another swongy BE day.
I feel like for the last 750 games card distribution has just been brutal for me.
Feels like I never hit draws, never hit flops or hit flop and get worst possible runout. Meanwhile, villains can do no wrong. Hits every draw, rivers jin cards like it's nothing, 3 barrels into my flopped TP and backs into 2 pairs, nuts vs 2nd nuts etc
And shallow push game is a bloodbath. I have Ax? np he has better Ax, I have Kx np he has better Kx and so on.
However I'm not gonna blame poor results on this alone (in fact, maybe it's all in my head? Like selective memory, not sure
). My game certainly could use a lot of improvements. I still make spazzy calls etc and realize after the hand that it's bad. I'm also sure I make tons of awful mistakes which I don't even realize.
I do feel good about how I'm handling it though
I do not
consciously make bad plays when running bad. I do not get even slightly mad or start mumbling things about how it's "unfair" to myself (which I used to)
All that happens is a sense of hopelessness when grinding.
Now that's enough whining for this month
Let's be positive from now on!
Volume target for tomorrow will be 137 games. Then I'm gonna try to hit 200 games for as many days in a row as possible (will be happy with 2)