TO FEEL ALIVE @ 2018
02-07-2018
, 04:29 AM
Hello, my name is Michael, I am 24 years old. I am from Poland but currently I am living in Brighton, England. I finished studies at my country, direction: finances and accounting, anyway I had troubles with finding well paid job in my country so I left Poland at november 2017. I was working in England in some ****ty place, in the kitchen, but week ago I have found another, perfect job for the poker player. I have became the NIGHT PORTER in the hotel 
Basically I am getting paid for playing poker, I just have to know if everything is going ok in the building.
The title is "TO FEEL ALIVE @ 2018" because I didn't feel alive since few years, I am a simple man, all I need at first place is the money, when I am financially independent it just can't be that bad. It is pretty depressing that I left my country to find this money, but even here, in England, it's not so easy. I am living in popular tourist city, it's pretty expensive and doing standard 40h/week doesn't make me feel alive at all That is why I need the additional incomes, I didn't have too many ideas how to do it, so I came back to the old one - POKER.
I am playing poker about 3 years.
- I started with MTT, but I didn't earn too much money there, the biggest achievement was the 5th place in big $1,1- about 150$, I had no idea about the strategy in these times, anyway I was happy as hell after this torunament
-In 2017 I was playing alot of the Spin&Go's, in total more than 3000 spins, half of them was on 3$ stakes with over 75cev/game+. Variance made me so mad that I had to go somewhere else.
- Then I was playing cash games, mostly zooms NL10 on PartyPoker, but I had no idea about those games, I knew nothing about table selection, notes etc. I had breakeven profit.
- After the big break (about 5 months), which was connected with coming to England I started to play normal cashes on PokerStars. The break was great for me, because I was watching alot of video materials and Twitch streams in a free time. The graphs:
There is combined NL5 and NL10. I have crushed NL5 in few days, with about 20bb/100+. This is the image from the old database, this is the 2nd part of NL10 stats:
So in total I have played about 30k hand at nl10 with about 13bb/100. I consider this as a good result.
I dont know what sometimes happens to my red line, I have days that I feel like I am crushing, and in other days my red line goes down like crazy, unfortunelly together with my green line. I am watching alot of the materials, but I dont have any for sure good sources that I could believe 100%, that's why I am trying different not balanced things and sometimes it looks like that.
Someday I would love to comeback to the MTT's. I have played few sessions last time and I love it, after all those cashes and spins experiences I feel big edge over the field, unfortunelly my situation right now doesn't allow me to play the long MTT sessions, so meaby someday, we'll see.
GOALS:
- The main goal isn't just a poker thing, it is general thing for 2018. I have to find some Benjamins Franklins and then take care of the other things in the life. Over $10k in savings is a good, reachable goal for 2018.
- Main Poker Goal is to reach the NL50 in this year. I have a lot of the time to study and play, so all I need is a motivation and good sources of knowledge, if you could help me with that, feel free
I am counting on your feedback, see you guyz @ better tomorrow.
15.01.2018: 100$ <- STARTING BANKROLL
07.02.2018: 650$
Basically I am getting paid for playing poker, I just have to know if everything is going ok in the building. The title is "TO FEEL ALIVE @ 2018" because I didn't feel alive since few years, I am a simple man, all I need at first place is the money, when I am financially independent it just can't be that bad. It is pretty depressing that I left my country to find this money, but even here, in England, it's not so easy. I am living in popular tourist city, it's pretty expensive and doing standard 40h/week doesn't make me feel alive at all
That is why I need the additional incomes, I didn't have too many ideas how to do it, so I came back to the old one - POKER. I am playing poker about 3 years.
- I started with MTT, but I didn't earn too much money there, the biggest achievement was the 5th place in big $1,1- about 150$, I had no idea about the strategy in these times, anyway I was happy as hell after this torunament
-In 2017 I was playing alot of the Spin&Go's, in total more than 3000 spins, half of them was on 3$ stakes with over 75cev/game+. Variance made me so mad that I had to go somewhere else.
- Then I was playing cash games, mostly zooms NL10 on PartyPoker, but I had no idea about those games, I knew nothing about table selection, notes etc. I had breakeven profit.
- After the big break (about 5 months), which was connected with coming to England I started to play normal cashes on PokerStars. The break was great for me, because I was watching alot of video materials and Twitch streams in a free time. The graphs:
There is combined NL5 and NL10. I have crushed NL5 in few days, with about 20bb/100+. This is the image from the old database, this is the 2nd part of NL10 stats:
So in total I have played about 30k hand at nl10 with about 13bb/100. I consider this as a good result.
I dont know what sometimes happens to my red line, I have days that I feel like I am crushing, and in other days my red line goes down like crazy, unfortunelly together with my green line. I am watching alot of the materials, but I dont have any for sure good sources that I could believe 100%, that's why I am trying different not balanced things and sometimes it looks like that.
Someday I would love to comeback to the MTT's. I have played few sessions last time and I love it, after all those cashes and spins experiences I feel big edge over the field, unfortunelly my situation right now doesn't allow me to play the long MTT sessions, so meaby someday, we'll see.
GOALS:
- The main goal isn't just a poker thing, it is general thing for 2018. I have to find some Benjamins Franklins and then take care of the other things in the life. Over $10k in savings is a good, reachable goal for 2018.
- Main Poker Goal is to reach the NL50 in this year. I have a lot of the time to study and play, so all I need is a motivation and good sources of knowledge, if you could help me with that, feel free
I am counting on your feedback, see you guyz @ better tomorrow.
15.01.2018: 100$ <- STARTING BANKROLL
07.02.2018: 650$
02-09-2018
, 02:50 AM
Hello everybody.
Yesterday was again MTT day. I was running pretty nice in few tournaments, but unfortunelly couldn't close anything. I finished about 100 in hyper-turbo 5,5$, pushed 77 from SB on 11 blinds, the guy on BB woke up with KK, unlucky. The second deep run was on BB 3,3$, finished ~200. Had pretty solid stack and position, but I have tried to be dodgy in one spot. Agressive guy open on HJ, the guy who limped few hands earlier called this pot again and I was with KJ on BB. There was 30k in the pot already and I had about 120k in my stack. I pushed it, the opener snap folded, and the guy from CO tanked and called AJs, dominated hand gg. I was thinking long time about this hand, but in general I think that was pretty good spot, 30k in the middle was very significant for my stack. As I said, I still feel very big edge on the MTT field, I will try to play so many MTT sessions as possible.
Also yesterday I've played some spins, for the 2nd time in my life I got 25x and I lost it
Earlier as I said, I played about 3000 spins and got it only once, god poker is above me right now. I have also played some hands on cashes: +90$, 4k hands, 22b/100:
There would be more hands today, but I was fighting whole day with TableScan Turbo, but now I know it's not supported anymore on Pokerstars and that's why this didnt autosit me to the tables I need to buy additional monitor for the better table selection, it's very annoying to play 8 tables + searching the lobby all the time on one little screen, I have my little monster computer in Poland, but I didn't bring it here and I am playing on 17 inches screen laptop, sick.
Tomorrow work and cash games :>
15.01.2018: 100$
09.02.2018: 850$
The plan for the next 6 days is to make 250$ profit, that would be exactly 1000$ profit after 1 month, can be hard to do, but possible. Cu guyz, and thanks for feedback.
Yesterday was again MTT day. I was running pretty nice in few tournaments, but unfortunelly couldn't close anything. I finished about 100 in hyper-turbo 5,5$, pushed 77 from SB on 11 blinds, the guy on BB woke up with KK, unlucky. The second deep run was on BB 3,3$, finished ~200. Had pretty solid stack and position, but I have tried to be dodgy in one spot. Agressive guy open on HJ, the guy who limped few hands earlier called this pot again and I was with KJ on BB. There was 30k in the pot already and I had about 120k in my stack. I pushed it, the opener snap folded, and the guy from CO tanked and called AJs, dominated hand gg. I was thinking long time about this hand, but in general I think that was pretty good spot, 30k in the middle was very significant for my stack. As I said, I still feel very big edge on the MTT field, I will try to play so many MTT sessions as possible.
Also yesterday I've played some spins, for the 2nd time in my life I got 25x and I lost it
Earlier as I said, I played about 3000 spins and got it only once, god poker is above me right now. I have also played some hands on cashes: +90$, 4k hands, 22b/100:There would be more hands today, but I was fighting whole day with TableScan Turbo, but now I know it's not supported anymore on Pokerstars and that's why this didnt autosit me to the tables
I need to buy additional monitor for the better table selection, it's very annoying to play 8 tables + searching the lobby all the time on one little screen, I have my little monster computer in Poland, but I didn't bring it here and I am playing on 17 inches screen laptop, sick.Tomorrow work and cash games :>
15.01.2018: 100$
09.02.2018: 850$
The plan for the next 6 days is to make 250$ profit, that would be exactly 1000$ profit after 1 month, can be hard to do, but possible. Cu guyz, and thanks for feedback.
Last edited by AIKERRO; 02-09-2018 at 03:15 AM.
02-10-2018
, 06:26 AM
Hello guyz, in last post I said that would be great if I would made 250$ in this week to close this month with 1000$ profit. And today I am almost done with that goal. After losing like 3BI on NL10 I thought I am gonna try myself at NL16:
Those stakes today were so soft. Almost no good regs, just few aggro monkeys and alot of fishes. That was one of my easiest sessions. I need only 64$ to make the 1000$ profit in the month, I have tried to make it today but I have played for like 10 hours and I am crazy tired, that little downswing at the end showed me that I should just go to sleep
I think that is the crazy result, if we consider fact that I have climbed from nl5 to nl16 in this month. I wasnt even active one week in this month and I have still 1 week more left to close this month. So those results are from like +2 weeks. NL50 I am coming!
Waiting for feedback guyz.
15.01.2018: 100$
10.02.2018: 1036$
Those stakes today were so soft. Almost no good regs, just few aggro monkeys and alot of fishes. That was one of my easiest sessions. I need only 64$ to make the 1000$ profit in the month, I have tried to make it today but I have played for like 10 hours and I am crazy tired, that little downswing at the end showed me that I should just go to sleep
I think that is the crazy result, if we consider fact that I have climbed from nl5 to nl16 in this month. I wasnt even active one week in this month and I have still 1 week more left to close this month. So those results are from like +2 weeks. NL50 I am coming!
Waiting for feedback guyz.
15.01.2018: 100$
10.02.2018: 1036$
02-15-2018
, 10:25 PM
Hello guyz, I have officialy achieved my little goal today: 1000$ profit in the month climbing from nl5.
I would finish it much faster, but I had few terrible days, I am feeling sick, also in two days I had problems with my mindset, I knew I should give up playing that days but I couldnt #gambleproblems So I was just giving away money, about 150 cash, 50 tournaments and some on spins. I was sure it is impossible to grind it back on time, but last 2 days I was just killing it.
Last 2 sessions nl16:
Summary:
NL 5 / NL 10 old database:
NL 10 / NL 16:
15.01.2018: 100$
15.02.2018: 1114$
Period of time: 1 month with one inactive week.
Amount of hands: ~79k
Cashes profit: 950$
Rakeback/tournaments: 64$
NL5: 16k hands, 20bb/100
NL10: 42k hands, 10,5bb/100
NL16: 20k hands, 11bb/100
I still feel very strong, but I have to learn to give up sometimes, obviously I'm not a machine and cant play my A game everyday. Hide yo kids, hide yo wife, NL25 I am coming! Propably I will get healthy in next few days and I am gonna attack those stakes, wish me luck guyz. I will appreciate the feedback!
I would finish it much faster, but I had few terrible days, I am feeling sick, also in two days I had problems with my mindset, I knew I should give up playing that days but I couldnt #gambleproblems
So I was just giving away money, about 150 cash, 50 tournaments and some on spins. I was sure it is impossible to grind it back on time, but last 2 days I was just killing it.Last 2 sessions nl16:
Summary:
NL 5 / NL 10 old database:
NL 10 / NL 16:
15.01.2018: 100$
15.02.2018: 1114$
Period of time: 1 month with one inactive week.
Amount of hands: ~79k
Cashes profit: 950$
Rakeback/tournaments: 64$
NL5: 16k hands, 20bb/100
NL10: 42k hands, 10,5bb/100
NL16: 20k hands, 11bb/100
I still feel very strong, but I have to learn to give up sometimes, obviously I'm not a machine and cant play my A game everyday. Hide yo kids, hide yo wife, NL25 I am coming! Propably I will get healthy in next few days and I am gonna attack those stakes, wish me luck guyz. I will appreciate the feedback!
02-16-2018
, 05:36 PM
NL16 is pretty easy for me right now, I wouldn't say I get 3 fishes per table, but yeah, it is still pretty soft. There is also more "aggro regs" who just go for 3bet/bet/bet/bet in many situations I am playing even like 10-15 tables at one time so in late hours I am taking over the whole lobby sometimes. Usually i play like 60-70% tables vs 4 regs, and 30-40% tables vs 2-3 regs. But they are also exploitable, so it is not so bad.
My nickname on stars is the same: AIKERRO.
Thanks for the comment and cu on the tables ]:->
I am playing even like 10-15 tables at one time so in late hours I am taking over the whole lobby sometimes. Usually i play like 60-70% tables vs 4 regs, and 30-40% tables vs 2-3 regs. But they are also exploitable, so it is not so bad. My nickname on stars is the same: AIKERRO.
Thanks for the comment and cu on the tables ]:->
02-23-2018
, 01:32 AM
Hello guyz,
I didn't reply for few days because I was crushed inside. The first thing was that I was feeling sick again, also few days ago I went to the party and I had hangover for like 3 days, I was also feeling little bit depressed, I don't know exactly why, meaby it is also connected with my night shift's job. In this week I have played just few short sessions.
Firstly I have tried to make some shots on NL25, what made my self-confidence go hardly down:
1st session was from 0-4000 hands, I remember it very well, I got few badbeats on the start of the session, made some mistakes, but I went back to grinding and it felt very easy. The field was so soft that day, I just couldn't believe it is so easy on those stakes, anyway I have finished the session on break-even profit. Next day I have played that last unfortunate 1,5k hands where I have lost almost 6 BI. I felt terrible, I felt like nothing was going like it supposed to. Plus I felt those 6 BI on NL25 very hard, I had in my mind that one moth ago I was grinding those 150$ on nl5 for few hard days and now I have just lost it in less than hour. I felt really terrible, plus as I said on beggining, I was in generally bad psychical condition. So I didn't touch poker for few days.
After those few days I thought I am gonna make a MTT day on the off day, I have played some micro/low stakes tournaments, I was running pretty good in big 3,3$, had like 50 stack from 300, but my cousin made me go with him on the party so I started to all in very wide to finish the tournament fast
Then I was feeling terrible for few days, and finally after all those bad days, I went back to my NL16 routine. That is my today's session:
And that was exactly what my ego needed. I just can't believe that only 1,5k hands can affect so hard on my mindset, I know that is stupid but sometimes I just can't control it.
My plan was to go on NL25 as fast as possible, but I thought that I'm not in hurry for that. I think I shouldn't do anything what can affect on my comfort of playing. So I decided that plan for this month is to grind 2000$ to my bankroll and than attack the NL25! 80BI should be enough to feel comfortable on those stakes.
By the way, I would love to say hi to one Brazilian guy who recognized my on the table, I am so sorry that I couldn't reply more and faster, but as you could see, I was pretty busy grinding all those tables. If you would like to say something to me, leave the reply in here, I will give you my whole attention. That is so nice feeling that I can see somebody's reading this topic and recognize me, big up my man!
15.01.2018: 100$
15.02.2018: 1114$
23.02.2018: 1155$
I didn't reply for few days because I was crushed inside. The first thing was that I was feeling sick again, also few days ago I went to the party and I had hangover for like 3 days, I was also feeling little bit depressed, I don't know exactly why, meaby it is also connected with my night shift's job. In this week I have played just few short sessions.
Firstly I have tried to make some shots on NL25, what made my self-confidence go hardly down:
1st session was from 0-4000 hands, I remember it very well, I got few badbeats on the start of the session, made some mistakes, but I went back to grinding and it felt very easy. The field was so soft that day, I just couldn't believe it is so easy on those stakes, anyway I have finished the session on break-even profit. Next day I have played that last unfortunate 1,5k hands where I have lost almost 6 BI. I felt terrible, I felt like nothing was going like it supposed to. Plus I felt those 6 BI on NL25 very hard, I had in my mind that one moth ago I was grinding those 150$ on nl5 for few hard days and now I have just lost it in less than hour. I felt really terrible, plus as I said on beggining, I was in generally bad psychical condition. So I didn't touch poker for few days.
After those few days I thought I am gonna make a MTT day on the off day, I have played some micro/low stakes tournaments, I was running pretty good in big 3,3$, had like 50 stack from 300, but my cousin made me go with him on the party so I started to all in very wide to finish the tournament fast
Then I was feeling terrible for few days, and finally after all those bad days, I went back to my NL16 routine. That is my today's session:
And that was exactly what my ego needed. I just can't believe that only 1,5k hands can affect so hard on my mindset, I know that is stupid but sometimes I just can't control it.
My plan was to go on NL25 as fast as possible, but I thought that I'm not in hurry for that. I think I shouldn't do anything what can affect on my comfort of playing. So I decided that plan for this month is to grind 2000$ to my bankroll and than attack the NL25! 80BI should be enough to feel comfortable on those stakes.
By the way, I would love to say hi to one Brazilian guy who recognized my on the table, I am so sorry that I couldn't reply more and faster, but as you could see, I was pretty busy grinding all those tables. If you would like to say something to me, leave the reply in here, I will give you my whole attention. That is so nice feeling that I can see somebody's reading this topic and recognize me, big up my man!
15.01.2018: 100$
15.02.2018: 1114$
23.02.2018: 1155$
02-23-2018
, 11:57 PM
Hello hello,
Today in the evening we have met again I don't know what exactly do you mean by sweat session, but it sounds nice ! I can give you my private facebook if you want, that will be easier to get in touch.
Today's session was pretty standard. There was not too much action on the NL16, I was thinking about getting on NL25 but I had that unfortunate session in my mind, I was also thinking about my goal before I will go to the higher stakes, so I stayed on my stakes.
Today's session:
15.01.2018: 100$
15.02.2018: 1114$
23.02.2018: 1155$
24.02.2018: 1210$
Today in the evening we have met again
I don't know what exactly do you mean by sweat session, but it sounds nice ! I can give you my private facebook if you want, that will be easier to get in touch. Today's session was pretty standard. There was not too much action on the NL16, I was thinking about getting on NL25 but I had that unfortunate session in my mind, I was also thinking about my goal before I will go to the higher stakes, so I stayed on my stakes.
Today's session:
15.01.2018: 100$
15.02.2018: 1114$
23.02.2018: 1155$
24.02.2018: 1210$
02-24-2018
, 11:37 PM
Hello guyz, today's session was so boring. Almost no action on NL16, I was playing about 12 tables and felt like I was playing all of them against the same people. Got some unlucky badbeats, but I was generally happy about my game. Today break even at cashes:
BUT, I just thought I will start 2 Spin and Goes before I turn off the Pokerstars soft. AAAAAAAND....
Red field, 25x won
So my bankroll looks like this right now:
15.01.2018: 100$
15.02.2018: 1114$
23.02.2018: 1155$
24.02.2018: 1210$
25.02.2018: 1295$
BUT, I just thought I will start 2 Spin and Goes before I turn off the Pokerstars soft. AAAAAAAND....
Red field, 25x won
So my bankroll looks like this right now:
15.01.2018: 100$
15.02.2018: 1114$
23.02.2018: 1155$
24.02.2018: 1210$
25.02.2018: 1295$
02-26-2018
, 11:38 PM
Hello my dear friends,
In last 3 days I was again tired so I didn't play too much, anyway today I came back to life and grinded a little more.
First 1,1k hands are from 2 last days, and from 1,1k to the end that was today's session. As you can see that was pretty much rollercaster today, I was killing it, but at some point I have got 2 big bad beats, 50$ pot KK>AA, We got it in on flop and he got runner runner street. The second over 30$ pot was vs fish, he was 3betting like every hand, I got it in preflop with AK, he called and showed 22. Flip but anyway, He would get it in in every hand I dominate with AK. After those 2 big pots I've lost my energy, so I was just clicking buttons. Anyway today I was that 40$ on plus, I am not happy about because field was soft and I should do much much more money. Also in last few days I have played few spin and goes for fun, so I got few dollars from that.
Also about 3 days ago someone recognized me on the table again, high five mah man!
Bankroll:
15.01.2018: 100$
15.02.2018: 1114$
23.02.2018: 1155$
24.02.2018: 1210$
25.02.2018: 1295$
27.02.2018: 1398$
In last 3 days I was again tired so I didn't play too much, anyway today I came back to life and grinded a little more.
First 1,1k hands are from 2 last days, and from 1,1k to the end that was today's session. As you can see that was pretty much rollercaster today, I was killing it, but at some point I have got 2 big bad beats, 50$ pot KK>AA, We got it in on flop and he got runner runner street. The second over 30$ pot was vs fish, he was 3betting like every hand, I got it in preflop with AK, he called and showed 22. Flip but anyway, He would get it in in every hand I dominate with AK. After those 2 big pots I've lost my energy, so I was just clicking buttons. Anyway today I was that 40$ on plus, I am not happy about because field was soft and I should do much much more money. Also in last few days I have played few spin and goes for fun, so I got few dollars from that.
Also about 3 days ago someone recognized me on the table again, high five mah man!
Bankroll:
15.01.2018: 100$
15.02.2018: 1114$
23.02.2018: 1155$
24.02.2018: 1210$
25.02.2018: 1295$
27.02.2018: 1398$