Lull
After a week str8 of not getting more than
4h of sleep on any given night - the combination of jet lag, flights, MTT expectations and the natural high of a final table, actually made anything more than an hour stretch of snoozing tough af
-, I show up in a weird mental/physical state of Day
2 of the ME
Call it manic energy, frantic vibes or whatever, but I am on a mission to either make a deep run or bust and call it a series in order to meditate/catch some sleep. I proceed to run bad and finish
425th, just short out of the
287 qualifying for the money. But it matters little as it is with a sense of freedom and BIG grin on my face that I zoom back home, meditate for
8h (over the course of last night and this afternoon) and sleep for
11h yo
Mission accomplished. Those
2 words alone kind of express the relief of my
40k score
Yup, mission accomplished indeed
The luv I got in my fb feed is humbling as hell (mainly support from Dawson) and the reaction of my family has been priceless (never thought my dad would ever be impressed by anything I would accomplish in the gambling world
). I guess a decent MTT score is a way to materialize for others - and myself as well, I guess... - all the effort put into this
2-4 card game. Put into perspective, running good in a single tourney is far less impressive then crushing online midstakes in 2018, but people buy into narratives right, not into the random virtual profits made by clicking away in da online pokerz
Despite bouncing myself in between family time, some flights back to the Yukon, a
550kms drive up to Dawson and a retirement party on Wednesday evening, I should be able to put in a few hours on the virtual felt this week, yo
And then Thursday will be the beginning of another
4 days of tourneys, as the season ending tournaments will debut in Dawson.
Quote:
Originally Posted by wj294
It might be different at higher stakes but it always baffles me when the young ‘regs’ grinding 1/1 games berate fish and think they’re doing better in life than the guy who can drop hundreds a night and not care at all.
Yup, it baffles me as well. I have been avoiding LLSNL for partly this reason and from my (limited) experience (and the testament of others), mid-highstakes pros have been around for long enough to actually "get it". Not sure to what extent all forms of arrogance are originated from insecurities, deep-rooted or not, but I for sure allocate the ones expressed by the LLSNL pros to the fear of fading out. Of being insignificant. Another passing star. I feel that they have this desperate need of recognition, an anxious desire to see their (absence of
) skill confirmed by others... They are trying to anchor themselves in the moment, as that imminent fear of drifting away is always threatening at the horizon...
+90.3k in the past 2 months
Run good all
Last edited by Dubnjoy000; 09-02-2018 at 10:16 PM.