Hello since this my first post so I will go a little more in depth about myself , My name is Xufeng Liang I am a 32 year old accountant living in london. I was born and raised in China moving to the U.K when I was 7. Growing up in a middle class professional household I basically had every benefit laid at my feet. However being a single child to asian family can be extremely stressful (nothing new there, seems like pretty well documented fact). At a young age I defined my idea of success by the goals my parent set for me, believing that making them happy will ultimately make me the happiest. As I grew older, I continued to follow this methodology defining myself by those around me, my friends/bosses and relationships. I became one of those weird chameleon like people changing myself based on the people around me. However despite the abundance of opportunities I began to resent everything and everyone in life, and slowly became extremely angry and depressed.
On a sunny morning in London I snapped, I woke up and and realised ****, I am ****ing almost dead, I think I may have completely wasted my ****ing life. I am in a job that I hate, a toxic relationship, and everyday I resented waking up the morning. This culminated into a mental breakdown of sorts, tinged with elements of madness, ( I would refuse to get out of bed for days at a time, except to go to the toilet, I would also phone my friends and randomly scream at them, really really sorry guys).
But ultimately it was one of the best things for me where I took time to finally evaluate my life(out of madness comes clarity) . I decided to start a clean slate, I left the relationship and started working part time for a Boss i actually like and am inspired from as opposed to just making the most amount of money.
Which leads to poker,I’ve always had an immense passion for the game, but never pursued with the kinda zeal it deserves. With a new sense of commitment I was lucky enough to find like-minded players like Ben and especially mike who has been a major inspiration to me not only mentally but spiritually, and i really don’t know how i could have made it through such a tough time in my life without him as my absolute rock. He’s the person i wish i could be! although he does get extremely ranty and loves to point out how smart he thinks he is, but Mike is obviously much smarter than myself and Ben put together, and it pains me to say, much more handsome too.
So to keep it simple my all consuming goal is to move to mid to high stakes within a year. I am currently only playing NL25 right now, and I am fully aware of the amount of work ( and high risk of ruin).. Currently I am bankrolled for much bigger games, but am in experimentation phase of my poker career, as I started invested in coaching, study group/ sweats and work with equilibrium solvers.
I will try to move up stakes every few weeks hopefully I will jump up to nl50 and post some results soon.Future posts will probably have a strong strategic theme, with this growth into range vs range thinking. Here's my chart, low hand sample, but like Chairman mao said, we gots to start somewhere.
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P.s this post has been edited by my fiend mike