects ?
Starting with sports, its obvious, day 9th November I got sick, severe sinusitis, hard to breath, went to hospital... my paranoid mind thougth maybe Id die, did many blood tests, it was ''nothing'', just this ****ing sinusitis... not my fault.
Now, back to poker... Why I had my worst month ever ? Im 100% sure the main reason is bad luck. I review the hands, compare stats, and i played like I always play. i ask myself many times if itwas the bad state of mind because sick sinusistis, but no, it was just bad luck . (I did tilted 2 days... and maybe I wouldn'thave tilted if I wasn't sick, i dont know)
detailed results:
plo100 ___ 65k hands, Lost $500 (-1bb, +1evbb)
Its a stake thats feels too small, but I still play because Im poor, lol, also because its easy to win money... I never ever thought this could happen to me at plo100. Acording to poker variance site, someone with 12bb and 147std dev has 1.8% change of losing after 65k hands. I have 10,5bb lifetime at plo100, but I do believe my winrate nowadays is 12bb... anyway, with 10bb winrate and 147std dev, theres a 4% chance of losing money after 65k hands. sick sick run...
plo200 ___ 48k hands, Won $10k (+10bb, +11evbb)
Im one of the bosses here... feels at home playing this stake. this results proves my bad run at plo100 is just bad run... my game is sharp and im ready to kill.
plo400 ___ 5k hands, Lost $4,5k (-25bb, -17evbb)
Pretty bad result... sure only 5k hands, means nothing, but with my little bankroll it means im not playing this stake again until a long time... just in months im back... its sad because many guys who i crush everyday at plo200 are playing plo400...
plo600/plo1k ___ 130 hands , won $700 (+41bb, +16evbb)
3/6 was ok to sit given the player, but 5/10 was stupid. I lost $300 at 3/6 and won $1k at 5/10.
plo2k ___ 6 hands
, won $200 (+177bb and +177evbb)wtf I did sitting here.... I admit, i was tilted and sat to play with regs. 1 orbit enough to realize I was being an idiot.. lesson learned, in this day i self-ban my account and the maximum i can sit is 1/2. which is good when the pilot is an idiot without break pedal.
ZOOM HU ___ 3k hands at plo100 and 200, won $600, AIEV -$600. Im going to play more here .
ZOOM 6max. ___ 730 hands at plo100 and 200. won $70, AIEV - $300. Im NOT going to play more here.
damn god, I can't believe I wrote this.. but yes, I LOST money in 1 month of plo100. Now Im experienced this bad run... I thought it was the worst possible. its close to it, but I had worst bad runs at this stakes last year, I didn't remember... Last year I was 80k hands breakeven at plo100... and I finished that year with +13bb... ya 25bbs runs happens too.
I can't change my luck, lets see what I can change.
- skill game of the month: 6/10. .
I learned a new bet size, its very cool. I think to improve myself to became a 7/10 player I need play more at 2/4+ to see what they are doing there. Also improve my mental game.
- Mindset, mental game, STATE OF MIND !! 5/10, average. There were days I was strong mindset, but days like today that i was very weak... being sick and staying at my house all time ****ed my mindset... how people stay sane without sports or weed... i was without both and couldn't sleep, tough... Honestly, for real, even with that bad state of mind I most days, almost always, I was very strong mindset . maybe I should give myself a 7/10...
Terrible month, actually the worst in my life (poker results), everything bad happens, and i still managed to have a poker bankroll
didnt broke this month, even idiots can learn and improve ! The results were pretty bad in all aspects, but looking back, Im satisfied with the month. I played the most hours I have ever played, I ran close to the worst possible, I didn't react well, but managed to not go broke, now Im healthy again, so its all good. bad results, but Im trying, Im on the right track.
12-01-2018
, 12:26 AM
I suck at tournaments, and Im unlucky, so not a good shot for me.
02-12-2021
, 09:20 PM
