Look on the bright side, you do not have bj anymore which could be costly. Still solid win overall. Hope it turn around soon.

Thanks Man... in diff world with Blackjack in play it would def open the floodgates to give every cent away as I have done oh so many times... 13th in tourney... oh let me make 3rd oh **** that didnt work lets make the account $0.00 so I can sleep good that worked wake up and remember and want to die

I tried to degen this time by signing up for a bunch of 2 card poker tournaments and somehow godmoded a $22 NLHE turbo and shipped it for $480 and then got second in another $22 for $150 ish... pretty much ran perfect in both of them... won the bigger one by limp jamming A5 and beating A10 so keep that in back pocket next time I cry .

also punted around quite a but... dumped a stack in $100PLO. I think I can battle there just cash game awakens the Degen just gotta use it to play good and fearless but don't cross the line.......

Gonna try to switch it up and grind all the Touneys including nlhe for a bit see where that takes us...

48 Games +$567

575 Games
Total Profit $2067

Forays into No Limit have not been successful at all.

-$950.. also have been venturing into nba playoffs and -$50 ish there...

turned Poker into Blackjack.. playing like an absolute spazz building and dusting huge stacks every tourney.. getting destroyed in HU SNGS..

I ****ed up... broke the rules again... so we are going to start anew...

1) $815.20 Bankroll
2) Omaha and 08 SNGS only
3) Update this thread every 100 Games.
4)$10,000 Target Profit. Don't fall.

man sorry to hear that. i know its hard to do, but try to get more comfortable with small losses.

you are a very consistent winner (i wish i had as little variance as you!). but then it seems like at some point you just lose a few too many games and go and blast off a huge % of your bankroll.

just take the small loss and live to battle another day, its ok to have losing sessions/days/weeks.

Thanks man... you are absolutely right... just always bleed like a pig when I lose... continue to be cut up... battling the $55 HU sngs and getting crushed... can't win a close out all in ever...

I am so disgusted and enraged and tilted and frustrated like how can I play this bad... quitting the thread for a bit just dont have the fight in me.

I really am the sickest degenerate on the planet.

Got Blackjack re enabled.

Lost $2200 straight playing it just now.

I have no idea what the **** is wrong with me. How can I keep doing this and face myself.... I am chasing the pain and I will always ****ing get there....

another aborted PGC the degenerate ****ing hamster wheel continues.

hopefully commiting this to the world wide web will help something sink in.

New Plan.

No poker until the end of the month.

Month of May

1) 2500 Omaha Games
2) No weed.
3) Punish myself for being this much of a degenerate... can't do this ever again...

I suck sorry for suck a ****ty update...

Will update every 100 Games from now on No excuses there either.

Things can only go up......

Unless they keep going down.

Lost in BJ, but staying away from poker? Makes sense.

Pretty simple I want pain not money

Just can't get out of my degenerate path... deposited $600.... ran it down to $200 and then for 3rd in $33 plo8ament to get it up to $1050.... back to $800 now.

Just not playing with any control, can't fold a thing, trying to steamroll everyone without repping anything.. tried to quit weed but rage too much without sedation so quit that after a few days as well....

all very frustrating. I need a fresh start, a fresh mindset. my mental game sucks, amazing how pyschological poker is, you lose and you cant think straight.... just want hurt yourself more, become addicted to the pain more than anything...

anyway I seem to do better when I am chasing a goal so another fresh start.

2500 Games
$10000 target profit
Only Omaha... No limit sends me in a frenzy also.
Update every 25 Games...
Don't ****ing give in... It is too easy to. Dare to be excellent and not a degenerate savage.