Very true. Why is OP trying desperately hard to prove himself and get recognized? I think he needs to get out of this high school playground mentality and realize that no one gives a damn once you've left high school. Even his gf doesn't care about him, she's only after his money (he will realize this once he goes broke).

can you guys stop judging his relationship, you have no idea what she thinks or what she would do in X scenario, stick to the poker

Yeah +1 to Xeno’s last point, OP has a few leaks that he needs to address and can benefit from help but it’s unfair to comment on his gf’s motivations / her at all.

Totally agree with this.

OP we're gonna need pics of gf so we can properly judge

one of the top quotes from semi pro

jus sayin

I made a statement that she's high rake (which seems to be true from OP's post, he's welcome to correct me). I didn't judge or even mention anything about her thoughts/motives.

OP himself is high rake, never mind the gf. He has mediocre poker skills at best, no self-control whatsoever and a rapidly diminishing totally inadequate BR.

I give it one week at most before it implodes, and even that's being optimistic.

What are you talking about. OP can always win it back at 5/10.

As for playing drunk, OP hasn't demonstrated any real competence playing sober so it probably wouldn't make much difference.

Try dr. Pepper with JD and other X + coke cocktails, me likes

You know why you're a loser OP? You have a loser's mentality!!! Because you're ok with making all these mistakes the next day. Hold yourself accountable? You sound like you don't care. If I made the same mistakes you made I would be fuming irate with myself. I would self flagellate. You accept losing. You accept the fact that you're gonna get drunk and throw away 2k. That's a straight up loser's mentality.

With what money? If you lose I wouldn't get paid so no thanks. I'm not dumb enough to lend money to friends I don't think will pay and to stake a dirt poor friend on a 1 night basis for 50% profits nor am I dumb enough to bet against someone who cant pay when they lose. OF course you'd bet on yourself to succeed, you're delusional. You don't have all the facts.

Please post results lol.

I would rather die than be you. You should be ashamed of yourself.

OP,

Since you put it in your losses, don’t forget to add the amount to your WINNINGS when your friend pays you back.

If things go well, Day 2 as a pro could start with a $700 upswing before you even start playing!

dw

I have a really bad downswing every time my account runs good for a couple of days, normal

A few leaks?

OP is addicted to losing and I've known this feeling myself as well.

He will keep looking for more swings higher stakes untill he loses and can get in his fatalistic victim mentality.

He won't change untill he has lost everything, is in debt or bad health and comes knocking on his parents door for shelter and help.

Reading his drunk story it made me relive my own extreme degen moments and think of how bad it felt. Then I realised I was a student living at home, without any responsibilties or costs. It was only digital money what I lost and that already felt the worst.

I don't want to imagine how it feels when you add responsibilties, career, status, future and everything else OP is putting on the line.

Just damn, man. OP is in for one hell of a life downswing holy ****. Please keep updating OP because Im very interested how you will cope with it all, in the next few months.

What about a fundraiser for OP?

A few sessions of mental help/ gambling addiction talks with a professional?

OP could just become a coach, that's what most people do

Crown,

A lot of these posts seem overly dramatic. Guy is gonna have some big swings, probably more down than up, and probably go bust pretty fast. But he could easily run hot at 5/10 or PLO or hit a tourney score and be set for a long time. It’s probably a matter of weeks, but with a little luck it could be months or years.

So he busts, so what? He goes back to being a pizza delivery guy hitting the casino when he has a few extra bucks, and after his next heater he GOES PRO again. I don’t think it’s a big deal to take some time off and then re-join the pizza delivery career path even with a gap on your resume.

OP, a little inspiration for you. You got me pumped up to go play a little poker last night. Things went well, thanks!

I did have three pints of IPA, but it’s ok, I’m not a pro.

so u bought in with 500 and won a buy in, gratz

Tasty,

Thanks! Whites are hundreds tho.

Op,

How many hours a week would you need to work at a delivery job to make enough to not have to touch your poker bankroll for expenses?

was it a 5/5 game?

Tasty,

3/5, very close to one of OP’s main games!