Does anybody else ever feel like they just want to quit while they’re ahead? I took like almost 2 weeks off. Not because I was losing or tilted or anything. Actually quite the opposite. I was on a massive upswing. And then I got this feeling like I didn’t want to lose any of it back so I just didn’t play for 2 weeks.
Then the last 2 days I forced myself to play and lost 10k and now I feel like I never want to play poker again. I’ve gone through phases like this before so I’m sure it will pass but idk. I feel like I really don’t love poker anymore. I just do it because it’s the best way I know how to make money.
I’ve been playing for so long now.. almost 15 years
Idk how guys who have been grinding for as long as I have have the motivation and passion for the game to grind day in and day out for a decade or longer. Especially the ones who are financially secure. When I was struggling I felt so motivated. But now that I feel a little bit of security it’s really a struggle to find the motivation.
Maybe I just need to move to Texas or Florida and start playing live. Live is a lot more fun for me... or maybe I just need to start studying e-commerce or some **** and I find a new hobby that I enjoy grinding. Idk either way I’m going to be taking a break again until I feel at least a little bit of the passion return. Forcing it is no bueno in my opinion.
Besides that I’ve just been riding around town in my new Tesla and going to the gym. That’s a new hobby that I actually feel passion for. I’m starting to get addicted to the results I’m getting in the gym. So much so, that I joined a second gym a couple weeks ago that is 24/7, so that I could start going 2x per day. My routine right now is to go to my normal gym a few hours after waking up for 1-1.5 hours and then go to the 2nd gym at around midnight for 1-1.5 hours.
I’m starting to put on a little muscle but still have a long way to go. I’ve doubled all of my 1 set max reps basically on every lift. But that’s not saying much because I’ve been a skinny lil nerd my entire life lol. For example my max in bench when I first started working out was about 90lbs (lol). And now it’s about 185lbs. So I’m making good progress but still a long way to go.
I’ve also been in a good routine with meditation. I’m on about a 2 week consecutive days streak. Which is the longest I’ve done this year by a decent margin. So I’m going to keep that going. Those are my two keystone habits right now. They are non-negotiable. Everything else, including poker, is going to be a feel play.