cmon Shark, don't give up yet. I'm going soon then at least you'll have a partner to play penny HU

shark if you want to learn how to fit better, get your mom to read everything you write

you'll probably never write again and you'll feel better

Shark most boring nit in the world to play heads up. 50/34/2.9 with 0.6 aggression. Ran well for a while then when the balance started to swing and he was down a dollar he quit, lol. Scared money me thinks. Oh yeah, this was .08/.16.

wow, really ****ty stats

you won like 7bb of me which all went to rake. I won 300bb on a higher stake limit. It pays to nit up against donkeys like you lol.

Moved back to siem reap. went out and got really drunk and kinda blacked out. and was walking home cus im kinda close to the centre. and a tuk tuk driver kept following me and saying **** and aggresive and then i got in and he took me home.

Went out again saturday night after 10 hour poker session. got wasted at street vendor, first i was at restaurant and drank two black russians pretty quick and then bought about 4-5 long island ice teas from the street vendor. and was going to the two main clubs and basically the last thing i remember before crazy **** happen was me drinking two long islands ice tea at a time and snuk into the temple or whatever that bar is.

The next thing i remember was i was in a tuk tuk driving around with what i thought at the time was a prostitute but at the end i realized it was a lady boy. but anyway i dont remember hoping into the tuk tuk and i dont remember how the hell a lady boy was in the there. but i remember it unzipped my pants and was playing with me. then next thing i remember is the same tuk tuk driver from the night before saying he was going to kill me and had at the time i thought was big knife, but it could have been a big pole and i remeber blocking it and saying tomorrow i leave siem reap to pp.

Next thing i remember is walking and the sun is coming up and tuk tuk drive past with two ladyboys and they had my drivers license and two other cards.

And then met a guy from uk at like 6am and both bought a beer and i told him bout the knife and he was like, ok i know bjj lets go find him lol and said there was something on me neck. and then he was saying should go to police station. so i did and they didnt do anything so i left and went to sleep.

I blacked out so hard. prob worst ever. i remember it was like 1 when i got my last drinks and dont remember much from then til sunrise.

Anyways it was what i needed. i deserve to be hit. even tho i dont remember it or any pain. lol but its still sore now. and im def kick up the ass i need to stop ****ing drinking.

when i woke up the next morning it was hell. i felt so embarrassed and seedy. the group of tuk tuk drivers on corner yelled out. you ok? last night you have big problem. was humiliating lol



Thats two days after. and those aint rashes. its bruising type thing.



I dont know how i have a cut on shoulder. also my wrist is sore from it aswell. might be possible it was a knife and when he swung it cut my shoulder but didnt cut my neck or wrist? So wish i could reember why it happend. i only remember tiny bits. It was like my drinks where spiked or maybe it was that bad alchol? anyways massive motivation i need to give up. i stopped for like 2-3 weeks and then got drunk on my birthday and it was a downard spiral from there.

People in siem reap seem weirder, its like they look so bored and when they look at a tourist they think we are something big and special. where in pp they have alot more wealth there so tourists blend in and they dont stare at you and **** lol thats the vibe i get

Maybe a ladyboy spiked my drink in the club hahaha

yeah small tourist towns and islands have too many inbred violent locals. stick to cities

Looks like you got a hickey from a Lady boy op.

A hickie and a std scratch haha. def not a hickey

Well at least you got laid

http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/sh...postcount=2232

Today i went to a massage parlour. At the end she ask me if i want happy. and i wasnt sure but then said yes.... i hate that bout myself. i said i dont want to do prostitution. but i give in and have like very weak self control....

Was only a handy how **** lol... like i said i wasnt really that hard and actually couldnt orgasm even tho i was grabbing her tits and fingering her pussy. funny enough i orgasmed when i got home.

I did not like the experience not because of what happened. i was actually suprised how comfortable i felt doing it.. But its way worse than real sex with a girl. it felt kinda seedy like she was just going through the motions like another day in the office. When i left i notice she had bruises under her eyes and asked her whats that. and the look on her face was so horrible.

I feel so sad and depressed for her. I read this when i got home. http://www.catholiceducation.org/en/...stitution.html

I dont ever want to do that again. Sex with an uglier girls would be way more funner and enjoyable because they would actually be enjoying it and stuff and it would be like an orgy of good emotions, where as this was like ****ing a doll or raping someone or something. Did not feel right at all.

Anyways those dating guys are awesome, her is a motivation clip from one of the guys who plays poker lol as soon as i found out this guy plays poker i liked him alot more lol

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9bf0wGIEyy0

loooool, this is actually worse than broke broes thread, didnt think that was possible.

Raising that bar, taking it to the next level

fyp

its not degen stuff shark, its just extremely sad. The saddest part is the way you analyze all of this. Im extremely sad for you and i hope you find your way.

fyi most hookers make more than most poker players in south-east asia.(though most pokerplayers are making barely 1k)

Haha

next time i wont even look at the girl. Il walk in there put a paper bag over her face and just **** her might give her a few uppercuts while im at it

Some people musnt have felt what real sex feels like because they would all agree.

If your using prostitutes it just means you lack the skill with real women otherwise you wouldn't need prostitutes.

I suck/never even practiced cold approach pick up. ive only got laid through my social circle back in high school or through dating sites when i was out of high school.

I want to become good at cold approach pick up, i did look for dating site here but couldn't find good ones. i dont want to have to rely on dating sites. I have some wierd social problems around strangers. and would frather fix that then resort to prostitutes for the rest of my life. which is probly what happens to majority of people who resort to them.

Why would you want to try and get with a girl when you can get the easy option and get a prostitute, thats what your brain will start rationalizing and you wont work on the skills of getting a real women and you turn even more ****. like a downward spiral

Buying a woman in prostitution gives men the power to turn women into a living, breathing masturbation fantasy. He removes her self and those qualities that define her as an individual

Women who prostitute have described it as "paid rape"

60 per cent of women in legal prostitution were physically assaulted

In nine countries, we found that 68 per cent of women, men and transgendered people in prostitution had post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD),

47 per cent of US johns who responded to an online escort advertisement were willing to buy a child despite three warnings.

Those women most often are poor and most often are racially marginalised.

These girls gotta eat, don't they? I'm putting bread on their plate. I'm making a contribution. They'd starve to death unless they whored. (...i...)

This john-sympathetic economic Darwinism avoids the question: Do all women have the right to live without the sexual harassment or sexual exploitation of prostitution or is that right reserved only for those who have sex, race or class privilege?

I rarely think this but im fairly certain there's no hope for you

Free rape > paid rape.

Nice comeback. you win

Lol took me a while to get this haha

fyp

OP, something happened in your childhood to fawk you up. You need to seek therapy to get to the bottom of your issues. Not joking.

haha offers me therapy but yet supports prostitution lol... therapy is actually a good idea for everyone, even daniel negranu recommends it because everyone was ****ed up to a certain degree as a child. So thank you sir, i might do that one day