Hello everyone, Im not a stupid person but I just make bad decisions and my love for poker started about half a year ago but I guess I jumped into the game to early and too quick. Im 18 years old and am currently awaiting to start technical school in January but live in the Florida area so it is legal for me to play poker. The stubbornness I have showed to myself has caused me to be forced to give up the game of poker for a little break. The dream I have is to one day become a professional poker player but I don't want to go broke by playing the game more unexperienced and less skilled than the others I play in the various casinos I have been attending. My game is not the worst but it is just so incomplete that it has caused me to lose almost $1000 in just 2 weeks because I lose and I continue to return knowing I will most likely lose but I just didn't seem to care. Yesterday was my worst loss when I bought in 3 separate times and just tilted it all off. After I lose my hard earned money I then think about the various things I could have used that money on. What I have proposed to myself is a fresh start, with more studying and more practice before I go back to the real felt. Im going to continue to pursue my dreams even though I have hit a very rough bump in the road and have just been young and stupid. First I must get my education and then I must work at poker on the side in hopes to one days make it to the top but right now my life seems like a blur. My losses have really gotten to me but I don't want to call it quits. The worst part is you feel like a degen gambler when your parents are "worried" for you since they don't live with me but can see my bank withdrawals when I play. All I want to do is be smart, give it a break, and come back strong while proving my parents wrong and making them happy.